I just asked myself, "are you happy?" and I realized I don't know. I mean I think I am, I have a good life, nothing to complain about, but then again I get so frustrated and bored with life so I often. Oh god I'm such a typical confused teenager. I'm in a I hate everything mood right now. I hate Blake for not giving me more in the Variety show, I hate musicals because I can't sing so I wont get a good part, I hate that I can't sing, I hate that I dont find anything interesting about life anymore, I hate that I still dont have a boyfriend, when I've wanted one ssoooooooooooo badly, for sooo long, I hate that to get a guy I'll probably have to settle, I hate that once I do get a boyfriend I'll either have to do things I don't want or end up pissing him off by not doing it (and I'm sure you know what it is), I hate that it's no longer summer, I hate school, I hate that I have no privacy in my house, I hate that parents feel like they should know everything about your life, I hate that parents ARE usually right, I hate that I get bored of my friends, I hate that there are no easy answers in life like there were when we were kids, I hate that I have to decide what I want to be NOW, I hate that I don't know, I hate that there doesn't seem to be anything I do want to do, I hate that I am sooo damn lazy, I hate that there is nothing to do in this stupid town, I hate that I don't have a job, I hate myself for not getting one, I hate myself for not doing my homework when I should, I hate music right now for some reason there just never seems to be any that really suits me, I hate how weird it is to be a teenager, I hate that you can't just eat everything you want and not gain weight, I hate that I'm too lazy to actually go out and excercise, I hate that people can be so damn judgemental sometimes, including myself, I hate that I get bored of my friends, God I just hate everything right now. I know this is just a mood and tommorow I'll be happy like I always am. Damn you Simon, you've turned me emo! Lol, at least for today.

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Hey, I still luvs oo.

I know the feeling. My thoughts towards these kinds of days? Fuck 'em. Fuck 'em all!

Actually, that's my thoughts towards most things, lol...

126400 | posted by anon:Bitchzilla on October 29, 2004 at 21:56

Just doin' mah duty, ma'am :D

Everyone hates everything sometimes. Music helps... but you added music to the list of things you hate :P. Sex... doesn't help. Sleep... helps sometimes... and other times it just makes you wanna sleep your life away. Obviously there's only one correct answer left: sugar. Eat lots of sugar and your life will again be complete.

126364 | posted by anon:Will on October 29, 2004 at 15:34