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Black Rose Immortal
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I dragged this lake looking for corpses
Dusted for prints, pried up the floorboards
Pieces of planes and black box recorders
Don't lie (don't lie)
And I've been preoccupied with these sick, sick senses
That sense DNA on barbed wire fences
Maybe someday I'll find me a suspect
That has no alibi
New Year's Eve was as boring as heaven
I watched flies fuck on channel 11
There was no one to kiss, there was nothing to drink
Except some old rotten milk someone left in the sink
And there's no ring, there's no ring on the phone anymore
There's no reason to call I passed out on the floor
Smoked myself stupid and drank my insides raisin dry
But at the right place at the right time
I'll be dead wrong and you'll be just fine
I won't have to quit doing fucked up shit
For anyone but me
At the right place at the right time
It will have been worth it to stand in line
And you won't have to stop
Saying "I love cops" for anyone but me
Your private eye
I dragged this lake looking for corpses
Dusted for prints, pried up the floorboards
Pieces of planes and black box recorders
Don't lie (don't lie)
And I've been preoccupied with these sick, sick senses
That sense DNA on barbed wire fences
Maybe someday I'll find me a suspect
That has no alibi
But at the right place at the right time
I'll be dead wrong and you'll be just fine
And I won't have to quit doing fucked up shit
For anyone but me
And at the right place at the right time
It will have been worth it to stand in line
And you won't have to stop
Saying "I love cops" for anyone but me
Your private eye
Your private eye
But at the right place at the right time
I'll be dead wrong and you'll be just fine
You won't have to quit doing fucked up shit
For anyone but me
And at the right place at the right time
It will have been worth it to stand in line
And you won't have to stop
Saying "I love cops" for anyone but me
Your private eye
-Private Eye by Alkaline Trio
last modified Jun 14, 2006 at 1:46
Well, it seems I can do nothing but piss people off recently. At least online, anyways. I haven't had a civil conversation in more than a week.
Granted I rarely talk to anyone, but still, it's a little disheartening...
Actually, I think my MSN name might have something to do with it. Some people don't have a sense of humour.
Okay, so a person sent me this comic saying I reminded them of the person in this comic. I then proceeded to spend 3 hours going through the entire archives. I was that bored.
I know I'm going to regret this, because I'll be seeing it in everyone's weblogs, but what the hell, I thought it was interesting.
Step 1: Open your Winamp or other MP3 player.
Step 2: Put all of your music on random.
Step 3: Write down the first fifty songs it plays, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 4: Bold your top ten favorites
(I'm doing this with Windows Media Player, which sucks. My WinAmp isn't working at the moment.)
1:Alkaline Trio - Stupid Kid
2:Nobuo Uematsu - You're Not Alone! (FF9)
3:Queensryche - Best I Can
4:Bad Religion - Superman
5:Hammerfall - Legacy of Kings
6:Great Big Sea - Drunken Sailor
7:Bad Religion - You Are (The Government)
8:Helloween - Keeper of the Seven Keys
9:In Flames - Moonshield
10:Bright Eyes - From a Balance Beam
11:Nightwish - Sleeping Sun
12:Slayer - South of Heaven
13:Marilyn Manson - Angel With the Scabbed Wings
14:Xiu Xiu - Apistat
15:Blind Guardian - The Curse of Feanor
16:Creed - Six Feet From the Edge
17:Inkubus Sukkubus - Belladonna & Aconite
18:Blind Guardian - Mordred's Song (acoustic)
19:Radical Dreamers - The Jewel That Has Not Been Stolen
20:Alkaline Trio - Goodbye Forever
21:Liquid Tension Experiment - The Stretch
22:Metallica - King Nothing
23:Alkaline Trio - Nose Over Tail
24:Metallica - One (rare version)
25:Alkaline Trio - Madam Me
26:Evanescence - Lies
27:Dragonheart - Mists of Avalon
28:In Flames - Resin
29:Wallflowers - One Headlight
30:Dream Theater - Dance of Eternity
31:Bon Jovi - Bed of Roses
32:Rammstein - Heirate Mich
33:Blind Guardian - The Eldar
34:Def Leppard - Pour Some Sugar On Me
35:Rhapsody - Emerald Sword
36:Juno - Things Still Gone And Things Still Here (We'll Need The Machine Guns By Next March)
37:Alkaline Trio - Mr. Chainsaw
38:Dream Theater - Space Dye Vest
39:Manowar - Brothers of Metal
40:Slayer - Burn In Hell
41:Dead Or Alive - You Spin Me Round
42:Sonic Youth - Drunken Butterfly
43:Opeth - Black Rose Immortal
44:Bowling For Soup - The Bitch Song
45:Brainstorm (the non-metal Brainstorm) - Maybe
46:Trans-Siberian Orchestra - Midnight
47:Godspeed You! Black Emperor - Static
48:Radiohead - Fake Plastic Trees
49:Cursive - May Flowers
50:Alkaline Trio - Queen of Pain
So, out of my 1500 songs, it picked Alkaline Trio (of which I have 50 available) 6 times.
Out of my 250 power metal songs like Nightwish and Blind Guardian, it picked those 11 times.
26 songs out of 700 were metal. (Defining those liberally)
And finally, out of my 600 indie songs, it picked those 6, maybe 7 or 8 times.
I am glad it picked some prog stuff at least.
Some of those were pretty embarrassing... Why couldn't it have picked one of my Iron Maiden songs?
What am I doing being up at 4:00 in the morning? I dunno... Better than being down, I guess. (I'll keep the bad jokes to a minimum)
Damn, it's cold here in the kitchen sitting in just my shorts and a tee shirt. I'd try to get back to sleep, but I just realized that I've been sipping Coke. Oh well, looks like I get to see a sunrise today. w00t.
I think I'm at least going to read, and/or take a hot bath...
I hate forwards. Thanks Lex for making me stay up an hour later than I meant to.
DESCRIBE:
-- YOUR HERITAGE: Canadian. If you want a bit more than that; Ukrainian, Native American (Saulteaux), Romanian, and English. And if you listen to my family, I'm high-bred in 3 out of 4 of them.
-- THE SHOES YOU WORE TODAY: My usual ones that I got from Janis. They are (were) worth $125. He bought them for $60 and wore them once, and I bought them off him for $20. They're special, because they're one of the few pairs of shoes I've had that have lasted more than a year.
-- YOUR EYES: Primarily deep Blue, with shades of Green, Yellow, and Grey.
-- YOUR WEAKNESS: My Achilles' Heel... Hmmm... You think I'm going to let you peeps know that? It's probably not impossible to figure out, I suppose.
-- YOUR FEARS: Water. Well, swimming, to be precise.
-- ONE THING YOU'D LIKE TO ACHIEVE: Finding a purpose in life that stands the test of time.
WHAT IS...
-- YOUR FIRST THOUGHT UPON WAKING UP: On schooldays, "I could probably eke out a couple more minutes of sleep before having to get up." Otherwise, "It's morning already? Shit, when did that happen?"
-- THE FIRST FEATURE YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX: Hair.
-- YOUR BEST PHYSICAL FEATURE: Depends on who you ask. Actually, my eyes.
-- YOUR BEDTIME: Whenever I start falling down.
-- YOUR GREATEST ACCOMPLISHMENT: Personally, staying alive for as long as I have. But I'd rather not go into that.
DO YOU PREFER...
-- PEPSI OR COKE: Coke
-- MCDONALD'S OR BURGER KING: *flips a coin*
-- SINGLE OR GROUP DATES: Single.
-- ADIDAS OR NIKE: ¬_¬
-- CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA: *flips a coin*
-- CAPPUCCINO OR COFFEE: Neither.
DO YOU...
-- SMOKE: No
-- CUSS: No
-- TAKE A SHOWER EVERYDAY: Every second day, usually, unless there's something special happening.
-- HAVE A CRUSH(ES): Not really. I avoid them now, for the most part.
-- WHO ARE THEY: Who are who?
-- DO YOU THINK YOU'VE BEEN IN LOVE?: It felt like love to me. Whether it wasn't or not, who can say?
-- WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE/UNIVERSITY: Have to now.
-- LIKE HIGH SCHOOL: Not really. Actually, not as much as I used to.
-- WANT TO GET MARRIED: If you mean spend the rest of my life with one person, then yes. *avoids taking a potshot at the Gay marriages debate*
-- TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS: Yeah. I don't even have to look at the keyboard anymore. *tosses away back space button*
-- GET MOTION SICKNESS: Somewhat, yeah.
-- THINK YOU'RE ATTRACTIVE: To myself? Yeah. To others? No. I may be a narcissicist, but I'm also a realist.
-- THINK YOU'RE A HEALTH FREAK: Not in any way, much to the chagrin of my adopted parents.
-- GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: Mom? Yes. Never ever fought with her on anything. Dad? Never. Disagree on everything, almost.
-- LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: Hell Yes.
-- PLAY AN INSTRUMENT: Any of the saxes, but I prefer Alto or Soprano. I'm also manageable on Clarinet, Trumpet, Piano, and Percussion/Drums.
IN THE PAST MONTH DID/HAVE YOU...
-- DRANK ALCOHOL: Yes.
-- SMOKE(D): No
-- DONE A DRUG: ASA
-- HAVE SEX: No
-- MADE OUT: No
-- GO ON A DATE: Not really
-- GO TO THE MALL: No
-- BEEN ON STAGE: NSA concert earlier this month, so yeah.
-- BEEN DUMPED: No, but been dumped on, not that I minded.
-- GONE SKATING: Not in a long time.
-- MADE HOMEMADE COOKIES: Nope. I want some of Tai's though. Cooking them nude makes them taste better. ;)
-- BEEN IN LOVE: No.
-- DYED YOUR HAIR: Not since the summer last year.
-- STOLEN ANYTHING: Not for more than a minute...
HAVE YOU EVER...
-- FLOWN ON A PLANE: Yes
-- MISSED SCHOOL BECAUSE IT WAS RAINING?: No
-- TOLD A GUY/GIRL THAT YOU LIKED THEM?: 3 times, and if you know me, than you know who I've said it to.
-- CRIED DURING A MOVIE?: Yes. I believe the last one was Natural Born Killers. Don't give me that look...
-- EVER THOUGHT AN ANIMATED CHARACTER WAS HOT?: I'll go out on a limb and say yes. I actually have a crush on a current one, for some reason. (A psychologist would have a field day with this quiz...)
-- HAD AN IMAGINARY FRIEND: No, they all abandoned me.
-- BEEN ON STAGE?: Yes
-- CUT YOUR HAIR: It bled quite a bit...
-- HAD CRUSH ON A TEACHER?: Somewhat, but not really.
-- PLAYED A GAME THAT REQUIRED REMOVAL OF CLOTHING?: To quote Lex, "You mean, have I been to one of Nursall's parties? Yes"
-- BEEN TRASHED OR EXTREMELY INTOXICATED: Mentally trashed, aye. Intoxicated? Yeah, but not with Alcohol.
-- BEEN CAUGHT "DOING SOMETHING": I was caught raping my younger sister once. Does that count?
-- BEEN CALLED A TEASE: Probably, but I don't remember.
-- GOTTEN BEATEN UP?: Mostly by my Step-dad.
-- BEEN IN A FIGHT: God, yes...
-- SHOPLIFTED: Once or thrice...
THE FUTURE:
-- AGE YOU HOPE TO BE MARRIED: I don't plan that far ahead. Serendipity, help me out here.
-- NUMBERS AND NAMES OF CHILDREN: I've always wanted a daughter/sister named Jennifer. It's such a beautiful name, to me, for some strange reason...
-- DESCRIBE YOUR DREAM WEDDING: Just that, a dream.
-- WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? Respected.
-- WHAT COUNTRY WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT?: Canada. What can I say? It's a beautiful country... but anywhere, really. I love exploring.
OPPOSITE/SAME SEX
-- BEST EYE COLOR: Doesn't matter to me.
-- BEST HAIR COLOR: Light Brown, I think...
-- SHORT OR LONG HAIR: Depends on the style. Mid length, actually.
-- BEST HEIGHT: Does it matter much? Don't answer that...
-- BEST WEIGHT: One that fits their Height so that they're average.
-- BEST FIRST DATE LOCATION: Depends, like always. Movies, maybe. Unless something special happens, like the Northern Lights. *remembers a couple weeks ago*
Come to think of it... somewhere outside, maybe by a running stream or something. Someplace beautiful...
-- BEST FIRST KISS LOCATION: Mine was while swimming. Figure that one out. Probably outside somewhere, at night, after spending the day with the person.
NUMBER OF...
-- NUMBER OF BOYFRIENDS/GIRLFRIENDS YOU'VE HAD: 2 serious ones. A number of non serious ones that I've fooled around in.
-- NUMBER OF KISSES YOU'VE GIVEN: I think the sad thing is I could count...
-- NUMBER OF DRUGS TAKEN ILLEGALLY: A handful.
-- NUMBER OF PEOPLE I COULD TRUST WITH MY LIFE:*thinks* Don't be surprised... no one.
-- NUMBER OF PIERCINGS: no permanent ones
-- NUMBER OF TATTOOS: none
-- NUMBER OF TIMES MY NAME HAS APPEARED IN THE NEWSPAPER?: Once? Unless you count the school newspaper.
-- NUMBER OF SCARS ON MY BODY: The number count a year ago around Christmas was in the mid-40's. I'm sure 10 or so have been added since, at least.
-- NUMBER OF THINGS IN MY PAST THAT I REGRET: One shouldn't live life with regrets. Still, 2 things.
FAVOURITES:
-- SHAMPOO: Doesn't matter
-- COLOUR: Blue
-- DAY/NIGHT: Night
-- SUMMER/WINTER: Fall
-- LACE OR SATIN: *flips coin*
-- CARTOON CHARACTER: The same one I have a crush on.
-- FOOD: Shepherd's Pie and Perogies. I love having a Ukrainian mom. (Chicken comes close)
-- MOVIES: Too many to name... Probably American History X would be near the top of the list.
-- SPORT: You name it, I'll play it. And chances are, I'll be average at it.
RIGHT NOW:
-- WEARING: Blue jeans *gasp* and Black Tee, blacks socks, black silk boxers, and my chain with rabies vaccination dog tag.
-- DRINKING: Fruitopia. My mom's BF loves the stuff.
-- THINKING ABOUT: Communism, and a certain person.
-- LISTENING TO: Modest Mouse - Black Cadillacs
IN THE LAST 24 HRS:
-- CRIED: Came damn close...
-- WORN JEANS: *looks down*
-- MET SOMEONE NEW ONLINE: Not really.
-- DONE LAUNDRY: Nope.
-- DROVE A CAR: Nope. I was offered, but it was too icy last night for me to worry about it.
-- TALKED ON THE PHONE: "No, my mom's not home."
DO YOU BELIEVE IN...
-- YOURSELF: Sometimes, depending.
-- YOUR FRIENDS: Can't.
-- SANTA CLAUS: Historically, a little bit.
-- TOOTH FAIRY: In other words, my mom? Yeah.
-- DESTINY/FATE: Determinism, yes.
-- ANGELS: Mmm... No
-- GHOSTS: Not entirely.
-- UFOs: By definition, yes. Not aliens.
-- GOD: In my own way, which pretty much means no.
FRIENDS AND LIFE:
-- DO YOU EVER WISH YOU HAD ANOTHER NAME?: Not really...
-- DO YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND?: Not really...
-- DO YOU LIKE ANYONE?: Not really...
-- WHICH ONE OF YOUR FRIENDS ACTS THE MOST LIKE YOU?: It depends.
-- WHO HAVE YOU KNOWN THE LONGEST OF YOUR FRIENDS?: I have friends? Wait, Patricia. Knew her in grade school.
-- ARE YOU CLOSE TO ANY FAMILY MEMBER?: Not in any way.
-- WHO DO YOU HANG AROUND THE MOST?: At school, Karl and Adric. Outside of school, Steve.
-- WHEN HAVE YOU CRIED THE MOST?: The whole Nursall thing, which shouldn't be a surprise to anyone.
-- WHAT'S THE BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: Falling asleep.
-- WORST FEELING?: Waking up.
-- WHAT TIME IS IT NOW?: 1:52 A.M.
CURRENT...
-- CURRENT MOOD: Tired.
-- CURRENT MUSIC: Rammstein - Seemann
-- CURRENT TASTE: White Cheddar Popcorn.
-- CURRENT HAIR: Messed, since I didn't bother combing it when I woke up at Steve's this morning. Then Jazz messed it even worse. Then Steve messed it even worse.
-- CURRENT ANNOYANCE: The kitchen chair I'm sitting on. It's not comfortable at all.
-- CURRENT SMELL: My body, because I didn't shower or put on deodorants this morning either. Call me lazy.
-- CURRENT THING I OUGHT TO BE DOING: Saving the world
-- CURRENT WINDOWS OPEN: MSN Messenger, Convo with Erin, My weblog, and this one.
-- CURRENT DESKTOP PICTURE: Tim Burton-esque black and white drawing which draws chills down my spine whenever I see it. I believe it reminds me of a nightmare I had.
DO I/HAVE I EVER...
-- HAVE A DREAM THAT KEEPS COMING BACK?: Yeah
-- REMEMBER YOUR FIRST LOVE?: More or less
-- STILL LOVE HIM/HER: More or less
-- READ THE NEWSPAPER?: No
-- BELIEVE IT'S POSSIBLE TO REMAIN FAITHFUL FOREVER?: I believe so
-- CONSIDER YOURSELF TOLERANT OF OTHERS?: Too much, according to some.
-- CONSIDER LOVE A MISTAKE?: When done for the wrong reasons
-- LIKE THE TASTE OF
Every day, walking home from school I walk over the ashes of a burned down building. Every day it reminds me.
Life can be so morbidly beautiful when you think about it. The way everything is connected to one another, each piece playing but a part in the symphony of life.
First off, public apology to to Marie and Kyla, and probably Regan. My comments were definitely uncalled for. You'd be surprised at what set me off. Really you would. I owe you all an explanation at least. If you have the time, E-mail or talk to me and I'll explain. Then you'll understand why I want to be left alone at this time. I don't want to put it up here for everybody to see. Or, if you think I'm an ass, which I know I am, you can go ahead and ignore me. I deserve it.
Mental breakdowns are fun... as is apologizing to everyone afterwards...
If a dragon says he's going to flame you if you provoke, then why the fuck would you provoke him?
Yes, I know I've been considerably more irate than normal lately. Long story. Not wasting my time writing it down here.
I may or may not snap at every one of you if you talk to me. Do both of us a favour and LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE! I am not seeking attention, you fucking bitches. Read. My. Text. FUCK OFF!
"why the fuck ur the only one making negative comments towards anyone and everyone but urself"
Take a fucking look at my entire weblog. It's one big pit of despair and self-loathing. I've been changing that recently, but sometimes, certain things happen that the best of us can't control. Secondly, the only 'negative' comments I've made are deserved. I'd like you to point them out to me, Ms. Perfect.
"ur putting everyone down, and ur managing to piss everyone else off! while there's 1 person pissing you off, ur pissing a few people off urself jesse..."
Don't you think I fucking know that? Why do you think I'm telling you all to leave me alone? Don't fucking prod me into getting worse. I'm already feeling bad as it is.
I apologize now for my words, and I'll probably explain sometime in the future... but for now, please, do the smart thing and leave me alone.
Boring as hell week. No classes Monday or Tuesday. 1 class each on Wednesday and Thursday. Normal day Friday.
Tons of history homework due Monday, as well as a big test. Should be working on them.
PD day Friday, so long weekend, w00t! I'll probably be spending it with Ian.
Tournament on the 30th. Wish me luck.
Going out now. I planned to put more here, but meh...
Long day. Tiring even. Eventful nonetheless. A good day.
It seems many people I've been noticing have been bitten by what is affectionally dubbed the 'Emo Bug'. People bitten are afflicted with the dreaded 'Emo' disease. Effects of said 'Emo' disease are prone to:
-fits of whining
-having a constant need for reassurance from people
-being too "tired" to do work
-constant worrying over little things
-be unable to appreciate the things they do have
-be unable to function independantly
-actually thinking their problems are bigger than they really are
-constantly thinking up NON-EXISTANT problems
-only wanting to be around other 'Emo' people with which to indulge themselves
-lack of desire to admit it is a disease
-and they appear annoying to "normal" people who can deal with said problems with little difficulty.
Should you come across a person inflicted with 'Emo' disease, run away and tell your appropriate local realist. Do not stick around. The disease is contagious. Under no attempts should you encourage this disease, nor introduce them to a pessimist by mistake. People tend to confuse realism with pessimism quite often.
Ashcroft says judges threaten national security by questioning Bush decisions
http://www.tucsoncitizen.com/breaking/111204ashcroft.html
WASHINGTON - Federal judges are jeopardizing national security by issuing rulings contradictory to President Bush's decisions on America's obligations under international treaties and agreements, Attorney General John Ashcroft said Friday.
In his first remarks since his resignation was announced Tuesday, Ashcroft forcefully denounced what he called "a profoundly disturbing trend" among some judges to interfere in the president's constitutional authority to make decisions during war.
"The danger I see here is that intrusive judicial oversight and second-guessing of presidential determinations in these critical areas can put at risk the very security of our nation in a time of war," Ashcroft said in a speech to the Federalist Society, a conservative lawyers' group.
The Justice Department announced this week it would seek to overturn a ruling by U.S. District Judge James Robertson in the case of Salim Ahmed Hamdan, who the government contends was Osama bin Laden's driver.
Robertson halted Hamdan's trial by military commission in Guantanamo Bay, Cuba, rejecting the Bush administration's position that the Geneva Conventions governing prisoners of war do not apply to al-Qaida members because they are not soldiers of a true state and do not fight by international norms.
Without mentioning that case specifically, Ashcroft criticized rulings he said found "expansive private rights in treaties where they never existed" that run counter to the broad discretionary powers given the president by the Constitution.
"Courts are not equipped to execute the law. They are not accountable to the people," Ashcroft said.
During his successful re-election campaign, Bush repeatedly promised to appoint judges who would adhere to strict interpretations of the Constitution. In addition to numerous lower courts, Bush is likely to appoint at least one and perhaps several justices to the Supreme Court during the next four years.
The administration lost a crucial legal battle this year when a divided Supreme Court determined the president lacks the authority to hold terror suspects classified as enemy combatants indefinitely with no access to lawyers or the ability to challenge their detention.
Ashcroft intends to remain as attorney general until his nominated successor, Alberto Gonzales, is confirmed by the Senate.
A worldwide survey was conducted by the UN. The only question asked was:"Would you please give your honest opinion about solutions to the
food shortage in the rest of the world?"
The survey was a huge failure...
In Africa they didn't know what "food" meant.
In Eastern Europe they didn't know what "honest" meant.
In Western Europe they didn't know what "shortage" meant.
In China they didn't know what "opinion" meant.
In the Middle East they didn't know what "solution" meant.
In South America they didn't know what "please" meant.
And in the USA they didn't know what "the rest of the world" meant
My back hurts. Going to bed. Mew.
Night.
Normally, I hate quizes, but... damn...
Relationship quiz.
Oh, and I'm still mad at that person. Woo.
Update: Still pissed. Slightly less lethal to those around me, but still pissed.
I mean, fuck, I'm shaking uncontrollably... I never get mad. Ever. And now, because of this one thing, all the anger I've never had in the past two years is rushing into me.
Just my luck that I BROKE the punching bag, argh... This whole day has been one fucking pig filled miserable ordeal after another, but I kept my head up, and did my best not to let it all fucking get to me...
But this... this is something else entirely... I just fucking can't believe a person could do something so FUCKING INCONSIDERATE and go as far as to do what they did...
No, I'm not gnashing my teeth, or smashing everything around me. I'm still very much in control of myself, as always... I'm hoping it doesn't get worse than it is right now, but it shouldn't.
No, I'm not fucking explaining. Either this person will come forward and apologize EXACTLY for what they've done, or I swear... (No fucking vague statements like "Whatever I did, I'm sorry." I fucking hate those. Either you know, or you don't.)
Fucking...
LIES!
Okay, right now, I am totally and utterly fucking pissed at a certain someone... I mean, extremely pissed. If I saw this person right now, I would punch them in the face. Repeatedly.
Argh... fucking...
Have to go. Will vent later.
*blows dust off punching bag*
you are seagreen.
Your dominant hues are cyan and green. Although you definately strive to be logical you care about people and know there's a time and place for thinking emotionally. Your head rules most things but your heart rules others, and getting them to meet in the middle takes a lot of your energy some days.
Your saturation level is higher than average - You know what you want, but sometimes know not to tell everyone. You value accomplishments and know you can get the job done, so don't be afraid to run out and make things happen.
Your outlook on life can be bright or dark, depending on the situation. You are flexible and see things objectively.
Feelings, woo woo woo...</Calvin and Hobbes reference>
Decided to stay home today for several important reasons important for myself.
I had two really weird dreams last night too. In one, I was crossing the country, probably running from something. This involved throwing a lasso around a train and going for a ride. A couple people joined me on the journey. I ended up at an old, isolated western-style town with a handful of buildings. It had a mall in it. I went in the mall, did some stuff that I don't remember, and lost my schoolbag which had all my 'equipment' and stuff in it. I was screwed. I eventually settled down there.
The second dream was shorter. I was playing hockey. I got a handful of assists, but never any goals, despite the number of shots I took. When I got off the ice, the coach yelled at me because I didn't come in with the rest of my line change. Then I ate.
Weird fucking dreams...
Concert was great. Weekend was fucking awesome. Worth the lack of sleep.
Note to people with weblogs: Stop complaining and whining about stuff. You're starting to act like I do. Or did. Whatever.
Muscle spasm on my leg Friday. (No surprise considering...) Other that that, I'm feeling good.
10,000 words behind schedule, and 4 assignments behind schedule, plus a bunch more coming up, and a chemistry test tomorrow.
Time to sleep. I'm tired.
No one should ever have to see their mom naked. Ever.
>_<
Busy weekend. Concert Sunday. Must remember to wear all black (Uh...) and bring my wire stand. (And of course the music and the sax)
10 hours of school today.
Seeing the person at the Canadian Mental Health and Awareness institute went okay. Might even sign up for a workshop that'll help people prevent suicide.
I'm going to fight this thing. Where better to start than my old, online punching bag? It's become so crusted with my dried blood and malformed into sharp angles that the simple act of touching it would cut my hands.
Not anymore. I don't give up so easily.
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