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tehehe.
Ah, my oral went well. I need to lost my fear and trepidation towards 'big scary academic endeavors'.
*smirk*
Turkish Coffee and food Amber New Mexico after the rain Motor oil and greese Amaretto Cat breath (or female tiger's) Fresh wood chips in a shop India Ink The gum from Sri Lankan stamps Gun from old hard back bound books King Coconut's milk Bondfires Blood not yet dried Leather Pomegranates Warm sand Eucalyptus Barley wheat Ikura and dried eel Ginger and Licorice root Old English roses and their rosehips Cold running water of creeks The Pacific ocean Sunshine Vegemite B&W comic book smell Magnolia trees in spring Fig trees in autumn
Is there anything you know of that smeels good after it's gone off or rotten? Not fermented but rotten.
The financial aid lady called out to me when I was in Weigle to tell me how much she enjoyed my poetry from the slam. She wanted to see me perform again next year and encouraged me to keep up with writing. Although not keeping up with poetry isn't an option for me, it's been so nice to be reassured by many others that my reading wasn't wasted breath and the words weren't meaningless. This is what I never did in high school but once and mistoke my acceptance for acceptance of my writing as well. Hum? WooHoo! Financial aid granted for the next 3 years!
It's flu. A, B, or C?
Broken now. But i'm sure it fried my poor little brain in the process. Need to get sleep..
101.8 That's bad right? I never get fevers...what the bugger is going on?
Bite the fever's tail 5.29.02
Blood pumps through my veins like bullets sparking as they slide down rails.
Breeders breed. Now there's a brand I'd like to see.
Living in Bret's old room is like living in a H.P. Lovecraft novel. I hear things scuttering sometimes. Everyone who's been in these rooms has left- either school or the room they were in. Next year I've got a single in lowers in Thalia. It's on ground level corner room next to the bathroom, all the singles left were. This way at least I'll get some sun in the afternoon and not the morning. Bert's living there now, so I know the place won't be odd and crawly like this place. Plus, there are great people living on that floor next year.
Still with the full (fool?) moon. And feeling like shit *cough* at least I have my youth and health right? Ha! My heart probably gave out and my body is just now realizing it. What a copout. Shit.
Taking Mirabai's advice: I'd like to say, Oh- fuck off.
I simply had a need to say the words to a larger audiance, they're not directed- It sounds a bit like Tim's obscure bitter statements from the past.
I saw Sans Soleil last night. It was to much memory for me, a total overload. Some memorable quotes, "It's the same with religion. It has always drawing attention to god to obscures it", "The more you watch Japanese TV, the more you realize it watches you", "It can be said in fact, that time heals everything but wounds."
The swing dance was almost empty but for people eating the free food. I didn't have the strength to find anyone to cajole and persuade to dance (what it usually takes about here) if I couldn't just grab someone. April is the cruelest month. The rabbits are pairing up. I'm wondering how soon till they are slaughtered.
Someone had a didgeridoo at lunch today. They could even circular breath.
I don't know how many of you read this blog, but here is the play list for my cd to you all. It is not a reflection of me much besides my odd taste in music. I tried to make it as diverse and beautiful as possible. I couldn't obtain a copy of The Ringling Sisters- 'Garden of Allah' which i am disapointed about since i think it's a perfect addition for the cd. Enjoy!
1. The Vestibules- I Don't Want To Go To Toronto. 2:40 2. Spiderbait- Horschack Army 3:38 3. The Hail Marys- Hopeless Faith 4:16 4. Tom Waits with Primus- Jack Kerouac 3:58 5. The Vestibules- Bulbous Bouffant 4:13 6. Forest for the Trees- Create the Reason 5:13 7. Aphex Twin- Icct Hedral (Edit) James 6:07 8. The Incredible String Band- The Hedgehog Song 3:30 9. Shivaree- I Think I Hate You 3:28 10. Spoonfed Tribe- Pickin' Weeds 5:57 11. Edith Piaf- Non, Je Ne Regrette Rien. 2:24 12. Angelo Badalamenti Nadalamento- Red Bats With Teeth- 2:57 13. Batman Original TV Soundtrack- Batman riddles the Riddler -or- (Hi Diddle Riddle) 1:39 14. Napoleon XIV- They?re coming to take me away Ha-haaa! 2:08 15. Wild Strawberries- I Don't Want To Think About It 3:47 16. Spiderbait- extra song 2:15 17. Silaes - Puirt a Beul 2:39 18. Rebecca's Empire- Way of All Things (radio edit) 3:34 19. Dead Star- Sex Cell 3:03 20. Albeniz- Legenda 3:10 21. Rasputina- All Tomorrow's Parties 1:46
Reading tonight at the slam was one of the hardest performances i've ever pulled off- i freaked and couldn't read "Sadamy- Have a cigar" while dropping my pants to reveil little black with red heart satin boxers, so instead i was going to read "Mea Culpa" in the 3rd round. Lucia, Reike, Drew and I all got to the second round though, for me i was suprised. I finnished reading "A Bartenders Love Poem" and the crowd seemed somewhat unreceptive. Phew. I couldn't even enjoy the other poets reading!
Monday 3pm Hi velvet this is Taniqua I hate to do this over the phone but I sorta can't do it in person. I wana say thanks for the engagement ring. I know you probably gave it to me after I told you I'm pregnant and stuff and we've been going together for such a long time, but the babies not yours so you don't have to worry about it. I'll always love you.
I! don't! need! this! shit!
Tuesday 8am Hello Mr. Velvet this is your landlord calling I'm calling to notify you that you?re being evicted from your apartment due to excessive noise coming from your space. And also the naked girl that was running down the hall last week didn't help. So um, we'll need you to be out of there by Monday of next week and uh please don't make any noise until then. Have a nice day.
I! dont! need! this! shit!
Wednesday 6pm Hi my name is Bob, I'm calling for the psychic friends network. I'm calling to give you your horoscope for today and it looks bad. *laughing in background* As a matter a fact your life looks bad! I say stay in the house today, tomorrow, and foreva because your chart shows that your life is over. Have a nice day.
I! don't! need! this! shit!
Thursday 10am Hi Velvet this is Lashan I know your surprised to be hearin' from me but I got your number from your mom she told me that you wouldn't mind so I'm calling. And I'm going to keep calling and I will be calling you today, tomorrow, and the next day. Do you have a problem with that? I know you love me! *giggle*
I don?t need this shit!
Friday 9pm Yo Velvet what's up? This your boy Tyrone. I'm over here getting high with your girl Teniqua and shit. She told me all the shit that happened. Man between me n' you I coulda told you she was no good because she let me hit that shit once too before you know, no, but a.. hold on a second, puff puff giz mutherfucker! Puff puff giz! Yeah she's fuckin' up the rotation. Oh yeah man I had this dope party at your crib last week, it was the boooom!
I! don't! need! this! shit!
Saturday, all day.
if you stop to pick up pennies you must be jovial in nature.
OH...my..goddess....
that was beautiful.
I'm going to be a sexy Lab Assistant next year to the incoming freshman! Yay! A spark in this disgusting murky time! I guess that year of Lab management in highschool did have other applications!
Gus is subtitling a copy of "The Princess Bride" with the lines from "A Johnny Bride". Yes yes! *hops up and down and stamps one foot*
AussieAri: i do NOT write essays like bjork sings! CeltmanX2: yeah. babe. you do. AussieAri: how?? CeltmanX2: i can't explain it.. CeltmanX2: maybe its the lining of seven planets at once but you do..
I've found I often get annoyed when I can't hear the lyrics of a song clearly- and I think I should.
So it's paper writing time. Our dorm smells like fast food. I've got 3 paragraphs of questions to slim down. Christian Blood really helped with editing grammar and such though, he put "collective nouns receive singular verbs in American English" knowing I'm use to British English. He rocks, besides having one of the coolest names I've ever heard.
Now I know how a hedgehog feels in the morning.
Yin666Q: fucken computer Yin666Q: it does everything but what i tell it AussieAri: at least it doesn't ask you 'what virtue is'..
The reeds in the fish pond are so thick you can walk on most of them and get to the big rocks.
In Chicago they have separate stores for liquor and the radio health care ads are about contraception, same in Dallas. In Santa Fe the liquor is to the side of the main part of the drug/convenience store and the radio ads are about abstinence.
Have you ever listened to anger's ring build up and die down in your ears? Have you ever thrown up a ball of love- sick like spitting out your heart?
3 poets sitting in a room only 2 pens,
what/who gives? no more to-
blood all around, how to arrange it?
She gave him her knife because she didn't feel 'safe' around it. He put it back in front of her the very next lunch and said, "There's your implement of destruction." Harsh Drew, harsh man.
"There's nothing worse than the cry of a fully grown man applying ice cold aloe vera gel to his sunburnt appendage." -Susan.
I'm thinking of all the darkly poetic things to be done.
The internet has been down since the 16th. It's odd to write something of the moment to a larger audience you don't at that moment have the ability to entertain. So apologies to that lag, everything posted today was since the 16th. The net was disconnected without warning until we can find another servicer, who hasn't gone under without telling us. Now- this is Santa Fe, and we are St. John's, so unlike other colleges we're not apt to riot about this, but even for Santa Fe it's unusually unprofessional. Well I have a seminar paper to write, so less distractions, but for those who need to research, ouch.
I got money for May Pole ribbons from Polity! WEEE!!! "..and we dance around the May pole!"..
If we forget everything else from Greek class, Mr. Rollins wants us to remember "Ou ma Dia!".
To astrologers, you can divine the events on earth by the passing of the cosmos. By mathematical calculation and correlation to impacting acts you can be so grand as to chart the course of human history. Well now, things are interconnected, everything affects everything else naturally. I believe the signs (or rather symbols) of the zodiac in correspondence to personalities types is a nice system to study and think about for that particular purpose Something like recognizing reoccurring abstract ideas and their importance, or as a religion is a system to live by. But when Pam asked in math class, "So why don't we believe in astrology anymore?" and I was about to reply, "For one, we can barely see the sky over our homes anymore. We've turned to other methods of seeming fate and just averted out attention instead." when someone else said, "Because my cousin was murdered by the Zodiac killer and it's maybe a good thing we don't believe in it." I was chilled. Who in their right mind would take the multitudes and magnitudes of incommensurable numbers inherent in the cosmos to predict, or care to, a metal pea falling down on a spot in Japan and obliterating hundreds of little soft living things in 1945, let alone their own (de)vices. It's literally too far out.
I'm reluctant in reading a piece of literature that effected a historical movement, regardless of it's wretched style, floppy plot, over beaten ideas and a self centered main characters. Now I know I should be thankful for these bits of nostalgia for opening up the field for later works of the same note, and for bringing certain issues to people's attention-but by gods I can not appreciate the literature. I really do not get anything from those works, no experience, revelations or understanding. I'm thinking of "The Wells of Lonliness", and "The Awakening". Maybe I'm not so well versed in the novels of the women's movement, but I've felt like this about other assigned works.
I do have a bunch of comics (yes, I am addicted), stamps, and some coins but I wouldn't say I collect them as the term applies to other comic-oholics or stamp-o-philes. If they are get damaged it's a shame but they are still readable. I treasure pictures, devices, and good stories, or certain series. I don't have any action figures though, I did play with some as a child and now they're pretty beaten up. What's the point of collections you can't touch for fear of damage? I understand preciousness and fragility not in those terms, and why things are behind glass in museums (though sometimes a shame, I'm sure someone could be making use of some artifacts intact for more than display purposes). But who can explain things like fabrishe eggs? They seem to just be pretty and pretty, or a show of wealth in dogged material obsession. Collections collect loons?
On a similar note I learnt that a lot of girls here were forbidden to watch or dress up as 'She-ra' from the He-man series by their Mothers.
Die qua, die!
Cheeks, Santa Fe's only strip join has a sign that says "Harmless Visual Stimuli."
Yeah..if you don't have a heart condition.
I don't put my stock in stars, or wishes in stocks.
Lawyers are not doctors of philosophy- is this just some carry over from seeing a difference between philosophers and sophists? BUHAHAHA.
More Band names: Spawn of the eugenics society The future less vivid
"So the question is, would Ford want Viagra?" -Riley Osorgin.
After catholic school, i doubt i'll ever get tired of kistchy little pokes like this line of products.
Oh yeah- and the silly games.
The johnnie's answer to getting a haircut is a shaved head.
I wonder what that circular outcrop of large black tall things is on the horizon? It's far off and you can always see it from uppers...maybe it's the labs..
"Everything which comes into being ceases to be does so in time, which led some to say that there is nothing wised than time; Paron the Pythagorean, however, was closer to the mark when he said that there was nothing more stupid than time, because in time people also forgot." Aristotle, The Physics.
Fresh ikuru is to die for. I miss stiky rice.
Scarbie has started without me! Alas! But then I realize being at St. John's in Santa Fe is somewhat like live at a Ren fair…
1) Location location: out of the city surrounded by some uncultivated area, camping out is an option. 2) Bathing and clothing are mostly optional. 3) People frolic and smile a lot, and give hugs. 4) People cut the rug and drink after hours, not to mention the pot. 5) Very diverse populace with very different talents, some for making, some for healing, for story telling, some for hawking and beguiling. 6) We're all pretty broke. 7) There is a very apparent community, people come and go but you can always find them through that community. 8) We're not too hightech- older arts are appreciated.
But of course the differences are still profound, hence why i'm here and not at Scarborough Fair, my working life education instead of this one.
Oh wow- there was just a jingle for the poison control center's number and when to call them... it almost makes you want to consume poison (or maybe just get drunk enough) to have a reason to call the number in the jingle..
For whomever Persephone accepts amends for old woes she will in the sum of nine years give forth their souls anew through the sun's light above*. And out of them illustrious Kings and the greatest men of strength, swiftness and wisdoms will be magnified**; here after for all remaining time they will be called holy heroes by mankind.
I had the most trouble reconciling: * The journey of their souls after the ninth year, the idea of the exposure to the sun as a rejuvenation (of either life or the memory of these people on earth) but not going through the sun itself.
** The magnification of the souls into great men, not just already being great men made even greater.
Waterballon fight! shaving cream and rice! Huffman's hall carpeting is squishy! I think the Kirby boys won with the help of Gorchinsky and a few full buckets.
what's your favorite bar trick?
Dylon is staying over the summer, and as i do, wants to hunt down one of the desert cottontails out here with a spear (or as i prefer, throwing knives) to respectfully make use of it's parts.
I suppose it's the thrill of knowing you?re alive in the process of life (why i exercise) and death. That by hunting, you have some power of accomplishment and skill in a self-reliance exercise that's back to a very basis theme.
I may just be like boxing- one of my goals for this school year was to know what it was like to be hit in the face and/or in a fight. I may feel horrible afterwards but somehow i doubt it, i'm not ashamed of my inexplicable habit and desire to go sprinting after rabbits. It's a precursor, the chase that goes to the kill or a flight. I can't touch things that are dead when i find them, but if i see them die, or they do so in my hands i've been able to take care of them and handle them without a strong repulsion. It's probably the same with hunting.
I love animals. But i don't quite see the point of giving your beloved pet(s) a whole personal webpage? Is it just glorificationour adoration or manifestation of their personality through you?
Fuck Supercuts. I told her 'layer the back, i'm growing it out'. She shaved the back of my head and the other stylist wasn't about to fix it. Luckly at the $6.95 place run by a bunch of short haired hispanic women was a gay guy on methamphetamines with a thing for Bowie and polyester. phew.
One day, you may wake up with a mullet.
At the art show last night there was a statement piece that declaired how our experiance of art is cheapened by the fighting for space and selling of it in art shows. That art shows were always about artist's petty need to show off their work to others. Actually- i think i just want to get rid of my old art. It doesn't do anything for me, i have no new 'experiences' by it, and if someone else can- well then good for them. I know it's art and worth showing though because at one point those pieces did move me, and i was moved to create an impression given to me. Then again, i was the only submiter there guzzling down the punch before anyone could say anything to me about my paintings ('Congratulation' and 'Good job' were the most popular comments) and before they gave away the awards. I reminded myself of Katchoo at her big art show.
Today at lunch it became very apparent that inserting 'cunt' into anything is fun. It all began when I miss heard someone saying "Back to Kant". What can you expect after receiving a check with "first hand experience w/ your vulva" in the memo field? Eg. Cuntact ("It's the most beautiful cunt I've ever seen! They should have sent a poet!"), Cunt shack, Killer cunts from outerspace, Cunt smoke, Cunt fu, Cunt runners. Also I was told about the Cunt Coloring Book. Glee!
My 5 second to 5 minute foresight wasn't helpful again last night. True we did finish all the liquor we had in the place (after consuming all the art show's punch) except for the 1/6 left in the vermouth bottle, but when Reike knocked Dylon's beta fish's bowl with an escrima stick i knew the fishy (Otto Waterhouse) was going to have his bowl broken at some point in the night. Reike and i went out to do some escrima practice and when we came back in, Otto was in fact in a new home- The fish bowl that next door uses as the bong water resivoir for their trafic pile on bong. Black pebbles and jagged glass were on the floor, and one large rim piece Dylon used as a crown to pronounce himself the 'king of pain'. Well, that was useful i say to my conciousness. At least i knew what to expect.
HELLLO?
When i came home last night after workout i found a moth ceaselessly swimming around and around counterclockwise in our beta's little fish bowl. It took the moth about 25 second to go completely around, it's wings were stuck to the surface of the water and it made hundreds of tiny ripples and three trails in the water as it moved it's butt frantically up and down. Dylon said it had been there since six, he'd thought it had gone. It had been going in that one direction constantly for over 6 hours. Unfathomable. I fished it out of the water after some resistance on the moth?s part and set it on the windowsill.
Listening to Kid A for the first time. Mostly not what i'd expected from the other album- which makes it wonderfully surprising.
What's with all these black strips of plastic tied about the light posts on campus? Dodgy.
heat (temperature, latent, specific to atoms and accelerated movement therein) pressure (more like a side affect- created by heat, weight of matter, affinity or repulshion) and matter (with it’s vast maliable void of space most affected by the preceding two)
or maybe heat is everything but matter and it's weight.
...so i don't know much about energy... don't know much true scientific theory, don't know much about what the hell i'm writing...
What Ari heard- "I came to rob foral flaxen." What Jane said- "I came to the wrong floor."
There's a fly buzzing in my room and i can't find him.
There was an unclaimed dog in our seminar last time. He had followed Sarah Graves in. The prospies were all rather suprised.
I saw a green bellied hummingbird drinking necter from the apricot blossoms.
Dylon is going to teach me how to drive a stick shift today! And John is going to teach me how to ride a motorcycle! Yes! Gain 10 points!
If you had a fairly useless superpower what would it be?
The sophomores are taking names and dues for 'killer' their assasins game. Except it's now the 'Game we can't call killer anymore' due to a certain admin person who uses the royal we inapropriately (a first sign of MPD or an over inflated self centered justice? you decide..). I decided not to play because of papers, which would otherwise be perfect situation but this year you actually have to go out and claim kills.
You may have noticed the affect of paper writing time on my blog- being all disjoined pidly bits.
AAAHHH-MOOOON-RRRAAAA(ARG!!)!!!
I'm writing on Prometheus bound (with all it's glorious implications of fire and change) while writing about how we can conceive of 'heat'. Nope, no fire signs here.
Apparently the Indian government has been changing the names of their major cities to better transliterations. Now Bombay is Mumbai. Quick! Someone write a song! At least we still have Bollywood!
i have never seen so many people pile out from such a small smokey/steamy place.
"Imagine...a lesbian with a fetish for lesbians!" -Dylon

"I enjoy watching slick, sexy Lesbians... mmm. Come here, you." What's Your Fetish? Take the test at Nollykin's World
Elishiba cut her hair to look like Syndey's (but she reminds me of Mo).
I'm collecting NM rain/big goupy slush blobs of snow water to drink :o)
"Yeah, pot use to not be good for me either." "So what changed?" "I forced the issue!"
"I have some of my best thoughts while in the bathroom." "I'm just not that expressive."
Kyle's answer: Spinish Lucia's answer: a cup of sunflower seeds Mark's correct answer: dried prunes and apricots
I have no bathroom to call my own. This is ok though, i do get a choice of 3. The boy's bathroom, on the floor i live on, has newly installed Bevis and Butthead Toilet paper in the right stall. There guys are so thoughtful. Unfortunately you can't really use the bathroom safely today as someone hurled yams from friday dinner all over the floor. Tuber!
I've also figuered out that in a guy's bathroom the stall closest to the door is used for quick leaks and constantly has the lid up. The one furthest from the door is the 'sitting' stall.
I think the Timaeus would be a wonderful thing to read to a baby.
As Ian was giving blood he had this idea: why not get the guys who smoke out with him to give plasma for one month for $50 or so a pop, use it to buy alcohol during which time (1 month) they'll flush their system of pot so that they can then give sperm for $100 or so a visit. This after reading Lucretus about satisfying a young mans need to sleep about. After that they'll take the money they've saved in time for one of the freshman last reading 'The Bacchae' and have a bacchanal, including fonts of wine, perhaps some Saint-Sans or live 'Bacchanal' music, togas, and a pig on a spit. Such ingenious johnny boys.
Que sçay- je
Glass bulbs rock. I envision a Christmas tree decorated with Dumas bulbs, pipettes, eyedroppers, and titration pipes, glass long funnels, test tubes...
Oscar's fops, Pansy rock, Humuculous Hussies. Lesbian poetry Mafia. Concept X. Chainmaille Rosary. Delphic Oracle Cracker. Lukewarm Chili. Free Beer. Catharthis of Carthage in a Can. Delayed Segway. Pestiferous Orifice. Significant descrepancy error. Spell check can't help you now.
Febreze is some wonderful stuff.
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