~Shar's bio~
Nicknames - Shar
B~day - if you dont know, then i'm not going to tell you
Gender - female
Zodiac - virgo
Chineese zodiac - dragon
Fave color - blue
Fave place to be - Winnipeg/ NYC
Hobbies - working, playing guitar, and writing poetry
Fave quote-"you can close your eyes to reality, but not to memory"-Stainslaw
E-Mail - shar_b_16@hotmail.com
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10 SECOND HEART♠BREAK
"i'll be your number one, with a gun at your temple, with a smile on my face, so i pull the trigger, is it the end?"
we raise our glasses to a girl that would never say thank you, but would always be thankful, broken past is future experience
"I am the way that I am... but you made me this way..." - me because of you
"...walk with me... for oblivion follows close..."
May 2007
laugh out fucking loud, shes got you aggravated over what? i don't even know, and i really don't care, again i find myself alone, and the world is my enemy, so i'll play a ghost and be gone...
May 2007
so did i get over it in one fight? is that fair? i sure as hell don't think so, its not even really a fight... shes pissed off about something and i don't even know what i did, so maybe i'll finally learn to listen to my instincts that have been screaming at me the whole time...
May 2007
so i'm over it, all the bad stuff that had me tangled in some sort of gooey string, and shes helped me to understand that i can stop and still be the same person... and i am, i have the experience and the knowledge that i once lacked, i'm stronger now, even in that thinking, why is it that i still think what i'm doing is wrong, it is wrong... no matter what anyone says, i'm kinda sick of hearing about us being a cute couple, cause reality is, i'm hers and not with her, and she'll never really be mine, its like a dreary nightmare that i've gotten caught in, the impossibility of staying with her and being able to "see" her, i made a promise to myself once... i promised that i'd never run into things blind again... and yet here i am, i can't see two feet in front of me and when i look further she is the only one i see, nothing but a mere silhouette, a shadow that i wish to be able to hold and protect, but i never will... my head won't stop screaming red lights at me, every single kiss and touch... shes bliss and hell as once felt before, the confusion is amazing ... and holier than a force of pure white light... i don't think that i can hang on to it very much longer, the feeling dares to abandon... but i shall hang on to the hope that someday she'll be mine... and i will wait for as long as i possibly can... however short a time that might be... only when the hell is too great...
May 2007
even though i'm hopelessly in love, is a fling with some random guy that bad? i don't think so... but my mind lies in a place that i hope my love shall never visit, only a fling i keep trying to convince myself that its not so wrong, am i hurting the angel that i desire soo much, babe i wish you'd only answer me and tell me to stop... the silence after you say do what you want is going to kill me, i need to know weither you really want me or if you're just playing like all the rest...
May 2007
i remember that day, when you turned your back, you still demanded the world on a stick, you gave nothing in return, you kept asking why we could never be together, that one night i gave you to change my mind, you used me for your personal gain, i could never do that again, i suffered with you for two years, its here and now that i understand why i'm not there with you, cause you and he are perfect for each other, willing to do what you must to get what you want, there once was a time when i was there too, but now i've moved on, and i look to my future, and your not in it... so cheers to a new love, shes my angel in dark silk...
May 2007
oh god... i'm almost fucking blonde... needless to say friday which is also payday, i'm going to be a little more than broke.... but this has gotta go...
May 2007
so i caught a case of nerves, i'm madly in love with an angel that i was afraid to get close to, so what do i do, i get close i fall in love, i want to be there, but i'm stupidly still not ready for that again and i think i'm just feeling guilty... she claims that shes not ready either so i hope that we can just stay the way that we are, the way that i'm semi-safe... so far and yet so close...