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Name - Chris
Age - 18 years old
Marital status: single and lonely
Zodiac - Aries i think
Birthday - march 30th
Location - Canada
Hair Colour: Brown
Current Haircut: shortish
Enjoys: Guitar, Karate...and fun stuff
Dislikes: confusing ppl (namely girls)
Obsessions: Guitar
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And I said to God "Why Me?" and God said to me "Why Not?"
Music: Existentialism On Prom Night -Straylight Run
O ME! O life!
Of the questions of these recurring,
Of the endless trains of the faithless,
Of cities fill'd with the foolish,
Of myself forever reproaching myself, (for who more foolish than I,
and who more faithless?)
Of eyes that vainly crave the light, of the objects mean, of the
struggle ever renew'd,
Of the poor results of all, of the plodding and sordid crowds I see
around me,
Of the empty and useless years of the rest, with the rest me
intertwined,
The question, O me! so sad, recurring-What good amid these,
O me, O life?
The Answer, that you are here.
That life exists and identity,
That the powerful play goes on,
And you may contribute a verse.
What will be your verse?
Apr 2004
I wonder... By a good friend
I wonder if I learned to love
would this void be filled?
I wonder if this beast within
is too strong to be killed..
i wonder is any drug
to guide me through the pain
Is there time to get help
or has my spirit already been slain
I wonder if anything means anything
or is it all just a game?
Is life just an illusion
made just to make us go insane?
I wonder if I will walk forever
alone amongst the crowd.
I wonder if I'm trapped here
behind my darkened shroud.
I wonder if ill really die
On the day I choose
I wonder if I'll always play
a game I'm doomed to lose.
I wonder if I will ever know
just what's on my mind.
I wonder if there's hope out there
among the dreams that I can't find.
I wonder if the sky is blue
somewhere beyond the gray.
I wonder if I'll ever have
more hope than I do today.
I wonder if by dying
I'd find what I'm looking for.
I wonder if Life's secrets
are locked behind Death's gruesome door.
I wonder if there's freedom
on the other side.
I wonder if I will ever learn
not to run and hide.
I wonder if what I'm feeling
has ever been felt before.
I wonder why I'm dreaming
dreams I've lost before.
I wonder if by dying
I'll finally be free.
I wonder if I'll ever know
just what I want to be.
I wonder if I die tonight
will they have sense enough not to cry.
If I chose to die tonight
would you even say good bye
Apr 2004
Dream Theater - Take Away My Pain Lyrics
I was sitting on the edge of his bed
Staring at the headlines on the paper
He said, "Look at poor Gene Kelly
I guess he won't be singing in the rain."
You can take away my heroes
Can you take away my pain
Take away my pain
Leave the cold outside
Please don't let it rain
Don't stumble on my pride
Take away my pain
I'm not frightened anymore
Just stay with me tonight
I'm tired of this fight
Soon I'll be knocking at you're door
She was standing by the edge of his bed
Satring at the message on their faces
He said, " What else can you do babe?
I guess I won't be coming home again."
They just took away all my promises
Make them take away my pain
Take away my pain
Leave the cold outside
Please don't let it rain
Don't stumble on my pride
Take away my pain
I'm not frightened anymore
Just stay with me tonight
I'm tired of this fight
Soon I'll be knocking at you're door
His final scene
The actor bows
And all those years
Are gone somehow
The crowd applauds
The curtain falls
I was standing by the edge of the water
I noticed my reflection in the waves
Then I saw you looking back at me
And I knew that for a moment
You were calling out my name
You took away my hero
Will you take away my pain
Take away my pain
Let the cold inside
It's time to let it rain
There's nothing left to hide
Take away my pain
I'm not frightened anymore
I'm learnig to survive
Without you in my life
Til you come knocking at my door.......
Apr 2004
History
History is the crappiest class i have, i know more than the goddamn teacher. NOT good. Shes so dumb, dumber than a sac a hammers (and twice as ugly). I mean wow, she can read....what a skill, that certainly qualifies her to teach us. I know, class why don't i read you the text book? That way you can all learn something new! I got news for you lady, i read that text book inside of a week, i know what it says, if they are paying you to read it to me, they must think im really dumb. I CAN READ IT BY MYSELF, YOU = NOT NEEDED. Grrrrrr, i swear if i burned her text book she'd just stare blankly at the wall till she found a new one. She's as bad as abols.
Apr 2004
Ok, tomorrow nite
I am TOTALLY free, no work, dont have to work till later in the morning saturday. Does anyone want to hangout?
Apr 2004
ahhh tuesday....
that craptaclar day after monday, to early in the week to think its close to the weekend, the sleep you got caught up on on the weekedn is now slacking again... heres some lyrics for you:
Dont Look Past Me --Dream Theatre
I don’t know, I feel a lot of [sample is robert deniro from the ]
Distance and I feel far away. [film the deer hunter. ]
I’ll see you later...
I have seen you born before me
I have watched you die
I have heard every word you said to me
Leave no question in your mind
There is no brighter star to guide you
Don’t look past me to the sun, the sun is i
I am the sun...
So close the door behind him
He wanders slowly to the car
Trying to lift his heavy heart
He says...
I feel bad about this. [sample is timothy hutton from the]
I feel really bad about this. [film ordinary people. ]
Just, just let me feel bad about this.
I’m through just getting by
Countless times a friend has told me
Watch out for the wave
Now it seems the sea will be my grave
And still you swim to save me
Even though the water is much colder now
Even though the water is much colder now
Sometimes you can act on intuition
Sometimes you can use a different point of view
I’ve found that in such a position
I could always come to you
(sun) I’ve seen you weep
I have seen you tired and lonely (without you)
But it only takes one heart (one heart)
To lift you up and send you on
Can you understand the life I’ve shown you
Understand it’s me, I’m giving you
I have seen you born before me
I have watched you die
I have heard every word you said to me
I have no question in my mind
There’s been no brighter star to guide me
I don’t look past you to the sun,
So don’t look past me to the sun,
The sun is...
And so love is broken
They’re asking me how can you help
When you don’t even know how that feels
I don’t need one thousand reasons
When someone starts to cry
When someone says my heart needs lifting
Don’t ask how come, ask how high
I have seen you born before me
I have watched you die
I have heard every word you said to me
Leave no question in your mind
There is no brighter star to guide you
Don’t look past me to the sun, the sun is i
Leave no question in your mind
There is no brighter star to guide you
Don’t look past me to the sun, (it knows where you are)
Apr 2004
So glad
to be done work for the week. argh....job sucks. work sucks....in fact everything sucks. im done complaining. just gonna go play guitar for now.
Apr 2004
Urgh...
roughly two hours till work...yay! Msn isnt working...MORE YAY!...so bored. got nothin to do this weekend cept work. urgh...hopefully msn will be workin when i get off. maybe i can find someone to hangout with this weekend. i donno. this music sure aint helpin my mood...whats it called? Lost without you-dream theatre...somehow fitting...should dl the song, its trying to make me cry, and its almost workin. very depressing. good song tho...anyway im goin on about nothin.
Apr 2004
Voices-Dream Theatre (these lyrics are better than the last ones i posted)
'Love, just don't stare'
He used to say to me
every Sunday morning
The spider in the window
The angel in the pool
The old man takes the poison
Now the widow makes the rules
'So speak, I'm right here'
She used to say to me
not a word, not a word
Judas on the ceiling
the Devil in my bed
I guess Easter's never coming
So I'll just wait inside my head
Like a scream but sort of silent
living off my nightmares
Voices repeating me
'Feeling threatened?
We reflect your hopes and fears.'
Voices discussing me
'Others steal your thoughts
they're not confined
within your mind.'
Thought disorder
Dream control
Now they read my mind on the radio
But where was the Garden of Eden?
I feel elated
I feel depressed
Sex is death, Death is sex
Says it right here on my Crucifix
Like a scream but sort of silent
living off my nightmares
Voices protecting me
'Good behavior
brings the Savior
to his knees.'
Voices rejecting me
'Others steal your thoughts
they're not confined
to your own mind.'
"I don't wanna be here, 'cause of my
suffering, 'cause of my illness.
Only love is worth having, only
love is what matters, loving every
people on equal terms. "
"You've got to know who you're
dealin' with because, like a stranger,
a-heh, just might come in through
here with a gun... and then, what
would you do? (Heh.)"
"Everything is immaterial..."
"'n' you know that reality is immaterial."
"This is not reality..."
I'm kneeling on the floor
staring at the wall
like the spider in the window
I wish that I could speak
Is there fantasy in refuge?
God in politicians?
Should I turn on my religion?
These demons in my head tell me to
I'm lying here in bed
Swear my skin is inside out
Just another Sunday morning
Seen my diary on the newsstand
Seems we've lost the truth to quicksand
It's a shame no one is praying
'Cause these voices in my head
keep saying...
'Love, just don't stare.'
'Reveal the Word when you're
supposed to'
Withdrawn and introverted
Infectiously perverted
'Being laughed at and confused
keeps us pleasantly amused
enough to stay.'
Maybe I'm just Cassandra fleeting
Twentieth century Icon bleeding
Willing to risk Salvation
to escape from isolation
I'm witness to redemption
heard you speak but never listened
Can you rid me of my secrets?
Deliver us from Darkness?
Voices repeating me
'Feeling threatened?
We reflect your hopes and fears.'
Voices discussing me
Don't expect your own Messiah
This neverworld which you desire
is only in your mind.
Apr 2004
my weekend went to shit. i have drivers ed if i dont have to work, yay fun. and next weekend too (im gonna book that off tho so i can have the nights to do stuff). Anyway today was kewl, went to regans goin away party. went to kfc for lunch. went to emerge with my brother cuz he was sick. ooo fun. lifes soo full of suprises. most of em are totally crappy ( i had no idea i was in drivers ed for instance). but life goes on.
Apr 2004
The Ex-Billy Talent.
Good song, so much feeling in it.
when i looked at her face
and i know that she'd changed
your my all time plack
then the sky turned grey
your my all time plack
then the sky turned grey
and so i sat in my room for 27 days
no she never called
i had somethin' to say
but no she never called
i had somethin' to say
well i don't know much and i don't know how
why would she put me threw such torture
i would have given my life for her
she was the one that left me over
now i'm lovesick and i'm not gonna call her
will i bet she's great
another boyfriend's lame
she could go to hell
it'll never be the same
she could go to hell
it'll never be the same
we'll my open worms
well they time i'd say
your my all time plack
then the sky turned grey
your my all time plack
and the sky turned grey
well i don't know much and i don't know how
why would she put me threw such torture
i would have given my life for her
she was the one that left me over
now i'm lovesick and i'm not gonna call her
why would she put me threw such torture
i would have given my life for her
she was the one that left me over
now i'm lovesick and i'm not gonna call her
well i don't know much and i don't know how
why would she put me threw such torture
i would have given my life for her
she was the one that left me over
now i'm lovesick and i'm not gonna call her
Apr 2004
Go to
http://www.faerie-dream.net/everythingblah/yabb/YaBB.cgi
Go there, and start postin!!! It's my friends forum and it needs members desperatly!!!!!!
Apr 2004
it says hold on and take this ride
and set aside
memories of all the times
when you collide
then you'll leave me here to die
heres the things i meant
but never said
it says sit back and take the time
to lose your mind
and find out what its like to die
so wheres my spine
when its time to give an obvious and simple reason why
i wont write again
what do you see
when you look at me
do you take me for a fool
so what makes you play this game
with results always the same
and nothing but bad reputations to gain
it speaks to me like all is fine
and i could cry
from all the bends and breaks that i
took this time
when happieness is based on lies
its so hard its too hard to tell the truth
what do you see
when you look at me
do you take me for a fool
this fool is through
this fool is through
this fool is through
what do you see
when you look at me
do you take me for a fool
what do you see
when you look at me
do you take me for a fool
it says hold on and take this ride
and set aside
memories of all the times
when you collide
then you'll leave me here to die
heres the things i meant
but never said
...good song. kewl guitar. Good lyrics, good song. Not bad day today, played some guitar. I get to meet ali this friday, and im hanging with erin this weekend. So it wont be as dead as last weekend. Thats always good. Got some compliments on my poems today too. Thats always welcome. gotta love forums.
Apr 2004
Ooooo fun. Got decked in the face today at karate. Low blow nick! Oh well, didnt get hog tied, thats the important thing. Did bleed alot tho. Who wants to hangout friday and anytime im not working? I have a very flexible(non existant) schedual aside from work. It's very boring here, but i do get free movies. And i have $ to spend, no shortage of that. Anyway, karate was kewl we hog tied ppl with zap straps today, thats always fun. I still have a few, anyone wanna go? LOL. im bored, gonna go play guitar.
Apr 2004
Who wants to hang tomorrow?
same question as above, assuming i dont get called in to work tomorrow morning. Im really bored, and dont want to spend the whole weekend at home.
WORK!
Was hilarious tonite, first these asshole kids come in with a 24 inch pizza and tried to get a refund at pizza hut, from the supraviser. When kelly told em we dont sell that size of pizza they tried to sell her some. LOL when kelly told em no, they went out side and smeared pizza all over some cars. Thats when joe came out and bitched at em, he kicked em out, but they came back inside. So kelly saw em and went to get joe, he came back and kicked em out again, but they argued and said it was too cold. Joe toled em he would let em wait for a ride inside, he dialed 911.
Apr 2004
Work was...
work....yup. Boring, saw over 100 ppl i know tonite, includling a few ex's. Got almost no work done, cept when we had to close. thats what they get for sticking 5 ppl back there. Really boring. Have to work tomorrow nite too. Grrrrr.....That eats my whole weekend. Now i can't even try to find ppl to hang out with till sunday. more home sitting grrrrrr....Oh well, i have lots of music to listen to.
Apr 2004
Bored stiff
Sitting here in science, doin nothin. So bored. Have a comp science test next period. Fun. Least i know im gonna ace it. That class is so easy. Hmm.... done ,my science hmwk, cant do comp science at home (usually),music doesnt give hmwk(usually) and i dont care about history. what am i gonna do tonite?