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ohh boyy.
I've just been staring at this, wondering how to start what I'm gonna say. I'm in another situation? Sort of.
I don't know. I thought I/everything was fine, but apparently, I'm and everything isnt. Maybe I do need someone, or think I need someone.
well no, not even. In my head, I know I don't need someone. Yes, I like having an 'other', I like the whole boyfriend thing, I'm not gonna lie. But I don't think I think I need someone. If that makes any sense.
Things just happen, and people just come along. I don't choose to be interested in someone on purpose. & when I get to know them, it doesn't always mean I'm going to want something with them, or even like them, cause that's happened.
I can't say my side, because I dont know how to put it in words.
But I just know what I'm looking for. And in order to find that, you have to get to know people. I'm young, I know. I'm not expecting to find my 'one and only', but if maybe, ah I don't know.
It's hard, & I can't explain it.
but really guys, don't worry about me.
again I've been staring trying to figure out how to say this next part. It just seems like, I honestly, havn't been TRUELY happy, for almost six months, with maybe a couple of exceptions. It's weird what one thing can do to you, and how it can affect you for so long. get over it julie. well, I am over it. in a way. No one reeeeaaallly understands what I went through and am going through, just cause no one has been in that situation before, and its hard, cause I can't even explain.
You know those emotions where you can't really tell what they mean? like that. and maybe thats one of the reasons, maybe I just want to try and find happiness again for something I lost.
I don't knoooow.
& one of my best friends is pretty depressed right now, yet she wont tell any of us. We found some stuff out, but she still says there's stuff she keeps in. I'm worried about her.
last modified Feb 24, 2006 at 11:59
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