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Day 54
Current Mood: Alone... I need someone to talk to... or a hug...
Is it any wonder why I'm scared,
If I was a little younger would I
care,
feeling like the walls are growing stronger,
I don't know if this cage can hold me any longer
I'm not afraid of tomorrow,
I'm only scared of myself,
feels like my insides are on fire, and I'm looking through the eyes of someone else
I never thought they'd want me to go even faster,
never thought I took my foot off the gas,
everybody loves to be in on the pressure,
but I know they're all waiting for the crash
I'm not afraid of tomorrow,
I only scared of myself,
feels like my insides are on fire and i'm looking through the eyes of someone else
-In an alright mood, though something just does not feel right... An identity crisis perhaps? I hope not... I was just beginning to find one... oh well, stupid teenage hormones
*shrugs them off as usual*
-Maybe it's the shrugging off that's bothering me, and the lack of dealing with it. I'm used to dealing with things head on... But of course, I can't really talk with my friends about most stuff. (well, I don't usually, but it'd be nice if I could when stuff does come up)
-Okay then... I'll just avoid dumping my problems on others, could that work? That sounds a little like I'm giving up on friends. It bothers me because in talking about stuff that's depressing, it only seems as if I'm giving my depression to others...
-This is really bothering me... to be open, but know I'm bringing myself up whilst bringing everyone else down, or to keep it within myself...
-It's amazing the amount of shit in my life... life deals me sour grapes, and I'm going to make wine out of them. As that article I posted said, I can handle these problems.
-On one hand, I'm bleeding from my knuckles, on the other, my pinky was bent at an odd angle. 1.2 hours on an 80 lb punching bag does wonders for deforming your knuckles...
-Maybe I could just yell at the elements... Defy the wind, stand strong.
-COME ON LIFE, IS THAT ALL YOU GOT? I'M MAKING IT EASY FOR YOU, AND I'M STILL HERE! EVERYTHING THAT DOESN'T KILL ME MAKES ME STRONGER! COME ON, I KNOW YOU CAN DISH OUT MORE THAN THAT! I HAVEN'T HIT MY LIMIT YET! HIT ME WITH YOUR BEST SHOT! KILL MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS, GO AHEAD. I'LL STILL BE STANDING HERE! (alone maybe, as always, but still...) COME ON, I CAN TAKE IT! HIT ME! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
-Sorry, needed to get that out, because I couldn't keep going on the punching bag... it was too loud >_<
-Kinda makes you wonder what next, eh? We'll see when we get to it... heh heh...
-Well, my mood is considerably better...
Current Song: Tomorrow - SR-71
And so this wraps up Lunae Dies, October 20th. Adios
last modified Oct 20, 2003 at 18:05
Glad to hear I'm not the only one who smashes my knuckles to a bloddy pulp. It feels good doesn't it? It's been a while for me, btu it's a great stress relief.
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