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julie.
when you're older you will understand.
last modified Jan 23, 2008 at 21:56
Well yesterday was good I was hanging out with Jesse. We went to Boston Pizza with people from karate...why do some guys feel like they have to be king shit all the time? it makes me kinda mad. but whatever. it was still fun. And aww Jesse...when i came home..that thing made my day I love you!
Well tonight is halloween...oOoOOoO spooky! I think I'm going out with 2 of my friends...but im not sure. I'll find out later tonight. but yes. I love halloween. It's probably one of my fav holidays. Like you get to dress up and be someone else for a night, and **bonus** SOO much candy. mmm. i love candy.
Everything and everyone can go to hell. except for a select few.
do you ever have those days where EVERYTHING goes wrong? like everyone is on a mission to piss you off. like everything is stupid. well, today was one of those days. Lets start off with the morning. I had to get up so early b/c of this grade 10 testing. I took this black bag, because i didnt need anything really. I get to school and already people piss me off. Then stupid grade 10 testing was so stupid. like i didnt get some of the questions bcuz they're SO stupid. And then we had break. and i couldnt go out of the caf with my stuff...cuz there was a teacher making sure...but 3 of my friends left the caf without me anyways. gee thanx. And then i went back for testing which was still very gay. And then i was talking to Meg and we were saying how this person is pissing us off and all. She's like the only one that knows what im going thru right now. And then lunch was a major bore, and i HATE lunch, bcuz everyone on my lunch is pissing me off too. Like its not that im pissed at people for no reason, their ALL doing something to piss me off lately. And then 3rd period was fine...and 4th, ugh i hate that teacher so much. And so...i go home and im like, finally im home. the one day my mom isnt home, i take the bag to school WITHOUT my house key in it. the spare one wasnt in the garage either. so i was sitting outside my house...with no neighbours home. and i go around the back to see if the back is open...and i drop my CD player and my headphones stop working. the back door wasnt open either. so like 45 mins of just waiting...my friends from across the street gets home so i go to his house and call my moms cell phone. its not on. luckily, my brothers cell was. so me n Billy just talked and then i came home and my mom n bro brought me home wendys. But yes. OH, and then i was at my locker today, and then these 2 grade 9 girls were like chasing this girl down the hall yelling dirt and stuff at her. i thought they we just talking to eachother jokingly, but my friend told me they wernt. like they were actually calling the girl a dirt n stuff. and i swear i was so mad about that. i was gunna say something to them but they walked away. if they do it tomorrow. im so yelling at them. theres no reason to be that mean. but i was telling helen...and i was it was so fucking mean...and as soon as i said fucking, just my luck, my gym teacher walks by. joy. Plus, my ribs are like bruised or sumthin. they hurt so much. OH, and then my brother told on me cuz i left the friggin computer on, so my dad started yelling at me. Fuck. So yes. what a GREAT day today was. not.
I guess im just a little tired of this. It wasnt a bad day. just some things get to me. still, this friend. and another one too. but i would never say who. and my karate teachers pissed me off in class tonight. BOTH of them. and i havn't talked to Jesse yet today and ughhhh :( And friggin grade 10 testing. what the hell is the point of that anyways? its so stupid. if people couldnt read and/or write, you think theyd figure that out before grade 10. yeish.
okay so. i have this friend. whos name is...lets say...billy bob. Who seems to be close to me. but, secretly, she kinda pisses me off sometimes. but its only sometimes. like today, expecially. she was so hyper today, which is fine, i get hyper too. but she went up to some guy and was like "i'm so horny". like...okay there. and she has this friend, whos name is....lets say....jo bob, who is totally nice to talk to, but hanging out with her, she kinda is a bad influence. she drinks, and does drugs(i think) and stuff......i read in a note to billy bob from jo bob that she should tell 2 guys to bring some weed n alcohol to this dance...n' then when i asked billy bob if she would do it, shes like no, i dont think so...i cant say no, cuz in grade 8 i said i didnt and then in gade 9 i did it. first thing...you dont think, you know. and then billy bob going to this jo bobs boyfriends friends party. where 1. she doesnt know the guy throwing the partay and 2. she doesnt know anyone else there cept jo bob. and knowing her, she'll just be making out with her boyfriend in the corner, which is what happened when i was with them once. So yes..billy bob is kinda making me angry latly. I had to walk away from them/her today at lunch with Germaine, i just had to get away from her. Which i really feel bad about, bcuz she is a good friend n all, i guess shes just the kind of friend that can get on ur nerves sometimes. Luckly Germaine was there to save me today. lol
Ready? or not? things you think people would never do...do. And how do you even know if your really ready to even do something? some people think so. or just do it because...pressured? dont feel good enough? beats me. and then when you seriously think about it, i bet you half those people regret it. but how do you KNOW...i guess you really dont. some people just take risks. confused? haha yes probably. OH well!
I wonder how certain things can appeal to certain people. like, how something so weird to me, can be so cool to someone else. Like, we were sitting in Wendy's today right...and in came this girl, who as ive mentioned before, is punkish/golthic. She wears a ton of black makeup, even on her lips...tons of studded belts and chains n whatnot. But what can appeal to people about looking like that? To me, no thanx. Im not judgeing, i really could care less what people choose to dress n look like, it's cool to be a bit different too. If everyone was the same this world would be boring. But, looking at her...it must take like an hour to do all her makeup...then plus putting all her bracelts n beltS on..must take her like 2 hours to do it. but i think its cool, shes got her own style n sticks to it. And then theres my oldest bro, who's a tattoo artist down in Toronto...and hes full of em. and his girlfriend, or girl thats a friend, not really sure...but anywho shes getting this tattoo all the way down her arm. gross. Now, they are prolly two of the nicest people ever....but people look at them weird cuz its different. I'd say so what? Why do u look at them different? but I cant, cuz i do it too. Well not to my brother, bcuz im used to it.
Well today was f-u-n. At lunch we made fun of Bonnie, lol well not making fun of her, but anyways, we were SO loud in the caf everyone was looking at us hehe fun stuff. indeed. Then my pen cap flung at Sarah in english and we were in the middle of a test and it was so funny so we were trying SO hard not to laugh which was even funnier. oh man lol. Um yeap...but yeah today was a good day woo and yesterday was too...so yay for good days.
Why are people SO rude to other people? i mean, do people realize that other people have feelings too and they get hurt when u call them names and say mean and nasty things to them. Some people are just so inconsiderate i guess they dont care.
BUT, today was kinda crappy again...this morning was weird...and it was a loooooooooooooong day. but right now im in a happy mood
I got highlights tonight...yes yes i did.
Lunch was SO funny with Sarah. some guy was hittin' on her,and she took a bite from my caramilk and it went all over her mouth haha it was SO funny, so she had to like pull me and walk away from that guy. hehe yep...funn times!
YAY! 7 MONTHS JESSE!! I Love you!!!!
Well today was good up until now. My religion class went on retreat today. Me n' Katie were in one group, and we got separated from our group n then some other group yelled at us lol twas funny...n then we went thru the maze, we got lost and had to follow some family out lol but yeah so that part of my day was fun
But then fucking Farrens friend is so fucking reatarded. she like....errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrg! whats wrong with people!? honestly?! GAWD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well people are still gay. and i still hate them. Some people think they know everything? u know people like that? i do. They think they know everything about everyone, and then get the nerve to judge and critisize on something they dont even know about. what the hell? where do u get the right to critisize someone about something u know nothing about? do you feel big when u do that? just because everyone else doesnt like u right now...dont try to get sympathy and be a bitch about stuff. its not gunna get you anywhere. definatly not anywhere with your 'friends', if anything its gunna make them angry at you more. Just because they dont like you right now, doesnt mean this world is full of hate. And its my friend too. one of my best friends, and you judge...that pisses me off. like i said, what gives u the right, u didnt know anything about that situation, but yet u tried to critisize her about how she hates someone? so? what does it matter to you? Grrr
..And then YOU, dont look at me...dont sit near me. dont talk to me. i dont like you. i hate you. yes, thats right, HATE.
Yes, yes I do.
why are people GAY gawd..u try to figure things out...try n talk about it...but NO. RAWR! gay gay gay. HONESTLY! u make me so mad. i WANT to be your friend. so much. but no. u obviosuly dont. so why do i try? why do i even bother? maybe i shouldnt? i dont. not anymore. theres no point. u dont bother. i dont bother. I have so many other people. your loss. until u come to me and say u wanna talk...your loss.
secondly, why do u talk to me? honestly. u know i dont like you...so don't talk to me.
sorry people. i havnt written in like ever. ive been on the crappy computer, which doesnt let me write in this. So yeah.
Well the 'war' thing is kinda still going on. not so much with me. I still hate two people...and i dont think thats gunna change. But u know whatever. School has been pretty good latly. Actually everything has been pretty good...for the most part. lunch is still incredibly boring. but me n Sarah try to make it fun..I guess. lol She's having guy problems right now. not cool. Well not 'problems'...just complications lol. Well im applying for a job at dairy queen. who knows if their hiring. but its worth a shot.
Umm yep...thats all.
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