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Man...
Well, I went to visit my aunt in the hospital last night...and before I went, I really didn't want to go. I was scared. Ive seen my uncle when he was dying, and I didn't want to see my aunt this way either. But I had to go. We got in the hospital and I felt like I was going to faint. I felt all dizzy and tipsy. But we went in there...my cousin was there, along with my other aunt Wendy and uncle. My cousin, who's the son of my dying aunt...looked so sad. Then they told me to go in. I did. She looked terrible. I said hi...stood there for a min, then walked out of the room crying. My aunt Wendy took me outside and explained whats happening. Well, she has bone cancer, which I knew. Then she fell and broke her knee, but she didn't have any bone left, bcuz the cancer has aten away the bone. So she had to get a fake knee. So since that happened, they couldnt do kemo(sp?) theropy on her...so the cancer is getting worse right. Its aten away at the bones, that the calcium from her bones is leaking into her system, and thats bad. So she wasnt all there...and she gets anxiaty attacks, and falls asleep in the middle of the setence..and its not good.
So yeh. She's not doing that good. Who knows how long she has left. I couldnt be in the room at one point, I had to go sit down outside. My dad was really quiet, as this is his sister. I felt bad for him.
It just isn't fair.
I hate hospitals.
last modified Feb 19, 2005 at 9:28
Yah I know exactly how you feel...when my Grampa was dying, I used to have panic attacks all the time becuz I was so worried about him. Its really hard. But you have to use the time they have left...like I could die tomorrow but not have lived my life to the fullest and told everyone I loved them and stuff. My Grampa died in his home so whenever I go there, I can always feel his presence and stuff... its creepy but thats why I love going down there. So you just have to take advantage of the time that she has left...she might not be with it and stuff, but she'll still know that you love her as long as you tell her you know?
But yah, if you ever need to talk to someone about it, you can talk to me if you want cuz I definitly understand what your going thru.
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