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As the sun sets on this world again,
I'm plunged into the dark
Scouring this darkened plane,
I continue the search for my heart

Though the search seems hopeless,
I continue on in vain
Because I must find an end
To this neverending pain

Searching in the darkness
Stumbling in fear
As the search becomes more hopeless,
I sense the end is near

But as the darkness starts to lift,
And my fear and dread subside
I discover that my heart has found
A new place to reside

My thoughts and dreams are all of her
She captivates my heart
She's put an end to my search
And saved me from the dark

- Lex Larmon 2003

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last modified Jan 5, 2005, 19:44

Monday, October 20, 2003

The true meaning of life, according to Sinfest

Slick: I have discovered the true meaning of life.

Monique: Do tell.

Slick: Everybody is out to screw everybody!

'nique: That's it?

Slick: That's it.

'nique: Well screw you and your life view.

Slick: SEE?

77250 | posted by Lex at 20:54 | 2 Comments | Comment on this entry

Must stay awake...

...to finish... blog post...

Ugh, I dunno why I'm so damn tired. But tonight, it seems I can barely keep my eyes open. I mean, I've been tired before, but this is just weird.

I know I usually try to post every weekend, but yesterday, I just couldn't get into the mood to post anything. I knew I wanted to post, but I just didn't. But let's cut to the chase.

Lemme see, well I've spent the better part of my free time in the past two days poring over the "Sinfest" archives. What is Sinfest you ask? Well, it's the most hilarious online comic strip I've ever come across. And they have archives back through 2000. I have Nursall to thank for the introduction to Sinfest (I found it on her blog). I'm probably wasting a lot of time reading all these cartoons, but they're so damn funny and addictive.

What else... Oh! I have basically completed my hallowe'en costume. Yay. If I haven't told you already, I'm taking a suggestion from Biff, and going as an über-goth. Which is funny when you think about it, because that's so not me. I've got all the clothes I need, most of which I can probably just keep and wear for normal use. And I picked up some nice "accessories" too(wristband, wrist-chain, and I even bought a kick-ass pendant on ebay). Oh, I picked up a great black trench coat at value village for only 15 bucks! And as most of you say today at school, my hair has now been died black. Well, bluish-black. I don't care. It's for the costume, honestly it is. Why'd I dye it already, two weeks before hallowe'en? ...shut up.

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And now for the weird part. You don't have to read this if you don't want to.

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The only other thing I can think of, is that this past weekend, I had the most insane and mind-boggling, yet meaningful dreams of my life.

First, I dreamt that Rachel was sick. I mean, deathly ill, like on her deathbed. Why is was Rachel, I have no idea, but bear with me. Keep in mind this was all a dream. Anyway, she was in a hospital room of sorts, and all our friends were waiting outside. Everyone was really sad and mournful and I remember panicking, I was so worried about her. Then all of a sudden, someone said that Rachel was okay, and then she just walked out of the room, looking right as rain. I remember I ran over to her, picked her up and hugged her, and just held onto her for at least a minute. (And for those of you who are getting ideas, I must reiterate that this was just a dream. I cannot control what I dream.) And I suddenly felt so damn happy and so relieved, as though nothing could get me down.

And then (I can't remember if it was part of the same dream or not) the second weird thing I dreamt was that I got caught with some sort of "forbidden document" at school, and was not only expelled, but banished from town. (I warned you this stuff was gonna be weird). I remember being so sad, worried, and... distraught. I had to leave the only home I'd ever known, leaving behind my family, friends and school. And this was freaking me out so much. I had no idea what I was supposed to do, or where I was supposed to go, and I really, really didn't wanna leave.

Anyway, I had to share these with someone, because they're just so unlike what I normally dream. Usually, my dreams are meaningless strings of really messed up, unrelated things. And these were so full of emotion and, in my mind, meaning. I can't help think that these dreams mean something. Like the first one is some sort of reminder to not take my friends for granted by showing how much they mean to me. And the second one, well the only thing I can think of would be that it has something to do with graduation. I'll be forced to leave all my friends behind, feeling lost and without direction. I don't often think too much about it, but I'm loving high school so much, and when I think about leaving all this behind, that frightens me.

Anyway, I've been talking your ear off, so I'll stop now. Feel free to comment on anything here, dream analyses, hallowe'en plans, Sinfest plugs/quotes.

'til next time, "smile... it scares people."

- Lex Larmon -

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Monday, October 13, 2003

Happy (late) Turkey Day everyone

Mood: At ease, somewhat listless
Listening to: Lucky Boys Confusion - Bossman (great tune)
Dreading: School tomorrow (for the work)
Looking forward to: School tomorrow (to see everyone again)

Hey guys, I just got back from Toronto today, which is why I haven't been online/posting. But I had fun this weekend. It was nice to see my aunt and uncle again, and my little cousins were... tolerable.

We went over to the island on Sunday, followed my the Thanksgiving feast. And before we left today, we had lunch at the "Marché" restaurant. If you're ever in Toronto and get a chance to go there sometime, take it. That place is amazing.

Ugh, I'm still kinda tired from the ride home. It was unusually long and boring this time for some reason.

Since no one was really hungry when we got home (about 6:30), we just figured to make something for ourselves whenever we felt like it. And I'm beginning to wonder if the chicken I put in my sandwich was still good. Well if I'm leaning over the toilet at 4 in the morning, I'll know it was rancid (pleasant thought, no?)

Fruit sales have started for the band trip fundraising. But I'm sure most of the people who read my blog are aware of that already, as they're mostly in the band. The trip should be a lot of fun. I don't even know where we're going, but throw me on a bus with Court, Steeev, Biff, Rachel, Paul and Jesse, and good times are bound to ensue.

And thus wraps up another week in this odd little life of mine.

Ciao for now,

- Lex Larmon -

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Sunday, October 5, 2003

I wanna get lost in your rock and roll...

Well, after a rather boring, lethargic day for me, I'm suddenly feeling quite good. Probably because I'm rocking out to a bunch of great songs. I'll post some song recommendations at the end of this post.

But as I said, I've basically had another lazy boring weekend. And I've had a head cold that's been driving me nuts. As usual, I worked Friday night and most of Saturday. But other than that, I didn't really have anything to do. Not even homework. It's weird how school's been lately. Like in English, I've gone from Geiger-style homework load to Hubert-style homework load. And for those who've never had those teachers, it just means it's gone from a lot to practically nothing. But I'm not complaining. I'm all for less homework. But it seems that whenever I have the time and money to do something cool and fun, my friends are broke, with loads of homework. Meh, such is life.

It's been an interesting week for my personal life, as I'm sure you've seen by the past few posts. For now, things are... stable. But I'll keep you posted. But even if I didn't, you guys would worm it out of me. But now I'm just rambling, so I'll stop.

Seems a bunch of my friends are now getting weblogs (about time), and I'm keeping my blog links section updated. It's nice to see, because now we can all post and comment on one another's blogs, and it gives us a deeper look into who these people are. Though for some, that may be more scary than it's worth.

I went shopping this week (whoop de frickin doo). But anyway, I picked up some cool clothes. And the more humorus ones went over pretty well at school, particularly the t-shirt that says: "Slackers unite! Tomorrow." And although I just went for some new clothes for the winter (no, it's not fall, it's already winter dammit), I also picked up a killer CD: "So Long Astoria" by the Ataris. It's awesome. I really love the songwriting. I'd recommend picking it up, or if you're lazy/broke, download some of the songs. Anything off that album is great.

Speaking of which, I've been downloading a lot of new music lately, expanding upon my already lengthy playlist. This is just a few unique songs that most people likely wouldn't have that I'd suggest getting:

Uncle Cracker - Drift Away (This is where I got this post's title. Uncle Cracker was not the original artist to record this, but I really like his version.)
Alkaline Trio - We've Had Enough
Billy Talent - River Below
blink-182 - Stay Together For the Kids
Custom - Beat Me
Finger Eleven - One Thing
Less Than Jake - All My Best Friends are Metal Heads
Linkin Park - Numb
Rancid - Fall Back Down
Scratching Post - Fade Away
Shocore - Bonecracker
SweetSalt - April Always Comes Around
The All-American Rejects - Time Stands Still
The Ataris - So Long Astoria
The Ataris - Takeoffs and Landings
The Salads - The Roth Kung Fu
Third Eye Blind - Motorcycle Driveby
Titiyo - Come Along
Unloco - Face Down

'Til next time, keep on rocking in the free world,

- Lex Larmon -

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Friday, October 3, 2003

Update again

Well, I think I overreacted a bit earlier. I wasn't able to talk to her today, but I called her after school. We worked things out and talked for a while. Sorry if I alienated anyone today, I was feeling kinda depressed and guilty. But I'm all better now, or at least until the next time I screw things up. :S But for now, things are good.

I'll most likely have my weekly post on Sunday, so ciao for now,

- Lex Larmon -

"Oh crap, you're trying to cheer me up, aren't you?"

75601 | posted by Lex at 14:15 | 1 Comments | Comment on this entry

Update

Well, it looks like I may have screwed things up before they could really even begin. I'm starting to think I'm destined to be alone...

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