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Wednesday, November 30, 2005

I have a floater in my right eye. It first appeared the morning I woke up after arriving back in Santa Fe. I’ve never had one before. It is very annoying to me because I’m acutely aware of my 20/20 vision being obstructed. Apparently there’s really nothing I can do about it. I just hope it goes away or I stop noticing it.

150648 | posted by AussieAri at 16:33 | 0 comments

Must acquire another T-bone streak patch to affix to Santa hat for work.

150647 | posted by AussieAri at 16:32 | 0 comments

The Jane or Jack or Jerk of all trades simply pays attention to where and how they could possibly convince someone to pay them for something resembling work.

Modeling gig this weekend. I’ll be missing I <3 7000 B.C.'s fundraiser (you can go buy a collage piece of mine there though) but this pays the best in town and it’s something I agreed to a month ago so there’s no way I’m not going. I hope they have an effin heater in the house.

150646 | posted by AussieAri at 16:31 | 0 comments

"I'll bill you for your droodles" – M.I.A.

What the bloody hell are ‘droodles’ anyway?

150644 | posted by AussieAri at 16:28 | 0 comments

T.I.A.I.L.W.: Rose Harvester a.k.a. Granma Ben

150643 | posted by AussieAri at 16:16 | 0 comments

Friday, November 25, 2005

my ears are burning.

You know everyone makes fun of the conversations of the ‘young and the stupid’ that you hear so often at coffee shops. Sitting in a café in Santa Fe right now though I am privy to conversations of the ‘middle aged and self important’.
Spoilt spoilt spoilt little adults.

150497 | posted by AussieAri at 12:16 | 2 comments

All the art that caught me on the past trip:

Ati Maier
Julie Mehretu
Ateve di Benedetto
Stephka Ammon
Gerge Draque Theogonie
Eugenio Dittborn
William Kentridge
David Wojnarowicz
Kara Walker
Raymond Pettibon
Marco Maggi
Wangechi Mutu
Ahi Nuages
Carlo Maria Mariani
Michael Dunbar
Carol Mothner
Carl and Irene Clark
Gianfranco Masotti

150496 | posted by AussieAri at 11:40 | 0 comments

'No good slack jaws.'

I feel like The Goon in my drivers cap for work. See for yourself.

150495 | posted by AussieAri at 11:12 | 0 comments

I’ve been set up with four people in the past two weeks. What the hell. Such a flurry from others to casually send me down the road of dating has never been seen before. I’m not complaining per say but as soon as the decision of 'not really wanting a serious relationship and that being a good thing right now' sunk into my heart it’s as if those monogamous peoples in my life felt it was a threat that needed to be dealt with swiftly. Gah.

A friend’s mum said of her that ‘she dates to keep warm’. I don’t really see this as a bad thing. And it’s getting cold and I can’t have pets at the house.
If you’d like to apply to be a bed warmer leave a comment.

150493 | posted by AussieAri at 11:07 | 0 comments

i'm
really
looking
forward
to
stability
and
even
peace.

150492 | posted by AussieAri at 11:02 | 0 comments

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Our mastery has gotten away from us and we’ve gotten carried away by the idea.

A million thoughts a day, indulging in their multitude, all of them escaping, all with no end, just like this sentence...

150396 | posted by AussieAri at 20:03 | 3 comments

I’m the butch butcher!

So meat is exhausting but decent work. It is a little disconcerting to go in as the sun’s rising and leave when it’s dark though- a lot of the stores I’d want to run my errands at are closed by then. Also the way they set up the employee breaks is er- not so much like a break at all. I’ve only had a few difficult customers and they are by far out numbered by the good ones. This is somewhat incredible considering the timing of when i began this job. I did get my first sexist treatment from a customer; a rich lady in her forties done up to try to deny the fact who I suppose thought that if someone has a sausage in their pants it means they know more about butchering in general. My co-workers all seem cool, there’s only one other female in the department- hence the ‘you go girl!’ I’ve gotten from more than one customer.
People are spending mad amounts on large quantities of meat with thanksgiving approaching (we have 3000 turkeys in the house- we can barely move around back there). Thanksgiving should hence forth be called simply ‘meat day’, for the sake of honesty and clarity. I have no idea why you yanks don’t own up to the fact of the matter.

150395 | posted by AussieAri at 20:02 | 0 comments

Which to chose?

Small business = slave
Big business = soldier

150394 | posted by AussieAri at 19:59 | 0 comments

Maybe I could apply to be her doppelganger/stunt girl stand in.

That’s five more Jodie Foster comments in the past week. The best was from the post-op tranny lady though; 'Thank you Ms. Foster' in a NY accent. One of the people also apparently worked with her in L.A. and said I even have some of her mannerisms. How odd in a good way, I think.

150393 | posted by AussieAri at 19:59 | 0 comments

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Small Pic Update.

Rachael: "Is this testing whether I'm a replicant or a lesbian, Mr. Deckard?" - Bladerunner.

150270 | posted by AussieAri at 13:41 | 0 comments

I think D____ has a switch in his head. It read "Intellectual Interactions" on one end and "Sex" on the other.

150269 | posted by AussieAri at 13:23 | 0 comments

Get yer points right here because I want to know and I figure my friends are more knowledgeable than I:

(2 points) What is the name of Ireland’s version of field hockey?

(5 points) What is the name of the recently deceased (2000?) industrial landscape painter who secretly painted BDSM scenes underneath his final paintings? They discovered this when x-raying the works of his estate.

(8 points) Who was the contemporary of DaVinci who had a regular female model that had breast cancer? This was discovered when a doctor looked at one the oil paintings of this model and detected the irregularity.

(7 points) Does the cure for cold damaged legs described in Chapter 2 of The Way Of A Pilgrim actually work?
(4 bonus points) Does the technique of standing on one’s head every day and counting to 300 to cure rheumatism, headaches and arthritis as described in Jack Kerouac’s Dharma Bums actually have any basis or did he just want a bunch of his fans to stand on their head? (You need to either prove or disprove the first bit of this question conclusively.)

(1 point) Has Francis Bean Cobain started therapy yet?

(1 point) What is Kim Deal doing these days? (Only answer this if it’s something other than a sleaze ball and/or large amounts of drugs.)

(2 points) What’s the blog of that White House or perhaps Republican party intern who blogged sordid stories of her co-workers and ended up getting fired for it about a year ago?

150268 | posted by AussieAri at 13:23 | 0 comments

Local cocoa fix.

Chocolatesmith is a pretty good local store for choco- confectionery. They had the innovative idea of coating chocolate in wax so you can lug it just about anywhere in perfect condition. However, I discovered Kakawa Chocolate House which beats the pants off any competition and then sets fire to the pair of pants. Oh, and they’re about 2 blocks away from the house.

150267 | posted by AussieAri at 13:19 | 1 comments

Just in case your work-a-day life gets boring.

Weighted Vests.

150266 | posted by AussieAri at 13:18 | 0 comments

Crème de la crème
Merde de la merde

150265 | posted by AussieAri at 13:16 | 0 comments

Calling all Santa Feans who like art not Santa Fe style and can't afford most of it.

This means you, undoubtedly. You should go to this. It will be good. I will probably be pushing comics as i am want to do.

150263 | posted by AussieAri at 13:07 | 0 comments

T.I.A.I.L.W.: Selma Blair, who did a great job as Ursula Udders, who i am not T.I.L.W.

150262 | posted by AussieAri at 12:59 | 0 comments

Guess what!? Rectification is mine!
Wait- that's not what i meant.
I mean i'll be starting work at Whole Foodies this Friday and for extra excitement i'll be working days instead of nights which is just as i wanted it to begin with. Weee!

150260 | posted by AussieAri at 12:56 | 0 comments

'Taint working and I ain’t working neither.

Someone at Whole Foods messed up. The meat manager was away on hollies the past week and in the mean time someone else was suppose to get my paperwork done/in/processed whatever it is one does with paper so that I could take their mandatory intro class last Friday. Obviously this did not happen. Clearly this means Ari is not now flinging meat at people like she bloody well should be. Regrettably this situation wouldn’t be so much of a problem if only there were actually another planned intro class before December. Unfortunately, there is not. Consequently- Grr. GGRRRR.
They still want me to work for them though and I still want to. This is just an unforeseen set back. There is a minute chance that it can be rectified before then. One can only hope.

Sigh.
Now once more with enthusiasm.
Sigh.

Its back to being a Jane of all trades for another fortnight I suppose.
Maybe we could throw a rent party...

150259 | posted by AussieAri at 12:54 | 0 comments

Strickly feeling

Perhaps part of the reason why I can’t share my emotions so well is because I think I have to be able to express them exactly in words first.

150258 | posted by AussieAri at 12:53 | 0 comments

...And that's waterproof. Don’t forget the waterproofness.

*Ari’s phone in her pant pocket vibrates audibly in the silence of the room.*
Kate: "That’s what I need! A phone that vibrates stronger!"

150257 | posted by AussieAri at 12:52 | 0 comments

Let’s hear it for the (yaoi) boys.

Manga has taken over at Borders and I fear at most other mainstream booksellers as well. There are 5 full bookshelves dedicated to it at the store here. In comparison, there are now bearly 2 full bookshelves dedicated to the dear old Graphic Novel that we’ve come to treasure and love. Most of the mangas I picked off the shelf tended to look greatly like one another, were perhaps poorly translated and therefore loose of story and didn’t even really do it for me as erotica. ‘Spurt!’ written out in kanji and I don’t get to see anything more graphic than some movement lines? Feh! This isn’t worth $9.99!

I’m conflicted on this point of take over and market saturation though. On the one hand I support all sequential art, however I know that the majority of manga is the stuff of pop and not of fine storytelling art. I appreciate that in Japan the visual story and comics are a time honored part of art and life. I sincerely wish it was that way in western culture as well. See, everyone in Japan has a favorite manga and their best sellers gross in the millions as opposed to the tens of thousands as is the case with American comics. But really- on the other hand, give us some damn room. There are plenty of yank, brit, and aussie comicers trying to hack it in a fairly tiny industry to begin with. From DC to the funnies, the possibilities are endless for the art but the exposure is incredibly limited. As for non-Japanese manga style artists, well just name one. I can only think of Lea Hernandez and her Texas Steam Punk saga (which I might add is much more than mere pop). Sort of exclusive this manga thing isn’t it?

The whole trend reminds me of the British invasion of rock and roll with the Beatles etc. Both of these movements were fueled by insane amounts of young female hormones. Oh yes they were. You bet cher ever lovin’ yaio hagin’ fan girl arse that’s how it is!

As an after thought, I definitely like anime more than I like manga. At least with anime Japan continues to set a standard for the media of animated film worldwide while producing everything from frilly and fluff to gritty and gruff. I have yet to see manga do that for the whole of comics. Go on, I dare ya.

150256 | posted by AussieAri at 12:51 | 0 comments

The music isn’t loud enough. The music won’t be loud enough.

"I want so badly to believe that there is truth that love is real.
And I want life in every word to the extent that it’s absurd.
I know you’re wise beyond your years but do you ever get the feel,
That your perfect verse is just a lie you tell yourself to help you get by.
-Clark Gable, The Postal Service.

And BTW- does anyone think the song ‘We Will Become Silhouettes’ on the same album is any reference to the silhouette of the lovers in The Watchmen? That’s what it reminded me of. Beautiful and similar regardless.

150255 | posted by AussieAri at 12:45 | 0 comments

Fancy a cup of random twigs anyone?

Well, I though it was tea. I was lead to believe it was, in fact, tea by the person who left it here. You know the stuff might actually be tea. I’ve just never tasted a tea like that before so let’s all pretend that what I just brewed a pot of was really tea. A very odd TEA.

150254 | posted by AussieAri at 12:38 | 0 comments

Philosophical grudges.

I resent the idea that humans always do what seems best for them at the time. I also resent the possible conclusion from this that therefore, humans do what is ultimately good or what serves to make good inevitably even when doing wrong. I resent those ideas just as much as I resent the idea that what we do on earth and where humanity ends up doesn’t matter.

150253 | posted by AussieAri at 12:36 | 0 comments

Failed pick up line #22 (this one was actually used on me Saturday.)

"Is this the line for the bathroom?”
"Yes."
"Oh my God, I’m gonna explode! Can I sit on your lap?"

150252 | posted by AussieAri at 12:35 | 1 comments

Rasa is very funny. Good thing she is a professional comedian.

From a voicemail: "...I have moved in with a girl...a woman, a young lady! Who I think is shorter than you- um, but much heavier…but that’s ok! There’s nothing wrong with that. She’s your build but with huge boobs, really wide hips, and a huge ass. And she’s Korean. Um...Korean and Mexican. So I guess she’s really nothing like you- but anyway, she’s your height!"

150251 | posted by AussieAri at 12:35 | 0 comments

Holy gastronomy Batman!

1 ½ grilled beef steak, dry rubbed
1 baked salmon steak, dry rubbed
2 grilled corn on the cob
2 mexican flan
3 mexican sugar cookies
3 different cups of hot 70%+ cocao

I had the best meal I’ve had since leaving Italy right here in Santa Fe. And what makes a great meal even better? Why when it’s frikkin’ free! Seriously though- who needs Italy when you’ve got a chuck wagon? Muhahaha-Yee-haw!

150250 | posted by AussieAri at 12:35 | 1 comments

A force to reckon about

Are some people simply forces of anger, chaos, or destruction in the world? Can an entire person’s life be summed up and propelled by one force anyway?

150249 | posted by AussieAri at 12:34 | 0 comments

Saturday, November 12, 2005

T.I.A.I.L.W.: Massimina from Anno VIII, n°8 of Diabolik

150106 | posted by AussieAri at 14:13 | 0 comments

I think the way Gaelic is spelt it is suppose to be read only when intoxicated. That way the pronunciations naturally match up with the spellings of the words.

150105 | posted by AussieAri at 14:06 | 0 comments

Irish crisps called Taytos.

150104 | posted by AussieAri at 14:05 | 0 comments

The local GLBT film group.

150103 | posted by AussieAri at 14:03 | 0 comments

Aji-Ichiban is where I go nuts in NYC’s china town...every time.

150102 | posted by AussieAri at 14:02 | 0 comments

If anyone feels like buying me an x-man prezzy, I suggest ordering some imp sampler vials from Black Phoenix Alchemy Lab. At least I’ll be ordering some for meself. Things on my list of curiosity:

Lion, Fenris Wolf, Rage, Blood Amber, Coyote, Sin, De Sade, Blood, Bastet, Black Cat, Wanton, Whip, Antony, Loviator, Highwayman, Dragon’s Hide, Wolf’s Heart, Wolfsbane, Morocco, Casanova, Titus Andronicus, Imp, Black Lotus, Masquerade.

Or a replica (yet functional of course) Spartan helmet. The shape has been in my mind since I read Gates Of Fire. I think it’s one of the greatest masks ever made.

150101 | posted by AussieAri at 13:57 | 0 comments

T-shirts the Minutemen wear:

Vigil Aunties

Fight The Power(less)

150100 | posted by AussieAri at 13:52 | 0 comments

John Barth's Chimera again

"But never for want of words! Too much to say, that’s my complaining: everything to get said, and all at once or I’ll forget it. Already I’ve forgotten half what I’d in mind to write; pen can’t keep up; I make mad side-notes, notes of notes for notes; each phrase begets two more, four; I can’t sleep for them; my joints are stiff; it’s cold and damp here; this moment I should be lying with my warm young friend; instead it’s scribble scribble the night through, red eyes, dizzy: fine shape I’ll be in at tide turn, when the long edd ends! What am I saying? There, gone. Digression from digression will not lead to the main stream; it’s the wrong way out of the swamp."

"Being Amazon, Melanippe is torn between admiration for her lover’s dead wife’s large-heartedness and a great desire to bark her submissive shins. ‘At least Anteia had spirits enough to call you a gelding, holler Rape, and do her best to have you killed; in Amazonia you’d have lost your balls for Sexual Refusal of the Needy. It’s a serious offense.’"

150099 | posted by AussieAri at 13:51 | 0 comments

The New Yorker Complete on DVD-Rom
*drool*

150098 | posted by AussieAri at 13:47 | 0 comments

In the main piazza of a small Umbrian town at siesta time:

An angle in a wife beater.

150097 | posted by AussieAri at 13:46 | 0 comments

It’s not what I do when I’m alone (usually not much or of any interest to anyone else). It’s that I AM alone.

150096 | posted by AussieAri at 13:46 | 0 comments

Let’s get the sex out of the way then shall we?

The NYC Museum Of Sex. There’s also one in dear old Berlin (say: Beate Uhse Erotic Museum). Who knows which is better!
Personally, I couldn’t think of a bigger turn off of a porno production name than Candide Royalle- but if you like het sex vids, this is the thing for you.
On the other hand, The Vicars Vice is an excellent name, though not my style either.
O’My is an all natural lube. I have yet to try it but I figure having hemp oil in it it’s got to be quality.

150095 | posted by AussieAri at 13:42 | 0 comments

Failed pick up line #17

"Are those good shoes for fucking?"

150094 | posted by AussieAri at 13:34 | 0 comments

Friday, November 11, 2005

More obscure Johnny blogs

You can't hide from me Odious!

150066 | posted by AussieAri at 16:33 | 1 comments

Thursday, November 10, 2005

score

I will have you know, screw gold, I hit platinum with an artist of mine; things are coming along a bit more and a bit faster with all the projects. *sigh*
Let me reaffirm each time it was worth the try, even if I’ve got to fire some people now and find some new ones…

150038 | posted by AussieAri at 15:12 | 0 comments

"There are things the body remembers that the mind forgets." - Lauri

There are some things that still make me uncomfortable in jiu jitsu- being yanked around just too much, having someone just a little too heavy in top position on me for a little too long, a limb unexpectedly compromised faster than i though, or finding a part of me less flexible or useful than usual, and i get that feeling that begins hyperventilation. Burning chest and windpipe, spasm of the diaphragm, heartbeat out of sync with breathing, watering of eyes. That's just how my body freaks out. I don't know why.

150037 | posted by AussieAri at 15:01 | 0 comments

When moshpits start up and all the boys rush in front of the crowd to the band I can’t help but think, "Aw, look- they’re playing!"

150036 | posted by AussieAri at 14:55 | 0 comments

Best bad babe one liners:

"Tell me where the photos are or I’ll shove my gun up your cooze and blow your ovearies out your eyeballs." –Agent 355 of Y The Last Man

"She'd have you wearing your balls for a bow tie if you looked at her cross-eyed." –Someone About Molly from Neuromancer

150035 | posted by AussieAri at 14:54 | 0 comments

Ways to re-kickstart your carear

"You could go to New Mexico, find your spirit animal and then cook the animal. We’ll air it all on TV." –from the film Martha Inc.

150034 | posted by AussieAri at 14:46 | 0 comments

Sunday, November 6, 2005

...Fah-la-la de-da de-da...

jet-lag ate my brain and my internal clock
help. everyone seems to be ailing here

149907 | posted by AussieAri at 14:31 | 0 comments

Why is my life so weird?

149906 | posted by AussieAri at 14:29 | 0 comments

Stumble upon to explore.

149905 | posted by AussieAri at 14:21 | 0 comments

Bauhaus played in Denver last night. I would cry but i know i wouldn't have been able to get in anyway.

149904 | posted by AussieAri at 14:19 | 0 comments

Long unanswered questions from my childhood:

What the fuck is a Casbah and how the hell do you rock it anyway?

149903 | posted by AussieAri at 14:18 | 0 comments

What I’m doing tomorrow.

Out with the genra organization of 600+ cds.
In with the alphabetical organization of 600+ cds.

149902 | posted by AussieAri at 14:14 | 0 comments

Well he’s out of the closet, returned to his homeland, back at college, and a survivor of a major natural disaster.

I don’t think I could have listened to the story of New Orleans going under and getting fucked in any more of an accurate yet funny light. Only my old co-worker from the pet store, my friend, a 22 year old pretty twink. Bless his heart.

149901 | posted by AussieAri at 14:13 | 0 comments

Want to make something Italian?

Add an ‘o’ to the end of it, exaggerate the rise and fall of each syllable and for extra flair, throw in a hand gesture.

149900 | posted by AussieAri at 14:13 | 0 comments

This one’s for Mus. Here’s looking at squid, kid.

Giant squid caught on film by Japanese researchers

149899 | posted by AussieAri at 14:12 | 0 comments

purpose?

Sometimes I feel my life exists simply to collect piece for a story that can’t be written in its entirety.
I commiserate with anthropologists.

149898 | posted by AussieAri at 14:11 | 0 comments

All other red wines quake before what is DOCG Chianti Classico. If I’ve mention this already, I’m saying it again because the truth is now very strong in me.
~
*hick*

149897 | posted by AussieAri at 14:11 | 0 comments

Who’s afraid of Terrorists? I’m afraid of Terraists.

Strange little feeling about having written a poem about Venice sinking then New Orleans floods.

149896 | posted by AussieAri at 14:10 | 0 comments

Something awful this way comes.

Going to a Museum of Torture and have the instruments explained to you in mangled English is hysterical. Pause for a second. Take in that line.
They ever tried to wax philosophical about female genital mutilation over a breast shredder, "in as much as the soul of torture is male, the male organ has enjoyed impunity throughout ages…"

Then again, I had been laughing hysterically and inappropriately throughout our trip to relieve the stress of driving. Everything was setting me into uncontrollable almost fake and painful gulps of laughter. It was infectious- my mum and aunt started in on it too at times.

For my money the stork, a.k.a., the scavengers daughter is still one of the worst in the torture repertoire.

149895 | posted by AussieAri at 14:09 | 0 comments

We grossed nearly $300 off of our little comic event on Saturday. It was good. This means only 20 more parties like that and we’ll have the cash to print the book.

Oy.

I am pleased though.

149894 | posted by AussieAri at 14:07 | 0 comments

Friday, November 4, 2005

And don't you forget it...

I am your GOD. Your GOD has ingested four quarts of gin.

149854 | posted by AussieAri at 13:18 | 0 comments

Got interview for good job. Got good interview. Need call back.
Got other call. Got appointment in December to model for good money. Need to meet the artist for sure.

Got my foot in the door or my mouth? We'll find out.

149853 | posted by AussieAri at 13:12 | 0 comments

"Sad sad sobriety." - Jeanne on the state of SJCSF's students and campus.

149852 | posted by AussieAri at 13:03 | 0 comments

This is the most awful pun I’ve ever heard but apparently it happened, which is why you've got to laugh.

Woman in bakery section: What’s the holla cost?
Worker in bakery section: Well, you see, that’s when 6 million je...uh...3.50
*Woman looks confused and walks away*
Worker: Breotch!

149851 | posted by AussieAri at 13:01 | 0 comments

Cuddle parties and Silent dating.

149850 | posted by AussieAri at 12:29 | 0 comments

La Tomatina. Have you ever HAD a tomato in the eye? I don't know how they can stand it but it looks fun.

Also, the infamous Running of the Bulls. Hemmingway did it ya know. While i was in Italy i thought to myself, 'Now that's a truly senseless thing to do that does NOT actually prove you're manly and courageous in any way as far as i'm concerned. Maybe i should look into it."

149849 | posted by AussieAri at 12:24 | 0 comments

Sacramento has underground tunnels. Sweet.

149848 | posted by AussieAri at 12:21 | 0 comments

‘The cunning use of flags’

About the time Bushy condemned France for condemning him, the little French bakery/café in Santa Fe put little French flags out on all the tables. Often people would come in and walk directly out as soon as they saw the flags.

149847 | posted by AussieAri at 12:19 | 0 comments

this bloke i know

He had no exact home. He spent his money on things you couldn’t see unless some mark was left upon his body. He brought home with him stories and skills, not souvenirs.

149846 | posted by AussieAri at 12:18 | 0 comments

My gentle readership-

Thanks for rummaging through my trifles, really and truly. Besides general randomness and funniness I have always tried to push myself to disclosure and exposure on this weblog as an artistic personal challenge. I sometimes post embarrassing stories and feelings, painful memories, I post what I think about myself, what others think about me, and stupid things that occur to me. If you know this already you’re either a true friend or an understanding stranger/stalker. Be warned though; if you are a regular reader things are going to get particularly shity henceforth for my family and myself. I swing between wanting to writing about it and not. Don’t be alarmed, just be warned. I’ve decided there’s no good reason to withhold these sorts of posts and filter them out from the lighter hearted ones and the ones that have easy answers. If I do do that I feel like I’m trying to sell something here which is contrary to this blog’s purpose. So if you don’t mind hearing my woes, here’s what I’ve got to say at the moment:

Mum’s face, neck and chest are covered in sores. She itches constantly. New chemo treatment and all. What does this mean? It means I am trying to prepare myself for the next time I see her. And I don’t know if I can. I got use to her wearing a wig soon enough, to her being bald, to her mediport, the 14 staple long scar down her abdomen and the swelling of her innards, and the change in color and texture of her skin. What was more of a shock than all these things which I somehow managed to accept was this last trip with her when she pulled off her wig. Grown back was this sparse gray and white hair. Who knows the extent of the damage the new treatment will end up doing to her. It’s the last treatment before only experimental treatments are available and she’s gotten some of the worst results from this treatment they’ve ever seen. I’ve tried to roll and deal with all the other physical slays of my 56 year old mother’s decline and I think I’ve done all right. But how do you actually get use to seeing the person who brought you into the world being covered in sores? Impossible because it’s unacceptable.

Some people have heard this all and they say with heartfelt sincerity ‘well you’ll always have Italy’. When I hear this I just want them to shut up. To shut up because they’re right. Because it’s going to end and end badly.

149845 | posted by AussieAri at 12:18 | 1 comments

Wednesday, November 2, 2005

And now i go to march with the dead.

149784 | posted by AussieAri at 15:17 | 0 comments

home?

I’m an expat wherever I go, or at least half a one no matter where I am on earth.

149783 | posted by AussieAri at 15:01 | 0 comments

With Dan's example in mind.

I ate two raw eggs today. Scrambled in a rocks glass, one at a time. Felt like the right thing to do. And you know what? It wasn’t bad at all- considering it saves time and washing dishes it’s a worthwhile alternative breakfast option.
I am an egg sucking goanna.

149782 | posted by AussieAri at 15:00 | 0 comments

Great ways to start job interviews:

"Ar-ie?"
"Air-y, as in areola"

149781 | posted by AussieAri at 14:57 | 0 comments

T.I.A.I.L.W.: Calyxa of Chimera by John Barth. a.k.a. Egyptian Chemmis.

"It’s after midnight. I’m twenty-five and scared. Make love to me?"
"I can’t do scholarship. Or write or draw or anything. I’ve got this great IQ and I can’t do anything. I’d been working in Ammon’s and Sabazius’s temples to support my studies, and then Ammon screwed me, and I liked it, so I let Sabazius in too, and pretty soon I was in charge or all three temples. It’s not bad work; I meet a lot of people; I just wonder something if I’m getting anywhere that matters."

149780 | posted by AussieAri at 14:55 | 0 comments

Tuesday, November 1, 2005

Bare Knuckle Stout was really good stuff.

149758 | posted by AussieAri at 17:21 | 0 comments

Like Mirabai, i'm suprised the bod-mod troop haven't followed this example.

149757 | posted by AussieAri at 17:19 | 0 comments

And i'm a mass murdering dumbass:

Evil Ernie In Santa Fe. Santa Fe never look so...er...not like itself at all. Pitched roofs? Are you kidding me?

149756 | posted by AussieAri at 17:16 | 0 comments

Think about direction, wonder why you have it now...

My links may not be working for some of you and i'm not sure why. I'll fiddle with it later but for now, you should be able to work out how to re-direct yourselves.

149755 | posted by AussieAri at 17:13 | 0 comments

May I present,

Sweet 7000 Baaadasss Comics
Over The Top Comics

149754 | posted by AussieAri at 17:07 | 0 comments

Jack The Ripper. A french band with a certain malaise and love of singing in english to distorted paris lounge music.

149753 | posted by AussieAri at 16:53 | 0 comments

T.I.A.I.L.W.: The winged one with the switch from the fresco at The Villa of Mysteries, Pompei. My kind of house.

149752 | posted by AussieAri at 16:43 | 0 comments

Job hunting again. Running around cross-town like spastic amidst possibilities that won’t make themselves probabilities. Typical Santa Fe things, you know?
Began training again. Very happy with myself considering I haven’t trained in almost 2 months. I have no idea how i managed to best 3 blue belts and only got tapped out twice...and not puke! Woohoo! Wonders never cease!
Well Halloween karaoke was spiffy. If only every day was Halloween. I really like how the men in this town often take the holiday for an excuse to be sluty in drag. Tres cute. Of a strikingly sad note there was an old drunk short and heavy lesbian dressed convincingly as Santa. She was touching everything with tits, molesting actually. It was a bit scary but mostly I just felt sorry for her because I could see how her life lead her to where she was that night.
But regardless- shoot me if I end up like that.
Met someone with gorgeous eyes and hair. Would that i might see them again.

149751 | posted by AussieAri at 16:39 | 0 comments