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every kiss and every fight
Someone wrote something in their blog about emotions, and not knowing what they mean. I can't remember who it was, but right now, I feel that way. Like, towards a person, its not anything...actually, I don't even know how to start it off. I don't know what I feel for them anymore. Obviously something, cause it will just always be that way, but I don't know if there's still anger, frustration, love, jealousy, or friendship. I just don't know how I feel towards them at all anymore. Its mixed up and I can't even explain it. Or even like love. I was in love once. But to fall in love over again. It sorta just happened before. At the beginning of love, how can you tell if you actually fell in love, or if its just strong lust. I should know, cause I was once in love right. But I don't really remember what it felt like to first fall in love, I just really remember the part of being soo in love. Hmm.
& okay so maybe it wasn't as bad as I said.
Brittany stayed in religion.
Gym isn't as bad as I thought it would be.
Now a religion class got switched to my lunch, so Amanda, Katie, & Andrea are on it too.
And co-op seems pretty good.
but now I feel bad for Helen. cause now she's all by herself.
man that was like me last year. the worst.
And also. I'm over things now. Like we were talking yesterday about stuff that we went through together, about new significant others and stuff, and I was totally fine. But still, I can't help but hate the karate atmosphere. I hate it because everytime I go there, it brings back memories. It reminds me of how things used to be. The people, the place. It replays in my mind everytime I see him. And when we do drills or something, I just wonder where the eff we went wrong. & then people are like "you never go anymore", yeh well thats why. But I have to make myself go more, because yeh, I am over it.
And its one month now. hah yay. 
last modified Feb 9, 2006 at 12:56
karate wasn't so bad foo'! it was good times.
haha and i do class about once a month. so its all good.
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