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As the sun sets on this world again,
I'm plunged into the dark
Scouring this darkened plane,
I continue the search for my heart

Though the search seems hopeless,
I continue on in vain
Because I must find an end
To this neverending pain

Searching in the darkness
Stumbling in fear
As the search becomes more hopeless,
I sense the end is near

But as the darkness starts to lift,
And my fear and dread subside
I discover that my heart has found
A new place to reside

My thoughts and dreams are all of her
She captivates my heart
She's put an end to my search
And saved me from the dark

- Lex Larmon 2003

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Wednesday, January 29, 2003

Makes you think...

I don't often really sit down and just think, but some things my friend said really made me think and spawned a big string of (in my mind) profound thoughts. I, for one, am scared out of my mind about the concept of death. There's so much that I have that I'd lose, and so much more I have to look forward too. And at the same time, there's so much I'm afraid of sometimes. And, like my friend mentions, just gazing at the cozmos can have an interesting effect on people. It can put things into perspective, it can make your problems seem insignificant, or it can just make you think. I don't often think about myself, my future, and my place in this messed up world; so it is quite profound when I actually do... To sum this up, I think I'll just say (though it may seem a bit cliché) that the most important things in my life are my friends and my family, and the best times of my life are when I'm having fun with those people, whether I'm at Wonderland with my brother and sister, partying with my friends, or just going to a movie with someone.

Like tonite, for example. I just got back from SilverCity about an hour ago. I went and saw "Maid in Manhattan" with my friend Amanda (actually I ran into TinyLilFairy on our way out, small world, huh?) But this was one of the nicest nights I've had in a while. It's kinda hard to explain. It's not that the movie was exceptional (although it was a good movie, don't get me wrong), and it was certainly no different from other times I've went to the movies with friends, and yet, something really made me appreciate that time we had together. I suppose it could have something to do with losing my girlfriend (see earlier post) and I was grateful for the companionship, and that I've haven't done much lately, but I think it was a lot more than that. Something just made me realize that this is what I really enjoy in life: Good times with family and friends.

'Til next time, be good to yourself, and eachother.

Lex Larmon

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Sunday, January 26, 2003

Days off are boring without money

As much as I was looking forward to a few days off with exams, it has been REALLY boring, since I'm saving my money for getting my learner's permit. (only 23 days 'til my birthday!) There's not much you can do without money.

Thank goodness for Battle.net. Although this won't mean anything to anyone, except a select few (cough, Alex, Danny, cough), my Warcraft 3 clan, the Lengendary Alliance (LA) is alive again. And for those of you who don't know about online gaming and clans, this just means I can have more fun on Battle.net again. Which is really nice, now that I'll be at home for the next week. I should invite someone over... Be less boring...

Anyway, not much else to report (boring past couple day, in case you haven't gotten that yet), so TTYL.

Lex Larmon

.::Football: watching dozens of millionaires beat the crap out of each other. It's like wall street, with helmets::.

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Thursday, January 23, 2003

The semester's over...

Hey everybody, I know it's been a while since I've posted, but I've been kinda busy studying for exams and all (math exam tomorrow). That, and I've been pretty depressed. My girlfriend just broke up with me, and I've felt pretty awful lately. Lucy meant a lot to me... But I guess there's not much I can do but try and move on.

Coincidentally, a friend of mine, who shall remain nameless, and her boyfriend are breaking up too, and now I think I know how she feels... It hurts, it hurts a lot, and there's nothing you can do about it. I've tried doing some poetry and songwriting, and I guess it's helped a bit. So this is a poem I'd like to share with you guys:

It's been a bad day
I'm getting used to it now
Another sad day
I'd cry but I don't know how

I'm drowning in thoughts
Of how things used to be
My chest was shut tight
Free from injury

It's out in the open
Should've kept to myself
I'll learn from mistakes
Take my heart off the shelf

My soul has now fled
It's my body alone
There's far too much hurt
For my heart to come home

I give it up now
There's no way to win
Without you here
My world hardly spins

It's been a bad day
I'll try not to let it show
Another sad day
And I'm just letting go....

Goodnight all,

Lex Larmon

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Sunday, January 19, 2003

Weekends go by too fast...

Yeah, I had a really booooring weekend. Shows how little you can do without money. But I was able to scrounge together a few bucks to rent a movie (MIB 2), which is the highlight of my weekend I guess. That and playing Warcraft 3 on battle.net. Kinda sad, huh?

We were supposed to be babysitting my nephew Damien this weekend, but for some reason or another, it didn't work out. In case you don't know yet, Damien is the son of my brother Matt. He's about one and a half, and despite Matt living in Ottawa, Damien lives with his mom in Sudbury, so my parents (the grandparents) and I get to see him a lot. In fact, I end up seeing Damien more often than his dad, which is kinda sad (for my brother that is, I don't mind it at all).

And yet, as boring as this weekend has been, it still went by shockingly fast. *sigh* I wish weekends were longer. Yeah, so I got my Business Tech. exam tomorrow. Well, it's really just the HTML unit test, but something has to count as the "final evaluation," so this is it. Well, I guess it's about time to turn in.

Adios all,

Lex Larmon

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Thursday, January 16, 2003

Yay, tomorrow's Friday!

Well, I know I haven't posted in a while, but things have been fairly uneventful. Anyway, one thing of (possible) interest is my new computer :). I finally got it last night, and now I'm done setting everything up (I think). It's got Windows XP, so it was rather frustrating at first, with all that restricted access and all. Fortunately, it's XP Pro, so it is without all the bugs of XP Home.

And we were able to get our old hard drive copied opto this computer, or so it seems. Everything appears to be there, except for the "My Documents" folder and all subsequent folders and files. Unfortunately, this is probably the one folder I wouldn't want missing, as it contains my entire MP3 library as well as all my MPEG (video) files and my pictures. The vids and pics are of less importance, as I can get them again, but considering the number of music files I had, there's no way I could replace them all. They are the culmination of all my years of downloading and copying music. But, my mom says that we may be able to go back and recover the folder, so I'm gonna try and be optimistic.

Oh, and I just finished Day of the Dragon (one of the Warcraft books I got, see earlier post) and it was a great book. I would recommend it to anyone who likes fantasy really. You don't really have to know anything about Warcraft to enjoy it. Anyway, now I start on "Lord of the Clans," the next book in the series. So I think I'll go do that right now.

Peace out,

Lex Larmon

P.S. - Please excuse any typing mistakes in this and near future posts (new keyboard, not used to it).

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Monday, January 13, 2003

I am StReSSeD!!!

So much schoolwork lately... Civics portfolio, history presentation (due tomorrow), website assignments (one due tommorow, not gonna be done), not to mention upcoming exams. And this morning I basically woke up with 10 minutes to get out the door. All this, and I've been been sleeping really badly lately. Wierd dreams, late nights, and early mornings don't mix well. (Sorry if it sounds like I'm venting, but I really hate it when I get this stressed out)

So, I tried to relieve some of that stress today. I went to Chapters and finally got the Warcraft novels that I've wanting with a giftcard I got for Christmas. I know shopping to relieve stress sounds kinda chick-like, but it does help me sometimes. Anyway, I got all 3 books in the series for about 30 bucks, so I'm happy.

At the same time, all these big assignments and exams do mean the end of this semester, which is pretty cool. I always like new semesters. New classes always start out really easy (that and I'm really sick of my current classes), and new teachers=clean slate (hehe). Well except Bertrand, I have him both semesters. o_O But Bertrand's a pretty cool teacher, so it's all good. Only thing is, this semester will likely be a helluva lot harder than the first one, because I got all my STEP classes: Science, English (God, I hate english), and Tech Design. :( But I've got family studies for homeroom (that's how I have Bertrand both semesters, family studies and history), so it should be a pretty easy course. A bird course, if you will.

Well, I'm gonna go settle down with a bowl of popcorn and "Day of the Dragon," one of the Warcraft novels, so TTYL.

Lex Larmon

(Feel my wrath! What the? My wrath! Where's my wrath?! )

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Saturday, January 11, 2003

Yeah...

Well, I have don't really have anything to write, since the only thing I did today that could be of ANY interest, was my job. So I thought I'd leave you with some wise words that I learned from the Red Green Show:

Women are helpful by nature...

Men need a court order.

(lol, I just had to write that down somewhere)

L8r,

Lex Larmon

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Friday, January 10, 2003

Finally!

After yet another loooooong day at school, the weekend is finally here! Thank God. Anyways, i just finished watching Red Green's Duct Tape Forever, which is a really funny movie. I think that Red Green is just about the only good Canadian show around (except of course, Royal Canadian Air Farce). Yeah, so that was a good movie, and I can finally sleep in tomorrow.

Unfortunately, pretty much as soon as I get up, I have to start my job. (For those of you who don't yet know, I work at home, doing invoicing and filing for my dad's company.) But it's not really as bad as I make it out to be. I get to work in the comfort of my own home, with pretty flexible hours and decent pay ($15 for about 2-3 hours of sorting papers and inputting invoices into a computer). And I'm getting experience with business (accounting) software which is probably gonna be useful, as I plan to go into the area of finance in my career.

Anyways, enough about my boring job and career plans. Actually, between my job, a party I'm going to, hanging out with a friend of mine that I don't get to spend too much time with, and 2 major school assignments, I'm thinking I'll have a pretty busy weekend. I guess it's a kinda good thing that I don't have my computer with all those games and stuff to distract me. And in case you're confused, I'm writing this on our laptop, the same one with which I do my job. Unfortunately, it's pretty cheap (not much storage space), so I can't exactly put any of my games on here. But I guess our computer being "indisposed" is a bit of a mixed blessing. On one hand, I'm disadvantaged by having only the laptop for my entertainment purposes. But this isn't the first our comp has stopped working, so my parents finally decided to break down. I'm getting a new computer (yay!). And once again, I've just realized that I've gone a bit overboard on my writing, so...

Signing off for now,

Lex Larmon

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Thursday, January 9, 2003

S'up all!

Hey peeps, I'm kinda new to this whole weblog thing. In fact, I've never written in any kind of journal-type thing, online or otherwise, but I thought I might give it a whirl. I got the idea from my friend Sam, who unfortuantely, has to move again soon :(. We'll miss ya Sam!

Well since I'm such a newbie to this, I don't really know what to write. Soooo.... I guess I'll just start by saying a bit about myself. Lesse... I'm 15, quickly approaching sweet 16 (Feb. 18, can't wait. I expect a gift from all of you, lol, jk). I go to Lockerby, I live Sudbury, ON (boooooooring), and I am truly proud to be a Canadian.

I'm big into computers: online gaming (can't wait for WoW to come out), surfin' the net, chatting with friends (hmm, notice any trends? Can you say INTERNET? lol, I couldn't live without it)

I love music, and I mean I really love music. If only I could actually play something... Anyways, some of my fave bands/artists now would have to be Good Charlotte (new cd is AWESOME), Great Big Sea (yeah, I know, it's a newfie band, I don't care), Avril Lavigne (yeah, just shut up), Living Proof (Rock on Hyatt), The Tragically Hip (If I haven't told you already, my Uncle used to be in it), John Mayer, Red Hot Chili Peppers, BNL, blink-182, and any others that I can't think of right now.

I also enjoy just hanging with friends, some of the best times come from just hanging out. Gotta take this time to send a shout out to my best friends: Alex the Newfie (What are ya at?), Paul & Amanda (it's been a long ride since kindergarten, eh guys?), Chris, my token weird friend, and my best girl Lucy. That's right guys, I do have a girlfriend, you just never asked, unless of course you're Karen or Jason (man you guys are nosey). Anyway, I also wanna say hi to my other friends. Not best friends, but friends just the same. Ryan L. and Ryan F. (you know who you are), Rachel, Kevin B., Kevin H., Danny, Karen (you're not that short), Trevor, Emily, Sam (again, we'll miss you), Jason, Britney, Andrew H. (keep on rocking man), my sister Ruth and my bros, Matt and Simon.

Well, I guess it's getting kinda late, I gotta get up for school tomorrow (another day, another scholar). That and I just realized how much I've been writing. o_O

Peace out,

Lex Larmon

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