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Let's let the saga continue at http://www.danchan.com/weblog/Eli
2004 = Over
Eli = Just Begun
Cheers to the end of the year and the start of a new one. This one has had it's interesting moments from the takedown of Justafeeling.tk to the CD release of Too Far North to the leave for college. And even in college there has been too many interesting moments to even start mentioning here.
So here is to the end of 2004, a year of good and bad yet interesting results and another drink to the start of 2005.
Personally I don't think 2005 could be any more exciting then this year. A change of lifestyles, a band CD release and the meeting of so many new people. How could it get any more exciting? I know of a couple of ways (which has to deal with New Years actually) but with the way things are going, they won't happen. Oh Well. No biggy.
Anyways, next year it's 19 for me and the second semester of college. Whooo Hooooo..
Happy New Year to all of you and I hope you all have a safe New Years without any accidents or problems. I will probably update again as I'm getting my stomach pumped tomorrow morning. And then for the change of sites. *Yippee!* And with the change of sites, I'm using a custom theme created by me. A lot of work went into it. And it all started from the basic theme which is made when you start an account. No other template.
To 2005!
Fuck you. And you. And you and you and you and you and you.
Make up you're fucking mind and STOP with the FUCKING MIND GAMES.
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Darien decides to be nice and decides to be generous but no fucking more. I'm not buying anyone anything and I'm sure not doing anything to impress anyone any-fucking-more. The more I try to impress the more unattractive me or my personality gets. Fuck it all.
(Sorry to everyone I just needed to tey and get some held up energy out of me)
If anyone hasn't seen this movie, I really suggest you go out and rent it now. Or buy it. It will amaze you beyond proportions.
Here is an email I just sent to the producer of the film. Hope you like.
Subject: A teenagers point of veiw
Message: My name is Darien, I'm male and I'm 18 years old. Luckely I'm also in good health and at a healthy weight for my height. I live in North Bay, Ontario and I am currently attending college for software engineering. I recently went to the local blockbuster and saw your film on the shelf. I had heard a lot about it, and as a fan of Michael Moore's documentaries, I decided to rent you movie.
When I started the film, I was hesitent to open up a large bag of chips to eat while watching your movie. After about half an hour I couldn't stand the thought of eating anything at that moment. Seeing what you went through with your body amazed me in the sense that I'm suprised you had the guts to go through with what you did. I have to applaud you on your work though. Your movie was well done and it really made me think of getting the 'Supersize' whenever I go and eat out. I'm sure you get a lot of praise from your work already and here is just another one.
One question I did have for you though: Did you ever get to have that interview with a representative from McDonald's? At the end of the movie you kind of hint that you didn't but I haven't had time to watch the extended scenes yet in order to find out.
Good work none the less and thank you for the amazing documentary.
--
Darien Taylor
Alright let's recap on my New Years Plans. Of course I'm going to be flooded with requests from people asking me to go their get togethers and I would go to all of them if I could. This year though is a little harder for me to decide.
I have one party with my old band which sounds like a little bit of fun. I think it's going to be 2 guys and 2 girls and that's it. A quiet get together.
Party 2: Big house party in Azilda. No idea who they are or who is going but supposedly 'a bunch of people from laurentian'. Chances of someone I know: High. SOmeone I don't like: High. Being with someone special that night: Medium to low.
Party 3: I hitch a ride back to North Bay and I hang with my North Bay friends and get smashed and play video games. A common North Bay party I would say.
So far my idea is going to this house party. I'll see what's going and I'll get in contact with some people to see who all is going to be there. This New Years doesn't look to start off to anything GREAT yet.
New year coming up. Let's hope it's an interesting one this year. I was going to post my New Years Resolution on here but I backed off from it cause I didn't find it appropriate for the time and I'm thinking of changing it into something that will actually benefit me more.
So anyways, 2005 is coming up. Predictions? I'm going to get drunk sometime in the next two months and do something stupid. I'll be alone on Valentine's Day. And finally.....I'll make another CD.
Just a couple of small predictions. I could post some more TECHY predictions but who wants to read about those.
Anyways, I'm in Sudbury still and I have to say, it's been great so far.
Here's a toast to everyone wishing you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. Post what you got for Christmas here in this post.
Me so far:
Laptop (3.2 Ghx, 1Gb of Ram, 140GB total space and a 64Mb Geforce FX Go5200) w/ DVD Burner
New digital camera (4.0 MP)
This is a call out to all my friends. It seems that someone decided to call my house at 2:30 in the morning last night saying something along the lines of "We want our money." Now I don't owe anyone money and especially not enough for someone to rudely awaken my mom at 2:30 in the morning.
If anyone has any information about this phone call, please help me out by providing information of the call. If you are the person who has done this, please admit it was you. All I want to know is who did this.
This one goes out to Steeev. The guy who loves when I'm angry.
First off...let's take apart the following sentence.
"my mom is sleeping becasue starts work at 11 and did he watching a movie and maybe go see my best friend but her boyfriend will be there and I don't like him very much"
Number 1: If you can read this and understand the point she is getting across I applaud you. You deserve a medal and a job for "I-Read-Idiot-Speak" translator.
Number 2: Let us all take a moment and interview Mr. Punctuation.
MP: I'm glad to be here
TE: Well thank you for coming. So Mr. Punctuation. Would you like to comment on the lack of respect you have been getting recently?
MP: Yeah it's a travesty Eli. Is it ok if I call you Eli? *slight laugh*
TE: Ha ha ha of course Mr. Punctuation.
Note 3: Apon looking at the conversations we have endured, the two most popular words said to me were 'oh' and 'cool'. Now I think I have bitched about people who talk to much but I thank you now. This persons vocabulary has less grunts then a caveman.
Note 4: Let's analyse the sentance my mom is sleeping becasue starts work at 11 . Notice the missing word? I'll give you a hint. Startes with SH and ends with E. Now I know some people can miss letters when typing and occasionaly miss type words (which I have done in the past hundred times) so I'm not going to bitch at spelling. But missing whole words? Come On.
Note 5: I won't show you the history of our conversations together but I'm starting to notice that some peopel follow a very percise script. It's the "Hey", "What's up", "What's New", "So what are you doing?" one. You could say anything to those questions and she will still proceed to the next one. "What's up" "Oh nothing, my cat just died so I shot it in the trash and ate my own feces." "Oh....what's new?"
So in reality, never bitch that you have someone bad on your list (I shouldn't even be doing this) because you will always find someone worse then the one you bitch about. Someone who will drive you even more crazy.
Uhhh.... -1 days?
Yeah that's right...I was supposed to be back in good Ol' Sudbury today but that seems to not be the case. I'm here in good ol' North Bay still. It seems a snowstorm prevented my parents to come pick me up.
Oh well let's take a bus.
The bus system does not allow me to bring my sisters Christmas present on board (a computer). Shit.
So I'm here until Howey gives me a ride home or my mom comes to pick me up.
Oh well.
Wow. It hasn't even been a true week and I have already started to miss people. Amy, Stewie and Ashley mainly. This people are close to me. Call them my little 'possie' back on Residence. After they left, I had no reason in hell to go back to Rez so I really haven't. I miss you guys. *tear*.
I have some good news for some people out there who read this (North Bayians). I'm staying in Residence next semester. So in case you thought I was saying 'goodbye', I'm not.
I'll be back. And this time twice as active too if you think about it. I'm going to be in a quiet house. So I have no real reason to be depressed and scared to leave my room anymore. Snowboarding is a must next semester and so is picture heaven. If everything goes to plan, I'll have a printer next semester and my digital camera so tons of prints for everyone.
Also next semester, as soon as the snow melts, it's party Eli again. Back at the start of the year it was fun. I would be meeting people and going into people's houses like every day. After I 'left', I didn't get to do this. Well time for the return.
One of the best flashes I've seen in ages. It's highly addictive. Great use of music too.
Just go here
EDIT: Here's another flash which I have been spending half a year trying to find. It's a dark and depressing one but interesting none the less.
Just remember to smile
Wow is today a good day. I got to wake up late and work at a medium pace to finally get out of bed to hear that my buddy Howie was going to take us out for lunch. "Free food!". Well kinda. I payed him some money cause I felt a little bad. But it was mostly free. I also learned that my buddy got his laptop in today so I'm kinda jealous of him. Finally my friend Howie stated that he was buying the Limited Edition of the new Lord Of The Rings.
Talk about good news. And that was all withen an hour of me waking up.
Then I got to school.
Logging into my Hotmail account I found an email from a good friend who was 'thinking of me' and 'wanted to wish me good luck on my exams'. She also 'felt bad for me not having a good weekend'. That made me smile. Someone just wishing me good luck and taking the time out of their daily lives to tell me this. *smile*
I think logged into my GMail account to see that my mom had emailed me. The email stated that "Your laptop is now in production".
Did I ever freak out there.
But that's still not where the good news stopped. The external hard-drive and digital camera has been shipped....yesterday. So that means I'll have my new camera sooner then later.
Let's hope this trend continues.
MSN Messenger has turned into more of a joke then an actual service. It's not the program that's bugging me it's the people who use it. Now most people in this world get the idea behind 'Instant Messaging'. It's there so if you need to contact someone, you can, instantly. It is not always a 'bordem cure'. Just because someone logs online does not mean you 'HAVE' to talk to them or your life will end. Now I know some of you are saying "Fine Darien, I won't talk to you" but that's not what I'm trying to do. It's the people who message me as SOON as I come online and are saying the word "so...." withen 3 messages of a conversation that annoy me. If the conversation died after "What did you do today?" let it die. Stop trying to get blood out of a stone. It won't work.
Another type of Instant Messaging I hate getting is the type who THINK they can handle a conversation. They type who log online, message you and ask you about your day and everytime you reply, the answer is always "cool". Actually, the answer is "cool" for EVERYTHING you say. I swear to god if they made keyboards which only had the letters for "hi, cool, lol, ok", some people would STILL LIVE. If you would like to have a conversation with me, have one. I am not your entertainment monkey. I don't enjoy being clapped at and have one word commands given to me when I talk to you. So please stop.
Now to tell you the truth, none of you who visit the site do this to me so don't worry I'm not insulting you. If you can actually complete a full thought between two people, you are well ahead of a lot of people.
Well I was in Sudbury last weekend. Good or Bad? Still not sure. It had some positive points and it had a lot of negative ones. The positive included dinner with parents, seeing old friends and snowboading. The negatives included getting drunk alone while my friends ditched me and watching two guys with a girl (who was flirting with me) make out until finally I had enough of their moans and groans and I took off to find a way home. Sometimes I really think I dislike people in general.
So make what I gave you and tell me which I shoudl have done. I'm wondering what New Years is going to be like cause I'm a little detured from partying now.
Laptop
Well it's still not being built. I'm getting a little fed up. I'm supposed to be getting my laptop and digital camera soon but from the look of things it doesn't look like I will be getting the laptop till AFTER X-Mas.
Merry Christmas to me.
Subury is Thugging It
I have never seen so many thugs in my life before. Walking through the mall all I could see was thugs right left and center. The only reason why I got looks from anyone was because I was the only guy in Sudbury with blue hair it seems. It was like "Oh My God Dawg. Look at this G. He doesn't have the blinging chains and the phat pants. Like what's the dope?" It almost made me cry. And after I saw my good friend Courtney, it seemed like everyone I saw walking around me was people I had learned to hate. Drove me nuts.
Eli Experience
Yet again, I'm going to be changing blogs. Now some of you already found out about my 'new blog'. I'm working on a theme and everything and I will hopefully have it up and running Janruary first. I can't guarentee anything because you know how scheduals change but lets see how this works out.
Eli Signing Out
EXAM
Well something that I am really proud about was just mentioned to me. I am exempt from my Programming Exam. "What? How?" Well it just so happens that I recieved 80+% in the course and therefor I don't have to go and write the exam at 8:30 Thursday morning. So that's awsome.
As for my schedual this semester, here's how it went:
Monday: 9:30 - 4:30 (11:30-1:30 break)
Tuesday: 8:30 - 4:30 (11:30-1:30 break)
Wednesday: 9:30 - 4:30 (11:30-1:30 break)
Thursday: 8:30 - 4:30 (12:30-2:30 break)
Friday: 8:30 - 2:30 (no break)
Quite a load I would say. Now next week (final week of school) I have the following schedual:
Monday: 1:30 - 4:30
Tuesday: 8:30 - 11:30
Wednesday: 1:30 - 4:30
Thursday: Quick Afternoon class for marking of project (Estimated 1:30-3:00)
Friday: 8:30 - 11:30
Then I'm done school.
So there you have it High Schoolers. I know some people from University will probably post on here telling me "Yeah I was done LAST week" but I'm happy with mine.
Goodbye
Speaking of University, I would like to say 'goodbye' and 'Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year' to all the girls in house 27. These wonderful people have been there for me when I needed a place to stay and I wasn't going to Dave's and they were the ones to dye my hair blue. They have been there so much for me and I want to thank them for it and wish them good luck on their holidays. See you guys in 2k5.
Spaces.msn.com
Some of you have noticed that in my nickname, occasionally I have an address by the title "http://space.msn.com/members/eliaa". That right there is my 'second blog' that I have going. This one will be kept for The crazy antics of my new band, At Least We Tried. you'll be able to keep up to date with my personal band experiences on this site and comment on everything about what you see.
T-Minus 9
That's right. 9 more days till I'm back in the 'Greater' City of Sudbury. Blue hair + new laptop + digital camera. It's going to be a FUN time.
My hair is still blue. Well, it's turning green, but that's about to change. For all those who wanted 'pictures', I haven't gotten my camera yet so I can't take any. But I am coming to Sudbury and I'm going to have blue hair still so the people who haven't seen it here in North Bay can now see it in Sudz.
Anyways, I'll post some more later, Dave is trying to milk information out of me.
First of all I would like you all to download NOFX - The Decline.
This song is 18 minutes long but all 18 minutes are enjoyable. Please don't pass this up.
Also I want to mention that I'm coming home soon to Sudbury. Yes on around December 18th, I'm going to be back and all Colleged up.
Beware
Well you guys have told me to keep this son-of-a-bitch up and running so here it stays.
As some of you know, I used to be in a band called "Too Far North". I was the guitarist in this band and we got to the point of even releasing a CD. I was with these guys until the faithful day I hit college.
Now some of you may know about "At Least We Tried". My second attempt at staying in a band. This band however has no drummer yet and no bassist. How could this ever work?
In Janruary, my band is supposed to be getting our instruments and we will probably be recording some more of our songs (other then the two 'fun ones' we have online) for the world to hear.
Now here's the fun part, you Sudbariens get to vote on the BEST NEW Too Far North song (so guys you better spread your music somehow), and up here in North Bay, I'll get all my friends to vote on the best ALWT song. Then we'll have a battle of the best on this site. The 'Best' TFN song versus the 'Best" ALWT song. Winner goes home with bragging rights.
Oh and TFN, just to spice things up a bit, I'm pretty sure all of our songs (minus like one which will be a parody) are written from scratch. And one of our songs takes an old riff of one of your best songs, changes it, and throws in some hardcore elements. PLUS: I have found the ability to start writting solos for songs now. I've been practicing THAT much.
Game On
It seems like yet again I have offended someone with a site of mine (this one). And yet again it was because of a thought of the moment and a feeling of the moment. Everyone who is a regular here knows that it is not my aim to hurt, anger or offend anyone personally in anyway and people have seen my views and thoughts change within a night (I'll fix the archieves so someone can look through them and see how my feelings towards my band and my new amp changed over the course of a couple of hours).
But the reason I am posting this is to ask these questions:
1. Should I continue managing this site?
2. If I do, should I put up a warning for new-users to read before entering, stating what this site is truely about?
3. Should I lay off the person feelings and/or thoughts on this site and make a private journal just for those?
4. Should I just keep going with the current layout of how the site is run?
5. Work on other projects like the "At Least We Tried" webring (coming soon) and the link page for software and links that YOU should be reading.
If there is anythign else you would like to add, please share.
Eli.
The future of Google/The News
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What would you do for one night of fun? Pure fun with no limits? Wow. A blast isn't it. Here I was. dacing with the girl of my dreams and having a good time. We walked back from the Wall and I took her back to my place and we made out for the longest time.
I then jolted up in bed and looked at the clock. It's 7:30. I must have dozed off. I'm supposed to be going to the Wall tonight and it seems as if I slept from 5:30 onwards. Oh well it felt good. I looked beside me and that dream girl was exactly what it was. A dream.
So I got up and headed out to a buddies place to prepare to go to the Wall. I watched as they drunk themselves to the point of 'fun' and stumbled to get ready. Here I was. Babysitter.
Now I wasn't exactly going to complain. I had a plan of action. I babysit them for a while until they start having fun and then let them go nuts on the dance floor while I go and find someone to maybe hook up with. It was perfect. I now have blue hair and I dressed up nice. I also shaved my chin-strap and goatee off. I was a completely different person.
I would tell you about some of the uncomfortable moments while waiting to go to the Wall but instead leave them up to your imagination and I'm just going to say that I'm happy I know where I stand.
Anyways, we get to the Wall at roughly....10:00. We walk in and there is a total of maybe 3 people there. So we played pool and me and Stewie talked until the flood came in. During this time, I had an awsome friend of mine seem to pull a couple of moves on me. I wasn't sure what exactly it was but hey, maybe something might happen. Maybe I don't have to 'go and pick up' that night and I can go home with this awsome friend of mine, curl up together and sleep till the morning.
That thought came in and out of my head during the night thanks to me losing everyone every so often. One member of our little 'group' would wonder, I would go find them, and then the rest would be gone. So during most of the night I was alone.
Then came in Howie. This guy has to be my role model. He's a really good friend and a fun guy to be with and he doesn't give a fuck what other people think. So when I saw him, I decided to give a quick "Hello" and when I returned, group missing.
Fine.
So I hung with Howie and we danced around and all of a sudden a group of ladies approached us and started dancing with Howie. I let him be for a bit and came back and one of them started dancing with me. She tried to get me involved but it seemed like the other girls didn't even want me near them. So they went for their smoke break.
Failed attempt Number 2.
Then came a good ol' pal Tori. The one who I feel like is stoned all the time and just uses me for sex. I chilled with them for a bit and then Tori goes "What are you doing tomorrow?" I shrugged and told her that I wasn't doing much and she said "Can i come over to talk tomorrow?"
Failed attempt number 3
Tori and her group went off somewhere (not to the dance floor cause that's where I headed) and while dancing, someone grabbed my ass. Looked back and I didn't see anyone. That was hot and all but I had no idea if it was a friend joking around or not. Next thing I know, I'm alone again on the dance floor with no one near me that I knew. So I decided to go looking again and I found my original group. I got called over and asked to dance with the one who I thought was flirting earlier. "Why not...let's have some fun". So I started dancing and the more I stayed it seemed like the farther she got away. It came to the point where there was no point of me staying and I left.
Last Failed Attempt
No girl of dreams near me. Walked home alone and went to my room alone.
My buddy came up to me after and told me that I was probably 'trying to hard'. The funny part about the whole thing is that although I was trying to pick up, I still don't activily persue it until I know the girl might be interested back.
In the end, I'm alone almost more so then before. I know it's not all about getting some but having that someone close to talk to and share your feelings with is missed. It seems that I get farther and farther from that as time goes on.
This is kind of my farewell messege to happiness for a bit. I can officially announce now that I have slipped ever so slightly into depression. Something I haven't felt since my break up with Rachel back last September where after that I never thought I could get depressed ever again.
Now I am sitting here feeling like nothing. I feel empty. It's not just the lack of a girlfriend but it seems like things are falling apart. Everything. From friends to girls to money to everything else. I used to honestly be able to look in the mirror and say "Darien, you look good today" and now it's "Do I really have to wake up this morning.
Eli
Theres a prophet on a mountain and he's making up dinner
With long division and riding crop
Anybody can feel like a winner
When it's served up piping hot
But the people aren't looking for a handout
They're America's working corps
Can this be what they voted for?
Let them eat war
Let them eat more
That's how to ration the poor
Let them eat more
Let them eat war
There's an urgent need to feed
Declining crime
From the force to the union shops
The war economy is making new jobs
But the people who benefit most
Are breaking bread with their benevolent hosts
You never stole from the rich to give to the poor
All he ever gave to them was a war
And a foreign enemy to deplore
Let them eat war
Let them eat more
That's how to ration the poor
Let them eat more
Let them eat war
There's an urgent need to feed
Declining crime
We've got to kill 'em and eat em'
Before they reach for their checks
Squeeze some blue collars
make them bleed from their necks
Seize a few dollars from the people who sweat
Cause it's freedom or death and they won't question it
At a job site the boss is god like
Conditioned workhorses park at a stoplight
Seasoned vets with their feet in nets
A stones throw away from a rock fight
But not tonight, feed 'em death
Here comes another ration (feed them death)
Cause they're the finest in the nation (feed them death)
But there's nothing left to feed them
When it's freedom or it's death
Let them eat war
Let them eat more
That's how to ration the poor
Let them eat more
Let them eat war
There's an urgent need to feed
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Just a reminder
I'm going to get the good part out first.
Tori came over today. We had a nice chat. She wasn't feeling well which sucked. But we hadn't seen each other in ages so we got to have a laugh and talk. It was nice to lie beside someone in a bed and just talk again. Haven't done that in a good while.
Well she left and I went to sleep for an hour or so.
I wake up and soon after I recieve a phone call. A usual occurance around here. Come on it's a phone call. Well it ends up being my ex-g/f's roommate. And the purpose of calling me was to get weed. She wanted me to ask my roommates for weed.
*blink blink*
Excuse me? Did I just get asked for weed? IN the background I hear my ex girlfriend in sort of a mess like she's craving.
So now let's recall some shit here.... My ex girlfriend who told me she 'didn't smoke' and she 'only does weed one a month' is now calling me for weed. Talk about lying to my face.
And some people wonder why I never have trust in women. Some people wonder why it's so hard for me to like a girl. I get shit like this. I'm very picky when it comes to the girls I like now a days. Trust is an issue which most women seem to think is like a fucking tampon. After you use it for a bit, it can EASILY be thrown away.
God damnit Fucking Shit.
It's shit like this which makes me wish I never liked women. Yet another girl who said to me "I'll never hurt you/lie to you" only to shit in my face.
Well this weekend was interesting. Apon breaking my pact on going straight edge, I decided to party again with my buddy Dave. Now it went well until I had a point where I felt lonely of someone close (girl) and that passed after a bit.
Anyways, I had passed out early Saturday because I wasn't feeling well and when I woke up, Dave was gone. In a drunken state, he stole Howie's car and drove to his Ex's house to have sex with her.
That caused a lot of contraversy in the household I might add.
The Eli Experience
As some of you might have noticed, I have changed the theme, title and other bits and pieces of my site. Why have I done this?
Well I'm trying something new. After watching "The Girl Next Door" and how much the guy went through to get that one girl and how he wouldn't take NO for an answer, it inspired me. After seeing Eli in the movie go all out not caring what people think, it inspired me.
Now anyone who lives in North Bay knows that I have a nickname Eli. I'm also a shy guy if you really think about it and I back away from things really easily when I don't think things are going to work out. So I'm hoping to change that and go for the impossible and quit being shy. I'm also going to say what's on my mind a lot more and stop holding back.
So lets see what's happening.
Laptop
I'm getting a new computer soon and oh is it ever a computer. 3.2Ghz with 1GB of Ram. I also have a 60Gb harddrive installed with an external 80 that I can carry around. I also get a digital camera (finally) with my laptop purchase. It's a 4.0 MegaPixel and it's FREE. I can take black and white pictures with it so expect a LOT of artwork being uploaded soon enough.
That's it for now, internet will probably be cut off soon here at school.
Eli
UPDATE: Me and Tori have talked for half-an-hour and worked some things out. Good news is that she didn't talk shit and she never used me for sex.
Fuck You....Fuck You....Fuck you and you and you
If you see this (or you don't) then FUCK YOU. Today was going pretty well off if you hadn't have noticed from my last post. Things were going good. My day ROCKED yesterday and there was nothing to complain about.
Think about it. I'm getting a new laptop. I'm finally going to get some sleep. I slept in. I got a free supper. Etc. Man yesterday was sweet. I even the only bad thing (which was coming to terms with the fact that me and Amy could and would never really be), actually became a good thing in my eyes.
Now let's roll on to Wednesday morning. Two am I hear a loud pounding on my door. Of course I am in deep sleep. So I get up, go to my door and open it. It's my best friend with his roommate drunk off their asses coming to tell me they saw Tori at the wall. I quickly get them out of my room cause I wanted to sleep. 15 minutes later, I hear my roommates come home with two women. I laugh it off and roll over trying to sleep. That is until I hear the perky little voices of the girls.
Jen and Tori.
Who is Tori now you may ask? Tori was someone I was seeing a while ago but for some reason stopped. I thought it was because I told her 'no more sex' or something. Well now she's sitting with my roommates (who she 'hated') telling them shit about me and her and from the sounds of it, me and her are over forever. I was used for sex because she was stoned all the time.
I feel FUCKING beutiful.
Oh and to make matters better, I think I have a piece of glass lodged into my foot because it's bleeding right now and I don't know why. It's fucking hurting and it's mostly dried up.
You know, just when things start to work. Just when you feel good about yourself. Just when you can sit back and say "Man, life is fucking good", it comes back and gives you the one finger salute and sends you off down hill.
I'm now writing this at 3:37 am when I have class at 8 and a final exam friday. My roommates are arguing in the room next to me right now and I'm not sure when I will get back to sleep.
Hahah..and now Tori is talking to me.
Life really can suck.
Eli logging off.
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