Never before have I ever felt more suicidal... I actually feel like it's within my sights...

last modified Jun 7, 2004 at 7:47

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I look like a histrionic who's starved for attention... oh god...

109639 | posted by Edicius on June 10, 2004 at 15:15

why must we all repeat this... DON'T DO IT JESSE! WE ALL LOVE YOU! i honestly hope that no1 takes this the rong way, but suicide is very selfish. think of how many people you would be hurting if u left us jesse. what would we do for 1st Tenor Part in Jazz? :P we would all miss you..and i think i know regan well enough, and she would blame herself for not being here to help. don't do it.

109432 | posted by lilcowgurl1013 on June 9, 2004 at 7:36

All right. Maybe now that it's 9:45 and I've put my brain through the full mental workout of the day, I'll comment. And you know what? I think all of you people should read this, as it's not just directed to Jesse.

Whenever I think about this, I always go back to something I notice every time I read your weblog, and it's right at the top: the line "the story of a tragic hero". So, I might as well comment based on that. Yes, tragedy inevitably ends in death - that's the element inevitable. But a hero that commits suicide is not tragic. The true hero of tragedy - and it's not someone that shows up in every tragic work - is someone who dies in living for his or her basic principles of duty each day, not by retreating into his/her own little world where nothing matters. And I think judging by the volume of posters that you see here, Jesse, people are influenced by what you say, because beneath the wall of self-pity and grief that I see in this weblog there is a nice guy; I know it because I know you personally.

If you decide to go through with this, you know what will happen; we will grieve, and we will be forced to move on like we must with the death of any close friend. If you don't, the invitation will always be there from us for you to exit the shadows. But if you do carry through, before you commit the deed, think carefully about what you lived your life for and how you have had a positive impact on people before abruptly releasing the sword of Damocles upon yourself. At least take the opportunity to think about that. I have contemplated suicide - yes, I do have my problems - and the thing that has kept me here time and time again is what I would be giving up if I chose to cut my life short.

And while you have the opportunity, I recommend you read this song I wrote. I know it's corny, but hey, I'm trying to get a message across. http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/7864181/

That's all.

109232 | posted by ScaniX on June 7, 2004 at 20:06

*hugs*

Oh, I do believe he's serious Ali. Or else why would he bother saying it? Jesse plays minds as other's play games. He knows we love him. He knows we'd lay flowers on his grave, however mine would be white not red. He knows that he has friends if he needs us, and indeed at times he does, not that he often admits it. However I do believe there's one certain person keeping him grounded far more than the rest of us. Sadly, she's in Europe, so he'll have to deal with us. But he will have fun in his dealings, as he has fun with his mind games.

109229 | posted by CityKat on June 7, 2004 at 19:58

Never before have I seen you so damn stund. forgive me for sounding uncaring, but I think that you should know enough people care about you that if you need help with something, come to us.

If you truly want to die, there's nothing I can do but extend a hand if you need it, but if your heart is set on it, and you will have no other way to be happy, I'll put flowers on your grave. Blood red roses, the symbol of love, and yet, sadness at the same time.

Because we love you, and we'll be sad when you're gone.

Adam's Song doesn't apply in this situation. you've left an impact on me and my life whether you wanted to or not. You showed me someone can come from being a complete and total loner to becoming one of the coolest people in a group fo very cool, very understanding people. we'll rag you around a bit sometimes, but remember, it's all in good fun. If you need someone to talk to, don't hesitate.

Alex

109219 | posted by Biff on June 7, 2004 at 18:32

I know I have never posted here before and I don't know how much you will appreciate my words but here they are anyway. I don't know how many people know this but I have attempted suicide on three different occasions, of course common sense and strength of will prevailed. Each time it was the same thing, the same thought that brought me back, life though hard is the indulgence we receive but once, death is the end of that indulgence and the beginning of abstinence. Therefore, make the most of life, it’s the only one you have, my brother died at the age of 19 in a car accident and you know what the greatest comfort was, not the friends, not the family, it was the knowledge that he lived his life to the fullest, he took every chance presented to him to fulfill his dreams and I try to xzibit much the same. Well theres my two cents. *hugs* I love you Jesse!

109218 | posted by Dahak on June 7, 2004 at 18:32

i very sincerely hope that you're not serious. i don't know you as well as everyone else up in good ol' sudbury, but i do know that they want you to stick around for a while, and they are there to help and to lean on in times of trouble.

ah well...who knows? i may be taking this too seriously, but better safe than sorry. *hugs*

109197 | posted by arwenevenstar on June 7, 2004 at 13:39