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Name: Marie
aka: CityKat
aka: Bubbles
Age: 18 - eek! I'm old...
Birthday: December 13
Zodiac: Sagittarius
Location: The box that is campus.
Loves: RH;MIT, music, friends, the outdoors, all of my hometowns, critters, WAGGGS
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Chicken Soup For The Souless -What goes on in Jesse's brain, nobody knows...
In ThE Tub WiTh SquIsHy -Christina's log, so just keep swimming!.
Lean On Me -Regan's digital and cryonable shoulder.
Manitoulin Wannabe -The heart of the island's where her heart lies.
One Ring... -Ali's blog. Her straight forward is kinda crooked.
Random Thoughts -It’s Jeff! And the voices!.
Searching in the Darkness -Lex's blog, we'll force him to see dawn one of these days.
Somewhere Over the Rainbow -It’s Kuriosity!
Super Spidey -A cookie and a kiss.
The World of Cr0magnus -Tech Reincarnated
Undead and Confused -My favourite Cool Kid!
Moutains and Valleys
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Chris's Site -Games, Pics, Jokes... He's got it. And BESS can't get him.
F-Concept! Oi!Oi!Oi! -Leader's only!... okay, and Josh and Bubble!
havesomehats -All I'm saying is; elephants, checkered people, and top hats.
Sinfest -Funny as Hell. Thanks to Lex for getting me hooked.
Too Far North (Awesome)!! -The best band there ever was! (Okay, that might be stetching it, but hey we love you guys!) It consists of a lack of independant brain power and a collective love for music!
Blog Shares -Who's winning today?
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*is writing this because she is still downstairs and she can't cry downstairs and is sick of crying*
I don't know what to do anymore... it's all so much harder than it sounds. I can't think without getting messed up in over-complicated emotions and the drama that is my life. Aida runs from drama she says - I therefore find it funny how she ended up living across the hall from me.
I hate this... it takes over every last part of my life...
"this" What is "this"? I think it's some sort of overly-complicate, probably really simple, loneliness. It is feeling on top of the world with the greatest friends one moment, to needed someone to hold you so desperately that life has no purpose without them the next. It's being in love and not all at the same time, it's not being able to move on - while half of you moves on. It's not wanting to move on, while you scout out boys with friends. It's loving someone so completely and entirely that they are your world, and hating them for what you've done all at once. It's the most solid and complete at-peace-with-the-world feeling in your heart, while your gut is wrenching in painful sobs, and your heart is torn in two directions at once. It's crying yourself to sleep because everything's perfect. It's thinking everything's amazing because you have a reason to cry. It's feeling alone in the most crowded of places, and counting your friends on one hand - when you know that yesterday you had a million people who cared about you and you were one of the lucky ones. It's feeling like there's not a soul in the world you can talk to - because they just wouldn't understand... It's being alone while everyone else holds someone close. It's keeping everything to yourself while so many people spill their souls to you...
it's "this" feeling.
I don't know how to escape it... It's always there, good and bad, always bringing me as high as can be and then smashing me into the ground...
I miss innocence...
*hugs*... because I could use them right now...
last modified Jan 28, 2008, 6:03 p
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