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Name - Lex (Alexander Jack Grenville Larmon)
Age - 20 years old
Birthday - February 18, 1987
Zodiac - Aquarius (I'm a freakin' water-bearer. Other people get things like a lion, a centaur archer or a scorpion, and I get some guy that carries water).
Location - Sudbury, Ontario, Canada
Loves - Music, gaming, music, computers/internet, music, drinking, music, friends, and whatever else you probably already know about me.

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The Bloody Morning After - With our brothers we will share all the secrets of our mountain, all the riches buried there.
Biff - Move along, I believe there's something beautiful to see...
The Elmo - The adventures of Darien in Canadore College... In short - it's just a feeling
Under the Red - Feeling down? Depressed? Alienated? Just remember these three words... "I'm somebody's fetish."
Edicius - Metaphorically correct, and dead to boot!
Lean On Me - Regan's digital and cryonable shoulder
Never Is a Promise - "As I crash, I watch you burn..." Go Ry!
The Phantom Tollbooth - Ali's blog... Her straight forward is kinda crooked
Butterfly's Blog - "Oh butterfly where do you go?"
The World of Cr0magnus - You Can’t Dare Be Different ~ A Modern Paradox
Nameless - Loosing your mind isn't so bad... is it?

Other Links

deviantART: Lex-Larmon - Head over to dA for some of my poetry.
Sinfest - Friggin' hilarious comic strip.
star cross'd destiny - A wonderful online illustrated novel. Read it from the beginning... Now!
MINX - The new MINX (formerly Scratching Post) message board.
Blizzard Entertainment - Some of the best PC games out there.
Elfwood - All about fantasy and sci-fi. It's a forum for some of the best amateur art and literature on the net.

Going Under...

Things are not great at the moment. I am feeling pretty sick and feverish from a bug I caught from my parents. And over the weekend, I've worked myself into a nice little depression. Just a whole bunch of things are really not going my way. 
 
It all started on Friday. Seems even though Mrs. Lesk was "happy to have anyone" for the music council, I wasn't good enough. I'm not one of her little band geek favourites, so she doesn't trust me to be on the music council. I was really pumped to be a part of the council and to do my part to help the music program. There's even gonna be a music council homeroom now. The only reason I even joined the Jazz band was so I could be on the music council. But too bad for me, right? Story of my life. 
 
And wouldn't you know it, my job stunk too. I worked all Friday night on the invoicing, only to find that it all got screwed up, and I had to completely re-enter everything over again. So I had to work all day Saturday. Which brings me to my next point: 
 
School! Only two weeks in, and I'm swamped. I have 2 big assignments due and only 1 day to do them, thanks to work. And I have 2 major tests on Tuesday to study for. So I've spent all day working on school, while being sick and having to put up with my nephew running around. And not only am I swamped, but the one teacher I was really happy to have, Mr. Bertrand, isn't teaching at Lockerby anymore. So now we've got the hundred-year-old Finnish english teacher who can't speak english! 
 
And wouldn't you know, it gets worse. On top of all this crap, I am now feeling really lonely and I can't stop thinking about my ex, Lucy. Biff wrote this "now you're gone" love song, which is a beautiful song, but it brought the memories flooding back. And just to open the floodgates even wider, I went back through all my old weblog posts (now that the servers are back up), and I ended up finding the posts about Lucy. 
 
These things combined really started me thinking about Lucy and how lonely I am. I never really got a reason as to why she broke up with me, so I never really got any closure. She was the first and only girlfriend I ever had and I loved her. And she broke me. Not just my heart. She broke me. I haven't had any romantic involvement since then, which was about 9 months ago. I miss her. And though I often succeed in hiding it, I am very lonely. 
 
"It's been a bad day 
I'll try not to let it show 
Another sad day 
And I'm just letting go...." 
 
Godnight everyone, 
 
- Lex Larmon -

last modified Sep 14, 2003, 20:42

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Hey dude, don't be worryin'

Don't feel bad about thinking about your ex, i still think about Ryannon alot and such, and she sits beside me in biology! There's no way i can avoid her, but we're still good friends. There's always going to be that one girl, that was your first girlfriend that you enjoyed all your first experiences with, she's gonna be part of you for along time now. As far as being lonely, it might pass, it might. Some people don't mind being lonely, like moi, some people get distressed over it, like Adric. Don't feel bad about it, maybe i just have no heart or something. Anywho, best of luck to you. I should go goth too, heh. Talk to ya later.

74083 | posted by Loki on September 15, 2003, 21:16

hey, if things get too much, you can always go goth, as i am plotting to do. anyways, don't ever say things canget worse, because they will. especially when you work yourself into such as depression as yourself. and remember man. you need to talk, i'm here. all the time. i have no life.

Biff

74033 | posted by Biff on September 15, 2003, 12:18