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~WELCOME TO SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW~
 You're only a rainbow away,
and I'm sitting here soaking wet,
waiting for you.
Your only a rainbow,
just a rainbow away,
and I'm reaching out hoping that you see it too...
But telling you, that I'm no fool,
'Cause I know what rainbows do...
They fade away,
fade away,
fade away, away...
Stormy days, found it's way,
and I wish I could hold you now...
I am only a rainbow away,
my friend,
And if you could see
what others see,
You wouldn't feel so bad...
And I'm telling you,
'Cause I've been there too,
that storms are like ranibows too...
They fade away,
fade away,
fade away, away...
Stormy days, drift away,
and may someone be holding you now...
~  Evil Angel  ~
last modified Oct 3, 2005 at 11:38
So like I said, Monday shall proof interesting and it did!!!
I think its pretty straight forward
A - Accent: *shrugs* Don't know, you tell me
B - Breast size: Hmmm, to answer or not to answer, that is the question.........not that anybody would care but Alice thinks I should anyways.... C.... well at least it was the last time I knew
C - Chores you hate: O my, if I had to pick one off the top of my head out of all the chores I've had to do, I think dusting is right up there...along with a bunch of others
D - Dad's name: Kelly
E - Essential object to wear: clothes, especially underwear
F - Favorite coloUr: Rainbow!!!
G - Gold, silver or lead: Silver or lead
H - Hometown: *sheepish grin* Here
I - Insomniac? Not really
J - Job title: I don't think there is a title for it.... Maybe the Easter Bunny.... jk  ... for those of you who know where I work, you'll get it
K - Kids: Don't have any yet thank you very much
L - Living arrangements: I still live at home.... sometimes thats rather unfortunate....
M - Mom's birthplace: Huntsville
N - Number of apples you've eaten in your lifetime: I do have a life enough not to count thank you
O - Overnight hospital stays? probably 1
P - Phobias? I don't know if there is a phobia for it or even if it is...
R - Religious affiliation: *shrugs* I dunno know
S - Siblings: Don't get me started!!! If you want to know, ask
T - Time you wake up: Hmmm, define "wake up"
U - Unnatural hair coloUrs you've worn: Hee hee, BRIGHT red, hee hee, and when I had washed it enough times it was pink and blonde at the same time.... I'm not sure how to describe it but those of you who had seen it, know what I am talking about
V - Vegetables you refuse to eat: *sighs* so many, but there is a motto for a couple of people on one side of my family, "Turn-up your nose and pass it on"
W - Worst habit: Hmmm, again so many.... probably banging my head whenever the occation calls for it, annoying people, biting my hang nails, annoying people, procrastinating, annoying people..... I could go on, and on, and on, and on, and on, and on, and on.....
X - X-rays you've had? I think anyother time I went to the dentist, and I'm not really sure
Y - Yummy foods you make: Me make? I mostly just help and eat...
Z - Zodiac sign: Rabbit/ Taurus
Ya ya ya, just bold the ones that relate to you...
001. I miss somebody right now.
002. I watch more TV than I used to.
003. I love olives.
004. I love sleeping. I just want what I need or want, and sometimes thats not alot, but my parental unit gets involved
005. I own lots of books.
006. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
007. I love to play video games. I'm weird, I prefer to watch...its more amusing for me. But I'll play once in awhile
008. I've tried marijuana.
009. I've watched porn movies.
010. I have been in a threesome.
011. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
012. I believe honesty is the best policy.
013. I have acne free skin.
014. I like and respect Al Sharpton.
015. I curse frequently. Does it count if its in another language
016. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
017. I have a hobby.
018. I've been told I have a nice butt. Don't get me started, I obviously disagree
019. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. No, its too big
020. I'm smart. I wish
021. I've never broken anyone else's bones.
022. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. Plural please
023. I love rain.
024. I'm paranoid
025. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
026. I need money right now.
027. I love sushi. Haven't tried it
028. I talk really, really fast.
029. I have fresh breath in the morning. Don't know
030. I have semi-long hair. What exactly is semi-long hair
031. I have lost money in Las Vegas. Haven't been there, yet
032. I have at least one brother and/or sister.
033. I was born in a country outside of the Canada
034. I shave my legs.
035. I have a twin.
037. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
038. I like the way that I look.
039. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
040. I know how to do cornrows.
041. I am usually pessimistic. Optimistic as much as possible, but occasionally pessimistic
042. I have mood swings.
043. I think prostitution should be legalized.
044. I think Britney Spears is pretty.
046. I have a hidden talent.
047. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. There are times were I'm not, but compared to some people I am
048. I think that I'm popular.
049. I am currently single.
050. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
051. I enjoy talking on the phone.
052. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
053. I love to shop.
054. I would rather shop than eat.
055. I would classify myself as ghetto.
056. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
057. I'm obsessed with my girlfriend!
058. I don't hate anyone. Hate is a very strong word, I prefer to use "really dislike" or something like that.... but hate might come up occasionally
059. I'm a pretty good dancer.
060. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington.
061. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
062. I have a cell phone.
063. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
065. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
067. I have never been in a real relationship before. Before what? Cause if the answer is sometime in the fall, then I can bold
068. I've rejected someone before. I'm pretty sure I have, one way or another...
069. I currently have a crush on someone. If you call it that
070. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
071. I want to have children in the future.
072. I have changed a diaper before.
073. I've had the cops called on me before.
074. I bite my nails.
075. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
076. I'm not allergic to anything.
077. I have a lot to learn.
078. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
079. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
080. I am very shy around the opposite sex. I use to be, then again I was shy with almost anyone I didn't know, but now I'm not too bad... still shy though
081. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
082. I have at least 5 away messages saved.
083. I have tried alcohol before.
084. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
085. I own the "SOUTH PARK" movie.
086. I have avoided assignments to be on Danchan or Livejournal.
087. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighboUr or chum.
088. I enjoy country music. Though I don't listen to it as much as I would like
089: I love my best friends
091. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
092. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist. Sometimes I fight the urges or give up some what
093. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
094. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
095. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
096. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. Plus you get to be something cool for a day and/or night
097. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
098. I have dated a close friend's ex.
099. I'm happy as of this moment.
100. I have gone scuba diving.
101. Had a crush on somebody you have never met.
102. I've kissed someone I knew I shouldn't. I'm not too sure at the moment if I have or not
103. I play a musical instrument.
104. I strongly dislike math. Sorry to all the mathematians out there, but math and I don't get along...
105. I'm procrastinating on something right now.
106. I own and use a library card.
107. I fall in "lust" more than in "love."
108. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest things ever.
110. I'm obsessed with the tv show "Lost."
111. I am resentful that I have to grow up.
112. I am an entirely different person around different people. Maybe not entirely but somewhat
113. I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often.
114. I think ramen is the best kind of food in the whole world.
115. I am suffering of a broken heart.
116. I am a nerd. Define nerd
117. No matter where I am or who I'm with, I always seem to be lonely. The feeling come and goes, it depends really
118. I am left handed and proud of it.
119. I don't change who I am for someone else.
120. My heart resides below my feet.
121. I am a Senior in High School.
122. I enjoy smoothies.
123. I have gastritis.
124. I have nothing better to do with my time. Well maybe I do, I just don't want to do it
125. I am listening to Radiohead right now.
126. Most people call me by my middle name.
127. I once stole a music stand.
128. Pi confuses me.
129. I love NASCAR!
130. I own over 200 CDs. Probably, but I don't want to count
131. I work 7 days a week. Depends what you call work though
132. I have once had mono.
132. I don't have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.
133. People tell me I have a horrible sense of humor. Heck, I even tell myself that
134. I'm only wearing underwear.
135. I had more than one Thanksgiving dinner this year.
136. I've drove to a different state to see a band I like.
137. I am the most overanalytical person I know.
138. I believe in wasting time.
139. I don't listen to much music.
140. I have a shoe fetish.
141. My favorite holiday isn't Christmas.
142. I prefer weeks off of work instead of days here and there. It depends...
143. I love sex
144. I wanna go home (Complicated)
145. I don’t know what I would do without my friends.
146. Christmas threw up in my dorm room and I love it.
147. Friends is one of my favorite TV shows. Well, its one of the shows I'd watch
148. I'm hungry.
149. I'm watching the weather channel at the moment.
150. I Hate My Life. Sometimes I do, and others I wouldn't change it....but like I said, hate is a strong word
151. I Hate My Parents! Hate is a strong word, but there are times where I really dislike what they are doing to me
152: I'm realizing now that people are hypocritical and very fake.
153. I absolutely love the O.C
154. I'm a dreamer.
155. I've met a member of a boy band.
156. I have broken a bone in another state.
157. I hate my teachers!!! Some of them I do dislike, and others I only dislike some of the time
158. I tend to want what I can't have, and when I can have it realize I don't deserve it.
159. Watch 23 overs of TV straight ever..
160. I hate blog quizes.
Wow, there were a couple of ones in there that I needed to bold more than necessary....
Oh my! *sighs* talk about wonderful timing! Last night I came down with a cold and felt absolutely terrible.... mean while I had a law exam to study for..... I'm not even going to go there!!!
This morning wasn't really any better, plus the fact I was reminded how much I can sometimes hate computers and my lack of understanding.... thats right, I admitt that its not completely the fault of technology, I think the operator had something to do with it too.... But I wasn't in a good mood at the time and apparently I was ranting and raving about how much I hate computers, and slamming doors behind me.... oops, my bad *sheepish grin*
Lets just say, the law exam, although it wouldn't of been that bad had I of not been sick, had more time to study, and could actually stop shaking enough to write properly.... so after a while I gave up, and sought out my friends to get me back to my usual humour, or the capacity to which I could manage....
And of course, like I thought, they did do the trick, now I feel good except for the twinge of guilt from the law exam, my nose is still stuffed and annoying, and the coming of Monday and Tuesday.... Monday will be a looong daaay!!! But thank you very much to Angel, "God", and Smiley!!! I love you!!! Although my mother didn't want to let me go out for long, I think it did me some good... well I feel better anyways. Sorry if I am a slow walker, but I was enjoying myself, and I didn't really see a need to rush, I just wanted to relax while I did it. Plus its not my fault if I'm vertically challenged and have stumbs for legs!!! 
And I have to thank Kevin for putting up with my constant poking and finally giving up and giving me the fire.... *day dreams with huge grin on face* Hmmmm, FIRE!!! Hee hee....pretty fire....
Well thats all for now,
Monday should prove interesting... I don't know whether thats a good thing or not yet... 
 Again, Good Luck to everybody who still has an exam!!!
*shakes fist at Angel and brother*
English Exam: " '. . . the truth is destructive, and hope is a delusion, . . . ' "
Now that isn't depressing at all! *rolls eyes* what a way to cheer you up! Jeez...
Anyways, I most certainly think NOT! The truth is NOT destructive, and hope is NOT a delusion.... *shakes head* Honestly.... you could imagine the ranting I did about it....unnnnbelievable....
Anyways, off to study law again,
Yuck!
Good Luck on everybody's exams!!!
I appologize in advance for this ranting or I guess this questioning. The questions might have different meanings of what you think. These are just some of the quick flashes of questions swimming around in my head that I managed to catch on paper. I just kept writing, I may have repeated myself and I am probably incoherent for most of it. I'm sorry...
-What did I do wrong?
-It seems every thing I do, I screw up one way or another. So what did I do this time?
-Why am I the way I am?
-I don't want to screw things up so bad, so why do I?
-Why is it that everybody I use to turn to, I can't right when I need to the most?
-Where did the happiness go?
-Why do I keep thinking it will come back?
-Why do I let myself fall even further into this hell I have created in my mind?
-How did this happen?
-Will it ever change back to the way it was before?
-Or is it going to get worse?
-Why is it that when I need and want to get something out, to rant, to explain what I'm feeling right now, I can't or won't?
-What is holding me back?
-Why do I feel like I'm in total darkness, totally alone?
-Why am I so indecisive?
-How do I learn the truth?
-Why do people see me as something I'm not?
-How can I hold everything inside, and still smile and laugh on the outside?
-Why does it hurt so?
-How do I make things right again?
-Won't somebody explain to me whats going on?
-When did I become the person to cry?
-Why am I so upset over something so insignificant?
-What are leis and what are truths?
-How do I begin to explain myself?
-Why do I even bother?
-What do i do now?
-Where do I go from here?
-How do I let it all out?
-How do I let people in?
-Why do I do this to myself?
-Why am I so helpless?
-How do I bring up what I think and feel if I know it might cause more pain and hurt?
-I don't want to hurt anybody, so why do I get the feeling I am?
-How do I get people to trust me?
-Why am I not strong?
-Why am I such a whimp?
-How in the hell can people think or insist that I am "great" or "amazing?!
-What will happen if I don't fix this?
-How do I know this is right?
-Who am I hurting with my stupidness?
-Why won't people talk to me?
-How did I let myself become so totally and utterly, and irreversably screwed up?
Close every door to me,* Hide all the world from me
Bar all the windows * And shut out the light
Do what you want with me * Hate me and laugh at me
Darken my daytime * And torture my night
If my life where important I * Would ask will I live or die
But I know the answers lie * Far from this world
Close every door to me, * Keep those I love from me
Just give me a number * instead of my name
Forget all about me * And let me decay
I do not matter, * I'm only one person
Destroy me completely * Then throw me away
I'm really sorry...
Is it something I did?
Is it something I said?
I didn't mean to, please forgive me...
Note: this has nothing to do with you. Yeah you, whom ever is reading this, it is just me being stupid again...
Well, its been a couple of days now, then again the last time I posted I wasn't all there, hee hee. Monday was pretty nerve racking, but I'm glad that is finally over. I'm not sure whether I was glad or not that my team didn't move on.
I've been having quite a few dooms day lately, yet I seem to remain in good humour, figures its best that way. So sorry if I seem annoying by being bubbly or cheerful or whatever you want to call it. I'm also sorry if I've been a pain or pest, for any reason...
I am loving next semester more and more, and hating this one more and more...
I don't know what else to say...
*hugs* Love you,
*curled up, in some random corner. Rocking back and forth with a dazed look*
I am slowly going crazy,
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6,
Switch
Crazy going slowly am I,
6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1,
Switch
They are coming to take me away, ha ha.
They are coming to take me away,
ho ho, hee hee, ha ha.
To the happy home,
where life is beautiful all the time,
and I'll be happy to see those nice young men in their clean white coats.
They're coming to take me away, ha ha.
They are coming to take me away, ha ha.
They are coming to take me away,
ho ho, hee hee, ha ha.
To the funny farm,
with trees and flowers,
and cherping birds.
With basket weavers,
that sit and smile,
and wiggle their thumbs and toes.
They're coming to take me away, ha ha!
Sounds like a good combination doesn't it? Hee hee, I appologize to anybody right now if I have confused you with my insane ways! Put it simply, I have major mood swings lately, one minute I am kinda sad looking, next I'm just hyper, happy for no real reason, or something I can't explain. They change with the simpliest thing.... The strangest thing is that I am mostly hyper and happy around you, when my doom is coming up so close and I'm not really doing anything to stop it, I'm such a procrastonator! By the way, when I say "happy" I mean, I act as if I am not doomed....Thank you to the excessive amount of sugar, you have served me well! And thank you everybody who's been there, and listen even though you don't understand me completely....sorry about that....I doubt you'll ever know..... I've just realized I am rambling so I'll stop now before I confuse you anymore.....
I'm all out of faith,
this is how I feel.
I'm cold and I'm ashamed,
bound and broken on the floor.
Illusion never changed,
into something real.
I'm wide awake
and I can see
the perfect sky is torn.
You're a little late,
I'm already torn...
...Torn...
Yeah my computer sucks! For some stupid ass reason I can't sign in on msn. *grumbles and shakes fist at computer* I know its my computer cause I tried signing in on another computer and it worked. So if you want to talk to me, either call me or send me an email, please and thank you!
PS Me and technology don't get along all that well....which equals not good for technology....
There is this girl I know somewhere,
though I can't remember where.
She wasn't pretty or beautiful,
She wasn't amazing or great,
She'd just pray, give up, wish, take, and want.
She would pray that everything would be alright
and that all suffering would end.
She would give up everything just to help you.
She would wish you happiness,
even if it removed her from the picture.
She would take all the blows for you,
she'd take the pain.
She would want to take the weight off your shoulders for you,
if only you'd let her.
But she is just a girl,
and nobldy can see her, invisible.
She is too shy, little, and weird...
This is the girl I met somewhere,
I just can't remember where,
but it was mean, and course, and unrefined,
in the depths of my mind...
Amazing grace! How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost, but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.
'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears relieved.
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed.
Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come;
'Tis grace hath brought me safe thus far
And grace will lead me home.
The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures;
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.
Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
and mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.
When we've been there ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun,
We've no less days to sing God's praise
Than when we've first begun.
John Newton
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