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¤H.D.U poems | My Thoughts, £o₪εĐεv!£¤
Oct 2005
Lost Without An Other
Sitting alone, on a seet in my room
I think of the times of me and you
I think of the days when we would smile
And it's like I'm there with you again
Guilt and jealousy finding its way back to me
But for what can my dry mouth dare to succeed
A loneliness calling out an uncertainty
Like a child lost without a home
I no longer have protection and love
I am shafted in this world alone
Fearing the doubt, I may replace you
An impossible task, standing naked
And here I am, crying out loud, without the other around
Becoming a destitute of hated truths
It's something I was, It's something I promissed to leave behind
But it shatters to no ends as this body folds
As this mind tears in the hands of humanity
What can I say? I stand here broken...
I am nothing without a someone...
Oct 2005
Trusting Lies
Perplexity! ... Turning into a burning sensation...
I can't help! ... Feeling like I'm bound to my senses...
It's not right! ... That my wings are tightly roped together...
Preventing a life! ... So that I might die... a lonely cremation...
..
Why can't I ... See us for what it's become?; For I,
..Get lost in the depths, in the deceptions of your eyes.
And I, fall.. to the floor
.....Fall into your painted lips
And I, fall. Flat. On the floor.
Peering into your faded kiss
Where I... am left, Stoned.. in the center of your lies
So I, am Left. a fainted grave.. holding in.. ended cries
..
,,
It's called...
..
..
..
..
Oct 2005
Doc's Fall Brings Meaning To Life
I see a world full of mystery and smiles
Just waiting for the day to see the trees for miles
Leaves changing, branches swaying, feeling like a child
It's time to plan ahead, for me to live again
Yet for now I'm bound to stay in one place
Sitting on the sidewalk, just loosing face
Like I wasn't real, I stare at the pavement just incase
And in an instant, a nice old man breaks down on his step
I look into his face, into his eyes and mind
Seeing what I believed to be his life so kind
Full of laughter and love: a caring man inside
The very best, making sure so that people smiled
So again after all, seeing him get back onto his feet
I lift my chin way high and my spirits so neet
Because if he is so brave to keep going
I'll work hard, live love and love life
Just like its supposed to be
Oct 2005
A Broken Promiss
No matter the way you say
No matter the changing day
There's still a nail underneath my foot
Jabbing the vein to my heart
Wicked children see into the pain
But no one see's our adventures
The laughter we brought to each other
When things were flying by
Like a love on cloud nine
We drove each other crazy
With tears of hatred and infatuation
Our blood spued out into the water
Into the stream that we built
Fueld by none other then our screams
So we let go, killing everything that was
Because nothing makes sense
Violated to the point of death
Hands no longer capable to reach
The one we called angel
Like a gold ring still connected with love
Except we both broke the key that held it
And now that circle keeps falling
Down the water fall
Down it falls
Down the water fall
Goodbye winter fall
Your favourite time just spent wrong
When it was our time
For us to leave summer behind
Oct 2005
Crow's Kaw
Peel away my skin
Seeing I no longer bleed
Feared I found the lies
I then get lost in truths
Horns stitched to him
He read the world to me
Still seeing the hurt inside
I fall infront of sin
An other; so perfect, so right
I found the one to love
Yet again, I bend and fall to blame
For letting myself believe
For dressing my hopes in warmth
That he can mend my wings
Shot cold, with a pistol to my jaw
I am pieced apart, and a crow tears the night
Because I know the end will come
Where I will not survive the fight
Oct 2005
Lines apear in vision face
Pooring your desires and needs
The steam, the smoke, the lust of passion
So seemingly beautiful
Oct 2005
Apologies Unheard
Beeting hearts alike as one
Truth and lies are darting stones
While a universe of doubt and hurt
Fills my head and troubled heart
Why does this feeling come so quick
Showing the last hours of my desperate hands
I am the one filled sand
Now slipping so far away
I judge and cry, and whimper along
During the night and day
Why this owl sitting on my shoulder
Has cast me as his pray
No godly figure can understand
Neither spirit nor human being
For I am perished within the fires
That burn the wicked and the fight
Inside a great sphinx's breast
Pooring out her empty blood
Oct 2005
Guilted Axe
Insensitive just killed the night
He does not get the pain
Proud to be the ugliness
Proud to be the drain
Sucking dry the crossroads
As endearment is put away
And so my soul is lost
Somewhere between the line
Frozen in some conspicuous
Yet newly created mould
I am the bride of the marker
Just pilfered through on by
In front of the one skilled mind
Plastered in thick mud
Him, hiding away, contained
Built to live inside a mask
Cheering on my perplexity
To rip apart the human being
That I valued and sought to be
Party Prank
It stumbles and rolls
A drunk bastard fool
Like any other man
Just a laugh and gag
Finding a way to fight the night
Finding a lesser fool
Someone easy to pray
So here I go
Just joining in
To become just like the others
A fool, a drunk, a fucking drop out
Letting it rip with the punches
After the jokes and the rumbles
With the ones who give you nothing
Except for a blood stained throat
Dropped in a box, that holds us all
As we drown our worlds to persue a path
A once exciting pleasure, but now a fickle prank
Dangerously, we all come crashing down
Being it as our fault... since we are the ones
Pulling it on ourselves
Just hurting and humiliating
The person we once were
The Rose
Warnings of me across the state
Prove me to be unwanted
Wanted is to be kept alive
Not the other way around
Molded into this beauty rose
That stabs and pricks
You seem to understand the rose
For what she really is
Everyday there is a new light
For her to see in her passer-by
He is a stranger man then to believed
He bares a truth untold
Yet she still remembers the day
When he did not stop to smell the peddles
And all she could feel was the rain
With the cold air that he left
So when he feels the need to bend
Picking up the rose
He feels her wicked kiss
And its her who feels the blow
Oct 2005
Dead On Arrival
What it means to be in this
Has not yet rendered me
To you I am at your disposal
To me, you are someone cold
Sometimes I fall for you
At other times dreams fall through
Back and forth I cut myself
This knife deep inside my sleeve
And yet I bear no mark
My blood bleads not for you
For I am mearly a dried up corps
Awaiting on, for eternity...
To end a vampire's toll
Oct 2005
I Dream For Dreams
When I sit alone in a corner
I slowly fall deep in a dream
Where I am never left unheard of
And there is a beautiful soul awaiting me
An enchanting remedy for a brief encounter
I'm born in sight for the first time
A hand reaching out towards me
No more lies beneath the buried
And there are no more tears in my eyes
Once and a while I day dream
I fall into this senseless drug
Purely looking for an opening
Where my heart can rest among you
Inside this blinding matter
That finds us together in a blur
It's our land of pleasure
It's our frantic grasp for air
A place where we find eachother
A life that bleeds in care
In the trappings of a life's long lived affair