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Karate
Ah. Karate.
I'm frustrated with myself about that. I need my 2nd tip for my black belt right, well since I switched schools, I've had to leanr all these forms, plus now Im expected to know all those forms plus all the black belt ones. And I'm getting frustrated bcuz I just cant seem to remember any of the forms, which puts me behind. And how am I supposed to review them when we don't even go over forms in class, and when we do its for only like 15 mins...not even...and we only do it like every 2/3 weeks. Then theres these help classes that you can go to, but half the time I cant even get there for them bcuz my brother has the car. And Jesse or Rebecca could help me or something, but like I dont wanna hang out with them and do karate, like...I'd rather just hang out with them since I do karate a lot anyways. I dono. And I guess I miss everything from the old school. Like the popularity, and teaching the lil kids, and being known by all the kids and parents, being the only girl, being one of the 2 best students in the school, getting discounts, all my friends from there...etc...I miss it. I used to never be beat in sparring (fighting), now theres a lot of people that can beat me..some really badly, and then I kinda beat myself up about it cuz like I was used to being the best. And I know that sounds kind of selfish. But think about it: you being the best at something for so long, then changing something and having a lot of other people so much better than you. It kinda sucks. And definatly miss being one of the only girls so I got special treatment. Ah yes I sound selfish...a lot....but you can't say you wouldnt feel the same way as me if you were in this situation. Plus...I REALLY miss teaching the little guys. That was so much fun. I wish I could do it now, but no.
And maybe your thinking, so why would you even change? Well, I wasnt learning anything anymore. So I just decided to switch schools. Now I have to learn SO much. Its stressful.
And I try my best sometimes, but it seems my best isnt good enough. Im ALWAYS being corrected on stuff, which will make me better, which yes is what I want...but being corrected kinda sucks too. Which sounds so weird cuz I want to be better....but yet not corrected. I dono.
Ah. Oh well. Maybe I'll start to enjoy it again, once I get these forms and get my tip...which wont be until like 2 years....well maybe not 2 years...but close to it...
And dont try to blame it on yourself. None of this is your fault.
last modified Feb 9, 2005 at 19:04
you definitly kick my ass whenever we sparr lol. and if you ever want help from me i'll help you i have no problem with that at all. AND. its not gunna take you forever to get yur second degree. so....there? lol. stop saying that yur gunna take forever cuz yur definitly not. psh.
yeh, thanx..
and yeh, we're cool now
definitely stressful julie. but you still rock at sparring and such. and you know i'll help you with the karate stuffs if you need.
yep i dunno i feel bad for you though...i hope you still have fun at class though, it's cool stuff. we're cool, right? 
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