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Everything has been adding up, and it’s really wearing on me. First this ongoing situation with a friend and her brother, then my dear Spot, and now this terrible tragedy with Mer. Oh, how awful! Now to top it off, (or because I’m worn down?) I’ve got a nasty cold that’s just making me miserable.
I can’t get thoughts of Mer or things pertaining to him out of my head, it consumes me. Sometimes I’ll forget about it for a while, then I’ll remember, or read something and I’m right back there.
My brother gave me one of the scares of my life yesterday! Is it not enough that a friend drowns, but then on the very day of his funeral, my brother tries to drown himself (and possibly me?)?? We were at Eska lake, and Amy, Aaron and Isaac had just gone out in the canoe, I was offshore floating around (in a lifejacket), well then Andy decided to swim out to me. (Why won’t he ever wear a lifejacket?) Btw, he’s 15, but you wouldn’t know it. Anyhow, by the time he got to me he was tired (who wouldn’t be?). He grabbed for me making me go down a bit (though I believe he was only kidding with me), but this is the second time someone had tried to “climb atop of me”! We finally got headed back for shore, him kicking and paddling with one arm, while holding onto my arm with the another, as I was kicking, I was pleading with God to give us strength to get back. It really had me scared. Well, he finally touched ground and went back to the car. I had a paddle, and once he was fine, turned around put my head against my hands on the top of the paddle and just about had a nervous breakdown. I was quietly crying, and just thanking God and all. I now have a small picture and feeling of what the panic must have been like for Mer and Norman! It’s indescribable. Amy remarked to me today, “Andy said you two almost drowned in the lake yesterday.” (I think she was asking if it were really true) That told me that Andy actually realized our situation, and hopefully it drove something home to him! (he’s most careless at times)
Well, that’s it for now. Writing about that incident and thinking of Mer has me on the verge of tears. G’day!
last modified Jul 11, 2002 at 16:00
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