She's Getting Married

i got news from my "match.com-produced" friend.... well, she's getting married already next month... and she's inviting me to come..... 
 
let's go back to the past.... 
 
i met her in the internet.... through match.com.... among the many others match the site paired me... she's the only one i got along very fine... we really have many common things (i think)... until i did a remarkable thing.... i went to their house... down to naga.... all the way from cavite... i travelled for almost half day just to get to her place... then we met.... we were very shy at first.... i stayed at a nearby hotel, and before i went back to cavite... i bought and gave her a bunch of flowers... 
 
i know that was the sweetest thing to do.... 
 
then we just continued communication via email.... 
but when i got busy with many other things.... our communication became less and less.... during that time i had my first gf, which was slowly turning sour.... the naga girl knew i had a gf.... until my first gf broke up with me.... i told it to the naga girl.... 
 
perhaps due to proximity, i immediately found a new gf.... so i got very busy again with my new found love.... however, me and the naga girl became occassional friends through email or text.... i kept on telling her that what would happen if i courted her....  
 
until one day, she told me that she had a bf.... i asked her what would happen if i had courted.... she said she might have answered me "yes"... but the thing is, i didn't do it.... yah, because she's so far.... and i have a present gf during that time.... 
 
so life goes on.... from time to time, we occassionally communicate.... until one day, she told me she had a fiancee.... that's the time i really stopped thinking about her.... i don't wanna pursue anymore especially if i will turn to become a villain in their relationship.... 
 
many things also happened with me.... me and my 2nd gf became best of friends instead of lovers.... 
 
then today, she texted me.... i was shocked actually... she told me.... she's inviting me to her wedding....  
 
well.... i feel quite sad because this is the one person i didn't pursue because of proximity.... i just got to know her a little, but i could have known her more.... and from there i can decide if she will be my partner in life... but no, i didn't do it.... 
 
*sigh*  
 
well.... we just joked in text... that if i happen (she kiddingly texted to me) to really pursued courting her, then perhaps it's me she's going marry... 
 
well.... that's the way it is.... 
somehow i feel regretful i didn't walk an extra mile for this person... perhaps.... if, only if.... she could be the one.... but too late, well, not really late.... i really did not pursue.... 
 
first, i felt my depression due to my mother's situation.... 
then here's a reminder, that here's a product of being not pursuant.... i feel glad for her, but somehow regretfull i didn't pursue..... 
 
haayyy.....

last modified Oct 1, 2002 at 5:19

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