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Lean On Me
Lean on me,
When you're not strong.
I'll be your friend,
I'll help you carry on.
For, it won't be long
Before I'm gonna need,
Somebody to lean on.
last modified Jul 19, 2004 at 0:21
I actually got on the net on my own computer tonight...
I have been thinking about you guys all day...
Jesse: I miss you so much already. I am not sure what I am going to do... I love you, and will see you when I get back. And you should know that I contradict myself fairly often...that's just the way it works...*hugs* Take care of yourself! I know you guys can handle yourselves...I guess I am more worried about who will handle me...
Kyla: I miss you too hon! Be safe! Done reading the letters? Are you kidding? You don't want to know how many times! They are in my pocket...
Marie: Drugs? Me? I am horrified at the notion! Hehehe. Miss you too! I'll be here for you! And I will have fun, I know I will...I'll just have to do it while missing people!
Amanda: No prob! And thanks!
Jordan: It is! And oh I will. Trust me on that one.
It is two AM, so I am just going to have to say
The Rest of you: Miss ya, and love ya lots! Will see you all when I come home!!!
Good night guys. Or I will be zombieish (Marie, that has GOT to be a new word!) tomorrow. There have been several late nights in a row...
I am not trying to make you cry!
Marie, I know that something is wrong. Heed your own suggestion and e-mail me.
Day after day I'm more confused
Yet I look for the light
Through the pourin' rain
You know that's a game that I hate to lose
And I'm feeling the strain
Ain't it a shame
Oh, give me the beat, boys, and free my soul
I want to get lost in your rock and roll
And drift away
[repeat]
Beginning to think that I'm wasting time
I don't understand the things I do
The world outside looks so unkind
Now I'm counting on you
To carry me through
Oh, give me the beat, boys, and free my soul
I want to get lost in your rock and roll
And drift away
[repeat]
And when my mind is free
You know a melody can move me
And when I'm feeling blue
The guitar's coming through to soothe me
Thanks for the joy that you're given me
I want you to know I believe in your song
Your rythm and rhyme and harmony
You've helped me along
Makin' me strong
Oh, give me the beat, boys, and free my soul
I want to get lost in your rock and roll
And drift away
[repeat]
Na, na, now won't ya
Won't ya take, oh ha ..take me
Fitting, isn't it? There are a few others...
First two verses aren't quite right, but oh well.
Would be so easy to drift away, get lost in the music, but that wouldn't be me, would it?
I do count on all of you though...
Hear things flared up again, hey? They should cool down. E-mail is always open though guys...(however many of you read this...not a whole lot I think) Just inform the others for me.
I miss you Jesse....
I miss everyone else as well....
All of you, take care of yourselves, and look for happiness in all things.
If don't get to post tomorrow, this is my final post from this country for a while...weird.
I'll e-mail pictures!
Don't forget me!
If there is anyone out there that reads this that I have need to say sorry to, this is it. I sometimes speak without thinking, which is not a good thing, and if I have ever hurt anyone with a thoughtless comment, or an airy word, please forgive me. I meant no harm, I just don't think. *smack*
Anyhow, back on my usual light note, right about now I would like to thank my friends. All of you. Kyla and Marie, I cannot believe you did that...A lot of you, I cannot believe you were there...Jesse, Biff, Marie, great distracting. *laughs* I did thoroughly enjoy the walk though.
Marie, I always seem to fare well, so don't worry. You take care of yourself. I was hoping you would have things under control, as they seem to have quieted. I will always be reachable though, so if anything gets out of control, you know where to come. I am always there, always ready.
The take care of yourself goes out to all of you. I also tell you to take care of each other, but somehow I worry less about that. I know that you are all great friends and support one another all the time. My concern is you taking too much on yourselves. Don't try to shoulder all the world's crosses. They were not meant for you to carry. They will crush you, and that is something I never, ever want to see happen, to anyone. Find a way to deal with your own troubles, and support others in resolving theirs, but don't hurt yourself while helping them. Please stay healthy, and be happy, all of you.
And so begins the leave-taking. Well.
Good night everyone.
Can't it just hold, just for a little while?
Dear Lord, I should have started these letters a month ago!
I am extremely hyper. I think it is the whole sad to be leaving, but happy to have the experience thing. The two emotions are warring against one another, producing the hyperness. Oh well. What can I do? As usual, nothing.
Video today...someone had a great idea...
I am going to miss everyone so much...so much.
I love you Jesse.
Glad things are shaping up for everyone! (Well, almost everyone.)
Good way to spend my last week. Makes me happy to see others happy.
Well, again, late night is making me sign out. Good night everyone.
Marie and her nursery rhymes...
We lost in the semis...Oh well. Tomorrow is another day..as was yesterday I guess...
I am back, for a grand total of five days. Then I am gone. I am gone. I can't believe it...
It is Monday...I started this post Sunday...*shrugs* Whoa...I have GOT to stop doing that over the phone...
I am extremely disjointed...I have noticed this before, but...
Things are improving. I am glad. This is an extremely good thing. A number of people who were down the other day have started to come back up. I should have known, should I not have? This is what happens...
Life is a game. But what is the name of said game? And what are the rules? Who enforces those rules?
Anyhow, I am going to bed, as, once again, it is late. Good night all.
Trust me, I will remain sane. I can handle anything that comes my way. I just get a little bit swamped/overwhelmed sometimes. I can deal though. There are advantages to writing things down. Namely the feeling of getting a weight off your chest. As I said, I start the decline, decide that I don't like it, and haul my way back to the top. It doesn't take me long. I dig in my feet, hard, and push back off. I stay at that summit. I am afraid to slide, so I won't. Besides that, like I have said, I really don't have any big problems, so I am always cheerful, and trying to cheer everyone else up...God, that must be annoying...
I think I worry too much.
That is who I am though.
*smacks self in forehead*
So, yeah. I am fine, don't worry about me is the basic point of this post. I will always be fine, and will always be around, for all of you.
Ali, j'aimerais te rencontrer aussi, mais, comme Marie a dit, je suis dans un tournoi d'hockey en Brampton cette fin de semaine. Elle parle de toi frequentment, et je pense qui tu es le type de personne que j'aime. Une autre fois, j'espere.
If you don't want to listen to me whine, I suggest you stop here. I am suggesting everyone stop.
Now, back to english. Things have exploded. As I have noted before, this runs in cycles...Things are good at the top, slow decline, explosion, slow climb, and we start again. I seem to be the only one that gets stuck at the top, the starts the decline and turns around...weird...
Oh well. Marie, I talked to you tonight. I am here hon, and you can talk to me. You know that.
All of you need to step back. I am hoping that the people I am talking to read this. (Though I counselled you against it...I can't win) Chill out, look around, before you kill me. Not really.... Actually, you are in more danger of hurting yourselves than me. Just take my advice and don't bottle up problems. As I have said before, talk to someone. Not necessarily me.
And the ramblings return...diary is a good idea...
I am going to bed. Having trouble checking blogs anyway... Danchan is being incredibly slow..
Today was...Great. Everything. Hiking, walking, sunshine, spending time with Jesse...Even the movie/Simpsons references made by Mike and Jesse, the ones that went 747 right over my head (I don't watch the Simpsons...I don't have cable, and I don't watch much T.V.) were great.
I am quite happy, if confused at the moment...But, confusion is a perpetual state for me.
Grammaire, ou, si tu want, grammar...Mine est terrible..hehehe
Yikes...Not sure where that came from...That was to please the english and the french I think...There was a joke about that that came up today...pleasing everybody...can't remember...Oh well.
I am now entreating aid...How do I add links, change my template, and stuff like that? Marie, Jesse...somebody...help me! Computer illiteracy...big time...
Oh...Marie, can I hide behind you if I ever see your aunt or Ashley?
Je peux ecrire en francais....ca c'est amusant...Mais je ne le fais pas parce que la plupart des personnes que je cannais sont anglais...
I am going to stop now, as this post is rapidly becoming random ramblings...
Time is passing me by...Fifteen days...FIFTEEN DAYS! How am I going to see everyone? Especially since only four of those are in any way free. Suvival - indefinite...
I am being scared slightly by the number of people asking me what they are going to do without me. My answer is that life will go on. I am not completely gone, I am still reachable. I can't believe I even have to type this. I am not that important a part of your lives. You will survive. I may not, but you guys will. There are always other friends, and as I said, I am not completely gone. I will worry about all of you, but that is normal. My advice is for you to not worry about me. Chia is freaking. I don't want the rest of you that way. I will take care of myself.
My only request of you guys is that you take equally good care of yourselves. I need all of you to be alright. I am not here...I will not know. Stay (or be) happy and healthy, all of you.
Well, it is late, so good night all.
I have already started missing you...*groans* This is going to be a long two months...
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