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julie.
when you're older you will understand.
last modified Jan 23, 2008 at 21:56
I don't know what to do.
and those girls are fucking bitches
and should fall off the face of this earth.
that'd be super, thanks.
I'm more scared then ever to get into a car now.
actually, no.
not as scared as I was after the accident.
but it comes close.
cherise died in a crash,
and those 4 boys died in a crash,
one which ended up in a coma. if he wakes up, how is he ever going to cope that he was the only one that lived.
I couldn't even imagine that feeling. it's just horrible.
Our parents can tell us time and time again to slow down,
or not to go out if the weather is bad.
but do we listen? not always.
it takes situations like these to make you realize that no, we arent invincible.
no one ever thinks that YOU can die. it can happen to others, but never to yourself.
but truth is, it can.
I couldn't imagine if that happened to one of my good friends.
I don't even know what I would do. I really don't.
I love my friends all so much, I hope you guys know that.
It's hard to see cherise's good friends suffering. But it's not even just her close friends that are feeling pain, it's almost all of our school community.
I cried a lot, and I had only spoken a few words to her before.
It's weird now that I look back to that moment of us talking, if only you could know what was going to happen to someone. I wish I could have told her not to get into the car that night.
but then again, it would have probably been one of the other girls in the car.
I know things are meant to happen. but young people dying just doesn't seem right.
And for Jacob, everyone has a lot of anger towards him. I bet he has ten times that anger towards himself. but as much as you hate him for killing cherise, you can't help but feel sorry for him in a way. they were in love, and now she's gone. and he's the one to blame. he has to live with that for the rest of his life, he'll never ever ever be the same.
we're taught to forgive, and I guess thats just what everyone is going to have to do, and hope that he gets through this. cause I could never in my life imagine losing someone I love so much like that.
it just makes you think. life really is too short.
this song was dedicated to cherise by some people.
"To everyone who's lost someone they love
Long before it was their time
You feel like the days you had were not enough
when you said goodbye
And to all of the people with burdens and pains
Keeping you back from your life
You believe that there's nothing and there is no one
Who can make it right
There is hope for the helpless
Rest for the weary
Love for the broken heart
There is grace and forgiveness
Mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are
Cry out to Jesus, Cry out to Jesus
For the marriage that's struggling just to hang on
They lost all of their faith in love
They've done all they can to make it right again
Still it's not enough
For the ones who can't break the addictions and chains
You try to give up but you come back again
Just remember that you're not alone in your shame
And your suffering
When your lonely
And it feels like the whole world is falling on you
You just reach out, you just cry out to Jesus
Cry to Jesus
To the widow who suffers from being alone
Wiping the tears from her eyes
For the children around the world without a home
Say a prayer tonight"
R.I.P Cherise.
R.I.P those four boys.
& again, R.I.P Michael too. Miss you buddy.
sometimes, life just isn't fair.
I know everything happens for a reason,
I'm a strong believer in that.
But it hardly seems fair.
People shouldnt be able to die so young
they had so much more life to live,
so much more things they could have done for the world,
and now, they just can't.
It's over.
R.I.P Charise. I wish I could have gotten to know you.
and R.I.P Michael. I miss how you could always make me laugh, and I miss our times together.
bah.
I kind of forget about this thing sometimes.
I guess there's just not that much happening right now to write about.
I applied to university,
now I just need to finish everything else for it.
First step to growing up, uggggh.
I don't want to grow up, but in a way I can't wait til I'm 18.
Courtney, we need to hang out soon, it's been too long.
nails? yessss.
I'm sick.
I like how we can actually talk like friends now. Took a long time, but oh well. Things take time.
and I'm so in love with Brendan. Oh boy. New Years yards would have sucked without him.
happy birthday yesterday again rebecca.
Know what the best food is?
Peanut butter and jam sandwiches. seriously,
I love them.
mmmm.
kay pointless.
peeeeeace.
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