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julie.
when you're older you will understand.
last modified Jan 23, 2008 at 21:56
sooooo;
this is pretty amazing.
he's pretty amazing.
it's cool.
I love flag football
well the games.
they're so fun.
and we won our first game
undefeated, yuuus. haha.
& courtney got me a manicure thing
so we're going together
and having some bonding time
shall be fun.
& that's about it. ha.
julie is a happy girl.
yay.
happy happy happy.
ha.
Well,
my birthday was yesterday.
17 now, woo.
spent it with my best friends
prettty sweet.
annnnnd the fact that I got Rascal Flatts tickets
and they're real close too, score.
and how do jeff left me a toy car with a bow on it in my locker
hah I love that kid.
I was kinda in a lonely mood yesterday
buuuut its my own fault.
in a way, its just the way I think
I deal with it,
cause then I get out of those moods
and I realize that really, I'm not bad off in that situation.
I love math class.
not the fact that it's math, I hate math with a passion.
but I love that class, its so funny.
"cause when push comes to shove
you taste what you're made of
you might bend til you break
cause it's all you can take
on your knees you look up
decide you've had enough
you get mad, you get strong
wipe your hands, shake it off;
then you stand."
"Last night, a kid by the same of Scott Anderson, took his life"
my body froze. not because I know the kid,
but because it's just shocking.
I was walking down the hall going back to my class when my principal came over the PA system saying that Scott, who attended St. Joes had killed himself. It was weird,
because I suddenly felt so sad. & my body just tingled.
It's a sad thing because apparently,
he hung himself because his girlfriend had dumped him & he went into a state of depression.
apparently.
and if that's true, imagine how that girl feels.
people break up all the time, she wouldn't have expected this.
it's not her fault either, but she'll live with that guilt her whole life.
she'll always think it was her fault,
at least I know I would.
I can't even imagine.
it's sad though, how people feel the need to end their life because of something.
its just one point in your life, you'll get by it.
nothing is ever thaaaaat bad.
cause we all go through hard times, it's not like he couldn't talk to people about it,
theres a bunch of people who have been dumped. but I don't know.
it's sad how people can die so young.
so much potential.
so much future;
all thrown out the window.
R.I.P Scott.
I hate my job.
I'm quitting.
I've been there for too long
and everything about it just makes me mad;
other than the people that work there.
but still.
All I have to do is find another job
which I'm going to do this week.
yay.
math class is funny.
there were like, 6 guys
and then me.
and they all ganged up on me about how women are only here to make babies & cook
and I was like, well I can't cook
and then one of them asked why I'm here then.
hoooow rude. hah.
annnnnnnd;
I have nothing to talk about.
I hate boys that have controlling girlfriends,
haaate it.
I don't understand why girls feel like they own their boyfriends
and how they can't talk or be friends with other girls
jealousy is all it is
but I don't understand;
they're with you. so get with it, jeez.
ooooh boy.
me helen and courtney are pretty much the coolest people I know.
we definatley just did nothing tonight, but so fun
parked in a parking lot, singing along to jack johnson
then going like 2km/h in a subdavision
then seeing how fast we can run
oh boy. I love them.
annnnnnnnd
we have girls night tomorrow, yuuuuuus.
always fun.
annnnnnnnnnnd;
I kinda miss you.
so that shooting in Montreal is nuts;
it's like colenbine, but with only one guy
and in a college instead.
but I just don't understand how someones mind can think like that
how they can go into a place & shoot people they don't even know,
nevermind shooting people they DO know.
I know something isn't right with them
but still. What can drive a person into doing that,
like man, something must have gone really wrong in their life to do that.
seriously wrong.
krista punched me in the eye at karate;
didn't give me a black eye though,
I'm kind of dissapointed. Actually,
I'm very dissapointed. I would have been really excited.
I got kind of mad today
whhiiiicchhh I had a right to be mad until I talked to him,
and he said he couldn't find us,
so it's cool I guess.
soooometimesss I wonder, but I'm going to stop.
cause that will just lead to no good.
I'm going to continue to write in this anyway, I like it too much.
Buffalo was SO much fun. Oh jeez.
We bought so much stuff, I have no money left.
Ha, I lie. I do, but I did spend a lot.
Abercombie & Fitch made me feel fat. ha.
and I wish I was kidding. Their clothes fit so small and definatly didn't make me feel good about myself at all.
but I go over it.
Cause now I have cool clothes no one else has, yuuuus.
& I love hotels hah, so fun.
Courts mom & Emmetts mom are so funny,
their like an older Helen, Courtney & I. hah, foo shooo.
Next time we're gonna go for like a week, hah. I'd be debt then.
Hung out with them 2, Mike & Ben tonight.
very fun, even though we always just do nothing.
I'm kinda falling for that boy; not gonna lie.
but you all probably know that, so no need in talking about it.
bahh school tomorrow.
my birthday is in 15 days. New countdown.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HELEN. I LOOOOOOVE YOU!!!
School started; this semester is pretty good.
First period - Religion w/ Katie, Andrea, David, Kyle, etc.
Second period - Writers craft w/ Sam, Andrea, Billy, Marshal & Emmett.
Third period - SPARE yuuuus. That's right, both lunches.
Fourth period - Math w/ Andrea, Amanda, Dan, Kyle & Duane.
pretty good overall. We all pretty much have our lockers beside each other again, so thats good. & on A lunch there's all the girls minus courtney. Then B lunch it's courtney and kyle, billy, dan, kevin & them. So it's good that's theres people on both lunches. I'm getting my math so far, but then again, it was only the third day. bahh. Kyle Dan and Duane all gang up on me in that class =( hah.
Buffalo tomorrow!!!! Oh man, soo excited.
annnnnnd that's all.
honestly,
I give up.
I can't tell with you.
whatever.
stupid school,
I don't want to go.
4 days until Buffalo.
me and these 2 girls were talking today at work
and all 3 of us have never done drugs before
and we just got on the subject on how they are so stupid.
like whats the freakin point?
you get a little high for a bit then pig out on food.
a lot of guys from work talk about getting 'baked' all the freaking time
and then one guy was like "its not a drug its a herb"
I'm just like yeh, thats why it's illegal right?
and then one guy was like we should hang out, we'll get high or something. I just gave him a look.
like some people think I'm stupid for thinking that they are so stupid, but whatever. I don't even care.
someone even said "you're too young to think that way"
pretty much saying that since I'm young I should be doing drugs? No, I'm sorry. Drugs screw some people right over.
I'd rather spend my money on something worth while.
and plus, not that I had the intention of doing drugs before,
but with Michael dying of overdosing and stuff,
that just turns me more off of doing drugs. gawd.
and like, I have no problem with people wanting to drink either,
like it's not like I won't ever go and get drunk, cause I've drank before and stuff,
but it bugs me how 'some people' will go out and get drunk pretty much all the time. every weekend pretty much.
and they do it to get hammered.
I guess it wouldn't bother me if it was just a friend that did it, because I have friends that do.
but someone who's a little more of a friend or something, that would bug me. because I'm not into it.
and I'm probably totally stupid for saying this,
but I have a problem with my weight.
I don't know, I find myself obessing about it and it's retarded.
Like when I look down my stomach, to ME, it looks big.
and it's because I used to be soo skinny in like grade 9 and even 10. and it's my fault.
ever since I've started working at McDonalds I've gained weight, I know I have.
and with not doing karate all the time anymore, it's adding up.
and I hate it. some people wouldn't even notice.
but I do. and it bugs me so much. ugh.
& I'm jealous of couples. bahhh.
annnnd I want to quit my job. but at the same time I don't.
some customers are so bitchy that I could quit right there on the spot. but then I love the people I work with.
like I was leaving today and I yelled bye to everyone
and pretty much all at the same time, a bunch of people that were working were like, BYEEEE JUUUULIE!
I don't know. It's cool sometimes, but sometimes I hate it.
I'm not looking forward to school at all. I have freaking math.
and I'm getting a tutor and stuff, but I still suck. I just don't get it, I'm stupid at math and it's just gonna bring my average down by a huge percentage. whatever.
and I love not being asked to go places. It's super.
baaah. I'm bitter. whatever.
on the bright side, 6 days until buffalo.
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