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The Mountain's Secret
My Profile
Name: Marie
aka: CityKat
aka: Bubbles
Age: 18 - eek! I'm old...
Birthday: December 13
Zodiac: Sagittarius
Location: The box that is campus.
Loves: RH;MIT, music, friends, the outdoors, all of my hometowns, critters, WAGGGS
Fellow Tin Soldiers
Blog Links
Chicken Soup For The Souless -What goes on in Jesse's brain, nobody knows...
In ThE Tub WiTh SquIsHy -Christina's log, so just keep swimming!.
Lean On Me -Regan's digital and cryonable shoulder.
Manitoulin Wannabe -The heart of the island's where her heart lies.
One Ring... -Ali's blog. Her straight forward is kinda crooked.
Random Thoughts -It’s Jeff! And the voices!.
Searching in the Darkness -Lex's blog, we'll force him to see dawn one of these days.
Somewhere Over the Rainbow -It’s Kuriosity!
Super Spidey -A cookie and a kiss.
The World of Cr0magnus -Tech Reincarnated
Undead and Confused -My favourite Cool Kid!
Moutains and Valleys
Fun Links
Chris's Site -Games, Pics, Jokes... He's got it. And BESS can't get him.
F-Concept! Oi!Oi!Oi! -Leader's only!... okay, and Josh and Bubble!
havesomehats -All I'm saying is; elephants, checkered people, and top hats.
Sinfest -Funny as Hell. Thanks to Lex for getting me hooked.
Too Far North (Awesome)!! -The best band there ever was! (Okay, that might be stetching it, but hey we love you guys!) It consists of a lack of independant brain power and a collective love for music!
Blog Shares -Who's winning today?
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Pour l’esprit de vos enfants,
Pour la vie et nos enfants,
Déesse je vous en prie.
Pour vos enfants capturés sans lumière,
Pour vos enfants qui perdent l’amour.
Déesse je vous en prie.
Vous qui nous avez gardés
Sauf, loin de la tristesse et
La méchante.
La méchante, lui qui nous mange,
Lui qui noircir la vie,
Né du naïf narcotique,
Narcotique de l’esprit.
Narcotique qui est la haine.
Déesse je vous en prie,
Vous, qui n’existe que dans nos cœurs,
Vous, qui est l’amour et les vents.
On tombe, Déesse,
Comme l’étoile des ciels.
Aides-nous Déesse, pour qu’on
Trouve les ailes sur lesquelles on vole.
Pour qu’on trouve nos cœurs,
Et laisse passer la nuit,
La tristesse,
Les larmes dans nos yeux.
Vous qui nous avez gardés,
Nous gardes encore.
Aide-nous Déesse,
Les sourires nous attendent.
Les étoiles, les esprits contents.
Aide-nous Déesse, aide-nous
A trouver nos sentiers.
A trouver nos esprits,
Nos esprits contents.
Déesse je vous en prie.
Je vous remercie Déesse.
With our brothers we will share all the secrets of our mountain, all the riches buried there.
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All the Riches Buried There
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Tuesday, August 31, 2004
Dreamer's Rock - Aug. 26/04
On silver wings you fly beyond paradise. With everlasting courage you scale the highest of peaks. Beneath the shimmering moonlight you dive to untold depths. Over endless miles you race on horseback. In timeless dreams your imagination soars.
But where does it end? How far can your imagination go? What are it’s limits? Imagination is the blueprint for life, it shows us where we want to go.
With imagination we have pictured foreign countries, then with our determination, found them. Imagination lead us to the highest mountain tops, then with courage, we climbed them. It was imagination that brought us the tale of Atlantis, then curiosity that found the wonders of the deep. Carried cross-country by imagination, our motivation helped us to find the world.
So where does imagination end? No where other than reality’s doorstep. And once we’ve gone as far as we can realistically go? Where to then? Back to the blueprints, imagination’s dreams, where we’re shown the next challenge our hearts lead us to overcome.
For life, ever tiny second and everlasting moment of it, is a great big circle. An endless loop through which our lives travel. Once we have dreamt and imagined places unknown and untold, we seek them out. When we have found our havens, overcome our challenges, we rest and dream again.
In life the dreamer is not odd or crazy, he is not a story weaver and maker of tales. The dreamer should be sacred and respected, for it is he who will find the next stop, the next challenge in this thing we call life.
*hugs*
And when he’s up, he’s up.
And when he’s down, he’s down.
And when he’s only half way up,
He’s playing on the standwalk. – nicely done Ali!
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Monday, August 30, 2004
August 28, 2004
A short while ago someone was trying to find my biggest temptation, she didn't. However she did tell me something before she gave in for the night, "I think I've found the one person who's will I can't bend or morals break." I thanked her, of course, but knew that there was a way to get to me. But why is it that she has only now found someone like that?
Last night I sat around a campfire singing songs with one of my best friends. Through our voices I could hear true passion in a few of the campfire songs we sang; One Tin Soldier, Say Why, On My Honour, and Pink Pajamas. Now, Pink Pajamas has nothing to do with anything except to express our passion for guiding. The rest, however, each have a message that grew to be morals in the hearts of two young guides.
Greed slaughters a people, justice is served and no reward is given to those who are mean. One Tin Soldier is all that remains of greed in my childhood campfire buddies. We learned that song around a fire, then lived it's morals in the real world. Always sharing with others and caring for all that surrounds us.
"Say why do we have to say goodbye? Say when, will we ever meet again? Say where, and I'll meet you right there." After Guide's Own we said goobye with a smile, for pouting changed nothing. We were taught to think ahead, to plan and be optimistic of our futures. We never let go, for stepping out of our circle meant leaving friends behind.
"My honour is try, and my duty is to love." Those who live this song lend a hand without hesitation, it is our honour to try. With the songs we've tucked awaywe help to cure hearts, and with our hands ready we jump to any task. It is our duty to love. What we do to others reflects upon ourselves, we aim to help others and in turn ourselves. We are always willing to be a friend.
Are these my morals? These are only songs I live. Why she can't break me? Because I'm stubborn and can only be hit through others.
*hugs*
Make new friends and keep the old,
One is silver and the other's gold.
A circle's round and has no end,
That's how long I want to be your friend.
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Sunday, August 29, 2004
I'm Back!!!
...and that's about it right now... except that I'm starving...'
*hugs*
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Saturday, August 21, 2004
"Chow Chow" - Christian
This is probably my last update until next Monday, I’m off to camp/work shortly, then to Manitoulin with Ali for a week. I don’t have time to write anything worthwhile right now, but be assured that when I get back there will be something here to read. The school year’s coming so I’ll have more time near a computer to ponder and scribble my thoughts.
*hugs*
I’m turning the dishwasher on. – A gutterish Ali
Miss my Milton gang!!! Sorry I never got to see you again Nathan, no time. And Chelsea you weren’t home!! You’ll have to show off Shakespeare some other time.
P.S. Tara has a new bf!!! *dances*... *thinks* (Oh great... more trouble...)
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Friday, August 20, 2004
hihi
Go netglish (in french!!).
Any way, thanks Cherckerbored!!! You updated your links and there's a few in there I didn't know about... Not to mention what I think is Joey's, we shall see.
Joey - Give Jer back!!!! I wanna talk to him. You've officially killed all of my math class conversations.
Jeremy - Come back!!! I don't know if you read this any more though. You're layout's finally working, but you shut that blog down. And the other one is confusing me... I can't read the whole post, and it has links to a bunch of other non-existant blogs!
Everyone else - Smile!
*hugs*
Ses cheveux puis maquillage ne sont pas fait.
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Note to self - posts... Good old days are just memories. Love? What is that? and Childhood.
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Thursday, August 19, 2004
Blueberries!!!!
Okay, gotta eat them... They're getting oldish...
Hanging out with Tara and Ash and Christian today, hee hee... Tara will probably have a new beau soon... shhh! I didn't say that. He's from Montreal, so I get a chance to practice my french. And he gets a chance to laugh. Will be fun. Ali's nto too impressed that I'm ditching her overnight, but Ash is my bestest too and I wont choose one over the other. Ali gets me for two weeks so Ash can have me for a day.
Having fun down here... WIsh a bunch of people could come hang though. And wish Regs could keep me saneish... (Regs - email me when you want to get together).
*hugs*
jlui é pbaiser! - Christian Stupid language troubles...
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Tuesday, August 17, 2004
*is jealous*
Ali got a tenor!!! It's not fair!!! Evil Peter(son, John)... Then again the tenor does belong in that combo and with it's leader. *is still jealous*
Having fun down south. Tara's apparently got some really hot french guys as friends now. Time to show off the language skills.
*hugs*
We hate you! - Tara and Marie
I love you too. - Ali
- Tell Darien he's sexy for me.
- Why don't you just come and tell him?
- Because I don't wanna tell him.
- No, you just want to cum!
(yes she's still thinking about the fluffy pair...)
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Monday, August 16, 2004
WTHeck?!?!?! OMG...
Since when is there a Walmart here???? Not big to those of you who don't know this town... but I'm scared. It appears Milton is and will forever be a memory, this place is more like Mississauga now. I pity those of you who live here, it used to be so nice.
That's right! I'm here! And apparently people in this house don't like blueberries, so I gots me a basket to eat all by myself. Until Nathan and Tara see them that is...
Happy Birthday! Since I didn't have a computer yesterday this goes out to...
Sunday - Ry!!! (kick some butt in the punk show next friday) and Ashley (see you tuesday hun)
Monday - (Owwie) Awi!
and since I probably won't update tomorrow..
Tuesday - Jordan (finally 16)
That's all for now folks.
*hugs*
Be afraid... Be very afraid...
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Thursday, August 12, 2004
Apology
I apologize in advance for the stupid things I have done and will do...
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Tuesday, August 10, 2004
All Play And No Work is...
...well just bad!
Movie was okay... I got compeltely lost and confused - oh well.
I'm gone for the next two-weeks, however at Ali's for the first one, so you'll see me online. Regan - call! You need some filling in. You get to keep them sane while I"m gone. Make sure you watch out for him *points*, him *punches* and her *pokes*.
That's all for now folks!
*hugs*
Shut up! We don't care if the mascara you're not wearing might run.
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Monday, August 9, 2004
Pick up the phone!!!
You know it's really hard to call you when you don't answer!! All of you!!! All like five of you!!!
Okay, I'm currently dying.
1. Need to get ahold of some people that don't know how to pick up a phone.
2. Need to hang with my guys, because they're cool and more relaxed than my gals.
3. Need Taya and Annie B, shopoholic mood hasn't gone away yet.
4. Want to go fishing with some guys, but I haven't told them yet - so shhh!
5. Need to hang with my girls - will get that minus Rachel next week.
6. I need a lake, need to swim!
*hugs*
She's not just a pretty face.
P.S. I'm not goign to die for a LONG time, so too bad, you're stuck with me!
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Friday, August 6, 2004
Off to camp again.
Wings tonight at the Bridge!!! Yummy!!!! I'm gonna make myself sick probably... not a good thing.
I still can't find those stupid phone numbers... grumble.
*hugs*
He who laughs, lasts.
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Thursday, August 5, 2004
Don’t bother trying.
Something’s wrong, but I don’t know what. It could be loneliness, stress, exhaustion, pms, failing hope, loss, highs being too high making lows too low, depression, annoyance, fear, time travel, desperation. But it’s nothing, and it’s all of them, and yet it’s something else. It’s like I’ve been strapped into a little white jacket and locked in a little white room. It’s worse than that though, almost as if I’ve traveled to my childhood and promises are being broken, knives are being shoved in my back and my hope, humanity, and love is being taken away. And still it’s worse, it’s like I’ve locked myself in the body of the most stereotypical high school cheerleader/school president girl, like I’m burying all thoughts that don’t conform to other’s opinions, hiding all evidence that I walk to the beat of a different drum and that I’m an individual.
I don’t know what’s wrong, and nothing’s fixing it. My friends aren’t working, no amount of guy talk or chickchat has helped. I can’t drown in the fake world of either television or novels, it’s not working no matter how hard I try. I can’t loose myself in chores. And even my one reserved release, physical exertion, isn’t working. So many years of hating gym class made the physical activity itself a release for the pent-up anger, now exertion is a release for any strong emotion. The pain in stretching used to bring pleasure, running used to banish all emotion and leave only exhaustion. Not anymore. Nothing works. The beauty of nature doesn’t exist, it’s dull and bleak. The sky is clouded over and grey. The rain drops that fall are just another chill.
There are only four things that can make this go away. The first, I don’t want and never EVER will. The second , I can’t have and would not take in fear of hurting a friend. The third, might happen, but not for another few weeks. And the four, well she doesn’t know what’s wrong with herself so she’s at a loss as to how to fix it.
*hugs*
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I have the best friends in the entire whole wide world! No, the galaxy!
I once wrote a farewell letter to someone, and in it I wrote these words –
“I've had three families throughout life, the first was my teddy bears who I came home to and told everything, but they don't listen anymore. The second, my parents and brother, they were always there, but they built a wall of responsibilities and distrust between us. And the third, the ones who were always there, were my friends. You were there to listen and to speak, if I simply needed homework help, or comfort in a bad time. You were there for me and I will never forget that. Thank You.”
I look around me, and listen to others, to the material world that surrounds me and what do I hear? Money, sex, drugs, lies. That is the condensed version of the society I live in, but not the world I live in. My world is a world in which material wealth means nothing, sure it’s needed to get by, but that’s because society’s stupid. In my world it’s your heart that makes you who you are, it’s whether or not you share your love, whether or not you smile, whether or not your there for anyone who needs it. It’s how you act that defines who you are, not what you have.
As I look around me in this infinitely hugs world I can see the strength of a butterfly, the maturity of a child, and the love of friends. As I look around me I see that in my life what matters most is not me, not grades, not jobs, not money, not men, but my friends. And as I look around I can see that they are some of the most amazing people I’ve ever heard of.
Some of them have had to move and move again, picking up their lives and moving on to something new. And in those people I still see a strength unsurpassed, a strength in their ability to make a new life, to find new friends, to make another name for themselves, to continue on the right track.
Others have stayed in the same place their whole lives, but have had to cope with their home changing. Parents breaking up and finding new relationships, childhood friends and close family dying, siblings going in the wrong direction. In these friends I see compassion of an unbeatable sort and I see determination and flexibility. These people can bend with life as the oak bends in the wind, because they have no choice, because life throws them curve balls faster than it does joy. These people take those balls and toss them back to life, with love and understanding, thinking it better them than someone else, knowing they can overcome the obstacle thrown at them, knowing that lemons are what makes lemonade.
Still I see another type of friend, one who’s always gotten what they’ve wanted, where nothing’s ever gone bad for them, the type of person you would expect to be stuck up and arrogant. Instead these people used what they’ve been blessed with to help others, they stop to see the big picture and help others to overcome their problems. In them I see charity and concern, I see a love for their world, their country, and their friends. Though nothing’s ever harmed them directly, the worst thing that could happen to these people is something bad happening to someone else. They give all they have and ask nothing but a smile in return.
I look around me and this is what I see in my world, these are my friends. It’s no wonder to me that I can find a reason to smile, because “there are wood ships and good ships, the ships that sail the sea. But the best ships are friendships, and may they always be.” I smile because I see the beauty in the love my friends give, I see how they manage to help the world and each other become better and more understanding. They are there when someone needs help, they are lip synching a cheesy song when someone needs to laugh, they are listening when someone needs to talk, and they are singing when someone needs to listen. They are more then love could ever ask for, they are the best friends in the galaxy. And to my surprise, they are my friends.
So thank you, everyone who reads this, because you do make a difference in people’s lives. Not only my own but everyone who you see during the day. Thank you for being there, and never forget to smile, because when you look around I’m sure you’ll see you’re not alone.
*hugs*
I have a list of folks I know all written in a book,
and every now and then I go and take a look.
That is when I realize these names they are a part,
not of the book they're written in but taken from the heart.
For each name stands for someone who has crossed my path sometime,
and in that meeting they have become the reason and the rhyme.
Although it sounds fantastic for me to make this claim,
I really am composed of each remembered name.
Although you're not aware of any special link,
just knowing you, has shaped my life more than you could think.
So please don't think my greeting as just a mere routine,
your name was not forgotten in between.
For when I send a greeting that is addressed to you,
it is because you're on the list of folks I'm indebted to.
So whether I have known you for many days or few,
in some ways you have a part in shaping things I do.
I am but a total of many folks I've met,
you are a friend I would prefer never to forget.
Thank you for being my friend !!
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Wednesday, August 4, 2004
Ignore the crappy rant.
Okay, so if I’m immature, arrogant, immoral, and that other ‘i’ word, then I must be a kid. I mean I’m only 15, so I guess I am a kid, as much as my mentality would love to argue that point. And the month happens to be August, which means all kids should be enjoying their summer vacations, right?
Well apparently not. Apparently the proper way to spend your time off in the summer is not hanging with your friends, or enjoying your youth while it remains. Apparently the proper way to enjoy your summer vacation is to vacuum at least once a week, do the laundry whenever a single shirt lands in the hamper, dust and tidy twice weekly, and clean all the bathrooms. Not to mention washing the floors when they need it, cleaning the kitchen three times a day, and cooking three or four times a day depending on when the rest of the house hold wants their meals. And as you have plans made, they might as well consist of also watering gardens, mowing the lawn, picking blueberries and peas for your parents, painting the deck, and refilling the birdfeeders. That is how you should spend your summer vacation if you are a kid.
Now I realize that my parents work long hours five days a week, and that since I have the time off chipping in is appreciated. However I didn’t think that included doing everything. It takes one person four-five hours to clean this house, when everyone helps it takes two hours max. Cooking and cleaning? Well combined it’s two hours, maybe three hours work. Doing either it’s an thirty minutes to an hour’s. Laundry? An ongoing process lasting the majority of one day leaving you with nothing else you can do. Washing the floors? An hour’s work, plus the inconvenience of not being able to walk out of the room you left yourself in for an hour. Watering the gardens? That’s twenty minutes per garden, times three gardens. Mowing the lawn is at least two hours work. Picking blueberries, two hours at least, peas? maybe five minutes. Painting the deck, that will certainly take six hours to strip, sand, prime, and put two coats down. Birdfeeders? Maybe twenty minutes. So that’s ninety-one hours worth of work in a one hundred and twenty hour week. Which leaves time to sleep.
This might be slightly unreasonable of me, since they work all day, but my parents CAN chip in! They don’t have to work during their vacations, they make us, so why should we do all the work during ours? I don’t understand! It’s selfish and crazy. Clearly I’m not allowed to have a life.
</rant> (which sucked because I mentally vented too much while doing the dishes)
Okay, so I was in a good mood today until my cranky mother got home. She’s better now that she’s infected my father and I. Oh well, I’ll live. At least I can smile because I know she’ll be pissed when I don’t do all the things she wants me to do. Oh well, I don’t have time!
Tindall call me!!!!! Now. Nowish? Never. Okay, I know you don’t read this. Awi!!! We tried to call you, you might have a really long message, it’s hard to hang up on an answering machine during a three-way call, say sorry to whoever has to listen to it for me  .
Had fun today, I’ve figured out what’s wrong with me. Lockerby. It’s Lockerby, it turns all the good boys into bad boys... or good boys since they don’t get caught. However how are we going to convert people next year without Rachel and Janis and Darien and Steve?
I’m mad at everyone who’s name starts with J and is male, minus any Joeys. Well okay, maybe it’s only Jesse, Janis, JR, and Joe. We’re always mad at Joe though... So maybe he should stop counting... Same goes with Jesse.
Oh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I got to talk to Jimi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I went crazy! Ask Alex, he got confused. Jimi’s res management at McMaster this year, it’s a year off for him. He’s having fun though, and that’s the good part. He seriously needs to make a cd, cabin eight – we WILL kidnap him.
Anyway, that’s all for now folks.
*hugs*
P.S. Remember to smile!
Oh fuck! Shit! Crap! Gotta go! I’m going to kill myself now!!! FUCK! – Tara (missing the first 30 seconds of Buffy)
P.S.S. I’m still looking for other left-handed shakers.
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Tuesday, August 3, 2004
Just Wondering...
Okay, random question. I'm looking for those of you who shake with their left hand, or used to. Is there anyone like me out there?
*hugs*
I cannot live with madness
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Monday, August 2, 2004
Sur le pont d'Avignon, on y danse, on y danse toutes en rond.
Now why in the world is that feminine???? I don't understand. Oh and while I'm still boiling - fudge to you too.
Got back from camo today, it was windy all weekend, and the boats are sooo heavy. Me = far too weak. The wind died down slightly by the end of today, but not much.
Jess showed up for a bit today, she was back from camping for the fish fry. I still don't know who won the family games... Urg. Oh, and do me a favour. If ever you see a hottie, don't argure with your friend over sho's going to say hi and then never talk to them - just shout hi! Maudit génesse (or whatever it's called). Just talk to them! At least that would've left you with something interesting to whine about.
Pool party wednesday. Need to talk to a bunch of people. And need to see both Regan and Rachel. Call me guys!!! But yeah, oh well. I'm playing mad at Jesse again. I figure if Tara hadn't tamed me he would've been a eunuch by february if not ealier. Same with a few others.
Nee way, I'm off, only boiling over to be done online tonight.
*hugs*
I'll get it! *I laugh...* Stupid cocky driver's can't aim worth blah.
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