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Arg
ANOTHER crappy ass day. is this world out to get me or sumthin. Gawd, i just need a good week, it'll lift my spirits, even 2 good days, thats all im asking. but no. doesnt happen. Today my gym teacher like got mad at me cuz my hair was done up, and i had a jean jacket on cuz i was cold...like wtf. and then when i ACTUALLY started to play soccer, and knowing my luck from getting hit so many times before (thats why i hate it), i got nailed in the head again. figures. always happens when i try. And my clip in my hair dug into my head. So yes. And then my comp tech teacher is gay, he keeps telling me spit out my gum, and i donno i just have a feeling he hates me. And yet again, i STILL dont understand anything in that class. freaking things. stuff sucks.
And im not a good person. well i am, but im not. i judge people. not everyone, but a lot of people i do. i judge people before i get to know them. Like theres a couple grade 9's andi dislike many of them cuz...well 1, their grade 9s, and 2, their just plain annoying. but do i actually KNOW them? no. i dont. but i judge and end up disliking them very much. And then theres this girl who is different than everyone else....well shes just gothic and wears tons of black eyeliner and so many studded braclets and necklaces and belts n what not, and yet again, i look at her differnt, but i dont know her. she may be the nicest person ever, but i judge her just b/c shes not like me. But when i get to know people, the judging stops, and i fully accept them as who they are, whether i end up liking them or not. But i hate how i judge. and i dont say mean and nasty things about them, but i do, like i said, look at them differently then other people. and the nerds too, its like i dont like them...bcuz their smart and wear glasses. UGH. Stupid me. Well yes....another one of my depressing posts. i just need a couple of days to be good days.
Thank God its friday.
last modified Sep 17, 2004 at 12:53
sucks about your bad day, schools definitely been crappy.
but yeah about the judging thing.
everyone does it.
and last year i hated it SO much that i just had to deal with it and stop doing it. thats it. you can never stop completely, but you just have to try. and then set example for the grade 9's. hehe. grade nines. nah. everyone bugs grade 9s but we were them last year and some of them are half decent and i don't really care about age so much but meh.
but its human nature to judge. you listen to a band-you judge them. it may be good, it may be bad. but thats just the way it is. don't be upset about it. its normal. and you're realizing that you're doing it. that makes you better than everyone else with their judging ways already.
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