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The Mountain's Secret
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Name: Marie
aka: CityKat
aka: Bubbles
Age: 18 - eek! I'm old...
Birthday: December 13
Zodiac: Sagittarius
Location: The box that is campus.
Loves: RH;MIT, music, friends, the outdoors, all of my hometowns, critters, WAGGGS
Fellow Tin Soldiers
Blog Links
Chicken Soup For The Souless -What goes on in Jesse's brain, nobody knows...
In ThE Tub WiTh SquIsHy -Christina's log, so just keep swimming!.
Lean On Me -Regan's digital and cryonable shoulder.
Manitoulin Wannabe -The heart of the island's where her heart lies.
One Ring... -Ali's blog. Her straight forward is kinda crooked.
Random Thoughts -It’s Jeff! And the voices!.
Searching in the Darkness -Lex's blog, we'll force him to see dawn one of these days.
Somewhere Over the Rainbow -It’s Kuriosity!
Super Spidey -A cookie and a kiss.
The World of Cr0magnus -Tech Reincarnated
Undead and Confused -My favourite Cool Kid!
Moutains and Valleys
Fun Links
Chris's Site -Games, Pics, Jokes... He's got it. And BESS can't get him.
F-Concept! Oi!Oi!Oi! -Leader's only!... okay, and Josh and Bubble!
havesomehats -All I'm saying is; elephants, checkered people, and top hats.
Sinfest -Funny as Hell. Thanks to Lex for getting me hooked.
Too Far North (Awesome)!! -The best band there ever was! (Okay, that might be stetching it, but hey we love you guys!) It consists of a lack of independant brain power and a collective love for music!
Blog Shares -Who's winning today?
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Pour l’esprit de vos enfants,
Pour la vie et nos enfants,
Déesse je vous en prie.
Pour vos enfants capturés sans lumière,
Pour vos enfants qui perdent l’amour.
Déesse je vous en prie.
Vous qui nous avez gardés
Sauf, loin de la tristesse et
La méchante.
La méchante, lui qui nous mange,
Lui qui noircir la vie,
Né du naïf narcotique,
Narcotique de l’esprit.
Narcotique qui est la haine.
Déesse je vous en prie,
Vous, qui n’existe que dans nos cœurs,
Vous, qui est l’amour et les vents.
On tombe, Déesse,
Comme l’étoile des ciels.
Aides-nous Déesse, pour qu’on
Trouve les ailes sur lesquelles on vole.
Pour qu’on trouve nos cœurs,
Et laisse passer la nuit,
La tristesse,
Les larmes dans nos yeux.
Vous qui nous avez gardés,
Nous gardes encore.
Aide-nous Déesse,
Les sourires nous attendent.
Les étoiles, les esprits contents.
Aide-nous Déesse, aide-nous
A trouver nos sentiers.
A trouver nos esprits,
Nos esprits contents.
Déesse je vous en prie.
Je vous remercie Déesse.
With our brothers we will share all the secrets of our mountain, all the riches buried there.
Email Me
Battle Fields
All the Riches Buried There
last modified Nov 19, 2005, 6:50 p
Sunday, October 31, 2004
Egor
Let me run throught these answers once again...
1. Yes, I worked eleven hours today.
2. No, they're not paying me the same 800 every other week you get.
3. Yes, I'm a volunteer.
4. Yes, I work for free every week.
5. No, I'm not in University.
6. No, I haven't graduated.
7. Yes, I"m in highschool.
8. Grade eleven.
9. No, I'm not seventeen.
10. Fifteen.
11. No you can't pet the rat.
12. Yes you stole my scare station.
13. Yes, when I say shut the door I mean it.
14. Are you out of questions yet?
*hugs*
One two, Dr Dread's after you.
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CityKat - 10:05 p
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(3) Lost In The Void
Friday, October 29, 2004
Maudit Veille de Toussaint
Okay, Hallowe'en sucks. Hopefully I can drag Regs to the party saturday night or I might not go... I need someone I'm more familiar with to hide with... Yeah, my insecurities always act up at Hallowe'en. Was hoping to drag Dan there too... But didn't ask Alex. Thought it might be a good place to see if the band wanted him to record, as they're all together for once.
Tech Sucks! I'm officially doing our newest prject by myself. As I"m nto partnering up with Chris again, and Jesse wants to work alone, and Becky dropped the class. So I'll just be screwed for the rest of the year. If I could drop the course I would. However I'd take a spare that period and do all the projects anyway. It's the pressure from it beign a course that gets to me. The challenge I like, however the not being allowed to fail thing sucks.
Oh well... I'll be bored and hoping for fun all weekend. If I don't get saved from my house I'll probably work instead.
*hugs*
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CityKat - 2:58 p
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(5) Lost In The Void
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
Freedom from pain.
When I leave don't weep for me.
Pass the wine around and remember
How my laughing pleased you.
Look at one another, smiling,
And don't forget about touching.
Sing the songs that I loved best
And dance one time all together.
-author unknown (Robidoux family)
Je te manque, je manque ton sourire, je manque ton voix, je manque ton courage. Vous êtes parti et j'ai besoin de votre guidance, de vos poisons et vos chansons. Je t'ai besoin.
*hugs*
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CityKat - 9:16 p
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(4) Lost In The Void
Stupid Hallowe'en! Urg.
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CityKat - 11:26 a
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(1) Lost In The Void
Saturday, October 23, 2004
Urg
So much work, so little time. I really need to stop talking on the phone so much... Anyway, if you're trying to contact me this weekend I'll not be home much... So yeah.
*<--falls in love with cargo pants*
*hugs*
Yellow Rubber Boots!!!
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CityKat - 8:04 a
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(6) Lost In The Void
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
So long ago now.
Wind soars through my hair, I glide to safety on a roof top across the street. Like Superman I fly from building to building, my sidekick beside me. It's a pity I never really liked Amy/Cynthia/Margaret (her name changed a few times :.S). I still don't really like her, but only because she wotn grow up, she lives as a child and doesn't believe in the weight of some issues.
It was so long ago that everyone ignored me, even her. I could prove it everyonce in a while. I'd run crying from the class because someone had pulled yet another prank, and I'd hide. And wait. Wait for someone to notice, wait for someone to care. But they never came. Eventually, after the bell had rang the teacher would notice I was missing while taking the attendance and send someone to look for me. I only had three hiding spots, and yet it took them an hour sometimes to find me as I cried and sobbed until there were no tears left to cry. They would find me, then yell at me for scaring them. Eventually I'd slump back to class, slowly, not able to answer any questions because my throat was so dry, not able to see through my dried up eyes, and not being able to think, my mind straying to the sweet taste of salty tears.
It was so long ago.
I left that eventually, two friends helped pull me out of it. Friends. It was a new word to me, one I'd never used before. They were more like angels, who flew on silver wings and shone with brilliance. Angels who liked me for who I am, who realized that in my years of torment and sadness I'd grown up to be more mature than I should have been. Angels who had also cried the tears and lived the life I had. Angels pulled me out of that world.
But that was so long ago.
My angels left, and I moved away. They no longer wear halos of silver, no longer soar with loving hearts on shining wings. Things changed, we all changed. We were a trio of angels no more. Not like we ever were. We were only ever the best of friends. But now I'm too far away, I've started over. Fearing the life I once lived would return. And them, my angel-friends, they've changed as well, we no longer talk and laugh and conspire. We no longer love all things, we've lost our touch. We can't ever again be angels, we're no longer innocent.
So long ago.
I feared that old life would come back. I tormented myself with stories of old, with thoughts of things that might come. With the past. But soon I came to see a few more angels. No, they didn't shine, and they didn't wear halos. They were most certainly not innocent (except that one). Most of them were just friends, the best kind of angel. And one, she still shone, she still does. And I hope she never stops, though she falters more now. We try to help her, but we've lost our innocence, she retains hers. Here I am not the me of old. Here I am surrounded by angels.
Now.
Surrounded by angels. Though I feel as if their backs are turned, and their hands grab all. They feel useless, when their presence is all that's needed. They feel useless and take all those things I used to do. I have nothing left. I have no one who confides in me, no jobs that need doing, no confusing homework. They've turned their backs and left me with nothing.
Or so I feel. For I know it's no the truth, but I can't help but feel it. I can't help but feel that I no longer have a purpose, no longer have a life. I am no more. Or so I feel.
Please, I pray goddess, let the angels always shine. Let them share their love with all. And let them live forever. I was one once, but that was so long ago now.
*hugs*
Thinking about something too much is often it's undoing.
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CityKat - 1:35 p
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(3) Lost In The Void
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
Shut Out, Kept Out, Locked Out.
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When's the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
Sorry I didn't answer Tathiel, but I don't know anything but you're name and a few funny stories!
*hugs*
Thinking of a better time.
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CityKat - 8:28 p
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(4) Lost In The Void
Bored in Chenier's Class
Danchan Mind Game #109 - Post 10 random comments to 10 different people, not specifying who the comments are directed to.
1) C is for cookie and cookie is for me! Oh C is for cookie and cookie is for me! Hey! No! Not for you! My cookie!
2) Yes, Alex is hot. No not that one... No, different one... Okay that one works... And that one too.
3) Sure! Don't call me back! Evil bumhole. Let's go beat up Chris!
4) Meep. MOP!
5) You're too girly for your own good hun!
6) You're not gonna read this... Well maybe... Just a little bit?
7) Translation programs only mess things up! I'll translate it for you, gimme a sec.
8) There's a duty to be done and I say I, there's a reason here for a reason above. My honour is to try and my duty is to love. Now chill! I got it covered.
10) Fine! Don't say hi! I'll use you're middle name next time, then you'll probably kill me *gulp*. Cats?!?
Find your comment.. cmon I dare yea! cant be that hard!
*hugs*
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CityKat - 12:24 p
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(6) Lost In The Void
Sunday, October 17, 2004
No Control
Why is it that I can't stop you? I can't stop you from controlling me. You ahve all the control, I'll always bend to your will. Someone in my past made me a puppet and now everyone can put on a show.
You can make me do what you will. Make me cower, make me dance, make me smile, make me forget. Make me.
I have no control. I bend. Worse than the oak to the wind, worse than the ground to the horses hooves. Bend.
*hugs*
What do you do when "stop" no longer works?
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CityKat - 8:46 p
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(2) Lost In The Void
Saturday, October 16, 2004
Step on me.
Just another one of those days...
Just another one of those bruises...
Add another scar.
*hugs*
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CityKat - 8:59 p
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(6) Lost In The Void
Prière d'une Adolescente
Pour l’esprit de votres enfants,
Pour la vie et nos enfants,
Désse je vous en prie.
Pour vos enfants capturés sans lumière,
Pour vos enfants qui perdent l’amour.
Déesse je vous en prie.
Vous avez nous gardés
Sauf, loin de la tristesse et
La méchante.
La méchante, lui qui nous manges,
Lui qui noircir la vie,
Né du naïve narcotique,
Narcotique de l’esprit.
Narcotique qui est la haine.
Déesse je vous en prie,
Vous, qui n’existe que dans nos coeurs,
Vous, qui est l’amour et les vents.
On tombe, Déesse,
Comme l’étoile de les ciels.
Aide-nous Déesse, pour qu’on
Trouve les ailes sur lesquelles on vole.
Pour qu’on trouve nos coeurs,
Et laisse passer la nuit,
La tristesse,
Les larmes dans nos yeux.
Vous avez nous gardés,
Nous gardes encore.
Aide-nous Déesse,
Les sourires nous attendent.
Les étoiles, les esprits contents.
Aide-nous Déesse, aide-nous
A trouver nos sentiers.
A trouver nos esprits,
Nos esprits contents.
Déesse je vous en prie.
Je vous remercie Déesse.
*hugs*
Sorry about the bad grammar and spelling, correct it if you will.
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CityKat - 5:43 p
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(0) Lost In The Void
Friday, October 15, 2004
So Tired, Put Out the Fire.
Make them stop, these fires that are voices raised. Make them stop, these people burning each other. I lit the fire, I did not mean to, can't he just learn? I did it all by myself, I taught myself. Can't he just try? Why must he ask, and whine, and fail? Why must he feed the flames? Why must they yell? Someone put out the fires. Please, I beg of you. Douse the falmes.
*hugs* A real one would do wonders...
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CityKat - 8:11 p
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(1) Lost In The Void
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
Nothing Left
So lost, torn up inside.
There’s no light in the tunnel,
I see no end.
Not found, just left to die.
On the side of the highway,
No one cares.
Confused, can’t wait to leave.
Nothing makes sense in this life,
Just die.
Never again, I’m going now.
Leave this world,
Nothing for me.
Wave goodbye, to those called friends.
They’re better off without me,
Walk away.
Turn around, march into the darkness,
There’s nothing here,
No smiles.
Goodbye.
*hugs*
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CityKat - 8:31 a
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(5) Lost In The Void
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
*is amused*
Hee hee... I can play both sides! And I can bitch and whine all day and still be more productive than they are. Not to mention I seem to be the only one with brains. They just keep on stealing my arguments. Oh well. Damn fencepost. The students need a voice, but somehow I don't see vv getting anywhere in their attempts, though it's a good try. That and whining and not fixing or bitching and not knowing are bad ideas. Oh well.
*hugs*
Life's a bitch
and it's got puppies.
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CityKat - 9:03 a
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(2) Lost In The Void
Monday, October 11, 2004
Ziggy Zaggy, Ziggy Zaggy. Hoy! Hoy! Hoy!
Ein Prosit! (but only those of you who are legal!)
Okay, so I've done pretty much nothing Octoberfesty this Octoberfest. I could have gone to the parade this morning, but Hastie left us with a two page report about an article that sould be named confusion. Homework first  . Somehow this Octoberfest was all messed, normally TJ and I would bug eachother all night long, but I barely saw him last night. I was in bed by 11, the parents got home at 1... Sooo many things weren't right! Oh well, I'm still alive.
I need Sudbury back... I'm going crazier in Plattsville. There are a few people back home that I really need to talk to, a few I really need to take revenge on... I REALLY want to go see the new SN exhibit... *whines* I missed it's opening. Oh! Anyone up for Hallowe'en mine??? (Dynamic Earth) I wanna go this year, just because!
*hugs* Miss you all!
Ein Prosit, ein Prosit
Der Gemütlichkeit
Ein Prosit, ein Prosit
Der Gemütlichkeit.
Oans, zwoa, drei, Gsuffa!
Ziggy Zaggy, Ziggy Zaggy!
Hoy!
Hoy!
Hoy!
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CityKat - 6:46 a
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(0) Lost In The Void
Sunday, October 10, 2004
A reminder to Ali and I
On my honour I will try
There's a duty to be done, and I say "aye",
There's a reason here, for a reason above
My honour is to try, and my duty is to love
People don't need to know my name
If I hurt someone, then I'm to blame
If I help someone, then I've helped me
And that's the way that it should be
I've tucked away a song or two
If you're feeling low, there's one for you
If you need a friend, then I will come
There's plenty more where I come from
Come with me where a fire burns bright
You can see much better by its own light
You can find more meaning in a campfire's glow
Than you'll ever find in a year or so
Friendship is the strangest thing
If you keep it to yourself no reward will it bring
But you gave it away, and you gave it to me
And from now on great friends we'll be
We've got a promise to always keep
We will sing "Day is Done" before we sleep
We are Girl Guides together, and when we're gone
We'll still be a-trying and a-singing this song...
(repeat first verse)
- http://dragon.sleepdeprived.ca/songbook/songbook_index.htm
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CityKat - 5:02 p
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(2) Lost In The Void
Friday, October 8, 2004
Funny how you don't notice the tears...
Okay, spiraling downhill is annoying, I hate it. However you just keep pushing. I thought I left the bullies in elementry school, thought I had choosen friends who cared, apparently I was wrong. You don't stop when I ask you too, you just laugh and act more stupid. You don't know when to stop, do you? Once a bully, always a bully.
Then there's the other friends. The ones who say they care, and yet leave me to sink deeper into my depression, even when I ask for help. Either too busy or they don't care, which I understand. It's the way people other than me work, never making time, always walking away. Go ahead, pick a favorite and help make their day grand, leave me, I've learned how to fall.
And in the end, I'll get up again, though to the Goddess I pray it be soon. How long I'll be here, I don't know. But for those of you wlaking away, those of you laughing loud, remember, if you ever find yourself right here. In this land of misery and woe, I'll try my best not to turn and walk, I'll lend a hand and help you to stand. For friends are forever, and friends always come first, at least in my world. And in my world too, you are all my friends, I don't like to pick and choose.
*hugs*
Chin up, smile. Take your own advice bozo! - my voices before they rip me to shreds
I've really gotta stop starting the day in tears...
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CityKat - 5:42 p
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(5) Lost In The Void
Thursday, October 7, 2004
Bad Day...
Ignored with the walls. Stepped on as a rug.
*hugs*
Kookaburra sits in the old gum tree, merry merry king of the bush is he...
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CityKat - 3:03 p
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(5) Lost In The Void
Wednesday, October 6, 2004
*hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* ~*throws pillow*~
It appears lots of people are spiralling downhill lately, and I'm laughing. They're too lazy to look down an realize their feet are firmly planted on solid ground. Oh well.
Today sucked. Okay, well it only started sucking after 730, oh well. I lived. Stupid Sarah and Meg wont send me my french work so that I can finish it. Maudit filles.
The highlights of my day - Jazz band, "hide" with Gaven and Lee, and my letter from CwRiSsY.
*hugs*
Nothing worth doing is easily done.
P.S. Post from yesterday wasn't me...
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CityKat - 9:14 p
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(4) Lost In The Void
Tuesday, October 5, 2004
bored
hi i'm bored that's why i'm typing on this computer. so yah... I'm gonna go now. bye.
*hugs*
Do illiterate people get the full effect of Alphabet soup?
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CityKat - 12:05 p
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(2) Lost In The Void
Sunday, October 3, 2004
*shivers*
Okay, it's cold. I'll un-wuss-ify myself in about a week or so, when I get used to nothern temeratures again. For now I'm just really hoping I can find dry wood tomorrow.
Today was boring, we ran out of things to do in Bio. That never happens. I cleaned windows three times, and misted twice, and got soooo bored I cleaned the mealworms. Yuck.
Looking forward to band tomorrow, and better yet - Octoberfest on the weekend.
*hugs*
I am woman. I am invincible. I am pooped.
P.S. In case you hear me rambling - Tara broke up with Christian. And she got her placement as Vet Assistant at Hawkins.
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CityKat - 8:21 p
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(2) Lost In The Void
Saturday, October 2, 2004
They need to learn to smile!
Last night was fun... Zombies should really learn to smile though.
Toi! et toi! *points to two dumbnuts* Calmez-vous, reste et te calme. Je vais t'appeller plus tard, j'espère que c'est aujourd'hui. Mais calmez-vous, arrête de t'inquiété avec tous, et vous souvenez que je suis toujours içi.
*hugs*
Ah Who Wa He Ah Hoo Hoo Hoo
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CityKat - 8:49 a
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(3) Lost In The Void
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