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last modified Dec 22, 2001 at 22:31
well, happy belated one year birthday little blog. Huzzah!
"You look like my old gym teacher" "You look like a nun i had in high school."
My parents bought an SUV to get around easily in 'the weather' here. *Grover voice* I'm soooo disappointed!
I'm flying today (Boxing day) to Buffalo, connection in Atlanta, to visit my parent's in their new environment. A small suburb of Niagara Falls called Lewiston. Everyone looks rather simian today, like they're milling about in a cage waiting and wanting to get out and in the mean time they can't quite wake up- it's morning and everyone probably slept to much or drank to much. I probably look simian too but i haven't seen my reflection yet.
Do you buy new cloths for a funeral? Is that appropriate?
"Stories have a time and place, truth always has place." to be spoken, to be told..
After a charming evening at IHOP with girls i went to high school with, who are now rightly young women, I realize I often forget the actuality of important personal information i'm given about someone if i don't get it from them or see the reality of the fact.
___ can't dance anymore because of her feet. ___'s (grand)mother is dead. ___ converted to Russian Orthodoxy. ___ failed out of school. ___ is gay.
I'm never intimidated by understanding, sometimes struck or stuned, and once or twice i've been flustered, but knowledge is a different matter.
If you make the most of everything, are you making mountains out of mole hills in the frame of your small life?
If women are circles as Dan suggests, i insist men are lines.
"Your bathroom or mine?"
The head of housing is letting me stay in the dorm one more night past the check out/get gone time because Regan’s car is ka-put and in the shop to get fixed. I'll be the only one here...*plot plot* You know, i've always thought the bathroom would make a really excellent slip and slide.
Well this is silly. I don't trust it on principle but i am feeling tired...*yawn* parry, riposte...advance, lunge.
Blood drops in the snow, breath in the air, charcoal fire burning, hunks of flesh charring, a hoard of people eating almost raw quality red meat!
"I haven't had something this raw and bloody since my last girlfriend."
Gamma iota rho epsilon epsilon / kappa alpha iota / gamma alpha gamma !!!
I'm off to Dallas, then Niagara Falls, then Denver, and then back to Santa Fe. A month of necessary parting. I need to re-arrange my head.
It's 12 degrees outside. I've never been in weather this cold. I can feel my bones ache when i step outside.
The inane little sayings on tea bag tabs of Yogi Tea really don't make my morning. They remind me of bagels with a new-age agenda.
Seen out the front of the St. John's Gym: A new Toyota with a Colorado license plate that read HIPINES.
As far as the most interesting view of homosexuality i've heard, Maia's Dad wins, "An advanced form of Narcissism."
I've got it. Carbonated simple syrup!
Is capitalism just an allowance for mutual exploitation?
The storm in the mountains begins sweeping in closer by seconds- lightning where my eyes look thunder when my heart thuds a dark sky is descending. Then it passes, unrelenting there was left a calm white pebbling.
Cute odd whitty and twisted little animations.
They usually say 'Masha Allah!' when a pretty girl walks by. Or as they walk by, dip to her ear, whisper their comment then continue walking.
Now all i have to decide is barbells or rings?
I must be a Junior lab assistant. The possibilities are magnificent- frequency, wave length, vibration, friction, magnetics, kinetics, static shock! Chris and i have big bad plans.
Sympathetic vibrations are like accompanying angels.
I'm going to be getting my wisdom teeth out this winter break. Why? They're causing my teeth to move back to where they were before i have 4 years of some kind of dental work. I use to have a slight overbite. I doesn’t phase me that they'll be diving into my mouth again to pull out bloody white things buried in my gum, i've had that done too many times. Going back to one after all these years is did strike me with this thought:
Is orthodontics (not just that which fixes overbites or under bites but can be considered honestly helpful to health) our culture's version of what other cultures may have/had in the form of foot binding, neck/earlobe/lip stretching or genital mutilation?
It's not ass kicking, but it is kickass.
Precisely how women (in particular, those of french nationality that grew up in the 80's) can look horrible as bodybuilders.
What exactly is an Earthquake Party? Probably as it sounds, only man made like a party is. They mentioned something about wearing clothing you wouldn't mind blood on. hum...
Struth, i'm totally out-buffed. Ohwell, i like me better, and i can actually wield all the weapons she's posing with. Something about the ax indeed! *snort* It's a LABRYS.
On a slightly related note: damn the Masons talk a lot of shit as they assimilate.
The great souled man of Aristotle is like a superhero of the sort that gets off his arse and appears with marvelous timing at the crisis when something that could cause devastating damage comes up to threaten his world. And save that world he does indeed.
But, as Alan Moore said through one of his superhero creations, Tom Strong, It's probably a lot easier than getting up every day to make to world work.
Gorgeous exhaustion.
If you ever see an interview with an upcoming band named Artficial Intelligence and they appear to be in a kitchen- that's where i work.
Do you trust me as far as i can throw you?
I want to graduate from St. John's College with the athletic award. A big liberal arts degree and an athletic award, HA!
Sarah Graves gives 'Free concept haircuts'. Which is fine if you don't mind shaving your head.
When you're attacked verbally or physically it's good to know the difference between impact and hurt, and even harder to differentiate, hurt and danger.
Roving Ushankas!
FORK!...and spoon and knife..
If I do start a publishing company I though I would call it 'Them', just so everyone would have to say 'Them is publishing a new book.' But because of Green Lion Press, I may just have to call it 'Pink Dragon' with an absurd slightly angry tough little smoldering dragon as our symbol.
Worked or was in class for 18 hours with no break. Last night i was the eternal coatman who held and hung their equippage and snickered. $70 in tips wasn't bad though.
Johnny pick up lines. I need them. 10 or so. I've got: 1. So how was your seminar? 2. Do you understand (fill in the blank)? Could you help me with it? 3. Nice book collection!
Doctors are happy to prescribe Curing ails as if they were imbibing life Scholars are happy to conjecture Making footnotes and referencing their own works Orators are happy to lecture Presenting their philosophies to eager pens Students are happy to learn For more than themselves, with others, on their own.
This morning in greek class Mr. Starr appologized to me for saying he don't trust women with a sword. *AheM!* It came out of our disscusion of the scene where Odysseus reveals himself to Eureklia, and exactly why he acts as he does to her- grabbing her throat and both pleeding and threatening her. Exactly why she responds describing herself and her word as solid as stone of iron (something no other woman in the book describes herself as being like). Why his trust in her is different from his trust in the swine herd, and how he 'tests' it. One oppinion was that Odysseus' trust is easier with Eumeus, the swine herd, partially because it was a 'guy' thing. This thing? I can only think it's something like what i saw in the ex-marine Nam vet i bartender for when he met a fellow marine at the bar. In a lesser form it may have been the how and why the 'Texas Boys' in my class rolled with each other last year. Trust from an ease of understanding and an inclusion as similar and therefor safe in sameness. I've experienced a little of this from the Mexican pizza chefs after I went in drag to work. They treated me far better afterwards with less trivial joking about me and more joking with me. Any guy out there that can give me some perspective here? It's something i want to know about- especially if i'm going to keep randomly trying to pass as one.
"Threatening can be very helpful." -Mr. Starr "You're going to threaten us in our Don Rags?" Ms. Watts "Well, no. Not all of you..." -Mr. Starr
Someone is sweeping the snow from the rooftop with a huge broom.
Ah yes, more studly duds for the fencing buff.
I would lick this all day long.
Because Nick sent it and i love cooking with them: Rose Recipes.
Check out Clinic. If you like it as much as i do, you may want to check in.
What is the beef that will lean my porking heart?
In lab today i let slip a mamoth of a saying. One student couldn't understand why balance was not important in the submersion in water by forge of a floating body by adding weights to the same side of a ruler scale that the body was on. In exasperation i burst out "Haven't we learnt by now that balance is over-rated?"
So...much....SNOW!!!!
Dreamt last night that I was walking around downtown Santa Fe at night with The Cats. It was a little busier than usual with street life, more like a weekend with people swaggering out of bars and restaurants, voices in the air and music. I somehow incurred a deep long slash between my breasts, it penetrated my sternum, and I could feel a strain on my heart. I just stood there on the sidewalk staring in disbelief at it, prodding it with my fingers as it bleed freely onto my white shirt. Not feeling the immense pain that should have been there made me puzzle over it more. What the fuck was this and how did it get here? I needed to head to a familiar place close to down town where there was someone I knew who could help me. Somehow I’d also lost the rest of the cats and needed this cut taken care of one way or another now. I ended up at a lost and estranged friend’s house. She didn’t offer me medical aid and seemed rather amused I had this giant bleeding gash in my chest. She told me to lie down in a bunk bed she’d recently acquired. She seemed proud of it as she explaining the new soft sheets and everything else about it. I took the closest bottom bunk, laid down on my back stiffly with my hand still on the throbbing wound. I looking at the fake adobe colored walls and the mattress above me as she was telling me something about how lucky I was to have found her, how gracious she was being, I began to write with my bloody fingers on the mattress, the walls, and the sheets around me. The blood got thinner and clearer and I stopped writing. I had written out some sort of story of me just in that space with that much blood. I still had the gash, but it wasn’t bleeding and I hadn’t gotten faint or died of blood loss. I got up quickly and left her house. I woke up after that with a pinching line of pain where the gash was in my dream.
Working Michigan Women’s Festival. (this is almost certain now anyway) Communal type living arrangement on farms in either Hawaii or Arkansas. Sword making with Angel Swords in Driftwood, Texas. Blacksmithing here in Santa Fe. Join the Circus? Burning man?
Maybe I’ve been in Santa Fe too long, but why exactly in nudity offensive? Why do people get offended when they could just be laughing instead?
I just had my Don Rag, the first Sophomore one of the year at that. Disenablement is not an option! My tutors wish I’d speak more in class. Still need to work on my prose as usual though.
Count de Monte Christo Princess Bride Anyone of the damn Three Musketeers movies (including The Man In The Iron Mask) Ladyhawk Star Wars: Attack of the Clones James Bond: Die Another Day By the Sword Cyrano Dr Bergerac Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon Prisoner of Zenda The Mask of Zorro The Swordsman
Drove 14 from Albuquerque to Santa Fe through Madrid. Interesting little place I’ll have to spend a weekend in when I go ghost town road tripping this summer. I did expect to see more solar panels but some of the architecture made up for that. Forget 25, I’m never taking it to get to Albuquerque again! This is far more beautiful and fun to drive, all the curves and valleys and a reduced speed rate.
Drag at the Village on a Saturday. Every sort of imaginable gay male was there. In the darkness I guess I passed really well because they were the only ones paying attention to me.
"Nice ass!" "Thanks...i'm a fencer...on the women's league."
Note: Spirit gum and no Isopropyl alcohol? No way.
As I briskly stepped out of my parent’s car and headed directly to my local comic shop a little boy of maybe 8 cried out ‘Wait!’ and ran up to me. “Here” he said, giving me what I thought was a flyer he was perhaps helping hand out. It wasn’t. “I’m inviting you to my party!”, he said proudly and hurried into the hair salon as fast as he had run up to me.
That was one really cool kid. It was a bowling party, as the pre-printed cards from the bowling alley clearly showed. I hope he didn't remember me though, the idea of invitation and acceptance, somehow i think his parents wouldn't have been too happy to see random me there because their son was loose with his invitation cards.
While Tim was driving me home to my parent’s house in Dallas we saw a prostitute beneath as street light sitting on the sloped cement wall of the strip mall where my comic book shop, haircutter, Starfucks, and Walgreens are. She looked like she’d been dragged right out of the 80’s Pretty Woman film. I’d never ever seen one around that area before. It was shocking how clearly she appeared beneath the street light, and how obvious.
She always asks me how I am twice. Maybe because she knows she needs to ask more than once to get more than a one word answer.
Plotinus, that poet trapped in a philosophers body (it’s not pretty and neither was he- but it is intriguing and lovable) effectively calls Epicureans Dodo’s and Stoics Chickens.
Got to love that.
There are no secret words only secret ears.
Acceptance and forgiveness go hand in hand. I’m just better at one not the other.
Connexion Sox Anything else we should spell with an ‘x’?
So walking back from one of Mr. Vanketesh’s death workouts I saw a pizza delivery guy coming from the lower dorms. Low and behold it was the co-worker of mine I thought it might be. He complained about the people in E____ 11 that had tipped him 6 cents. My sense of justice miffed, I tracked the smell of pizza down seeking the eaters out as I’d promised Angelo my co-worker recourse. Well, it was a group of three guys that are my classmates (not too surprising), knowing them I felt alright in alerting them to the shoddy reality of tipping 6 cents for ANYTHING. Apparently as all good Johnnys do, they had been discussing their poor tipping just prior to a sweaty tired fencing gear carrying Ari busted into their room. I didn’t have to repeat myself and I didn’t feel odd doing it as I was very much prompted to. A was a little odd though that I was so prompted to do this little act of reconciliation, that it mattered such that I’d not continue to head home but went right out over a shitty tip to a co-worker. Guess I had to settle my conscious after it was aware.
Pick a chord, any chord.
Just remember to say “bless his/her heart” after any insult and no one will think the worse of you for it or notice the severity of the insult.
"I’m being-at-work-staying-myself-drinking-a-beer."
Watch out for those yellow Nalgene bottles with black lids.
What smokes like a fish and drinks like a chimney?
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