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Name: Marie
aka: CityKat
aka: Bubbles
Age: 18 - eek! I'm old...
Birthday: December 13
Zodiac: Sagittarius
Location: The box that is campus.
Loves: RH;MIT, music, friends, the outdoors, all of my hometowns, critters, WAGGGS
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Chicken Soup For The Souless -What goes on in Jesse's brain, nobody knows...
In ThE Tub WiTh SquIsHy -Christina's log, so just keep swimming!.
Lean On Me -Regan's digital and cryonable shoulder.
Manitoulin Wannabe -The heart of the island's where her heart lies.
One Ring... -Ali's blog. Her straight forward is kinda crooked.
Random Thoughts -It’s Jeff! And the voices!.
Searching in the Darkness -Lex's blog, we'll force him to see dawn one of these days.
Somewhere Over the Rainbow -It’s Kuriosity!
Super Spidey -A cookie and a kiss.
The World of Cr0magnus -Tech Reincarnated
Undead and Confused -My favourite Cool Kid!
Moutains and Valleys
Fun Links
Chris's Site -Games, Pics, Jokes... He's got it. And BESS can't get him.
F-Concept! Oi!Oi!Oi! -Leader's only!... okay, and Josh and Bubble!
havesomehats -All I'm saying is; elephants, checkered people, and top hats.
Sinfest -Funny as Hell. Thanks to Lex for getting me hooked.
Too Far North (Awesome)!! -The best band there ever was! (Okay, that might be stetching it, but hey we love you guys!) It consists of a lack of independant brain power and a collective love for music!
Blog Shares -Who's winning today?
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Okay so I've messed up. I'm sorry is messenger's an ass. I'm sorry if you're an ass. If I'm not online right now it's probably because you're not one of the like 7 people not blocked on my list. Congratulations if you're not blocked, clearly I think you might be able to help pull me through this. You're the closer friends I have, or Gigs - who is blameless as she's too far away.
So evidently I'm failing at this whole living thing. So I'm going to lock myself ina corner and cry myself to sleep now. You seem to only see one side of the problem, funny, me too. It's pity the only side being seen is the one where I'm to blame. Clearly if no one sees any other sides it's because they don't exist and it's soley my fault.
I'm sorry I messed up again. I'm sorry I'm not an angel. I'm sorry I didn't meet your expectations. I'm sorry I'm useless. I'm sorry all I do is cause pain and suffering.
I'm sorry. You may not believe me, but my teddy bears do. They still care. They're the only ones who ever see my tears, they're the only ones who understand. I mean, what are friends for, if not to leave when you need them most.
Banish the day when sparkling silver blocks out tarnished gold. Oh I'm sorry... That was inappropriate of me... To think that I could ever be associated with silver and gold.
last modified Nov 7, 2004, 8:55 p
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i clearly stated that i was using it in a different way dammit. *shakes fist* i'm using it as a way to say that you're awesome. but oh well. guess i failed at doing tha too. *goes back to silent corner*
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Biff - November 8, 2004, 10:02 p
*is confused* If he doesn't understand the quote than I'll laugh at him... If he does he's being an evil bum because he believes people to be lower than someone else... And prejudice isn't nice.
*hugs*
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CityKat - November 8, 2004, 9:53 p
you don't deserve silver and gold? bullshit (yes, i know, sparks refernce. i'm using it to be nice and not sadistic, so let me be). silver and gold don't deserve You.
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Biff - November 8, 2004, 9:18 p
Yay!!!! Ali got it!!!! *jumps up and down* I'm all better now... jsut a bad night. And what if I don't want to spell it like that!?! 
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CityKat - November 8, 2004, 9:02 a
Underneath it all...
Hey, I'm sorry I havn't been online lots to talk about stuff! I'm coming home tonight though, for a little while! I'll try and catch you online!
You rock!
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spidey101 - November 8, 2004, 8:52 a
go sparks!!!
never fear. i'm here to lean on if i am needed...and crying oneself to sleep is a baaaaaaad idea...it only leads to more holes in your shield in times to come...i've done it enough times myself in the last few days...it definitely sucks.
to JR and Marie: it's solely
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arwenevenstar - November 8, 2004, 7:06 a
Hee hee, guessing at what the quote means... You guys have all failed miserably. Regs! I'm amazed... you should've gotten it. Oh well... Maybe Ali will get it. Everyone else just needs to brush up on their campfire songs!
And I'm all better, I only needed to flip out. And REGS; the one thing keeping me together is friendship, take that away and my strength fails. That's why I was so bad last night, I was loosing a few of my best friends.
*hugs*
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CityKat - November 8, 2004, 6:35 a
Everyone messes up sweetheart. Everyone. I have, way too many times in the last little while. You do not fail at the living thing. To the contrary, you are living life to it's fullest. Don't you dare go lock yourself in a corner and cry yourself to sleep. I will find you, and I will dry your tears if I have to go throught the Nine Hells to do so. I can't believe there is anything that is solely your fault. Nothing is solely the fault of one person. I see the other side. I see the caring, smiling, cheerful, always willing to lend a hand or a shoulder Marie, who is stronger at heart than most of the people I know, and who refuses to break, no matter what hits her. I see the Marie that I only wish I was as good as, the one that I met and loved last year, and love to this day.
Tu es une ange ma fille. N'ouble pas cela jamais. Tu es l'ange de mes reves, qui m'aide a chque jour , et qui a toujours un beau sourire pour offrir.
I believe you sweetheart, and I am here for you. You have caused me no pain, no suffering, ever. And I am so so so sorry for leaving...I deserved that.
Silver and gold? You have the clear, moonlight shine of silver that radiates from you every day, and you have a heart of gold..I wonder that you think you should not be associated with them.
*hugs* Je t'aime pour toujours ma fille. Je t'aime. Prends soins de toi-meme, et rester sauf.
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REGS - November 8, 2004, 1:17 a
*solely
And thanks for the compliment! I am hard to understand. Especially because I often purposely mislead people. Or used to.
Marie, calm down. You're taking everything too hard. I also apologize if I said anything to upset you in the past while, but I'd rather say the truth than lie to your face to give you false happiness.
This itself is truth:
*hugs*
Chin up, and smile. Life goes on.
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Edicius - November 7, 2004, 11:57 p
I'm sorry too, for being an ass and taking out my frustration tonight on you...
there are many sides to everything... it is just had to see more than one or two sides at a time... especially when one side involves ones heart... nothing is every soley(is that correct spelling) ones fault... there is always more than one person involved... no matter how much we may want there to be only one... and you are an angel... like most of the people i consider friends, you are just having troubles with your wings and your halo... I believe you, and do care even though it may not seem like it, and friends may leave when you need it most only because they are pushed away and not allowed to help... this is something everyone is guilty of at one point in time or another... you just need to know when to ask and when to ignore... and what's that about you not being associated with silver and gold? Tara, you and Ali, three great things, bronze, silver, and gold three other great thigns.... the greatest gifts in life come in three, from the top places in sports, to three great friends, to the three wise men and the three gifts brought to baby jesus... all three...
*hugs*
I am Also sorry for irreperably changing your bestest... this was never my intentions... and if i could i would change her back for you... you have been a great friend through thick and thin and i will always be here to do nearly anything you ask...
*hugs*
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Iamweasel - November 7, 2004, 11:13 p
Whoa, hold up. You probably have no idea what this rant is about. It's not the last post that sparked it.
If you've misunderstood Jesse you can join the rest of the world - he's one of the hardest people I've ever met to understand. And me, well to understand the post before this you would have had to be listening and registering my ramblings... And this one has nothing to do with you... so yeah. Don't be that way. I don't need more guilt on my hands...
*hugs*
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CityKat - November 7, 2004, 11:11 p
No hugs again. Just noting that.
Thanks for the wake-up call in blocking, by the way, by the way. I think you just proved once and for all that I don't know jack shit about anything or anyone, which probably forces me to reconsider the career I was going to get into. I've already succeeded in misunderstanding Jesse, and now I've succeeded in misunderstanding you.
Thanks again.
-- Jordan
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ScaniX - November 7, 2004, 11:06 p
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