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julie.
when you're older you will understand.
last modified Jan 23, 2008 at 21:56
Well on friday me n my bf...we went to the movies...everything was cool n stuff...then on saturday i went to wonderland...well then, sunday morning,his sister tells me he's passed out again...and hes now at sick kids hospital...i cried all day long. And the worst thing about it i havnt even talked to him personally about it yet...hopefully i will tonite. But seriosuly im so worried...there was this awkward time at school today, where emmett asked what was wrong and then everything got silent after i told him which was not cool b/c then i thought about it...and yeah...so me n my best friends went to the washroom n stuff...but yes...scary stuff. But honestly, i have the greatest friends in the world...u guyz r always there for me...i love u all! hehe But yeah...im still waiting for more news as to whats gunna happen...but im still worried. and everyones like 'dont worry blah blah blah' like wth, of course im gunna worry...i AM worried...so like dont tell me not to be. but o well their just trying to help...but yes...Enuf of me being all 'emo' as other ppl would say...even if that was emo...who the hell cares...not me.
Just so u know, my titles never usually go with what im talking about, cuz i usually never know what to put..but yes. I went to Amandas after school today, it was cool, we were outside and we talked for like 3 hours...we talked about pretty much everything. Its good to do that, get everythin out of u..mmhm. Today was a bummer day actually, nothing exciting happend, and i was really bored all day long...meh those kind of days happen i guess. I realized i have a bad fear of being stood up. Most ppl's are heights or spiders or sumthin...mines being stood up. And its not cool...like i know ppl rnt gunna stand me up, but after this certain person did, ive never been able to trust anyone, even my own mom, im always afraid they'll forget or just not show up...its terrible i hate it. But meh thats life. You learn from ur past eh...im sure that person will never stand anyone up again...but that doesnt change me at all...
Well today was good...cept i found out a gross thing but meh i still love him as a friend. I woke up an hour early this morning and couldnt get back to sleep, b/c so much was on my mind. First off karate...i have to learn so many forms by like next week and then be prepared to show him all of them like uh i dont think this is gunna happen, ill get up there and forget everything im supposed to do...and then stuff happend last nite...missunderstanding tho...but i felt so bad and couldnt get it off my mind. And that i needed to buy this t-shirt but that was just sumthin i needed to remind myself lol. But yes...my friend and her older boyfriend re finally going out hehe im happy for them...cept she didnt tell me...tori did...meh s'all good. Well like i said...today was a good day, just last nite's sleep wasnt...not cool.
Well im back from my vacation! I got back yesterday. Aww i realize i have the best friends in the world cuz they all missed me so much haha yep. I went to Helens after school today with court, good times good times. lol Im going to karate soon...im excited! man it feels like more than a week that i was gone. Aww court n marshal r going out and emmett and germy are almost there and awwww its so cute im excited for them hehe...well i gotta eat now chat later xox
Hmm well today was interesting...actually it was gay. Lets see, my 'best friend' isnt my best friend anymore...it took me this long to realize it when she was a bitch to me today at lunch...so screw her. Then i leave on my trip saturday, and i wont be able to see my bf before i go which pisses me off too. then my friend tried to get me out of class today, so i put up my hand to leave and started to ask him to leave, but then another girl saw my friend too and yelled to go to the bathroom, and she DIDNT have to go, but she said she did so she could get out first and thats what happend, so by the time she got back my friend left for her class. Rarr....Then my friend, who im not mad at or anything, but the fact that she cant live without this one person, and doesnt hang out with us...only this one person...but whatever ive learned to ignore this...and then i was supposed to do sumthin with my friend tonite but she cancelled last min....plus im over tired and its catching up to me i guess. But i gotta be thankful for the good friends i have that arnt backstabbing...I'm not usually pissed off like it may seem, but its just stuff like this that gets to me
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