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Who would trade his karma for my kingdom? The fire in my soul rejects my wisdom...
Quote of the day: "Memory is the most potent truth. Show me history untouched by memories and you show me lies. Show me lies not based on memories and you show me the worst lies of all."
- Carlos Eire
It's kind of sad to me that some of the most beautiful words I've ever read have been from someone whose head and heart I messed with pretty severely. Actually, on three instances, three people... all have such amazing writing abilities, such stunning prose and poetry...
...sometimes, I feel like a very destructive muse.
I also can feel my friends changing in ways I don't like. I guess this is all part of growing up... Realizing that you're not an entirely good person, realizing your friends are not as great as you think, realizing that everything is nothing, in the end. But... I don't know. I want to be something. -thefreefall (found while randomly browsing websites)
Those words could easily have come out of my own mouth... keyboard, whatever... The point is, I mess around with people's heads too much, especially those whom I care for. And I do it too often. I do it without thought these days. It's making me into an asshole.
On top of that, I'm too much of a perfectionist, and too judgemental. (Thank God I'm smart enough to not voice those opinions or act on them.) So that's how the second part could have ended up being said by myself. I judge those I would consider friends. Almost always for the negative. I have high ideals, morals, principles, convictions, standards etc... But by contrast, I'm forgiving enough to never let that bother me when I'm around them. Only in rare cases have I shown disgust, one in particular being Amanda. I still consider her a friend though. One of my better ones, surprisingly, though I don't talk with her much. Just because I don't approve of how she lives her life doesn't mean I have to ruin a friendship because of that. It may cause friction sometimes... but all kinds of friendships/relationships have differing amounts of friction. But whatever, I'm just rambling now. I can't concentrate today... it's set to "No thinkey" thanks to lack of classes.
last modified Oct 6, 2004 at 14:34
Haha, of all people, you quoted Holly... Awesomeness.
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