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Well im just gunna say something ive already written in someone elses weblog. About a friend. a friend that was a really good friend. now we hardly ever talk. I call, she never does, we havnt hung out all summer. The only way we really kept close was thru this sport. now shes quit that sport. Which i think is totally stupid bcuz shes liked it...and she says she doesnt, but gawd i KNOW she did. but o well. i guess im just dissapointed in her. And...it seems like she spends all her time with her boyfriend who i hate very much. never told her that tho, i couldnt, id feel so bad. but i do, i hate them together and she could do so much better. but OH well.
Not cool, not cool at all.
Why do people hurt themselves? like intentinally hurt themselves? Its stupid. theres so many other ways to take out anger or stress. So why do it on urself? do people find happiness in hurting themselves...i mean, it has to hurt...so why do it? It cant be fun or anything...meh i guess thats just how people deal with stuff. its not good tho. one of my BEST friends does sumthin...and it makes me so sad to know that she does it...it worries me. she says thats just her and how she deals with stuff....but ugh. theres so many other ways..punch a pillow, or sumthin else...throw stuff, hurt things that arn't alive, but not something that is, like yourself. It can turn serious if people keep doing it...and id die if something ever happend to her. Please stop:( Remember what i ALWAYS tell you: nothing is ever THAT bad. Expecially to hurt yourself. So please stop...i hate the fact that your doing it. Theres so many other ways...i luv yah!<3
last modified Aug 22, 2004 at 11:15
i no exactly how u feel i dont understand y ppl hurt themselves either..i mean it makes no sense to me and it doesnt just hurt them it hurts the ppl around them..like to me its like she cant come to us so she has to hurt herself...like if she needs to talk were hear..and id rather listen to her bable on bout her problems for hours than find out shes hurting herself...and like u sed they are so many other ways of dealing with stress and anger and shit..and she ses her life is fucked well it may be hard sumtimes but like were here to help eachother get through those times and like honestly the FIRST time i sawi cried and honestly it felt that i cud feel like the pain of it just knowing she put herself through it..and the SECOND time i was sad and dissapointed and liek it made me angry and now a THIRD time...ive had enough and im not mad at her i mean i cant be but like wen i found out i cried AGAIN...i just dont understand...and i wanna tell sum1 to like try and get her to stop and in my mind it would be best but i know shell liek hate me FOREVER if i tell and that why i didnt tell the 1st and 2nd time...but u know wut..1 more time and it has to stop...we have to tell some1 and if that means loosing a friend but saving their life than so be it..i mean ill look bak at the good times we had and hope she can realize it was for her best...but im crying again out of scaredness..yes scaredness and sadness and i cant talk bout this nemore...but i just wanted to say i know how u feel and i just want it all to stop NOW..for GOOD...anyway i still love her...i just hope somehow we can get it through her head to stop
yah i know exactly how you feel. about all of it. i asked her a little bit before she met this guy if she was gunna quit when she got her black belt and she was like no im never gunna quit. and then she met her bf, and she started skipping karate class and everything. i mean, shes a black belt, shes on the SWAT team and on the demo team. and when she started going out with jesse, she wouldnt go to demo team of SWAT team or anything. she would always say it was cuz of her knee. her knee hasnt been bad for that long. oh well. i mean, if shes gunna make excuses for herself then thats fine. its her problem not mine. or yours. its her loss right. not niether of ours. i mean yah, we're gunna miss her and all that but...i dunno...we're kinda used to it now. well i am at least. oh well. i g2g now tho. toodles
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