Life
~Mood Today: 
~cry~
Sad, Dead, Upset & Missing...~cry~~RIP~~
"Умный учится на чужих ошибках, а дурак на своих.." ~ "Wise men learn by other men's mistakes; fools by their own."
Life Update (depressing)...
The last lil'while has driven me crazy and as almost been too much for me to bare; then now, I have an just as hard a week ahead of me ...
I have very little to no patience, I have lost all sense of joy and happiness, I am beginning to realize how much I must be getting on everyone's nerves ignore me... I am so not worth the effort...~shakehead~
I don't want to be as down as I am but lately it seems I cannot help it and I am not going to try and make excuses I am just going to move on and accept it.
Moments In Life...
There are quiet little moments
That will catch you by surprise,
When sudden sorrow fills you up
And mournful thoughts arise.
Do not bemoan your change of mood,
Give in and let it flow.
Allow yourself to feel
With all the depth you'll ever know.
You're entitled to soft sadness
When it settles in your heart,
And emptiness of spirit
When stark anguish plays its part.
For lives untouched by woeful thoughts
Will never know the thrill
Of rising up in love's sweet light,
A new and mighty will.
Melancholy moments
Do not last for very long.
They're fleeting and they vanish
When your soul resumes its song.
Well let's see:
1. Work is horrible and certain people are making it impossible to bare any longer 
2. 
My allergies continue to annoy me...
3. This semi-winter snow thing is so stupid... I want to ski and get out my skidoo...
4. School is some twisted form of hell this past week and it gets to continue for another week now.
5. The auditorium has never seen such action~glare~ and I am not sure how much longer I can keep it afloat on the equipment I have.~cross~But there is too much to do and certain people don't understand that things need replaced.
6. ~stab~I have completely had it with administration~fight~
7. ~RIP~I feel dead I feel I am worn out and useless because of everything that has been going on...
8. Damned 
Christmas~xmas~ is so beginning to get on my blasted nerves ~anger~
9. For music council I have a party to throw on Tuesday... well a dance-ish thing and I should really try to get there cook books together before the break...
10. I now know for sure I am horrible at swimming...
11. I am in a lot of pain... stupid shoulder...
12. I did not quite finish my stupid english exam...
13. K8 has gone on her cruise and I already miss her...
14. Joey is really really sick... 
and I don't know what to do...
And yes everything is a mess right now...
I guess on the bright side... maybe bright isn't the right word... "the slightly less dark side" The school concerted was not completely horrible and yeah... stupid musicians that use amps... you know who I am talking about... The lounge was amazing every act was great... excluding mine... but yes I enjoyed the lounge so smeh...
Yesterday was unproductive but that is okay I got to hang out with some good friends and eat/make/fight with chocolate so it was not that bad.
That's it... I will stop being depressing now...
*Hugs*
Luv ya all. 
Cr0magnus
Take Care!
P.S. ~ Don't worry about me...
Talk to you whenever...
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*hugs*
Things WILL get better. At some point, they will. For both of you. Lex, I had this out in a post directly to you, Dan:
You are worth any effort anyone decides to put forth.If you weren't, no one would try. When things get too hard to bear, just lean on your friends. They won't mind, not at all. I for one can honestly say that you have not gotten on my nerves, and since when have I ever ignored anyone?
I hope work gets better for you, and doesn't drive you up a wall first...Allergies suck, plain and simple. The snow is coming, slowly but surely it is coming. Auditorium: They expect far too much. If anyone complains about anything, tell them to do it themselves. Administration is retarded...we have already decided that one. You are not useless, not at all. Yes, you are dead and worn out, but that is because you are pushing your limits and wrecking yourself. Christmas is Christmas...it does that. Music council party...now THAT is going to be amusing. If you are lucky, no one will be able to make it. Cook books: Teach Marie and me what to do, and we can easily handle that. *shakes head* You lack far too much self confidence. I'm sorry about your shoulder...That is in a way my fault...I know you miss Kait, and that is normal. Just keep looking forward to when she gets back. Lastly: *hugs* and I agree with Marie. You are always there for him, and that is what to do.
*shakes head* You tell us not to worry, but we will do it anyway...
Thank you Dan... Right now, that poem helps me more than I can say.
And to think I was ready to yell at you last night... But I didn't understand. Sorry man.
Here's the deal: You have to stay alive if I do. That way the girls are happy, and I'm even insured against Kait.
*hugs* Things will get better... at least, that's what I keep telling myself anyway.
"Maybe You're stuck with me
or Maybe I'm stuck with you
Or Perhaps its neither
and we're stuck with eachother
but anyway, I'm here
Here forever."
You're not dead because you're not allowed to, if you die you have to take me with you, because when you leave you have to take me with you and that includes but is not limited to leaving this conscious level.
"I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you, I'll be standing by your side in all you do, and I won't ever leave as long as you believe, you just believe, I'll make a wish for you, and hope it will come true, that life will just be kind to such a gentle mind, if you lose your way, think back on yesterday, remember me this way."
I love you and 
Cutie. *hugs*
~Sunshyne~ ----
*hugs*
Laughs at the excessive emoticons and colour changing...
1. Work sucks. If it didn't it wouldn't be work.
2. Allergies suck, I'd sympathize but I've never been tortured by them...
3. Snow does need to come. And Marie needs a real hill... but not quite as real as Dan's hills... she does like to stay standing...
4. School is hell, that's why we're smiling and eating chocolate and ordering pizza and drivign Dan nuts with stupid things.
5. *crosses fingers*
6. Boo!
7. worn out = good, dead = bad... maybe throwing me down a few more times will wake you up?
8. I'm sorry!!!!!! *begs forgiveness*
9. No! you'd still beat me to the other end of the pool and out!
10. Humph. It still hurts when I hit it. or is it the other one... hmm...
11. Key words - stupid exam.
12. *hugs* Just think - bathing suits, tans, skirts... now either laugh or imagine - no moping!
13. *hugs* I do, be there for him, like you always are.
*hugs*
I love you!!! 
Your poetry reading was great too, don't be so hard on yourself
it's people's nature to be concerned for you, and telling them not to do so is pointless. just give in. at least you've got a lot of friends who care.
Chin Up Cutie
You so like need to relax. (K) Don't worry I will be there soon enough and take care of you Cutie. And you like so smile, laugh and spend some time with Kaitlin and 