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come on; twist and shout
me and these 2 girls were talking today at work
and all 3 of us have never done drugs before
and we just got on the subject on how they are so stupid.
like whats the freakin point?
you get a little high for a bit then pig out on food.
a lot of guys from work talk about getting 'baked' all the freaking time
and then one guy was like "its not a drug its a herb"
I'm just like yeh, thats why it's illegal right?
and then one guy was like we should hang out, we'll get high or something. I just gave him a look.
like some people think I'm stupid for thinking that they are so stupid, but whatever. I don't even care.
someone even said "you're too young to think that way"
pretty much saying that since I'm young I should be doing drugs? No, I'm sorry. Drugs screw some people right over.
I'd rather spend my money on something worth while.
and plus, not that I had the intention of doing drugs before,
but with Michael dying of overdosing and stuff,
that just turns me more off of doing drugs. gawd.
and like, I have no problem with people wanting to drink either,
like it's not like I won't ever go and get drunk, cause I've drank before and stuff,
but it bugs me how 'some people' will go out and get drunk pretty much all the time. every weekend pretty much.
and they do it to get hammered.
I guess it wouldn't bother me if it was just a friend that did it, because I have friends that do.
but someone who's a little more of a friend or something, that would bug me. because I'm not into it.
and I'm probably totally stupid for saying this,
but I have a problem with my weight.
I don't know, I find myself obessing about it and it's retarded.
Like when I look down my stomach, to ME, it looks big.
and it's because I used to be soo skinny in like grade 9 and even 10. and it's my fault.
ever since I've started working at McDonalds I've gained weight, I know I have.
and with not doing karate all the time anymore, it's adding up.
and I hate it. some people wouldn't even notice.
but I do. and it bugs me so much. ugh.
& I'm jealous of couples. bahhh.
annnnd I want to quit my job. but at the same time I don't.
some customers are so bitchy that I could quit right there on the spot. but then I love the people I work with.
like I was leaving today and I yelled bye to everyone
and pretty much all at the same time, a bunch of people that were working were like, BYEEEE JUUUULIE!
I don't know. It's cool sometimes, but sometimes I hate it.
I'm not looking forward to school at all. I have freaking math.
and I'm getting a tutor and stuff, but I still suck. I just don't get it, I'm stupid at math and it's just gonna bring my average down by a huge percentage. whatever.
and I love not being asked to go places. It's super.
baaah. I'm bitter. whatever.
on the bright side, 6 days until buffalo.
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courtney, you've always been skinny though
and it's not like you don't eat now
you do.
like sometimes I stand next to you then look at my stomach and I'm like blahhh.
which I shouldnt, but, I do.
Ir's stupid how girls have to be obsessed with their weight,
down right stupid.
but courtney, your gorgeous. try and not worry about that.
body weight is something i am afraid to talk about.
i'm like, 5'7 and i only way about 98-99 lbs.
it is unhealthy.
and i know that i am very skinny.
too skinny, pretty much.
and yet almost everyday i weigh myself, just to check.
i lost a lot of weight like, three months ago.
because i didn't eat anything for a while.
i'm not really sure why. i was hurt and just decided not to eat..
and now i'm paying for it.
this is why body weight is something i don't like talking about.
i am more guilty of caring too much about how much i weigh then all of you.
ugg...
i hate this post.
dear marshal,
thanks 
but I agree, like me and Courtney were in the convience store last night, and on the magazine it had Nicole Richie on the front, and she's what..89 pounds or something now? So gross. There's so many pictures of celebrities that are all under 100 pounds. And as much as it's disgusting, some people actually wish they could be that skinny, or almost anyway.But yeh, it's true everyone does worry about their image too much. I'm guilty too, everyone is in some way or another. and yeh, media does NOT help with it at all.
dear julie,
you are very pretty. i'm not saying that to cheer you up, i'm not saying you because i'm your friend or anything. it's just fact.
everyone worries way too much about their body image nowadays. i'm guilty of it as well. same as the rest of you. i eat badly, i've been slacking off at karate. and i can tell the difference. but i'm happy to be able to say that i'm comfortable with my body, fuck what anyone else thinks.
would you really want people to like you for just how you looked anyway?
i could go on a huge rant about media portraying image blah blah blah, but bottom line is: you're still skinny. you are. and you have nothing to worry about. be happy with yourself.
i'm not trying to be nice, i'm just being honest.
ha helen you make me laugh. 'just a terrible sight' haha. I bet.
but yeh I know, I don't have anything to worry about
buuut you know how I feel, we've talked about it before
its just some days it bothers me
but claire is a bitch sometimes, your face is NOT fat at all,
so psh. I love you.
and rebecca, your not a fatso either. you always have nothing to worry about. and yeh, pretty much everyone tries them at least once, its rare to find people who havn't.
julie. you're stupid. that is something you are. stupid. so there. hah. but yeah i also know how it feels. i used to be this skinny little kid and then i gained wait. and i WAS fat. i weighed more a couple years ago than i do now. thats nuts eh. but yeah, i definitly have put on weight with not being able to do karate as much. i know that now i am on the large side lol. i know how you feel but you shouldnt feel that way.
and you know i did drugs once and it was totally STUPID and i wish i hadnt done them but i did and i cant take it back but i wont do it againnnn! yessss.
and thats all.
kaythanksbye.
julie, you shouldnt be worried about your weight, your skinny, trust me. today i saw some lady come to zehrs and she was wearing white panta and liek red thong, and you no that like gut some ladies get like under their stomach, it was huge and all you could see were her underwear ah... just a terrible sight....BUT at the same time, i feel like ive gained toomuch weight too. like i no the feel when you look at your stomach from up where yor head is. ha obviosuly.. and it just like comes out. and ugh. ya i kno wat your talkin about. but maybe it is cause we were just SO tiny before. cause seriously neither of us have ANYTHING to worry about, neither of us dont fit int our clothes anymore, and as far as i know were still in the single digits in clothes.. so ya.. ha. dont worry.. i know whatr your talkin about . butwe shouldnt even bother!....BUT to make it worse. at dinner today claire told me my face looks fat
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