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Upppdaaatteee
Oh boy,good weekend.
We don't really do much, but the whole group of us just hang out..Friday we went downtown barrie - then went back to Kyles until like 2:15ish am...then me and Amanda slept over at Helens, and we didnt go to bed until like 3.
Then Saturday I worked..then went to Katies. Then everybody met there. And then me and Brian went to Wendys with Julian Amanda and Kyle..and met everybody else at Silvano's...and we were there until like 3:15 am. Man haha. We watched one movie...and at the end of it I turned to Silvano and was like...I didnt get that at ALL. hah. Then I fell asleep. Twas fun.
So, I really have no inspiration to go to karate anymore. Like I dont do half the stuff I could be doing...I'm not doing demo, I'm not going out to the staff get togethers..even tho I'm not on staff, I used to go to them...I'm not going all the time. I dont know, probably cause I really dont want to see two people who go there anymore...and since they used to be a big part of my life - both of them - its kinda pointless. I only go if Krista goes...but shes pretty much the only thing that keeps me going. Whatev. I'm gonna get my 2nd degree and then we'll see if I still want to be there anymore...probably not. I'll try some other form of karate or something. I'm not giving it up, I just hate that atmosphere now, it brings too many memories back.
But other then at karate - I hardly think about it. So go me. Its been two weeks since I last got upset about it...two weeks...may not seem long, but from going to crying non stop everyday...to not crying for two weeks, its definatly an improvement. I can talk about what happened now...and no feel sad about it. I just get angry, because I still don't know what went wrong, and I'm kinda mad, cause he never really told me either. I think I should have gotten a reason, after a year and a half, but I didn't. But whatev. But yeh, like it really doesn't bother me anymore. Its gonna hurt me...its always gonna hurt me...but I'm probably as over it as I'm ever gonna be.
Plus, there's Silvano. haha, he's a cool kid. I'm glad I've moved on, I didn't deserve to be depressed for that long. I didnt do anything wrong.
Christmas is in 13 days! wahooo - I got most of my Christmas shopping done, so thats good. Hopefully I get a punching bag for christmas...I want one sooo bad.
School is keeping me busy...everything is good except math, it should die. lol.
I <3 my friends. Even tho there's only us four left, plus the 7 guys, but whatev. Haha. Guys don't backstab, well not usually anyways, so maybe its better to hang out with 7 guys and 4 girls, than 7 girls and 4 guys. hah.
last modified Dec 12, 2005 at 18:51
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