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Tathiel's weblog
last modified Apr 14, 2004 at 13:36
Alright I admit it, I gave in, I watched The O.C. I now understand just why I'm soooo glad I normally have dance on Thursday. The show is sooo completely ridiculous I mean come on, Ryan is now dating Seth's grandfather's illigitamate love child, Marissa's mom is cheating on her husband with her ex-husband, and this is all in one episode! But even though I know it is absolutely ridiculous it somehow manages to suck me in. The one Thursday I don't have dance and I'm watching it. I swear they must transmit crack subliminally or something, why else do I watch this crap. Lol.
100 Days until my Birthday!!!
Wow this is so cool, I've been spending most of the day looking for a monologue I can do for my audition for the years end show our school is putting on, and I find this. It's exactly how I've felt sometimes...weird.
Original Piece by Sammi
Character: Alexis
Gender: Female
Age (range): Teens
Style: Drama
Length: 2 minutes
Background Info: Told from a first-person point of view. A rather confused teenager is caught up in dealing with her friends problems and is starting to feel sorry for herself. Her stress amounts to quite a rant.
I hate it when they all come running to me when they need someone to listen to them whine. I guess they just carelessly suspect that I'm immune to sadness and depression. What they don't see is that I'm just like them. To them, I'm this pillar of happiness that's always standing up proudly. To them, I've got no troubles in my daily life-- it's all just flowers and sunshine. They don't stop to consider that maybe all this depression surrounding me gets me down once in a while.
But, no, they've got their own problems to deal with first. So, they come to me. They want to hear me say that everything will be okay in the end, and that things really aren't as bad as they seem to be. I need to listen to them ramble on about their crushes not liking them and their boyfriends not spending every minute of every hour of every day with them.
Maybe... it's my fault. I put on this front like I'm always so happy and cheery, so they naturally come to the happiest person they can find within a mile radius. Maybe they're hoping a little bit of my happiness will be passed onto them. Maybe they think that they'll be happier if they're like me.
Oh, God. Stop me. I'm going on an ego trip again.
But they wouldn't want this happiness spared onto them-- if you can even call it happiness. I can barely handle it anymore. People say that I'd make a good psychologist, and maybe they're right. But if it means dealing with all of this everyday, I don't think I would. I don't think I could! I--
I've really got to stop saying "I" so much.
HEY ALL I'M BACK!!! I hope you didn't miss me too much, or my countdown to Christmas. Too bad I missed actual Christmas day on here. Oh well I hope you all had a Merry Christmas anyway, but now that that countdown is done I need a new one. Hmmm...let's see...MY BIRTHDAY, yes I shall count down to my birthday. Now let's see how many days is it...101! 101 days until my birthday!!!
Now where do I start I've missed so many days, hmm let's start on the 23rd the day I left off, that was quite an eventful day. First I had my Christmas Eve Eve party, I only had three people so don't feel left out it wasn't so much a party as a small get together. Besides it was after all my friends left that the real fun started. I am sorry to say, yes I got drunk. This started with me on msn and my brother, David, and our family friend Mat came downstairs because Mat wanted to see what happened to my other brother's room, currently where my laptop is. Well they decided to stay down here because it's the only warm room in the house because of the space heater I have down here. Now Mat was absolutely appaulled at the fact that me being an Italian I do not drink, so he offered me a cooler, and I thought nothing of it because I've had a cooler before with absolutely no effect and I like the taste. But silly me forgot to take into account that the only food I had eaten all day were appetizers about 5 hours earlier, so I was starving, and what does alcohol do to you when you're hungry? That's right it effects you a lot faster. See that one cooler got me really buzzed, and once slightly intoxicated it wasn't that hard to convince me to have another one. I also drank a beer which I didn't even want and actually refused to drink, but somehow ended up drinking anyway. Being drunk was different and somewhat fun but certainly not all that it's cracked up to be. Of course me being a naturally nuts person what exactly could being drunk do to me, all I ended up doing was laughing at EVERYTHING and stumbling a little, and man do you ever have to pee when you drink. Luckily this was at like 4 in the morning so I was able to sneak up to the bathroom about three times in an hour without my parents noticing because they were asleep. After all this I ended up puking...in the garbage bag, but at least after getting me drunk Mat was a complete gentleman and held my hair back for me while I puked. Lol.
Now Christmas Eve was almost as entertaining, except instead of me getting drunk it was my family, and my brother was brilliant and decided to tape it. Blackmail here we come. I found out some interesting stories from my mom's cousin about a drunken party him, my mom, and my uncle had when their parents were out of town. Hmmm...maybe I should take a page from my mom's book.
Then comes Christmas. Christmas was good, at least this year I wasn't woken up to my aunt dancing and singing to Crazy in Love by Beyoncé, excuse me whilst I puke. Now let's see what all did I get, Billy Talent CD, Jet CD, I also wanted the Greenday CD but I guess I'll have to buy that myself, Shrek 1 and 2 (yes I am still a little kid at heart), a sweater, a pair of shoes, pyjamas, a plasma light or something like that, candy, lip stuff (for those of you at Alex's Halloween party yes there is now more of the yummy lip stuff lol), eye shadow, candy, earings, 4 books-Angels and Deamons, Five People You Meet in Heaven, A Brief History about Everything(or something like that), and The Red Tent(or something like that), and finally some charms for my charm bracelet which I just put on and now I shall where everywhere, originally all it had on it was my birthstone which I hate, now I have six more which are- one that says daddy's girl, one that says princess, ones a ladybug, ones a fourleaf clover, one says I (heart) dance, and ones the drama faces. I believe that's all my presents.
Boxing day and the 27th were quite uneventful, other than the fact that I went shopping.
The 28th was my brother David's and my cousin Liam's birthday which was basically uneventful until my brother projectile vomited all over the bathroom, I think he got everywhere but the toilet. Now this would not have been that big of a deal except for the fact that my mom has an extremely weak stomach and actually ended up puking when trying to clean it up, so guess who had to clean it up. That's right me!... well and my uncle, but ya. So Happy Birthday David, I have to say that is one good Birthday present.
Today I am home, spent the entire day in the car so, blarg. Hope to see you all sometime soon and you all better have an awesome New Year's.
2 Days until Christmas!!!
Finally finished my Christmas shopping, ooo I should probably wrap those... oh well. Had my traditional Christmas Eve party tonight, well I guess this year it was Christmas Eve Eve, but what's the big diff. Fun I love having this every year, seeing family and friends. Tommorow I leave for Cambridge to visit my aunt, but don't you guys worry I'll be back on the 29th I still love yous. Tootles.
3 Days until Christmas!!!
Who says just because I'm 17 that I have to act it. Guess what I spent today doing? That's right watching Christmas movies. The Grinch Who Stole Christmas (the original), Rudolph, and The Muppet Christmas Carol (by far my favourite Christmas movie of all time Light the lamp, not the rat! LIGHT THE LAMP, NOT THE RAT!!!, hehehe). Then I spent tonight decorating my Christmas Tree yes that's right tonight, 3 days before Christmas, shush yous. Haha I still have to finish my Christmas shopping tommorow. Oh well.
4 Days until Christmas!!!
Eek only 4 days and we just got my tree today, haven't put up any decorations yet, and for some reason this holiday I'm really busy. What's up with that? Normally I spend any free time doing absolutely nothing but all of a sudden this year I'm busy. I realized I have not spent a Friday night at home since September! So very odd, but so very awesome at the same time. Fun! Going to see Lemmony Snicket's a Series of Unfortunate Events tonight, hopefully it will be good.
5 Days until Christmas!!!
Yuck cleaning.
6 Days until Christmas!!!
Holy crap only 6 days...I still need to get presents, shit. Oh well on a better note fun surprise party. I love how we were all 17 and 18 yet we had a sleepover and went sledding. Yay us! I love being a kid. I hadn't gone sledding in years I only wish we could have stayed sledding longer, but completely understandable that we left because some were freezing their asses off...literally. Hehe glowly pants!
7 Days until Christmas!!!
I retract my previous statement from last week, drunk people are only entertaining up until a certain point and I think that point was when my friend started puking on herself. After that party I see absolutely no point in drinking first off I act like a moron to begin with so I don't need alcohol to lower my inhibitions and they were just all really stupid, swaying and yelling and puking and...aww just being dumb, but they can be entertaining at least at the beginning before they get too drunk. Silly people.
9 Days until Christmas!!!
Omg, ok Everwood is one of my favourite T.V. shows, yes I admit it's one of those, as my dad puts it, nighttime soaps, but I love it anyway. And low and behold whilst searching for a monologue for auditions for drama I came accross a monologue from that very show. Simon you'll probably enjoy it, it reminded me of you when I read it, so emo.
Ephram: The more things change, the more they stay the same. I'm not sure who the first person was said that. Probably Shakespeare or maybe Sting. But at the moment, that sentence best explains my tragic flaw; my inability to change. I don't think I'm alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw: staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still just feels better somehow. And if you are suffering...at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected, who knows what other pain might be waiting out there? Chances are it could be worse, so you maintain the status quo; choose the road already traveled, and it doesn't seem that bad; not as far as flaws go. You're not a drug addict, you're not killing anyone...except maybe yourself a little. When we finally do change, I don't think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we're another person. I think it's smaller than that. The kind of thing that most people wouldn't even notice unless they looked really really close, which, thank God they never do. But you notice it. Inside of you, that change feels like a world of difference, and you hope that it is; that this is the person you get to be forever...that you'll never have to change again.
10 Days until Christmas!!!
Finally did Christmas shopping! Spent over four hours at the mall, God I'm absolutely dead. However I still have Simon's, my Mom's, my Dad's and my older brother's gift to get, but I do know what I'm getting all of them except my brother. Well after over 4 hours at the mall I just wanted to go home and crash, but nooooo my stupid mom had a bajillion errands to run, plus I had to listen to her bitch and moan about me. You'd think I'd be relieved with everything done, but oddly I'm not. Oh dear lord I can't wait for the holidays!
11 Days until Christmas!!!
Oh jubilation! My English commentary is done! Okay I know I didn't do amazing, but I did pretty well and I don't think I said umm once. When we were listening to the tapes I was getting soooo pissed off at how many times they said umm that I would not allow myself to say it. Also I got a really easy passage so I was really happy. For those of you that don't know what my english commentary was, well basically you randomly choose an exerpt from about 15 and then you have 20 minutes to prepare then have to talk for 10 minutes on the spot about it. For once my supreme slacking paid off. I'm so used to not doing my homework until the lunch period before that I could think quickly on the spot and make it make sense. Slackers of the world unite!...tommorow. Now all I have to worry about is my biology test tommorow, hopefully I get the syllabus done. Then after that is getting Christmas presents. Yaya I know I haven't got them yet.
12 Days until Christmas!!!
I had not one class today, not one! Completely awesome, but at the same time a piss off, if I had known I would have stayed home, slept in and told myself to do my homework but not actually do it.
Awwww Alex I love you, you put me in the Christmas mood!!!
13 Days until Christmas!!!
Although it doesn't really feel like it. Everyone is soooo stressed out and oddly enough I'm not even though I have just about as much work as everyone else, so I should be. I just don't get stressed, or emo basically ever. All my friends are in bad moods and I want to help them, but can't. I guess all I can do is stand by them and hope they can come to me for whatever help I can give them. Christmas is my favourite holiday ever, but this year it doesn't feel like Christmas at all. Everyone's stressed, I haven't bought any presents yet and really need to, but I am so broke, stupid gas being so expensive. I also want to get all my friends presents because they absolutely deserve it and I want to show them they do, but I won't be able to spend like any money on them. I wish I could think of something creative I could do for them like I did last year. I can't wait for the holidays to start hopefully everyone will feel better by then. I love all of you guys, feel better. *hugs*
Drunk people are freakin' hilarious. You know when I saw people acting drunk I always thought they were exaggerating but after tonight I know they weren't. Lol good times.
14 Days until Christmas!!!
I think my brother stole my mouse just to piss me off, luckily this is a laptop so it still has the touch pad, but needless to say I am seriously contemplating taking those pictures I have of him dressed as a girl, copying them and plastering them all over his school. Ah sweet sweet revenge.
Last night's Variety Night was awesome and probably the best audience yet. Thanks guys! I got a huge applause after my dance and that made me so happy because the dance is four freakin minutes long and I'm practically dead by the end. So what did you guys all think about the Variety Night? Favourite acts?
Oh fuck him! You'd think after I stole the fucking computer he'd just fucking leave, but no instead he's still fucking down here playing his fucking guitar as loud as he fucking can so I can't fucking hear my fucking music! Why won't he just FUCK OFF!!! He is the only person that fucking pisses me off!
15 Days until Christmas!!!
Jocelyn I completely agree with you siblings are annoying as hell. I come home make myself some dinner then go downstairs to use MY computer and low and behold my stupid brother is on it. Normally I'm fine with him using it because it's never been when I wanted it before, but then he wouldn't freakin' get off. Is it my fucking fault you crashed your own fucking computer...no! So get the fuck off mine. Well needless to say I stole it from him anyway, because it's a laptop and am now sitting on the ground using it, still pissed off. God I hate him soooo much sometimes, if he wasn't my brother I know I would never associate with him in real life.
Oh ya by the way those of you planning to come to the Variety Show tonight, unless you already have tickets you're screwed because it's sold out, so if you don't have a ticket you'll just have to come Saturday. I better see each and every one of you there at one point, or pain...lots of pain will ensue.
16 Days until Christmas!!!
Variety Night starts tonight, hope it goes well!
17 Days until Christmas!!!
Which Random Irish Gaelic Phrase Are You?
Your Results:
Is maith liom bananai
Is maith liom bananai - 'I like bananas.'You're laid-back and you enjoy the simple things in life. Some might say you're a little too laid-back. Just what is it you're smoking, anyway?
(X if yes)
been drunk.
smoked pot.
kissed a member of the opposite sex. x
rode in a taxi. x
been dumped.
shoplifted.
been fired.
been in a fist fight.
snuck out of your parent's house.
celebrated new years in times square.
went on a blind date.
smoked a cigarette
gone on an airplane by yourself.
white lied to a friend. x
went swimming in your bathtub. x
had a crush on a teacher.
been to europe.x
made out in a movie theater.
taken caffeine pills.
been to disney world.
had a crush on someone you hardly knew. x
been to california.
regretted something. x
peed on someones lawn.
skipped school.
thrown up from drinking.
lost your sibling.
been butt nekked bangin on the bathroom floor.
kissed a member of the same sex. x
had sex with a boy.
had sex with a girl.
been in a car accident.
partied for days and days straight.
had a (extended) family member die.
played the game Clue. x
had a sleepover party. x
went ice skating. x
been cheated on.
had a boyfriend/girlfriend.
had a threesome.
had sex on a roof, with your friends unknowingly watching?
do you? (X if yes)
have a crush.
have a dog. x
have your own room.x
listen to rap.
paint your nails.x
play a sport. (if dance counts then yes)
play more than one sport.
watch sports on tv.
have a fav. group/singer/artist.
have more than 1 best friend. x
get good grades. x
play an instrument. x
have slippers.x
wear boxers.
wear black eyeliner. x
like the color blue. x
like the color yellow.
have long hair. x
have short hair.
have a cell phone.
are you?
ugly.
pretty. x
ok.
bored. x
happy.
bilingual.
white. x
Black.
Mexican.
short.
medium. x
tall.
grounded.
sick.
talking to someone.x
scared to die. x
sleepy.x
annoyed.
on the phone.
in your room.
drinking something.
eating something.
in your pjs.
ticklish. x (but I can make myself not be)
listening to music. x
homophobic.
18 Days until Christmas!!!
I hope to God Variety Night will be ready. The actual acts are good its the technical aspect that needs work, cross your fingers.
19 Days until Christmas!!!
Had my TOK presentation today. It went well, but waaaayyy too long and I hope we don't get penalized too much for that.
I can't wait until Christmas holidays, I really need a break.
I have a presentation tommorow in TOK (Theory of Knowledge, basically philosophy) which is worth 60% of my mark, I have spent about 14 hours on it already so I decided I needed a break, hence I am on the internet. I realized yesterday just how much of a nerd I am because I got up early, on a Saturday, to work on this project. I have never done that before, and what's odd is I don't mind that I did. I spent basically all my free time yesterday and today on it and I have never done anything like that before. This is the most time I've ever spent on a project and it's weird, normally I never do my homework and just the thought of it makes me want to hurt something, but I didn't mind giving up practically my whole weekend to it. Odd. Most people don't seem to enjoy TOK, but I do. Well obviously I would have to because I chose to do it, because I'm not in full IB I don't have to do it but I chose to. Don't get me wrong it is an incredibly demanding course and extremely mentally exhausting but it isn't like normal courses. It's not memorize this and spit it out. It's come up with you're own opinions and back them up logically. This is the hardest part because first of all I'm usually a sit on the fence type of person so it's hard to choose a side and then after you've chosen the side back it up, but the problem is when I start to make my argument for backing it up I automatically see how someone with a differing opinion could prove me wrong, and because it's philosophy there is no right or wrong. It's hard but I enjoy it. However I'm glad that it's only one semester because it's so mentally exhausting I don't think I could deal with another semester of it.
20 Days until Christmas!!!
Yay, I am no longer broke! I made 50$ last night babysitting which is actually more than I should have made, but I'm not complaining, plus I like babysitting those kids. Well now that I finally have some money I can buy some Christmas presents, hopefully, 50$ doesn't stretch very far when you have about a bajillion people to buy for.
22 Days until Christmas!!!
Alex you rock my socks...and by socks I mean pants. *wink wink* Lol. Shhh.
23 Days until Christmas!!!
For those of you that want to know the tickets for Variety Night are 5$, so you all better come! *threatening glare*
24 Days until Christmas!!! Ooo I can almost taste it, that is if you can taste Christmas. Lol. Christmas music rocks my socks...and by socks I mean pants. Lol. I'm listening to some right now. Now tell me is there any better holiday then Christmas? That's right I didn't think so.
On another not Variety Night is the 9 (thurs), 10 (fri), and 11(sat) so for all of you that want to go you can get tickets from me, or for some of you you'll probably see Alex sooner, so ask one of us to get you them. Better hurry they're going quick, okay I don't really know if they're going quick but it makes it seem better if I say they are. I don't know if you can get tickets at the door, but even if you can I suggest getting them in advance just in case. You all better come, or I'll track you down and beat you! Lol if that isn't Christmas spirit I don't know what is. Lol. Tootles.
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