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Name: Marie
aka: CityKat
aka: Bubbles
Age: 18 - eek! I'm old...
Birthday: December 13
Zodiac: Sagittarius
Location: The box that is campus.
Loves: RH;MIT, music, friends, the outdoors, all of my hometowns, critters, WAGGGS
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Chicken Soup For The Souless -What goes on in Jesse's brain, nobody knows...
In ThE Tub WiTh SquIsHy -Christina's log, so just keep swimming!.
Lean On Me -Regan's digital and cryonable shoulder.
Manitoulin Wannabe -The heart of the island's where her heart lies.
One Ring... -Ali's blog. Her straight forward is kinda crooked.
Random Thoughts -It’s Jeff! And the voices!.
Searching in the Darkness -Lex's blog, we'll force him to see dawn one of these days.
Somewhere Over the Rainbow -It’s Kuriosity!
Super Spidey -A cookie and a kiss.
The World of Cr0magnus -Tech Reincarnated
Undead and Confused -My favourite Cool Kid!
Moutains and Valleys
Fun Links
Chris's Site -Games, Pics, Jokes... He's got it. And BESS can't get him.
F-Concept! Oi!Oi!Oi! -Leader's only!... okay, and Josh and Bubble!
havesomehats -All I'm saying is; elephants, checkered people, and top hats.
Sinfest -Funny as Hell. Thanks to Lex for getting me hooked.
Too Far North (Awesome)!! -The best band there ever was! (Okay, that might be stetching it, but hey we love you guys!) It consists of a lack of independant brain power and a collective love for music!
Blog Shares -Who's winning today?
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Okay, spiraling downhill is annoying, I hate it. However you just keep pushing. I thought I left the bullies in elementry school, thought I had choosen friends who cared, apparently I was wrong. You don't stop when I ask you too, you just laugh and act more stupid. You don't know when to stop, do you? Once a bully, always a bully.
Then there's the other friends. The ones who say they care, and yet leave me to sink deeper into my depression, even when I ask for help. Either too busy or they don't care, which I understand. It's the way people other than me work, never making time, always walking away. Go ahead, pick a favorite and help make their day grand, leave me, I've learned how to fall.
And in the end, I'll get up again, though to the Goddess I pray it be soon. How long I'll be here, I don't know. But for those of you wlaking away, those of you laughing loud, remember, if you ever find yourself right here. In this land of misery and woe, I'll try my best not to turn and walk, I'll lend a hand and help you to stand. For friends are forever, and friends always come first, at least in my world. And in my world too, you are all my friends, I don't like to pick and choose.
*hugs*
Chin up, smile. Take your own advice bozo! - my voices before they rip me to shreds
I've really gotta stop starting the day in tears...
last modified Oct 8, 2004, 5:11 p
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Marie, I know we're not the closest of friends, but if you ever need to talk, and I mean about anything, I'm here for you. I'll always be here for you if you need to talk to anyone.
*hugs*
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SubmissiveSweeti - October 8, 2004, 9:03 p
Of course I didn't help with one of your breakdowns. I think I saw you only once today, and that was before classes started. (I can't recall anything I would've done that would've helped your breakdown, but I apologize anyways.
I only meant to say in my last comment that no one's perfect. Don't believe your friends are, and especially don't believe you are yourself. Your human, for what it's worth.
I bottle things up because people don't like the taste of the drink in the bottles...
And I'm not mad at you, as I've already told you. In fact, we're speaking right now, so I've done you that favour...
*hugs*
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Edicius - October 8, 2004, 8:47 p
I'll never succeed.
I only posted one of three rants I wrote today, and the one I posted is crappiest of them all. One of the others speaks of how I will always try, yet never succeed. Clearly it's happened again.
I don't mean to ignore you, and I'm very sorry that I have. And yes, of late you've been on my nerves alot, in fact you didn't help with one of today's break downs. However that doesn't give me the right to ignore you. I never succeed, and obviously once again I've failed. Failed at being there for you, failed at beign a friend. Failed. Such is my life. And though I will try to change it, because it only brings me grief to fail, I can only hope that I will. I used to talk to you as well. Now I've turned into you, bottling things up. Not talking to anyone. I'll try to change... But I can only try.
*hugs* I'm so very sorry.
Do me a favour? Next time you need to talk; if you feel I deserve the second chance (probably like a fifth in truth) try talking to me again.
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CityKat - October 8, 2004, 8:23 p
I think you're asking the wrong people. Try asking me next time. You used to come to me for help, but now it seems you'd rather kick me than attempt a conversation, so...
And you're describing friends who say they will help whenever they're asked... maybe you understand some of what I've been saying now. I ask for help, I get silence. This section in particular; The ones who say they care, and yet leave me to sink deeper into my depression, even when I ask for help. Either too busy or they don't care, which I understand. It's the way people other than me work, never making time, always walking away. Go ahead, pick a favorite and help make their day grand, leave me, I've learned how to fall
It reminds me of you. I do, or rather did, go to you for help. You were either too busy running off with someone else (typically Biff, Regan, or Lex) to be able to have a conversation... Seriously, if I said that line, you would have been foremost in my mind. I'm not blaming you for anything, as I understand that I seemingly piss you off all the time, but it hurt me when you said (many times on my weblog) that I could go to you for help, and then you would tell me to fuck off whenever I tried to.
But whatever. C'est la vie.
*hugs*
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Edicius - October 8, 2004, 8:01 p
*hugs*
Marie, i know i am far from you guys and out of the loop for the most part, however i am online as often as i can and i am always willing to help any way i can...
*hugs*
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Iamweasel - October 8, 2004, 7:49 p
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