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say what you feel cause I got nothing left
so I realized when we were in health like 2 weeks ago,
that I have actually been through depression.
People are always like "oh man I'm so depressed"
but then the next day be okay, but I really was.
I didn't think I did, or I just didn't really think about it being depression so much.
But then she gave out this sheet, and it had all the symptoms of depression, not eating, not being able to sleep, not being able to get yourself out of bed, always crying, being negative, anxiety, etc.
well, I had all of those. The only one I didn't have was thoughts of suicide.I'm a wussy when it comes to like, biting my tounge or something, I could never hurt myself. but anyway,
I just found it crazy, how already I've been through a major mental dissorder.
I'm not trying to make anyone have sympothy for me.I don't even care if anyone reads this. I'm just saying, for my sake. because, that 'depression' stage I went through has honestly made me such a stronger person.
Plus now that I look back...8 months down the road, I'm glad it happened. It took me forever to come to terms with it, and that is something I regret. because I wasted months feeling sorry for myself.
when honestly. I didn't and don't deserve that. I didn't do anything, I had nothing to feel sorry about.
then it goes back to 'everything happens for a reason'. 8 months ago, I would have been like screw that. but now... oh boy, does it ever.
because now I'm happy. and I look back I laugh. Because honestly, ah nevermind why. I just laugh.
last modified May 21, 2006 at 16:30
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