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Apologies to the masses... Day 1
I'm sorry I couldn't grace you all with my presence today...
300~ songs downloaded the other night. Almost all were power metal. Here's a list of the bands;
Agent Steel
Manticora
Dream Evil
Sonata Arctica
Kamelota
Dragonforce
Nemesis
Gamma ray
Hammerfall
stratovarius
axenstar
at vance
Lost horizon
helloween
devil doll
nightwish
Aesma Daeva
Therion
Blind Guardian
rage
persuader
Wuthering heights
falconer
battlelore
Iced Earth
manowar
rhapsody
zyklon
And so on... averaging 10 songs per band... not even halfway through listening to them all.
I promised her I wouldn't get too depressed, and that each day I would not be any more depressed than the before, so that I either get happier, or at the least, no worse. That'll be a challenge...
Kinda sad how my life would seem so empty without her...
Am I giving into my depression so easily? Do I want to resort to depression because it's so familiar to me? It would be so easy to do just that... and I suppose that's why I have to avoid it. I'm unfamiliar with the concept of trying to be happy... normally I just take my moods as they come unless they are fighting each other...
It is going to be a challenge...
74 days left... and she hasn't even left the country yet... oh fie...
last modified Apr 16, 2004 at 15:23
Still here, still reachable, if not able to be seen. I will be here. Always. Never give in, never give up. You can do it. I have complete faith in you.
Moods fighting each other...heh
And no, I have not left the country, so this is a lot easier for me to do right now...
*hugs again*
I love you.
In knowing that you're giving into depression you're in truth beginning to fight it. Never give in. She'd not like that.
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