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¤H.D.U poems | My Thoughts, £o₪εĐεv!£¤
Sep 2005
thats why im concentrating on work
thats why im leaning on friendship for support
even if i miss your smell, its still easier to breathe
because i can't trust these faded senses
Sep 2005
The Bold Cross
There's rain again
Where she left her heart
Felt by the scar on her face
He watches her outside his grip
Using his powers for his evil ways
He knows he bares controle
But the girl won't let him win
She understands her possibilities
That one day she can leave
With pride in her that bleeds
She's scared to let herself down
So she stays away; not too close
With her only hope
She screams to god
To tell her what she needs to know
Sep 2005
Virtuous
Faith leads me into this faded lie
Rebuilding my youth, my existence
Into what seems to be who I really am
Your mouth poisoned these ears
And now its time to believe again
My hands let go in the rain that pores sensation
My breath caving into temptation
Introducing what true compassion is
I break into a tiny smile, finding myself as a child
Embracing fragments of this cold night
In hopes to guide my resurrection
I hold my tongue that burns within day
Because I hate doing this time
For a crime, of depraved passion
Sep 2005
The Journal Ends
.
.
..
...and so you win
.....your hands slip
........so its goodbye
From this broken journal
the pain i feel now
is more then anything i've felt before
its so strong now
that my words seem lost
just far from my mouth
I want to reach out
I try, but your anger speaks louder
so i'm stuck awaiting my fall
If only you would catch me
Now It's Real
Nothing to you.... Just Nothing
I thought we fought to make up
But I was wrong wasn't I?
It was really you hating me
It was really your way to say
That your love wasn't real
It seemed to be,
But I was wrong wasn't I?
I hate that you do this everyday
Make my heart collaps in pain
My mind in shut down in lock down
Yet all I want is you. Knowing you don't
But now your set to overdrive
Because I was wrong for you, wasn't I?
Treat Me Like This
whats wrong with me
i was ready to give the world
taking everything in me
just to love and be there
i just wanted to see you, hear you, feel you
speak to you alone, like lovers do
but it wasnt enough
i wasnt the one you believed to be
i was only a sexual healing
i woke up for you
now im going back to sleep
maybe one day i'll lay forever flown
but now i can only dream
so i'll stay rested... just alone in sorrow
I Killed This
I write my emotions that bleed
My heart and my mind compressed
You think the worst of my words
And all I can say is "I'm sorry"
I didn't mean for things to happen
But I guess it gave you a reason
Putting words into my mouth
For you to push me out the door
On the phone waiting for your voice
Then I realized you were yelling at me
The words you said made me silent
My heart stopped and you hung up
Hungry for tears made wrong
So now I'm gone out of your world
And for you it might be for good
I didn't mean for it to get this bad
All I wanted was a goodnight kiss
And what I got was these goodbye tears
Sep 2005
Triggered Cold
I'm awakened by the cold air that you breath
So long to what you believe
Fragile lives entertwined
To break apart and fly
Now everything violated in its place
Our voices so far away
Hands on bottles to fade the lies
That our faces can only play
Tonight I fall.. proven to dream
That nightmares are apart of me
Alone in forms, but thoughts awake
So long to you, it's time to leave
I'm going down without you
I'm letting you live, without me
It's better to cry alone at night
Knowing your better off without me
Because you're blind If I'm around
Your life is a dream, when I'm somewhere not found
Because when I'm frozen in the cold air that you breathe
I'm falling too fast and gone
From the top of the tower and down
Sep 2005
Attracted to a different kind
In ways They don't understand
Trouble in my own troubled ways
The Lost, the poor in one hand
Sep 2005
Kept
Better Alone
Thoughts of hate
Dissipate
And Centered minds rickashay
Like skipping stones across a river state
Drips on the carpet from walls
How long can one stay wet?
With washed out memories and ignored drawls
Yet we still hold on to how we met
Sep 2005
Broken Hearts
So I was wrong, for the first time
And you discovered pain, for the first time
But when you think us through
You know.
It was you who brought it along
I think about you too much of the time
And it pains me not to be around you
What happened was my fault
But it was you who made me cry
Feeling alone and lost out of place
But forever I still see your face
And I fall for your pain again
Inside your heart's embrace
Sep 2005
Living Without
Better to have loved they say
Some cases disagree
The heart can only hold so much pain
And its you that stabs at me
Its you who pulls away my skin
Letting out the monster's grin
Into the bright filled day
Drowning everything in sight
Without you
Why am I the one to blame
I fight you, and again I loose
As you avoid me for fame
A little part inside dies deep
Welcoming a new life for me
Tearing this leach that needs you
So that I'm finally capeable to breathe
Without you
Sep 2005
fuck poetry
fuck this
i cant write
im stupid
love has killed me once too many
so many fights
no more lies
fuck poetry
The morning rise; begins to fall
Though everything seems so wrong
Just a simple girl letting out her cry
Infront of some random guy
And what she knows...
Is she's half past gone
And what she cares...
Is for a heart of gold
In a man
In a man who knows...
How a girl should be loved
So she lets a kiss fall through
Past her mind she folds
For a second, he came in
Pulling on her a wicked sin
It was like another life
Where she wasn't someone's wife
Like she didn't need stability
Just someone by her side
Waiting for a man...
Who saw her eyes
But once she was kissed
She remembered his faithfull love
And it was her man... she missed