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julie.
when you're older you will understand.
last modified Jan 23, 2008 at 21:56
Well...nothing really intresting or worth writing about latly, prolly cuz im out of school and nothing is really going on. But..i got my braces off today!!!!!!!!! i like my teeth lol. Its long weekend...well actually, i donno if it is...i think so...its Canada day 2morro...so courts goin away, and amy's goin away and Jesse's going away...bummer. I went to class 2nite...that was cool...cept jesse thought he won...which u didnt! cheater. lol just kidding. Dum dee dum....nothing to write about....OH, grr, this person, who is the same person in my 3rd post i think....hes pissing me off again....not being his friend. nope. stupid person...all i do is be nice, i guess i cant be nice to him anymore...HIS loss, not mine. actually it would be my gain, considering he brings me down. mmm im gunna go eat ice cream with this chocolate stuff that hardens when i put it on the ice cream!!!! exciting eh..this will be as exciting as this weekend is gunna be...
How do u know if your in love. Like, theres times when i question if I'm in love, but..hoenstly i think i am. I get butterflies whenever im gunna see him..and whenever hes at karate, i like, cant NOT watch him. Like i want this to last a LONG time, and i think it will..or at least i hope so cuz i dont see us breaking up anytime soon. But like...last nite was the gradeing at karate...and he was up there doin stuff and one of the teachers said sumthin about him..and i felt so proud i was like thats MY boyfriend lol. And i know other girls like him and stuff, but hes only attracted to me...why? dont ask me i dont know..just got lucky i guess. Its funny, cuz i think, what if i never switched karate schools...i never would of met him. Whoa, creepy lol. Id be...Jesse-less. not cool. Its weird how ppl are attracted to certain people and not others, and how they can change u and ur life even just a little bit. He's not going thru the greatest time right now...and i feel for him u know, like i hate it when hes down and stuff, and its not cool..but hes being strong about it and thats a really good thing. But yeah, Jess makes me feel so much better about myself n stuff, and u dont meet alot of ppl that can do that. Cheers me up when im down...makes me laugh, super duper nice. He knows i get moody and i cry but he doesnt care he just cheers me up. Like i could be so miserable...and after i talk to him, i can feel so much better, or even just a bit better. He even knows the faces i make when im excited and happy and when i get hair in my face...lol...and to me...that says that ive got a great guy and yeah, i AM in love
Jess...i just wanted u to know that...
I was lying in my bed last nite for 3 hours...wide awake...too many things on mind, and considering i had a huge migraine...it sucked. Like what happens..when someones ur world...but then ur world crashes...well not crashes...but whatever. Guess what....Dominoes and Tim Hortons are against eachother. Yep, thats right. I'm going to see amanda get her black belt 2nite...whoop whoop. And im going for my 2nd degree...sweet as. Thats right, not sweet ass, its sweet as. New Zealand lingo. Man, i think everyone was so down and not happy last nite...that got me down...and...not happy. Like i yelled at my brother for no reason, when he was just asking nicely if he can use the computer...wow, bad moods rub off on yah eh.
Whoa...ppl i thought would never do drugs...r now 'experimenting'. Well actually, i cant say i never thought they would, cuz one gives into everything and anything to fit in with the guyz...and the other one already said once that he wants to try weed...which is gay. cuz he thinks its stupid..but yet he got stoned..fag. And then one of my best friends bf got stoned or just did them too...How retarded. Im so anti-drug use, lol. But like honestly, why do them? they are sooo stupid and wreck your body. Meh i guess i shouldnt care about them so much, its not my life..its theres. But another thing, when i was talking to her about it...shes trying to defend herself saying she did it by herself when i know she didnt, so she lied to me...wow shes just digging herself deeper, not just with me, but with a couple people...and shes like 'my life sucks already, ur just adding onto it'..but honestly, how was i adding onto it? I was just talking to her about it...and shes blaming me for her problems...no thanx, she chose to the drugs, she chose to do everything in her life...dont blame it me
Why are people so low? i mean making fun of ppl you dont even know...about their apperance...like honestly, its gay. It ruined my friends day...not so much mine, just didnt bother me like it usually does. Meh, i guess i know shes just not worth it. Dont worry Court, your gorgeous i luv you!
Wow...last day of school was today. Its really hard to believe, it just doesnt feel like it...still gotta go back for exams, but meh. Some people dont want the school year to be over, me, i sure do. I'll see them next year, i want a break! She says that people will lose touch..drift apart...and i dont think so. Well maybe a bit, yeah. but ur close friends wont, cuz they'll call u up over the summer and stuff, and those ppl u wouldnt normaly do stuff with, ull still talk to them, and you'll get close again next year...that doesnt worry me. But...im gunna miss gym class.....that was the funnest ever! love yah guyz
I noticed in like every post ive posted ive started with 'Well..' So yes...just thought id point that out. Anyways...omg in gym today we were playing flag football...and me and court didnt have any clue on how to play....so we just ran around stealing ppls flags and running away with them...omg it was the funniest thing! Good times Good times. Yesterday i went to this partay thingy for my 2nd cousins engagment. And the brides brother is like a millionaire and he was there and he drove a hummer and when Justin Timberlake comes to toronto he hangs out with him! NOT KIDDING...isnt that so cool...i shook his hand...yes, i am very proud. lol And then my 2nd cousin Julieanne was there and she works with bands n stuff...and shes going to the MMVA's on sunday and is gunna be on the red carpet and stuff hehe yep! this makes me practically famous u know...whoop whoop. And then my mom's mom...who is my nana....but i dont call her my nana....shes trying to be apart of my life again...since she hasnt been since i was like 7....and i got the occasional christmas card...and then all the suddon she wants to sit and talk like everythings okay...she asked if i was still dancing...i quit almost 3 years ago...stupid people. O well... her loss. Omg i hope i play flag football 2morro....steal everyones flags again! lmao too funny...
Well today was overall a good day. yahoo. Court i just wanna thank you for always being there for me and listening to my pathetic life in 4th period! i loooove you! My french teacher is gay tho...like i asked him to help me today..but he said that he didnt wanna give me the answers, like what the hell. And i went for this interview thing, but the girl didnt show up...the ppl were getting worried cuz she was supposed to be there an hour ago...so me n my mom went shopping for a bit. And then in a while im going to my best friends dance show with Helen...this will be F-U-N! hehe. And yeah court...i agree....mean and gay(meaning stupid) are taking over...not cool...not cool at all...
Aww people are so depressed...i hate it. Cuz then u feel SO bad...and u didnt even do anything...u dont feel bad like guilt, u just feel bad like..sorry for them in a way. People go thru hard times...and sometimes the stress builds up..and they just cant take it anymore...and they have to freak out or break down to let it all go.
Jesse i looooove u too!
Well im out...off to the dance show!
okay....calming down. i dont think ive ever been THIS pissed off...well i probably have...but right now i wanna punch sumthin so badly. This one girl, i walked by her today and she hates me cuz...i donno i really think shes just jeaslous but anyways she made fun of me as i walked by her like she really didnt think i could hear her...and then my 2 friends think they know everything about everything and trying to start sumthin between ppl when they dont know anything so they can just shut up b/c their just gunna get a whole bunch of my friends turned on eachother...luckly it doesnt include me but i was right there when they were saying stuff...and then i told this guy sumthin and he went n told this girl, so me n her were like yelling at eachohter after school on msn and omg shes just being so bitchy to me latly like usual and she tries to be my friend....but i know she could really care less so i hardly talk to her and OMG im mad..
Well sometimes i feel like im going overboard...one big baby who cant seem to stop crying. Im trying i really am trying not to...expecially when ppl are like, he's fine and everything, but they obviously dont know what its like. Ive been good for the past few days...havnt been worrying...but then i started talking to my mom about it after school and then i havnt stopped ever since. But come to think of it...I've been out of it all day...staring into space...just thinking about him and worrying...which is weird cuz like i said ive been fine the last two days. Man..its amazing how some ppl have such big impacts on your life...
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