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I dragged this lake looking for corpses 
Dusted for prints, pried up the floorboards 
Pieces of planes and black box recorders 
Don't lie (don't lie) 
And I've been preoccupied with these sick, sick senses 
That sense DNA on barbed wire fences 
Maybe someday I'll find me a suspect 
That has no alibi 
 
New Year's Eve was as boring as heaven 
I watched flies fuck on channel 11 
There was no one to kiss, there was nothing to drink 
Except some old rotten milk someone left in the sink 
And there's no ring, there's no ring on the phone anymore 
There's no reason to call I passed out on the floor 
Smoked myself stupid and drank my insides raisin dry 
 
But at the right place at the right time 
I'll be dead wrong and you'll be just fine 
I won't have to quit doing fucked up shit 
For anyone but me 
At the right place at the right time 
It will have been worth it to stand in line 
And you won't have to stop 
Saying "I love cops" for anyone but me 
Your private eye 
 
I dragged this lake looking for corpses 
Dusted for prints, pried up the floorboards 
Pieces of planes and black box recorders 
Don't lie (don't lie) 
And I've been preoccupied with these sick, sick senses 
That sense DNA on barbed wire fences 
Maybe someday I'll find me a suspect 
That has no alibi 
 
But at the right place at the right time 
I'll be dead wrong and you'll be just fine 
And I won't have to quit doing fucked up shit 
For anyone but me 
And at the right place at the right time 
It will have been worth it to stand in line 
And you won't have to stop 
Saying "I love cops" for anyone but me 
Your private eye 
Your private eye 
 
But at the right place at the right time 
I'll be dead wrong and you'll be just fine 
You won't have to quit doing fucked up shit 
For anyone but me 
And at the right place at the right time 
It will have been worth it to stand in line 
And you won't have to stop 
Saying "I love cops" for anyone but me 
Your private eye 
 
 
-Private Eye by Alkaline Trio

last modified Jun 14, 2006 at 1:46


Monday, December 29, 2003

'It's just like the story of the grasshopper and the octopus. All year long, the grasshopper kept burying acorns for the winter, while the octopus mooched off his girlfriend and watched TV. But then the winter came, and the grasshopper died, and the octopus ate all his acorns. And also he got a racecar. Is any of this getting through to you?'

84119 | posted by Edicius at 18:17 | 1 comments

124

Current Mood: Gone somewhere
-Who knows what to think anymore? I do. I think; "I WANT MY GUITAR!"
Simple thought, yes? When I get it, then what becomes of that thought? Does it turn into something else? The brain cells dumping that thought into the garbage bin of my brain, busily recycling it into something else. Like food. I'm hungry. I'm getting something to eat.

84118 | posted by Edicius at 18:13 | 0 comments

Boycott Interplay! (only because it's impossible to say Fuck You politely)

Old news I know. If you don't play many games, you may as well just skip this part.

Interplay shuts down Black Isle Studios

After months of bad omens, the end has finally come for the veteran RPG developer.

It looks like role-playing gamers will have a boulder of coal stuffed in their holiday stockings this year, as GameSpot has received reliable reports that Interplay has shut down Black Isle Studios.

While nothing has been confirmed by official sources as of press time, Damien "Puuk" Foletto, a member of BIS' art department, broke the news on the Interplay forums late this afternoon. "Today was my last day at the (former) BIS, as it was for my whole team," he said. To date, Foletto's posts have been one of the most reliable sources of news on the development of Fallout 3 (aka Van Buren) including the departure of his former co-worker J.E. Sawyer.

Black Isle's closure is a sad end for the once-great developer. BIS had a hand in some of the most acclaimed PC RPGs of the late 1990s, including the Fallout and Baldur's Gate series. Recently, though, the studio fell on hard times. Its forthcoming Dungeons & Dragons title, code-named "Jefferson," was canned earlier this year, reportedly a casualty of a legal tangle with D&D rights-holders Wizards of the Coast. A host of top-quality talent has fled the studio, including legendary producer Feargus Urquhart.

However, it looks like the financial woes of BIS' parent Interplay finally did the developer in. Interplay has lost over $20 million so far this year. Its two main holiday releases, the console RPGs Fallout: Brotherhood of Steel and Baldur's Gate: Dark Alliance II (which was developed by BIS), were pushed back to next January as a result of another legal dispute, this time with distributor VU Games. Interplay's refocusing on console games may have also been a factor in the decision to shutter its more PC-centric subsidiary.

Regardless of the reasons, the closure of BIS will hit many gamers hard. Foletto's final post seemed particularly depressing. "I don't know where I'll end up," he said, "but [people should] know that we were all avid gamers and wanted to make the PC games that not only we wanted to play, but also the fans."

"Being a member of the team I can tell you what they were thinking. The new head honcho doesn't like PC games and has even stated that in the past. Its pretty obvious he was responsible for the death of BIS. There was alot of bad feelings between BIS and the rest of the company since BIS actually produced titles on a regular basis instead of <censored> around like everyone else. It was all politics.

So now they have bet the future of the company on 2 unproven projects. Fallout BOS2 (the first hasn't shipped and everyone knows its going to tank) and a console game based on the Exalted license. So instead of supporting the team working on Fallout 3 which has a proven record and was FAR along in development, they rest the future on the unknown.

You can be sure Interplay will sell the Fallout license to someone else. They've made short-sighted quick money decisions in the past (Hunter license is an example). They figure they can sell it off for a quick buck and save all the development money while losing any long term profit. Brilliant.

They will survive for awhile since Vivendi is stupid enough to keep giving them money. Also when BGDA2 ships that will give them a big stack of money so they will screw around all next year on these dead end titles until the money finally dries up and they go under. They might survive until the end of next year if they don't lose all of development. No one trusts them now so everyone still there is actively searching for jobs."

84116 | posted by Edicius at 18:09 | 0 comments

Sunday, December 28, 2003

Day 123... I hope... ah well

Current Mood: Recovering
-Sad news... it's most like George W. Bush is going to get re-elected...
-sorry, make that elected...
-still, compared to Lieberman: "Huzzah!"
-so four more years of Dubya jokes to follow. Great.
-Let's teach those American's a thing or three and put Clinton back in their office. 2 terms is never enough.
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kinda scary if you stare at them for long enough...
-Oh, and the US with their mad cows, geez...
-You know you're bored when you're writing big long essays on Trudeau when you're bored...
-Anyway, I'm going to go off and be sick... still...
-I hate you all

Current Song: Descending Angel - Misfits
And so this wraps up the day of Helios, December 28th. Adios

83996 | posted by Edicius at 13:22 | 2 comments

Wednesday, December 24, 2003

Day... 119 is it?

Current Mood: No longer sick and delusional... just sick now...
-Slept 84 hours, give or take a few for bathroom breaks. That's a new record. 36 at Steve's. 48 at home.
-Didn't eat anything during that whole time...
-I'm only just now able to walk again without falling down on my face...
-Damned headache will not go away... must have ingested 4000 grams of Acetylsalicylic acid at least... and umpteen other supposedly helpful drugs... Neo Citran is just bleh...
-I had so many dreams... most involved me dying in some way, and the others involved everyone else dying... o_O
-The best dreams were when I was bordering the line between consciousness and and sleep. I had some crazy delusions going on. I 'dreamt' (while half-conscious) that there little mice running up and down my veins inside me, that I had 5 noses, that there was a band floating around my head(and I was part of it), there were little elves dancing around me, and a bunch of other freaky stuff.
-Try to imagine a war between Lilliputian size people going on all around your body... That was cool
---
[Miracle:]
Friday evening
The blood still on my hands
To think that she would leave me now
For that grateful man

Sole survivor
No witness to the crime
I must act fast to cover up
I think that there`s still time

He'd seem hopeless and lost with this note
They'll buy into the words that I wrote

"This feeling inside me
Finally found my love, I've finally broke free
No longer torn in two
I'd take my own life before losing you"

[V:]
Feeling good this friday afternoon
I ran into Julian
Said we`d get together soon
He's always had my heart
He needs to know
I'll break free of the Miracle
It's time for him to go

This feeling inside me
Finally found my love, I've finally broke free
No longer torn in two
He'd kill his brother if he only knew

Their love renewed
They'd rendezvous
In a pathway out of view
They thought no one knew
They came a shot out of the night

[Sleeper:]
One last time
We`ll lay down today
One last time
Until we fade away
One last time
We`ll lay down today
One last time
We slowly fade away

As their bodies lie still
And the ending draws near
Spirits rise through the air
All their fears disappear, it all becomes clear
A blinding light comes into view
An old soul exchanged for a new
A familiar voice comesshining through

[N:]
This feeling inside me
Finally found my love, I'm finally free
No longer torn in two
I learned about my life by living through you

This feeling inside me
Finally found my love, I've finally broke free
No longer torn in two
Living my own life by learning from you

We'll meet again my friend someday soon

[CNN report:]
"News in London, France, Russia and Italy have deleted their lead story, all
anticipating the outcome of the man considered to be a member of American
nobility. And as you can imagine, as the skies have grown darker here over
Washington, the mood has grown darker as well and people here are beginning to
resign themselves to the possibility that they are witnessing yet another
tragedy in a long string of misfortunes. Reaction from everywhere, from
Washington and certainly from around the world has guess..."

[H:]
"Open your eyes, Nicholas"

[N:]
"AAAH!"

Current Song: Hallowed Be Thy Name - Iron Maiden
And so this wraps up Odin's day, December 24th. Merry Christmas.

83655 | posted by Edicius at 10:51 | 4 comments

Thursday, December 18, 2003

Day 113

Current Mood: \m/ >_< \m/
-Up The Irons
-If you can't guess what that is, don't worry about it
-Party tomorrow. Who wouldn't like to go to one on a Friday night?
-Words cannot express my gratitude to Steve. Thank you Steve!
"He's smarter than most people think. He just has his moments."
"A damn lotta moments for one guy, if you ask me."
"I didn't ask for your opinion."
"Well, I'm the only one you're talking to."
"I wasn't talking to you, I was TELLING you."
"Whatever."
-I'll give a list soon enough of things I've given and received for Happy Jesus Day. Why? Why not!
-School tomorrow should be interesting... lot of people will be gone for several reasons;
a) Lo-Ellen concert
b) Christmas vacation
c) Dying suddenly
Regardless, won't be able to go to the concert tomorrow. I miss too much school as is. Kinda sodomized myself with that one...
-You know what's funny? Mortal Kombat:Annihilation's tagline is 'Destroy all expectations.'
Janis was rolling on the floor laughing.
Yes, it's that funny that I had to type it out fully instead of ROFL.
Lol.
*shoots self*

Current Song: Navras - Don Davis (think Matrix: Revolutions)
And so this wraps up Thor's day, December 18th. Adios

83094 | posted by Edicius at 17:30 | 3 comments

Visions of the Beast... and Dream Theatre's new CD... and I bought myself Front Mission 3...
*dies*

83076 | posted by Edicius at 13:42 | 3 comments

Wednesday, December 17, 2003

Day 112

Current Mood: Tired, ugh...
-Stupid 7:15 a.m. detentions... they serve no purpose but to make someone wake up early, and suffer from a lack of sleep which also makes them do worse in school, much less help their immune system during winter... *cough*
-uh... got sidetracked at Ratemyteachers.com... I'll resume this later, after JAZZ BAND! Yes... no Steve...
*couple hours later*
-Jazz band was fun, Marie being the only Alto there despite having 4 normally.
-Today was long and boring... and tiring... I need sleep... I'm going to take a sleep...

Current Song: One Headlight - The Wallflowers
And so this wraps up Odin's day, December 17th. Adios

82953 | posted by Edicius at 12:32 | 0 comments

Monday, December 15, 2003

I stare at the screen
I have nothing else to do
I need a good job

82701 | posted by Edicius at 18:24 | 0 comments

Sick

Migraine
Pain
Sleep...

82678 | posted by Edicius at 12:54 | 0 comments

Saturday, December 13, 2003

Day 108

Current Mood: Happy
-Today was a good day
-Went shopping with Steve. Had lots of fun there.
-Went to Marie's. She liked the birthday gift.
-We made a lot of chocolate for a couple hours
-Then we went out for a bite at Kelsey's. Ended up eating all of Josh's dinner too
-Next on the menu was a movie. We saw The Last Samurai.
-Now I'm sitting here, 10 minutes until it becomes tomorrow. 10 minutes until Marie's birthday turns into Steve's birthday. 10 minutes until I have to wake Steve up... ;)
-He liked his gift too. It was a spontaneous thing really. As Steve knows, never take me shopping, heh.
-Yesterday was good too. I had fun as a James Dean look-alike. Janis cut my hair, then we filmed a movie.
"Jesse stop being a wad"
-Good times...
-I've been feeling so happy these past couple weeks, like nothing can bother me whatsoever. Maybe it's the christmas spirit, maybe it's because I found someone, maybe nothing has been going wrong for me, or maybe I've just been happy because I've been happy... works for me.
-Anyways, I'm off to watch my Christmas present from Janis and Adric. I love them! (Metallica: Cunning Stunts DVD)
Happy Holidays everyone!


Current Song: House of the Rising Sun - The Animals
And so this wraps up Saturn's Day, December 13th. Adios.

82498 | posted by Edicius at 21:54 | 4 comments

Thursday, December 11, 2003

Day 106

Current Mood: Average, Normal, and the like
-Funny thing about Ice days... I missed so much school already that I wanted to go to school. (I was walking outside, and it's really not that bad out there currently)
Nevermind the fact that my books are there because I had no homework... so now I can't study for a test tomorrow, and I'll have to use my spare working on a Chemistry assigment...
-My laziness makes me a procrastinator, but also makes me efficient with my time. Everything I do is planned to the minute (especially sleep), so all my plans are ruined when unexpected stuff happens like the weather throwing a monkeywrench my way...
-Well, at leasts I get to play Suikoden 2 a bits more...
-Been babysitting a lot lately. Funny thing is, I'm still short of money.
-Speaking of money... Christmas. *laughs*
Ah, that's a good one... heh

Current Song: Monkeywrench - Foo Fighters
And so this wraps up Thor's day, December 11th. Adios

82239 | posted by Edicius at 12:01 | 0 comments

Wednesday, December 10, 2003

Sad song... Just feel like sharing the sadness

"Picture"
(feat. Sheryl Crow)


[Kid Rock]
Livin' my life in a slow hell
Different girl every night at the hotel
I ain't seen the sun shine in 3 damn days
Been fuelin' up on cocaine and whisky
Wish I had a good girl to miss me
Lord I wonder if I'll ever change my ways
I put your picture away
Sat down and cried today
I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to her
I put your picture away, sat down and cried today
I can't look at you, while I'm lyin next to her

[Sheryl Crow]
I called you last night in the hotel
Everyone knows but they wont tell
But their half hearted smiles tell me
Somethin' just ain't right
I been waitin' on you for a long time
Fuelin' up on heartaches and cheap wine
I ain't heard from you in 3 damn nights
I put your picture away
I wonder where you been
I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to him
I put your picture away
I wonder where you been
I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to him
I saw ya yesterday with an old friend

[Kid Rock]
It was the same ole same "how have you been"

[Both]
Since you been gone my worlds been dark & grey

[Kid Rock]
You reminded me of brighter days

[Sheryl Crow]
I hoped you were comin' home to stay
I was headed to church

[Kid Rock]
I was off to drink you away

[Both]
I thought about you for a long time
Can't seem to get you off my mind
I can't understand why we're living life this way
I found your picture today
I swear I'll change my ways
I just called to say I want you to come back home
I found your picture today
I swear I'll change my ways
I just called to say I want you to come back home
I just called to say, I love you come back home

82112 | posted by Edicius at 14:49 | 0 comments

Day 105

Current Mood: Normal *ugh* and tired
-stupid morning detentions *grumble grumble*
-I have the premonition that I may be getting more in the near future, because no one was there to take attendance, and it'll be my fault of course...
-Well, the concert last night was a success. I played extremely well, I felt, and that's what matters to me. I also loved the other acts, especially Yan and the Kampana Bells. Even though I was there until 9:30 putting away everything, with only Marie helping...
I'm j/k, lots of people helped, of course, though they mysteriously vanished as more and more stuff was put away...
-Jazz band after school, hurrah...
-Janis is right, more and more people are feeling the winter loving spirit. *Bow chika wow wow*
>_>
-I've been in such a great mood the past couple days. Makes me worry for the future, but oh well.
-I was also having a lot of fun before the concert. I LOVE THAT TIE! *faints*

Current Song: Da - Leahy
And so this wraps up Odin's day, December 10th. Adios

82086 | posted by Edicius at 7:54 | 5 comments

Monday, December 8, 2003

haiku for you part 2... moo

It was a good day
Laying on the bed for hours
Ants eating my face

81883 | posted by Edicius at 17:27 | 0 comments

'he's mopping the floor
whenever I need to go.
psychic Janitor.'


Now! This is it!

Now is the time to choose!

Die and be free of pain,

Or live and fight your sorrows!

Now is the time to shape your stories!

Your fate is in your hands!

81861 | posted by Edicius at 14:03 | 0 comments

Sunday, December 7, 2003

Posted by Link on Dec 6, 2003, 15:37

Kill yourself. No, really. It would do humanity some much needed good. It would cut back on homelessness, world hunger, violence, war, and all that "bad stuff". Just imagine, if Hitler had killed himself (pre-WW II), World War II could have been avoided altogether..

Now, away from the "help society" reasons. Fuck you. You're worthless and I hate you. You ignorant fuckers are dragging any of us with an intelectual mind right down the shitter with you. Stick a gun in your mouth and pull the trigger. I can't stand you people. People. I hate people. Everyone thinks they're so cool. All that and a bag of chips. Well, guess what? You can take your popular trends and fashions, shove them straight up your asses, and blow yourself to hell.

"Oh my gawd, did you see the new line of jeans from...?". Who gives a shit? Listen Dolly, really, if you want people to notice you, don't be a fucking sheep. Dolly the sheep was a clone. That's what you all are. Worthless imitators and instigators. Everyone trying to be something they're not, to impress people and "Fit in".

Don't fit in. Stick out. Break the Cycle. A few examples. You shop at Hot Topic, you wear black and red, you wear spikes, you dye your hair, so of course, you're punk. Wrong, you have to understand it. Another one. Girls, you never eat and you're constantly obsessing over your weight ( OMFG! I gained half a pound! ), you wear tons of make-up, and revealing clothes, so that makes you beautiful in the eyes of society doesn't it? Little hint here, too much make-up, and you look like a whore.

People irritate me. Always doing what they think others want them to do. Why should you give a fuck? Do try and "rebel" and do things you know they'll hate, but you don't like either. That's not rebellion. That's you being an idiot. Do what makes you happy. But better yet, do what makes me happy. Kill yourself, and rid the world of your stupidity. Don't inflict your problems on others. Your existance is your biggest problem. But we all have little problems, don't we? No one cares about your little problems, so don't try coming to me and bitching about them. Another thing, if you hear someone talking, and don't agree with it, go drown yourself. Who cares what you think? No one. Don't try to force your opinions down they're throat just because you think your right. Instead, slit your wrists vertically with a straight-edge razor and dunk them into a bucket of warm water. Oh, your life sucks? Boo hoo, get over it.

Or Kill yourself. Now.

-Link

81779 | posted by Edicius at 20:11 | 2 comments

Thursday, December 4, 2003

We're not tools of the goverment, nor of anyone else. Fighting was the only thing I was good at . . . but at least I always fought for what I believed in...

81443 | posted by Edicius at 17:22 | 0 comments

You're Dead

What the hell is your name
And can you explain this mess
It seems your playing a game
Where you only know how to take out the best
Cause if assholes could fly
This place would be busier than O'Hare
There's proof in the sky
It's as thick as our skulls yet it's thinner than air
I have something to say
If the chip off your shoulder should fall to your chest
Get it off right away
Cause if you don't then it won't be in peace that you rest
It's just a matter of time
That we all go away to a better place I'm told
It all sounds well and fine
But without you around I feel nothing but cold
And I now have nothing
But your heartbeat in my head
And a photograph of my traveling friend
And I became nothing when I found you were dead
When I found out I'd never see you again
And all the time they took talking in circles
To get them off the hook would take miracle workers
We're nowhere near prepared there's
no way of knowing
Why don't they just admit they're scared
Cause its already showing

81438 | posted by Edicius at 15:55 | 1 comments

Day 99

Current Mood: ...bleh
-Sick, but what else is new...
-Missed two days of school this week, including today, but for different reasons
-Tuesday was because of sleep paralysis, aided by my extremely sore back
-Today was because my fever and my headache conspired together, making me sick to my stomach...
-My mom doesn't want me to babysit tonight. She's worried I'm becoming anemic because I haven't been eating well, and sleeping at really odd intervals. Slept until 4 today, proving her suspicions correct...
-Been babysitting for the past couple of nights too.
-As for my website, the damn thing isn't working... *smashes keyboard*
-I'm also very happy. I finally got Suikoden 2! *dances for joy, before collapsing to ground*
-I think I'm going to go lie back down now... after I make myself something to eat, and play Suikoden 2 for a bit more...

'It is better to burn out than fade away.' -Kurt Cobain

... it is probably also better to stop cutting myself...

Current Song: Requiem - Opeth
And so this wraps up Thor's day, December 4th. Adios

81437 | posted by Edicius at 15:43 | 2 comments

Monday, December 1, 2003

Day 96

Current Mood: Ow, ow, ow, fucking ow...
-Back spasms...
-Can barely lift my arms right now...
-9 hours of lifting 20 and 40 pound boxes... good thing I'm not getting a job as a grocery boy anytime soon...
-MSN is being a bitch for some reason...
-Got homework to do... I'll post some time soon...

Current Song: Spiderwebs - No Doubt
And so this wraps up Lunae Dies, December 1st, Adios

81110 | posted by Edicius at 19:58 | 2 comments