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Look how god damn ugly the stars are...
These days go by like trucks and trains
Some hit so hard you barely feel a thing
Lights out right now back then and forevermore
Lights out left now these robots marching
To the nearest liquor store
There's something green that's leaving town
Always thought it was blue
Always knew I was wrong
Where it goes hell knows maybe somewhere better than here
And what they say of the grass on the other sides true
Too much time looking up is turning everything blue
Including me - including you
Including you
These times count down like boats and planes
Some wash away in undertow
Some plummet down in flames
Lights out right now back then and forevermore
With sirens on this ambulance is racing to the west coast shore
There's something blue that's leaving town
We always talked about black we're considering brown
Where it goes hell knows
Maybe somewhere better than here
And what they say of the grass on the other sides true
Too much time looking up's turning everything blue
Including me, including the ocean, including you
Feel the ocean blue
Engulfing you
I view the deep blue sea
It's turning red right in front of me
There's something gray that's leaving town
And it's way beyond me
How it gets off the ground
Where it goes hell knows
Maybe somewhere better than here
And what they say of the grass on the other sides true
Too much time looking ups turning everything blue
Including me, including the pilots, including you
Okay, I'm in an alk3 mood... maybe that's why I decided to go out to camp alone for the weekend. Need a break, I guess. Looking back on the past quite a bit... retro-introspection, yeah!
That, and my brain is confused about a number of things. Have to think things through.
Today was fun. Bang, flash, boom, crash... hehe, police.
In the past week, I've gotten mad more times than I've been mad in the past year... looking back on that, it's weird... I truly don't get mad at things often... maybe frustrated at most, but not mad... I wonder why that is... I would have punched you if you were a guy. I've no doubt you would have hit back, of course. I don't know whether it was the subject, or the person I was talking to, or both, or something else... Have to think on it more.
Preferably while throwing knives.
So you want to know why I didn't show any emotion except smile? Because of 2 things; Shit slides off my back having lived in it for so long, and she could have told me that everything I loved was about to die, and I still would have been smiling just because it was her. Hope that clears some things up, or at least gives you something to think about while I am gone.
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I actually had all of them in mind, as well as other people. Nothing specific towards Alex, though one paragraph was directed to Marie, and the other talks about Regan. We broke up. Go figure.
Yea, well your blog is more specifically vague most of the time. So I'll just leave as much as I can up to your imagination... as scary as that is. Plus you'll either guess right, or guess wrong and be too darned stubborn to believe anything else. And that's why I love you.
Do you mean me and Marie, or me and Alex? Or even me and Regan? You need to be specific Steve. I like specifics. You can tell from my weblog.
The funny thing is, I almost posted that song instead, but it was too vindictive.
Sometimes I wonder why either of you even try.
Then I think, "why not?".
"I've got a big fat fuckin' bone to pick with you, my darling. In case you haven't heard I'm sick, I'm tired of trying. I wish you would take my radio to bathe with you, plugged in and ready to fall."
Your Gifted My Dear,
Your poetry borders on the edges of greatness and divine word hun. Edicus I can understand things have not been the best for you as of late and the events of the past little while must have been like so totally crappy.
Try to submerge yourself in your friends and allow their strength to help you through this hard time. I am sure you have many friends whom wish to help you through this. Deep reflection is probably good for you.
I don't know what or whom has gotten you mad but I hope it as soon since past hun.
I pray you return home refreshed and slightly happier my friend.
Love you ;) take care of yourself.
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