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Sunday, October 31, 2004

I was going to go trick-or-treating this year, but then my counter part, Thing 2, was not able, and oddly somehow I don't much feel like it anymore. Which is completely odd because it's everything I love, free candy and you get to dress up. I guess it's just at this age trick-or-treating is only fun if you go with a bunch of your friends and act like retards, and seen as basically all my friends think they're too old it's not going to happen. Oh well I guess it's for the best I'd just end up eating all the candy in one week (what I did in grade 10). Lol.

126534 | posted by Tathiel at 15:56 | 2 comments

55 Days until Christmas!!!
Damn I forgot to do it yesterday again, oh well I was busy and my internet wasn't working. Hehe Spin the Bottle.

126523 | posted by Tathiel at 11:41 | 1 comments

Friday, October 29, 2004

I just asked myself, "are you happy?" and I realized I don't know. I mean I think I am, I have a good life, nothing to complain about, but then again I get so frustrated and bored with life so I often. Oh god I'm such a typical confused teenager. I'm in a I hate everything mood right now. I hate Blake for not giving me more in the Variety show, I hate musicals because I can't sing so I wont get a good part, I hate that I can't sing, I hate that I dont find anything interesting about life anymore, I hate that I still dont have a boyfriend, when I've wanted one ssoooooooooooo badly, for sooo long, I hate that to get a guy I'll probably have to settle, I hate that once I do get a boyfriend I'll either have to do things I don't want or end up pissing him off by not doing it (and I'm sure you know what it is), I hate that it's no longer summer, I hate school, I hate that I have no privacy in my house, I hate that parents feel like they should know everything about your life, I hate that parents ARE usually right, I hate that I get bored of my friends, I hate that there are no easy answers in life like there were when we were kids, I hate that I have to decide what I want to be NOW, I hate that I don't know, I hate that there doesn't seem to be anything I do want to do, I hate that I am sooo damn lazy, I hate that there is nothing to do in this stupid town, I hate that I don't have a job, I hate myself for not getting one, I hate myself for not doing my homework when I should, I hate music right now for some reason there just never seems to be any that really suits me, I hate how weird it is to be a teenager, I hate that you can't just eat everything you want and not gain weight, I hate that I'm too lazy to actually go out and excercise, I hate that people can be so damn judgemental sometimes, including myself, I hate that I get bored of my friends, God I just hate everything right now. I know this is just a mood and tommorow I'll be happy like I always am. Damn you Simon, you've turned me emo! Lol, at least for today.

126362 | posted by Tathiel at 15:07 | 2 comments

57 Days until Christmas!!!!
Thing 1 and Thing 2, best Hallowe'en costumes ever. Okay not as good as my Christmas tree, or maybe not even my Lava Lamp, but pretty darn close. One of the best costumes ever!

126356 | posted by Tathiel at 14:22 | 0 comments

Thursday, October 28, 2004

58 Days until Christmas!!!!!
Well we found out what's in for Variety Night. My dance duet with Larissa is in. That's it. I know it's kind of conceited but I really feel like more should be in, or maybe I just really want it to be in. This is my senior year and I really consider myself a drama student so just to be doing a dance is crap, I really wanted to do a skit, and I've put so much in the last years, this is the only thing that I like about school....drama. Also, we finally found out what we're doing for the year end musical. We're doing Through the Woods. I'm so glad we're doing a real play now instead of crap like Anne of Green Gables, my only worry is I won't get a good part, because I can't sing. I wish I could. Oh well.

126208 | posted by Tathiel at 16:31 | 1 comments

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

59 Days until Christmas!!!!!!
I forgot to do it yesterday.
SCOTCH!

126086 | posted by Tathiel at 16:50 | 0 comments

Monday, October 25, 2004

Life just isn't fair, as a teenager I have to say it is my god given right to use this phrase at least once a week, and I must say tonight it totally pertains to what I'm thinking. So much of my life lately has been focused around choosing a university and it's hard. I just finished watching one of my shows and it was focused around choosing a university and following the right path for you. At one point the guys father told him to close his eyes and visual himself happy in four years. Where was he? I know if I do this, I'm not at Laurentian. I want to major in drama, but I know this isn't practical so I'm going to double major in drama and psychology, I think. The problem: to actually have a plausable career I have to spend about seven years in school. So I figured my best bet because of money constraints would be to go to Laurentian for the first four years and then go on to another school. My parents have to put three kids through college/university three years straight and I don't want to put them in more debt than they are. My older brother is already living in Toronto going to a school that runs two years straight with a tuition of $1000 a month. That's a lot. I also don't want to spend like ten years working just to pay off my school debt. But god I want to ged out of this town soooo much. I'm so sick of it. I've lived here my entire life and it has never been entertaining. I want to go somewhere new, meet new people, be independent, have some privacy, actually have something to do on the weekend other than watch movies! Why is it that money has to affect life so goddamn much! I wish I could just do what I really want without having to worry about it. So I will end this entry as I began it, life just isn't fair!

125824 | posted by Tathiel at 20:20 | 1 comments

61 Days until Christmas!!!
Disney Songs Rock my socks!

125804 | posted by Tathiel at 16:39 | 0 comments

Sunday, October 24, 2004

You are Brown Wolf, who is innocent, pure and honest type of woman.
Although you seem like a difficult person to get to know, and the way you are indifferent to your surroundings makes you seem like a saucy person, you really are generous and do not think much about your own advantages.
You are not a sentimental sort of person, and will go on no matter how difficult it seems.
You are also able to take on lots of duties at once.
You can not stay in one place for a long time, and will go on moving on to new environments.
You weakness is that you lack endurance.
You are born good natured and a hard working person.
But you can not carry things out efficiently, and lacks neatness.
This makes you have a disadvantage.
Nevertheless, you have great inquiring mind, and to something that interests you, you will go investigating into it deeply and thoroughly.
You will be able to find and come out with your own unique idea.
You don't care what the others think of you, and will stay faithful to your own way of living.
You don't look back to your past or keep on dreaming about the future. You stay in put with reality.
You are rather optimistic, and can overcome any situation quite easily.
After getting married, you will be a family loving devoted housewife.

I think this does basically describe me except for the don't look back to your past or dream about the future, because I do that all the time.

125694 | posted by Tathiel at 19:34 | 0 comments

Only 62 days until Christmas!!! I'm in such a Christmassy mood right now and I don't know why. I just want to listen to some Christmas music, I think I will. I'll get some when I go up for dinner. Mmmm Christmas is by far my favourite holiday I love it because it's normally when all my friends and family get together and I love the feeling, and the atmosphere, all the decorations, the Christmas Tree, the lights, Dickensville (you know those light up houses, we have an entire village) and the music and movies, and that we get school off, and being inside and cozy when its soo cold out, coming in from skating or sliding and drinking hot chocolate mmmmmm, waking up early Christmas morning to find out what "Santa" brought you. Every year on Christmas Eve we have a Christmas party. Only it hasn't been as good lately because my cousins have moved to Calgary and most of the family friends now have families of their own, so this year I want to invite all of my friends, and watch Christmas movies, and listen to Christmas music and eat Christmas food, and go sliding down my driveway and skating on the lake. Problem is most people are doing things with their families on Christmas Eve. Mmmm I don't think I'll ever grow up, and I love it!

125671 | posted by Tathiel at 15:21 | 3 comments

Thursday, October 21, 2004

Okay I went to the University Information Night and the guy who was doing the presentation for Laurentian was so funny and made Laurentian seem actually interesting. I am now okay with my decision to stay in town at least for my undergrad to save money and then go onto another university. Hey Steve I guess we'll be slumming it together next year. Lol. We'll freak out the norms!

125448 | posted by Tathiel at 20:20 | 2 comments

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

Okay, I'm officially sick of school. I want it to be summer again. Summer is so awesome you can sleep in as long as you want and working is much better than school because you get paid, and if you have an easy ass job like I did, babysitting, it's awesome. Plus in the summer you don't have to see your friends every damn day, so you actually have something to talk about when you do see them, and you don't get sick of hearing about the same stuff over and over. And there's always sooooo much more to do in the summer, and meeting new people. I just see the same people day in and day out at school. Fuck school I hate it. Come back to me Summer!

125136 | posted by Tathiel at 19:48 | 2 comments

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When's the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

125106 | posted by Tathiel at 17:22 | 1 comments

Sunday, October 17, 2004

Gloomy? Bored? Need a good laugh? Visit my live journal http://www.livejournal.com/users/tathiel/, it's sure to entertain. Have fun!

124835 | posted by Tathiel at 14:20 | 0 comments

Thursday, October 14, 2004

Okay I'm such a loser I've spent all night sitting on this computer listening to Hands Down by Dashboard Confessional over and over again. It's my new favourite song, for now, I know I'm going to make myself sick of it, but it's so damn romantic. I mean come on "My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me, so won't you kill me so I die happy", can it get anymore romantic than that?

124519 | posted by Tathiel at 20:40 | 5 comments

Sunday, October 10, 2004

Mmmmm just went for a walk in the bush, it's so serene and beautiful, makes me want to pretend I'm a princess in a far away magical world, with a long flowing white dress, with elves and fairies as friends. Now don't laugh at me because I can tell that's what you're probably doing.

123777 | posted by Tathiel at 16:29 | 2 comments

Tuesday, October 5, 2004

Okay wow, school is scaring the shit out of me right now, well not so much school as University. It's only the beginning of the year and it seems you have to already know exactly what school you want to go to and exactly what you want to take. Everyone seems to have a plan but me. I still have no idea what I even want to do, I don't know what school I want to go to, don't know what the difference is between Bachelor of, Masters or PhD. I'm only 17 for God's sake do I really have to have my entire life planned out! I want to stay in drama because I have realized that is the only thing I enjoy doing at school anymore, but of course that's not a realistic job because very few can make it doing drama, so I was thinking psychology as my back up, but the problem is doing both at the same time, and where do I go, and how do I pay for everything, and God... I just don't know! I have so many questions?!

123164 | posted by Tathiel at 16:17 | 2 comments