I've held out for 46 days...That's 46 days of not moving in on his turf, of not overtly flirting, or making overt gestures of affection. 46 days of toungue in cheek comments, and compliments, and sweet gestures. 46 days of harmless flirting between friends (46 days of torture) kept in check by only one thing. Respect for myself. I refuse to compromise my integrity, no matter the temptation, I will not have someone cheat and be with me, that is not the kind of person I would be with or the kind of person I want to be. But foul temptress, make a choice. Because the line between friend and something more is blurring quickly and you have the eraser. I have made it abundantly clear that I will not make the first move and I've made it this far, which is an achievement. Most guys would have given in along time ago. You might say this is self preservation, I don't know for sure what you'd do if I did make a move(reciprocate, kick me in the groin, be silent and accept the assault?). As with most girls, you are receptive and flirtatious one minute and then cold and bitter the next. Which will I see? But you're at heart a quiet and soft spoken person, so I'd bet that whatever I did would slide. I'd like to stress one thing. I have done nothing so far, and plan to do nothing. The more you cuddle me, and rest your head on my shoulder, and bat your eye lashes at me and pout to get what you want, the more I think you like me. You spend more time with me, than with your actual boyfriend(and you lament dating him, but stress you dont want to break up with him).It would seem that a clear cut path is never an option for me, no matter the situation it is always more complicated than need be. In all honesty, if this pace continues something will happen, two people rarely become close and then nothing. So here is the question, how close is too close and should I stop this or let events take their course? Honour will only carry me so far, and the honourable course leads me to empty handed loneliness.

by angryguitarfreak on 12 Jul 2006 at 23:16

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Having been down that same path, with disastrous results, my advice to you is force as much of an answer as you can so she stops fucking with your heart. And if she doesn't give you one then, she never will.

154895 | posted by Edicius on July 13, 2006 at 1:13

I'd also like to note, that I am not only nice to her because as I jokingly say "im only nice if im trying to sleep with you". If my goal was to simply bed as many girls as I could, there are much more efficient methods, and much sounder girls to choose for that purpose. It would seem the asshole in me has all but died (except for brief revivals), and all thats left is bitter cynicism and dry wit.

154894 | posted by angryguitarfreak on July 12, 2006 at 23:25