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you can sit right there.
So I went to Michaels viewing yesterday;
as I was walking in, a couple of my friends were walking out crying,
so that made me cry. I gave them all hugs and went in.
I saw Sam and she turned to me and was like,
"I just want to go over there and tell him to wake up".
honestly, he looked so fake. just cause of all the makeup and stuff.
I couldn't look at him for more then a couple seconds at a time
cause I just felt like he would roll over and wake up.
I wish. It's not fair.
I was walking out of the room, and I wasn't crying anymore,
but I looked over and saw David, Matt & Duane all sitting on this bench in a row, all with their heads in their hands.
that I think was the part that upset me the most.
I've never seen them that sad, and they looked at me and ugh.
it was the worst. I gave each one of them a good long hug.
it doesnt feel right going to a guy whos the same ages funeral.
these past couple days have been stressful.
so I've been acting differently, just because of all this stress.
well more like, sadness. so I'm sorry if I've been acting weird to you.
Went back to work for the first time in a week and a bit.
it was good. cept all the guys in the back pick on me. ALL of them.
but Brendan gave me a hug cause he felt bad for me. hah.
oooh boy.
Next week I'm allowed to actually go OUT. yuuusssss.
last modified Jul 22, 2006 at 18:30
Sorry to hear about your loss. Shit like this happens alot where I live. Thankfully not to people I know or even care about but still.
Anyways, what I really want to say I guess is that when I read your entry, it made me feel as if it was going to be one of my future entries because someone I know and love and care for very much is doing drugs and there's absolutely nothing I can do for them. ( I've tried everything ) and it seems the more they do the drug, the more distant they become.
I just hope he comes to his senses one day before it's too late.
Once again, Sorry for your loss.
-Sai
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