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It all depends on what kind of pliers you use.
You've probably had a feeling before that meeting a person- the timing and place and them, was right. That this was suppose to happen the way it did and you're set for whatever may happen next involving either of you relating to one another.
But have you ever had the feeling that you weren't suppose to met someone? That through some fluke or loophole in the flow of things on Earth, some stumble of time, rhyme and reason (but nothing to do with the nature of the relationship, the other person, yourself, or the event), you still did met them?
This sence throws an uncertainty on the future- is something lackingly amiss? Are the potentials mitigated? And really- Why the oath is this going on?
I walked around Santa Fe all of late Saturday night after work with a bloke named Daryl. Now, Daryl is an interesting and intense guy. I met him at one of the local coffee shops as i was doing hand supports on the edge of an adobe wall and he suggested i relax my leg instead of pulling it. Just a few things about him- He's sharp witted, aware to the painful point of strain, takes care of his shit, is martially trained, an ex-marine vet, half Cherokee, and prefers to live without home as he helps people get to what/where they wish to be.
Not that i often walk around the abandoned streets of cities with total strangers when it's late and but it was an exercise in trust more than anything else- more than getting to know Daryl or necessarily enjoying myself. I have more of a need to surprise myself now a days.
lotus.
"Don't take my kindness for weakness" baby.
This looks interesting. Something Sci Fi in New Mexico other than Roswell!
where oh where the buggery is everyone? *sigh*
Last night in drag at the Atomic Grill. I passed. Even got two gay guys checking me out. Huah! Also a note on anatomical changes: It's hard to bend over with a dick type thing in your pants. When i bound my breasts i seemed to develop a pot belly instantly, perhaps as compensation?
Next time: I'll try dancing as a guy.
I'm the first of the Cats to get a bike!!! I made my first down payment at the Rio Ranchos division on a red Honda Rebel 2002 on Saturday!!
*so much excitement she feels like puking*
Roadtrip!
Pears, Elderberries, Apples, Apricots, Pyracantha, Rosehips.
Krispy Kreme and the Ku Klux Klan?
They both have gift shops...
I hope that the new job is the reason that, at the moment, i don't really feel like engaging (or being the initiate) of any interaction of the sometimes exhausive depth i usually crave for with other people.
Then again, this is the most comfortable job i've ever been in, even if it does always take me a while to adjust and decide what i can/can't do, what i will/won't give or take.
Or perhaps i'd like to see what the honnest brainless unprocessed interaction and slice of life is like. This post for instance- i don't feel like exploring the thought any further right now. Besides!! I have Phish food and tea, with whatever undesirable additives either has. Rather headonistic eh? *pats herself on the tummy in self approval*
I love my job. They feed me well. Dealing with caloric is far different than dealing in the mathematics of alcoholic liquids, food vs. bartending.
To bad i never heard of them when i was in Catholic School...
I almost forgot: The Paramount
AAAHAHAHAHA! This is as good as the 'Gulf War Trading Cards' i have!
Half of the reason that i watch Zena is to gauge the accuracy of my Ancient Grecian knowledge against such enjoyably farcical historical and mythological blunders. My favorite is where Zena and Julius Caesar get into a love tryst. As for the other half of my justification, I'll leave you to ponder that.
Cannibal: "You have no evidence!" *tooth falls from his mouth* Cop: "Is that your tooth?" *picks up tooth, puts it back in his mouth and swallows* "Yes." "Did you just swallow??" "No!" "And what's all this blood everywhere??" "I'm menstruating! I mean, my girlfriend is menstruating and i ate her! ER- ate her out!"
speed bumps time flies fly balls
I don't like most dogs i've encountered in Santa Fe. Today i walked a half block with a loose bitch boxer following me charging and barking intermitantly. Most of the dogs are so poorly kept and trained here. I've liked far more dogs in more crouded cities but in Santa Fe they all seem to have grown into arseholes thanks to their environment.
Of course, this could be the cat in me speaking as always. *hiss*
After seeing Michael Moschen (who's hands are far smaller and shorter than you would expect) i keep thinking of the beats created by falling and/or bouncing objects. I'd like to make some music from it.
The show also reminded me that the first dramas were religious or spiritual rights. You don't need a lot of extras to pull off a performance, to get the crowd to see in a certain way, just the right placement or use of certain elements, either symbols themselves or several pieces connoting the desired atmosphere and presence.
Non flair low ride pants?
Gaseous Humor: The sort of humor that, much like a fart broken in company, is funny for its simple base nature and for the social disapproval implied by the act or speech. However, the initial novel and humor of it is gone and forgotten quite as quickly and abruptly as it interrupted your conscious. There may be a lingering stink that pervades the draft of thoughts afterwards.
Good Idea: Going out into the wilderness to be completely alone and naked. Bad Idea: Going out into the wilderness to be completely alone and naked under the summer sun without sufficient sunscreen.
Moral: My breasts are burnt. There is only so long a human being can stand stinking like vinegar. Especially apple cider vinegar. *shiver*
Aramark plums taste like a slightly sweet fleshy nothingness. How do they do it? This isn't even prepared food but somehow some of their patented 'Suck Sauce' has affected these fruits too!
Don't go bouldering DOWN Monte de Sol.
"It's mine, i pissed on it."
YAY! I got a lesbonic job at the Paramount! I may be a pizza cashier (and maybe some security work) but it's quite good money and especially so for all the fun and comfortability i'd have there. It's far better than any snooty tourist arse whipping hotel job! *Whoops and goes for a Citadelle martini*
Still getting hit on by nasty old men in Santa Fe. They never make me feel physically threatened, just peevish and uncomfortable. On one side, What right do they have to tell me i'm beautiful? Just blatantly drop a misplaced usually tactless comment of much implication in my lap and leave it there writhing like a mutated word birth. When did i ever have a choice in the matter of being 'beautiful' at the oddest or most normal moments? I doubt many men have ever been at the receiving end of an assault in this fashion or would even have a clue what to do. I don't want to get up and leave, resigning a seat or place that i had every right to be in, and i don't want to have a scathing come back one liner to use all the time.
I should remember to laugh at all this useless crap.
El Camino! El Camino! Ellllll Camino! The front is like a car! The back is like a truck! The front is where you drive! The back is where you fuck! El Camino! El Camino! Ellllll Camino!
What if you don't have one tremendous satori or even many different smaller ones but the same sort of one again and over?
How odd! I can shimmy my arse far better than i ever could my breasts!
You like her! You wana hug her! You wana kiss her! You wana hold her hand! You wana squeeze her! You wana shampoo her! You wana have a million of her babies!
The prairie dogs have taken over most of the public parks. There are huge holes in the dry ground and what must be a massive tunnel system below. At first i though they were rabbit like animals cross bred with ferrets. Then i realized that was only because i'd simply seen them in zoos before. They act and look so strangely different, disturbingly so. After they considered my stupefied human self that stood on the cement path around Frenchy's Park not a threat, they went on bullying and playing with one another.
This weeks Santa Fe Reporter has on the cover in large letters, "Bill Richardson's elbow changed his life!" All i could think of was Elbow with Teeth.
And another local public exposition here. Maybe you could have seen me. Or those goth chicks. Gotta love the teenage goth chick on cell phones beneath the New Mexican sun at the Plaza.
I want my Elastica CD! No one has the absurd and pandantic tastes in music that i do! Nor the CD collection to back it up! So who the !@#$ has my Elastica CD? *fumes* Val??
Step 1: Grab fly swatter, wash THOROUGHLY. Step 2: Scrape and grind bits of licorice into its holes. Step 3: Lick like a lollipop when your house mate walks in.
Susanna Vega is playing the Paramount tonight. Alas, i can't cough up $30 to see her- but- i may get the security job/cashier job there. Grr! I'm the big little tough dyke who will sell you Paramount pizza or beat you up! Perchance i will aquire the server job at the Eldorado Hotel...or at the St. Francis after my interview with their 'i'm on speed' manager, i'll know tomorrow.
I also visited the Nambe mill today with Jeanne. We took a little tour and the manager couldn't believe we were seriously applying. "This work is kind of dirty...". After having sold their stuff at the Container Store i had no idea they were based in Santa Fe. While i wouldn't mind getting to know more about metal working- the fact only 3 women were working there, that only the supervisors spoke english, and there were metal dust particles hanging in the air on everything was not at all appealing. I'd get a cool blue jumpsuit though.
Speaking of cool duds, i found myself some well fitting work shirts. One of which can even be converted by flipping up the collar into a psudo Victorian shirt. Smasshing.
I went to Santa Fe's only comic shop, Good Times. Still no Strangers In Paradise. Must not go bizzerk on someone...
Cunt, Libertine, Red lady, Succubus, Seductress, Woman of the night, Adulteress, Advoutress, courtesan, prostitute, Strumpet, Harlot, Whore, fille de joie, woman of the town, streetwalker, Cyprian, frail sisterhood, Fornicator, Headonist, demirep, wench, trollop, trull, baggage, hussy, drab, bitch, jade, skit, rig, quean, mopsy, slut, minx, harridan, unfortunate, unfortunate female, unfortunate woman; woman of easy virtue, wanton, fornicatress, Jezebel, Messalina, Delilah, Thais, Phryne, Aspasia, Lais, lorette, cocotte, petite dame, grisette, demimonde, chippy, sapphist, spiritual wife, white slave, concubine, mistress, doxy, chere amie, bona roba, escort, swine of Epicurus, sensualist. Did we forget anything?
At Thesaurus.com the search came out "Cunt not found."
After Nina taught us how to play with Polaroids, they are my new best friend. Definite must for next year's art show along with regular photography collages. It should prove to be an expensive habit though.
We made Joel a pair of 'open toes shit kickers' meaning, after looking at his rubber sandals and deciding with his borrowed Rancid shirt, he wasn't punk enough, he could be redeemed by being so hard core, he doesn't need a steel toe or a boot, he just needs a row of spikes down the middle front bridge of the sandal strap. And so we did.
Yes, it could be easily done to collect songs that relate to being a Johnny or of interest to Johnnys but i find that seeking out a particular WORD in compiling CD's if far more fun and leads in unexpected directions. So here's my bid for a Johnny CD:
Edith Piaf- Johnny you are not an Angel Poe- Angry Johnny Johnny Cash- Johnny Society- Lost Johnny- Quicserv Johnny- Chuck Berry- Johnny B. Goode Gaelic Storm- Johnny jump up Marlene Dietrich – Johnny Placebo- Johnny and Mary Carpenters- Johnny Angel Black Sabbath- Johnny Blade Fine Young Cannibals- Johnny Come home. Matchbox- Johnny Come Lately Johnny Dangerously- Theme Johnny Seven- Johnny Z-
I have my house mates (Sarah's from Canada) listening to 'I Don't Want To Go To Toronto.' AHAHAHAHA!! 2am madness~!
When thighs on women don't meet as some point along the inner thigh it tends to disturbs me.
I was on the phone with my mum today. My kitty Percy came right up to the phone and began to purr loudly. I could hear him. The dear knows my voice. *deep warmth*
Bismuth crystals that must be lab grown, form fractals of the golden spiral in rectangle form.
While I was biking (more like coasting downhill) home on Sarah’s bike I realized -I can carry a weeks worth of food for myself on my back -I can live on $20 a week
"Uhhh! Everything around me is disgusting! I want a space suiiit!" -Sarah.
Exploding Dog Archimedes' Lab The Santa Fe Institute
Anyone care for a rousing game of Beer Bottle Baseball?
Stirring up the old memories of things i've only heard of that happened in the name of art, i may as well list them off. Alex Grey's earlier stunts. Karen Finley when she's covered in chocolate. Stelarc who use to scare me shit less. The beautiful Jill Orr who's an Aussie as the above mentioned, and ranks with Linda Sproul. There's Marina Abramovic, who i can only find expensive recordings to buy of or her silly coffee cup sets. and Ron Athey who i just discovered and has a tattoo like Spider Jerusalem.
And by the way- does being a concept artist (and nothing else) mean you can't quite get your concept into any art or perhaps (and at best) in any one way?
Concept artists, Visual Artists, Scam artists,...
"Do you work here?" "No, but if you break it, i can pretend to fix it just like they do, and if you can't figure out how to work it, i can pretend to make it extraordinarily evident like they do to."
I want Bitch and Animal now. And if i can't have it now then i'll definately wait for this.
Good idea: Practicing handstands for strength and coordination. Bad idea: Reading poetry while practicing hand stands.
Good idea: Playing darts. Bad idea: Playing darts with kitchen knives to 'practice aim'.
I was sitting in the St. John's computer lab reading my emails. One in particular was from the school. It stated that there was a Monte De Sol writing workshop going on for high schoolers at the college and that William Alba was running it, it really didn’t inform me of anything I didn’t know already. 'Humph', says i, 'i should really go see him, perhaps track up to his house and knock. And perhaps he won't mind being bothered by some more of my edited poetry.' But the thought quickly slipped away and off i went other more virtual adventures.
So guess who just walked in the door of the puter lab? Yes in deed, dead in the flesh.
I don't pretend to understand the Tao, or even to act upon it, or have any level of consciousness besides slight recognition of it's blatently obvious occurrences. This universe certainly has funny principals. I’m not doing that much but things are finding me as pleasantly as I feel. Now if i could just find a damn job this way...
Dad's belated birthday present.
Someone down the street owns a Stingray. Anastasia's ride is a Mercury
One sections originally in correction red pen of my journal has been bleed away and stained half of the book- the small part was about longanimity. The ink is now all vertical strokes of blazing red orange with the blue of a gas flame and faint purple at the bottom edge raising along the inner spine. HA!
I'm absurdly happy today. It may be exactly the fact that the happiness isn't coming from something or anything i've done. I have done nothing that could be called directly productive as of yet today. It's all from around me. It has to be my method of perception- i'm no body and i've not done anything much and as far as that goes, i really could care less- this isn't about me. I won't be doing anything marvelous or even worth someone else glancing at till the sun begins to set- that's my schedule today.
But the people on the bus, the older hippie ladies tense and nervous look, those walking on the street, the waves they give and reactions to honking, the song playing lightly in the headphone about my neck, the smell of hot cedar chips infused with potting dirt, at the bus stop by the nursery, and reading Omeros, remembering life by the sea- all making me happy.
If I didn't know any better i'd be chiding myself for a laxadasical imprecise feel good uselessness. This is far to precise a feeling for any of these words, and i'm far to awake.
I miss the Kumquats they have in south east Asia and Australia. Round i tell you, round.
I saw a plant today that actually made me realize why to some people those killer plant movies could ever be scary. The focus of such movies being on carnivorous aggressive blood thirsty HUGE plants and not simply the willies from a forest or other environment or what a plant may connote.
It was a type of orchid, triangular spines of leaves that shot out completely in a vertical fan on either side of one thick stem that held one palm sized Orchid on it rather strongly. It had a honey melon yellow head with a gapping, deep purple vein covered opaque green mouth. I wondered if this large vestle was for water, pollination or perhaps it was carnivorous (carnivorous orchids?) so i bent in to have a closer look. I though i may have been able to see the sap going through it's vein structure like blood cells in a fish tail. That's exactly when an electric fan that was on swung by the orchids and the orchid flower, setting off it's lolling mouth and huge mane to lung forward.
A lot must be said then, for the special effects in such killer plant movies, but still.
I was caught in the season's first downpour today, foolishly thinking it was going to let up when it had just begun. Eh, i've seen worse than it did get. But, I had an appointment. It was a monsoon contrived by desert gods attempting to flood the city with abrupt wind and deluge! I was frowning, all soaked through, not mad or feeling put upon by the heavy weather but inconvenienced- like writing in the rain with water based ink when you were just trying to get an idea of a sketch for a watercolour down. All i could think of all the while as the earth became water was the thing i left at home in Texas- an old impervious Australian duster by the brand name, 'Driza Bone'.
Ended up with genuine inside out galoshes instead of my trusty Doc boots, i had water logged sox. I squeezed them out before the Cowgirl restaurant prior to a job interview that was incorrectly scheduled- no there's where i'm inconvenienced! Got a towel from a waitress since even my breast handkerchief was no use. So I walked home squishing as I went always looking out for the usual late bus because it was move or freeze. Couldn’t feel my fanny or my toes by the time I got back. Hope I don’t get pneumonia.
At least the white mare across the way is whinnying and seems content in her small open stable and the succulent plants have been watered. Shug the cat remains ill fed (owner AWOL, others up to rounds of trivia at the Gr[een]union)- and I can’t even find his food or bowl and cat’s will never dig chicken soup. Something i understand as i've always refused Mum's chicken before. Just the wrong time for a stray strange cat to wander in the back door. They did answer though when I addressed them, and having been called on their slinking entrance, they left formally without guilt. Now it's only me, wet books and wet poetry i can't edit.
Someone please just make me a nice porn bathroom with steam and i'll pull through. It's got to be the cure for the young just into college, Bah, I'll keep making damn chicken soup.
One beer before workout but no more.
Megaphones and belching into lives ones work well. Perhaps i should herald the next Sophistry contest this way.
A double base, as fun as it is to play (but not flamenco) is twice my size and cumbersome.
We live on the edge of the Santa Fe River bed. Yes, River BED- the bloody thing's been dry for 10 years. Our dirt and dry plant back yard opens out into this crevice surrounded on either side by a dirt trail and rather black and dead plants along the banks. You can still see the old water lines and the way the rocks and sand had been washed about by the water. Yesterday though after one storm this eye sore had a 3 foot wide stream in it. Hallelujah! It did smell off though, as if all the sand, rocks, vegetation, dirt, waste, and everything else that may end up in a river as little invisible substances, had to find it's way though this concentrated flow of water again.
Carlo used to live in my old room. This is something that made me smile. He was the one that put in the red plastic filter over the 'sauna' lights in my bathroom- they were strictly for intensive porn purposes. *plays corny porn music in background with loud base for effect* My bathroom was the Porn Bathroom!
Today at the bus stop i met the Hispanic version of Wesley Willis. Actually i didn't met him- he seemed very occupied in trying to sing some song in Spanish very poorly and with talking to himself. He appeared to weigh slightly less than Mr. Willis but that isn't saying much. They had the same haircut and complexion though.
"G'day, my name is Ari, i rock."
One reason to like reading Crowley- his mad eloquence.
"arithmetic, plane and solid geometry, astronomy, and harmonics - would first be studied for ten years to familiarise the mind with relations that can only be apprehended by thought. Five years would then be given to the still severer study of 'dialectic'."
I stole something for the first time since i was 6 and walked out of a drug store in Hong Kong with bubblegum in hand to follow my Mum's call. Except anymore it's not steeling to me but efficiency and economy wrought by reasoning. "I can give this little jade plant a much better home than Aramark can in this coffee shop." *peripheral lookout, yoink, and walk off directly* Not to mention the light bulb, toilet paper and pepper from a dorm cabinet. My school fees dictate that i have the right to artificial light, loo paper and cheap spices.
"I like your room- it's very Ari. *pause* You have pink bathroom towels! hehehe!" "They're red." "You have pink bathroom towels! Ha Ha!" "Yeah, about as pink as your arse is going to be when i start using those pink towels." "Well Jesus Christ!"
"If you wear socks and nothing else- you're not technically naked."
On the East Coast courting, talking of your feelings, being personal, is called ‘Processing’, Or so says Nina who goes to Smith.
We went to homecoming at 11pm and like clockwork Madonna played at midnight. It’s nice to know the formula for these events that I consider myself part of. For a formal Johnny dance in the Great Hall it was the most debaucherous and trashed i've ever seen. The 'class off' signs had all disappeared, broken or knocked over on the tables, those pathetic little plastic cupa like champagne cups they gave out were everywhere and broken, here were a few yelling drunks and one guy who was desperately and unsuccessfully trying to gain back his sobriety as he slumped all over a seminar chair. And of course to make it more like a Johnny dance the current or recently graduated students recovered the left over beverages!
What does the Queen drink? So many British companies are producing under 'Royal Order' i can't imagine her not having a keen supply but then Bass Ale doesn't seem a Queenly thing. But what does Lizzy sit back to in the evenings or at non tea parties and formals? Perhaps a Bombay Sapphire with Victoria's mug on it? Certainly not.
Sarah Graves was right, your nipples do get hard after taking a full shot.
Sometimes it is not necessary to flirt verbally- but you do have to introduce yourself.
I can't believe i missed Rasputina playing at Pulse. *cry of defeat* I won't be missing Michael Moschen when he comes to Santa Fe though.
Anastasia is snoring as sharply as a bee as Shug the cat is slurping his paws clean.
The music was like a drunk fat man trying to dance to a rhythm.
I've gone hat mad! I've forgotten how wonderful they are! Must get a tight strawed white cowboyish hat at the Santa Fe Flea Market. Then a grey bowler and a leather coachman and a topper. Oh oh! or a Viking Horned Helmet! A Coon Skin! A FEZ! A zoot fedora! A Zorro hat! A good ol' Aussie Pin up side hat! Panama Hats from Ecuador! An Indiana Jones hat! Be bop hats? A crock hat. The 50's detective hat. Got it Jack? And a nice floppy pig skin beret but no meat hats.
Ari's St. John's etc. quote page 2001-2002. You know you love me!
Carlo made me a doily from a paper towel! Yay!
My final round of edits is done on Haiku Hiccup Haickups. Phew. Now to find all the fonts i used, deal with legal restrictions, enslave some other editors and subjugate the other 6 books. I'm swamped!
Buhahahaha!
Who am i kidding, this is going to kill me.
Oy. Bad eggs for breakfast. 3 hours of sweat, queasiness and stomach turning. I pulled through and digested those damn unfertilized eggs though. Haw! Don't i feel superior. Ah, and a nun chuck in the eyeball wasn't to good for me either.
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