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one more small piece of you starts to fall into place.
why does it seem to never leave my mind.
I mean, technically it does
I don't ACTUALLY think about it 24 hours, 7 days a week.
but it does constantly come up in my mind.
we don't even need to be talking about her
and the hate I feel towards her will just appear.
she was supposed to move away months ago,
I wish she did.
but it's almost like I put ALL the blame on her
cause I don't want to put it on him.
even though its just as much his fault as it is hers.
maybe I'm just trying to avoid the whole situation.
I wish I didn't think about it anymore, but that's not going to happen.
but then other times, we're awesome. and I do love him.
more than anything. which is exactly why it is so hard to deal with.
and just like everyone else, school is so stressful.
I know I need to good, and hand in all of my work.
but do I? no. Cause I'm too damn lazy.
I wish I was just naturally a 90's student. I don't want to work for it.
I'm screwed for next year.
and kay. we need to almost put aside a day. I was remembering how in the summer, us three were inseperable. I miss that.
I'm in a downer mood, and I really don't know why.
"cause when push comes to shove
you taste what you're made of
you might bend til you break
cause it's all you can take
on your knees you look up
decide you've had enough
you get mad, you get strong
wipe your hands, shake it off
then you stand."
last modified Mar 22, 2007 at 18:41
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