~Shar's bio~
Nicknames - Shar
B~day - if you dont know, then i'm not going to tell you
Gender - female
Zodiac - virgo
Chineese zodiac - dragon
Fave color - blue
Fave place to be - Winnipeg/ NYC
Hobbies - working, playing guitar, and writing poetry
Fave quote-"you can close your eyes to reality, but not to memory"-Stainslaw
E-Mail - shar_b_16@hotmail.com
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10 SECOND HEART♠BREAK
"i'll be your number one, with a gun at your temple, with a smile on my face, so i pull the trigger, is it the end?"
we raise our glasses to a girl that would never say thank you, but would always be thankful, broken past is future experience
"I am the way that I am... but you made me this way..." - me because of you
"...walk with me... for oblivion follows close..."
Nov 2006
only you, only pain
no one bites me as hard as you did, thats why i miss you so, you made me hurt, and kissed away my pain, never a tear i shed, always afraid of what may happen, you'd take away the pain, and make sweet laughter... only as sweet as you make it, leave the pain, i feel it now, leave the pain, its all there is, without it i'm hallow, its all i feel, sharing drinks with my memories, and sleeping with nameless faces, only you make me hurt as i do, toy with my emotions, they're yours, play with my head, cause your all i think about, study your every move, stalking you through my dreams, a star struck child running from a life without pain, the pain is all i need...
Nov 2006
why is it that the pain never goes away, its like the knife is stuck in a stone deep inside, is this the way we choose to be, or does it choose us, i didn't realize how a child could grow to not care enough to hold on to some of the good that finally found her... not a child anymore, but still, their memories haunt each and every person involved, cause babe i understand you now, and i know why, it wasn't just me, it was a stream line of different things, i wish we could have talked it out, i wish we could have still remained friends, and now that we're alone, i sit in my room and write stories about how it could've been... not knowing then what i know now, has been the biggest cut, each one just a little bit deeper, each one taking just a little bit more life from hollow eyes, a tragic fable about a girl kidnaped from warm tidings... ponder each day with thoughts unfit to think, is this the day? is this my last day? another poem written from hands soo cold, to express what can only be imagined, living each day wishing for the next one to just be over, it was never said that hurting was wrong, as it was never said that time will stop, thank you for that moment of bliss
Nov 2006
no more hiding, but its hard to get back up again, in the long run, it is my own fault that i let things get this bad, it wasn't as bad when i was super parent, or someone that wasn't afraid to work just a little bit harder to maintain any sort of relationship, and i did, i got up and i started to glow, the bad things just weren't there any more... then i stopped trying so hard thinking that the hard part was over, but the hard part is staying where you are and working towards advancements, so thats what i have to do again, work even harder to dig out of this rotten place that i've found myself, its easier said than done, but i think that i've decided that you all deserve a better friend than that....
to all my friends which of whom i absolutely adore, and have been there through thick and thin, good and bad... i love you all
Nov 2006
ok, you wanted an answer, so here it is, the reason for my negative thought train, is denial, i deny that i have a problem, because i have so much fun being lost in my own head, and i deny myself the happiness that i work towards, never being able to say it to your face and mean it, i do love you, but i'm too afraid to show you, for fear that you'd run in the opposite direction, if i stayed clean and lived to live, would you still promise forever, if i didn't need your guidence anymore would you still stand beside me, and hold my hand, here is where i stay, miserable, and lost, i've tried to change into someone that i don't hate, but i keep digging the hole, and soon i'll be near 6 feet, what will you do then?
Nov 2006
my heads totally numb and my heart has frozen and shattered all in one movment, i sit here alone and look to the future, writing down what comes to mind, is it over, could it be over, it makes me think why won't this torment end, keep reaching high to heavens above, is my heaven your hell, is this just a dream, of nearing future pasts coming true, total demise, no ways out, breaking walls, fallen the angel, to meet mans standards, screaming loudly, find your end
Nov 2006
carried on still not the end of your ties to my heart, won't read the signs clearly, cause alls i see is what my heart swears is true
babe i love you